There was another wordless silence, Jiang Laiyue's face was finally no longer indifferent, she raised her head, but she didn't look at my puzzled eyes, and asked softly: "I don't think I deserve to be happy, are you right?" ”

"You are unhappy only you can decide, there is nothing worthy or unworthy, if you have heard countless truths, or you can't live this life, then go with your will! Stop when you're tired, or never look back, too anxious to have no story, too slow to have no life, what you have now is what you deserve. "My voice was not loud, but the words were clear.

After I said this, Jiang Laiyue did not get any substantial comfort, and a cramped appearance began to appear on her indifferent face, although it was difficult to detect, but it could not escape my gaze.

Jiang Laiyue skimmed her head, her eyelashes were stained with tears, the back of her hand covered her mouth, her slender and slender fingertips trembled slightly in the bright light, and my heart trembled with it.

"Can you stop crying in front of me, do you know how helpless a man is when he sees a woman crying and can't hug him?" Jiang Laiyue's appearance made my heart full of pity, but I didn't dare to take the initiative to hold her, because I don't know when our relationship has become quite sensitive.

"Then you'll die if you hug it, am I so unlikable like this!"

I smiled melancholy, looking at the indifferent and beautiful Jiang Laiyue in front of me, I suddenly felt that she had such a real inferiority complex, I felt for the first time that she had such an inferiority complex, which I had never noticed in her before, I don't know why her inferiority complex is at this moment, she used to be so confident, but now she is ...... I was at a loss, looking helplessly at Jiang Laiyue in front of me!

After being silent for a long time, I said softly to her: "Don't torture yourself with bad emotions, tell me if you have any grievances, after all, it is also my friendship as a landlord, I will help you share it, you said that we drove all the way over, and we were thrown on the side of the road along the way, and the car broke down, and finally came over, how can you say that you will go back?" ”

Jiang Laiyue wanted to speak and stopped, and it happened that at this time, my mother beckoned to us at the gate of the courtyard again, signaling us to hurry home and eat something.

I took Jiang Laiyue's arm and led her forward, and she followed me slowly.

At the dinner table, my mother made very authentic Xi'an dishes, hand-rolled Qishan Zhenzi noodles, Jiang Laiyue and I sat on one side, and my parents sat aside, it stands to reason that they should chat with me and ask me about my recent situation, but the room was silent, and I could see that my parents at this time did not seem to be used to getting along with Jiang Laiyue, but the hospitable mother usually does not do this.

I had already enjoyed eating a few bites of noodles, but Jiang Laiyue held the chopsticks and didn't move.

"Why don't you eat it, hurry up and taste it!" Mom finally spoke, breaking the solemn silence.

"Thank you, Auntie." Jiang Laiyue responded.

I got up and pulled out the seat next to me and said to Jiang Laiyue, "Why don't we follow the example of children, eating and walking while holding a bowl?" ”

Jiang Laiyue looked up at me very restrainedly, shook her head, and then gently put down her chopsticks and said, "Uncle, I'm sorry for my behavior, but now with my strength, I can't compensate, I can only say I'm sorry!" ”

I originally felt that the atmosphere was weird, so I looked at my parents with some confusion and asked, "How did you know Jiang Laiyue?" ”

"Don't mention some things, you can eat something and go to sleep!" Dad got up and went out first.

My mother took off her apron, patted me on the shoulder, motioned me to eat slowly, and walked out.

The light fell on the table through the dusty glass, and there were circles of light, but these circles of light could not illuminate the dim room, Jiang Laiyue bit her lip tightly, her eyes were like flowers that had been erased from her beauty, and finally fell on me, my heart beat a little faster, but my body was a little stiff.

From the moment my mother met Jiang Laiyue, I knew that the atmosphere was wrong, and now it seems that something did happen between them that I didn't know.

I looked at Jiang Laiyue and said sincerely: "Is there something, can you tell me about it?" ”

Jiang Laiyue put down her chopsticks and sighed: "Maybe you don't know what happened between us, it's me who is sorry for your father and his friend, and now my uncle and aunt have such an attitude towards me, I am already very grateful." ”

I also lost the desire to eat, put down my chopsticks, and followed Jiang Laiyue out of the low hut, and then continued to walk on the path at the entrance of the village, I was waiting for her to speak to me.

As time went by, the sun had run out of heat, I sat on the stones at the foot of the mountain, the wind cut my face like a knife, the winter on the Loess Plateau was depressed, and I couldn't see any interesting scenery in the open view of this distant mountain, but I still felt that there was something else here!

I didn't feel dirty, I leaned directly against a dead tree, looking up at the sky in the light wind and dust, and occasionally a few birds that did not migrate south, outlining the sky and the dark red sunset more flavorfully.

Lighting a cigarette, I took out my mobile phone from my pocket, looked through the lens very seriously, selected the most beautiful picture, and took a few pictures that I was more satisfied with, I didn't want to share it alone, and sent the photo to a group of friends through WeChat, including Li Shi.

I didn't expect her to reply, but I expected her to be in a foreign country and see such a photo, and she would be in the same mood and joy as me!

Jiang Laiyue, who was beside him, took out the mobile phone that received the message, looked at the picture, looked at me again, sighed and said: "Yu Hang, I envy you, you can always live so poetically." ”

"Actually, I've struggled painfully for a long time, but I don't want to show it, recently my sister is just in good health, although the hostel can't talk about income, but at least the loss has been reversed, but I'm still living recently is not as chic as I expected, because sometimes, you don't know how you can live happily in the end, let alone any poetry, some distant places we can't reach at all, because there is no ......"

"In the past, I was too headstrong, and I didn't have any friends after I fell down, so sometimes I would pester you because I really had no one to rely on, but today, I don't feel worthy of being your friend."

Jiang Laiyue's words made me feel inexplicably sad, beyond my previous expectations, in her eyes, she is not qualified to be my friend, it stands to reason that her current strength can still live very well, and I am just a layman who struggles and works hard in the world, if it was placed in the past, we did not have the material basis to become friends at all, but ours did become friends, I smiled calmly, and said: "Actually, I climbed you, if it was put in the past, we were indeed not friends, but ours did become good friends, Now you can sit here and talk to your heart, so you can confide in me if you have anything. ”

After I took the opportunity to help her sort things out, Jiang Laiyue looked at me thoughtfully and said, "If you knew what happened between me and your father, would you still say that?" ”