The car shuttled quickly on the highway, when I arrived at the service station, the sky was already slightly bright, and I happened to meet a bus passenger getting off the bus for breakfast, I got off the bus, looking at the crowded crowd around me, a little dizzy in the eyes of all colors, and the world was in a trance again.

Amid the cries of the cart vendors, I bought a few rice dumplings and some steamed buns, and two cups of porridge before returning to the car.

The suitable temperature in the car made Jiang Laiyue sleep soundly, but the small space made her sleep extremely awkward, I looked at her while eating steamed buns, the food in my mouth was full of food, but what I saw in my eyes was the woman who had gone through thousands of sails and still supported her life, and the wonderful parts of life were the ones that could not be said. It's like you see a different world, but others don't understand it, so you can't say it; You have suffered the greatest pain, and you believe that a brilliant flower will bloom, but you are still a rhizome, and you cannot say; There are melodies flying in your head all the time, and there are chapters engraved and jumping, but you can't connect the chapters, others won't understand them, and you won't have the opportunity to say them.

Recalling the days when I used to stubbornly support the hostel with my own strength, it was a little ridiculous, but it was a self-test in the unreasonable trouble, I told myself: there is a world in my heart, this is lucky, but the body is still the body of an ordinary person, this is sad. When the world is squeezed into a ball by reality, most of the pain is generated, and there is nowhere to vent, which is also what we must bear, endure it, and go on; Can't stand it, break up, there is no third way to go. The richer the inner world, the more you scratch your ears and cheeks in real life, and there is no name.

This reminds me of Lin Ke, who is still insisting on making music, he is always silent, but he has never given up his demanding requirements for music, and now that the bar business is gradually improving, he still has not given up insisting on being original, let alone taking the opportunity to make money......

Sometimes what we encounter in life, those that are manifested on the face, are only one thousandth, and we admire their prominence in front of others, but we don't know that it is just the blood that the world stirs in our hearts, and the blush that appears on the face. We always think that the blush is literature and art, but in fact, the blood in it is literature and art, but we can't see it, and we won't believe it when we see it, that blood is the source of beauty in the world......

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After resting for half an hour, I drove the car and continued to drive at a high speed on the highway, the scenery outside the window didn't even have time to take a look, it was fleeting, at this time Jiang Laiyue had woken up, looking out of the window a little blankly, her expression was a little solemn, but I didn't know what she was thinking at the moment.

"You have something to eat, and then you can sleep for a while, and when you wake up, it's time to arrive."

Jiang Laiyue looked at me, shook his head again, signaled that he didn't want to sleep, and he didn't eat.

"Why do you look preoccupied?" I asked with concern.

"Is there one?" Jiang Laiyue's answer was very absent-minded.

I pouted and said, "Of course, your thoughts are already written on your face." ”

Jiang Laiyue smiled, signaled that I was fine, and after eating something hurriedly, she motioned for me to stop and change her to drive, although she always had a smile on her face, but I could see that this smile was just her forced smile.

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After six hours of driving, we finally arrived in Tongwei when we were about to arrive at one o'clock, went to the restaurant for a meal, Jiang Laiyue and I found a supermarket, bought some gifts, and then hurried again.

At around 3 p.m., the mobile phone navigation reminded us to reach our destination, and due to the muddy road, the car could only be parked on the side of the road at the entrance of the village.

The winter afternoon is the most noisy time of the day, I walk side by side with Jiang Laiyue on the path, there are constantly people in the crowd who cast envious eyes on me, Jiang Laiyue's temperament and beauty, in the relatively backward small towns are still rare, but my heart is full of melancholy, my melancholy in addition to because of Jiang Laiyue's situation, depressed to come to the countryside with me for the New Year, and their own love, if this time brought back Li Shi, how good it would be!

At this time, my parents had already led Xiaobao and Mengmeng to our side, Jiang Laiyue deeply exhaled the nervous breath accumulated in her heart, and after parking the car, she said to me beside me: "Get out of the car?" ”

"Hmm." I answered.

I looked at her, and saw that her expression was very unnatural, which was obviously caused by nervousness, and I felt inexplicable in my heart, with Jiang Laiyue's character, she would be so nervous because she was about to see my family, which showed that she cared very much about the feedback of her new family.

Jiang Laiyue closed her eyes, patted her chest, eased her nervousness again, and then lifted the item and said, "I Jiang Laiyue haven't seen anything, go!" ”

My mother greeted me first and looked at me with a slightly surprised expression, even though I had called her before and said that I would bring a girl back for the New Year.

Fortunately, she was only slightly stunned, then quickly took Jiang Laiyue's handbag, greeted me for a while, and then took Jiang Laiyue's hand and walked towards the village.

The two children shared the snacks they took from Jiang Laiyue, but because they met for the first time, they seemed very restrained, and they didn't follow her, but just ran around me.

After being intimate with me for a while, Mengmeng took the snacks and ran to share them with the children in the same village, as if she had adapted to life here.

Jiang Laiyue looked back at me awkwardly, then at my father who passed by, and then showed an expression that I couldn't guess, and followed my mother forward.

Without too much pleasantry, my dad patted me on the shoulder and took a bag from my hand.

My dad and I walked behind very tacitly, he habitually made a gesture of holding a cigarette, I quickly took out one, took out a lighter and lit it for him first, and then sent a cigarette to my mouth, and then lifted the bag and continued to walk forward.

The topic between father and son is always imprisoned, at most it is nothing more than feelings and careers, my father's voice was a little low, and he was silent for a long time before saying: "I went to England to find Li Shi and found nothing, right?" ”

I pretended to be relaxed and said: "How can it be nothing, I gave you the courier last time, and some small items in my hand now, aren't they all prepared by her for you, how can so many gifts be called empty-handed." ”

Dad stopped and looked at me, obviously not in the mood to play such a joke with me, sighed and shook his head, and continued on his way.

Saying goodbye to Li Shi in England has always been a scene in my recent dreams, and my heart instantly fell to the bottom, and the feeling is indescribable.

"You brought that girl back for the New Year?"

"Yes."

"The last time you called your mother, was she the girl you were talking about?"

"She has nowhere to go for the New Year, she is very lonely, so I invited her to come to Gansu with her, and everyone is also lively together."

"Isn't she the president of the hotel across the street from your hostel? At the end of the year, there are so many businesses in the group, can you go away, and still come here for the New Year? ”

"Her group was disintegrated by her father, and a girl's family has nowhere to go, isn't it very lively to celebrate the New Year with us!"

"You have been in such a half-baked relationship with anyone in the past few years, your feelings are always so ambiguous, I'm afraid that you will get nothing and end up injured, and now all aspects are getting better, and you should hurry up to talk about a girlfriend after the year, and strive to settle the marriage, you know!"

"In the past few years, I have been busy and have no time to take care of my feelings, and my family has just improved, how can my girlfriend say that she will find it, and this thing is not in a hurry, it is still a random fate!"

"What should I do if I can't wait for the opportunity, what kind of life do you believe in at a young age!"

Dad's words made me feel extremely powerless, in front of him, no matter how much I defended, it seemed so untenable, marriage in their eyes is already a matter of urgency in the near future, but how can I find a marriage partner in a short time?

Seeing that I didn't speak, my father said again: "That's it, I'll give you a little time to think, and give us a decent answer before leaving after the New Year, and it's best to confirm your plans!" ”

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When my father and I swayed to the vicinity of Xiaobao's house, Jiang Laiyue seemed to be standing at the head of the village waiting for me, several bear children with mud on their faces were shooting around Jiang Laiyue with water guns, she had always been grumpy, but at this moment she seemed to be angry, covering her back with her arms, and she didn't care that she was wearing tens of thousands of yuan of brand-name clothes.

I immediately scolded the bear child away, then took out a tissue and handed it to her: "How can you let the bear child beat you, you were bullied when you first came, and this is okay?" ”

At this moment, Jiang Laiyue exhaled heavily, seemed to be very nervous, and after looking at me and my father, she still said with a smile: "It's nothing, the child is playing with me!" ”

As soon as Jiang Laiyue's words fell, his father reminded: "Your mother has prepared a meal for you, don't stand here and consume it, go back to eat some food, and rest for a while." ”

I was about to walk forward, but Jiang Laiyue held my hand tightly, stood in place and pulled me, and then pouted, this is a silent expression, at this moment she may be controlled by some kind of emotion.

"Why don't you leave?"

Jiang Laiyue looked at me, still silent, but seemed to have something to say.

"Yu Hang, there is still something going on in Xi'an, I plan to go back first."

I looked puzzled, my father seemed to have been brewing emotions for a long time, and then said slowly: "I'm leaving, I have to pay attention to safety on the road!" ”

Jiang Laiyue nodded, which was a response, and the atmosphere fell into embarrassment again, my eyes changed on Jiang Laiyue and my father, I don't know why this tense situation came about.

After walking silently for a while, Jiang Laiyue beside me looked at me with a smile, then looked at my father and said, "It seems that I really came here this time, sorry for the trouble, I won't trouble you again, I'll leave immediately!" ”

I looked at her puzzled, but the cigarette butt in my hand had burned to the end, burned my hand, and after hurriedly throwing it away, I looked at my father with a blank eye, I wanted to figure out what was wrong?

Dad took another box in my hand and walked to the yard first, the world seemed to be only me and Jiang Laiyue again, I didn't understand: "Just came, this is good, how can you say that you can go back?" ”