Li Shi changed his posture, leaned over the railing like me, looked very calm, and after thinking about it for a while, he replied with a very serious face: "What does it mean to do things according to conscience, haven't you always advocated egoism?" ”

"So you're now tossing me in a different way and letting me reap the consequences......"

Li Shi held her chin with one hand, with a contemplative expression, and suddenly said for a while: "So even if it is tossed for you?" I originally only felt that I was doing what I was doing, I was doing what was within my principles, but I was also doing what was reasonable, this world is not a place for intrigue, we can choose to live in a better way, but you don't see it. ”

I didn't want to argue with her about this anymore, and for the first time I realized that ten or twenty minutes was so difficult, I suddenly had the idea that I wanted to take advantage of this gap in waiting to see the hostel, at least in the face of such a familiar place, I would not find it boring.

Walking alone to the hostel, I looked at the lanterns I hung with my own hands, the wind chimes that sounded slightly in the wind, and the bright and romantic light bulbs...... Everything is so familiar, it's the hostel I remember, and it's not my hostel anymore.

I took out a cup from the sideboard where the cup was placed, poured a glass of warm water, drank it all, put down the cup, looked out through the door, and then excitedly waited for the students who were also attracted by the culture of Xi'an Youth Hostel.

Li Shi, who walked to my side, didn't disturb me, turned around and took a glass of water for herself and sat down on the table next to me, as if she was thinking about something, or it didn't matter what she was thinking, the important thing was that she looked like a store manager......

Li Shi didn't seem to be willing to pay attention to me, she has been very calm, so she changed the law to toss me, and it was only my own imagination in anger, she really didn't do anything particularly out of the ordinary, everything changed quietly in my willingness, until I woke up from a big dream, I didn't know that everything had changed.

……

After waiting in silence for about 20 minutes, a bus stopped in front of the hostel, and then a group of fashionably dressed young people got out of the bus and packed their belongings among themselves.

At this time, a handsome guy with black-framed glasses immediately recognized me, stepped forward and said: "Hello Brother Yu Hang, I can recognize you, I watched the video you uploaded, and appeared in the behind-the-scenes footage, the girls in our class all said that you have long legs, hardness, tall and handsome!" ”

"The girls in your class have really poisonous eyes, and they can tell me that I am not rich at a glance!"

After the young man was amused by me, he then shifted his gaze to Li Shi, his face suddenly turned crimson, and said, "Girl, you contacted me before!" ”

"Yes."

"Sister Beauty, we have all browsed the video in the room, can you recommend and assign it to us again?"

Li Shi nodded, and got to the point: "Class leader, you said before that there are 17 boys and 16 girls in your class, I arranged it for you, six boys in a room, four girls in a room, a total of seven rooms, this combination is relatively economical, what do you think?" ”

The guy thought for a moment and said: "Nacheng, I will organize the classmates to go with you to see the room, no problem, we will organize the check-in, and I will register and settle the bill with you later." ”

Li Shi nodded, crouched down to open the safe, took out a bunch of keys from it, and then motioned for the students to follow him up the stairs to the second floor.

After a large group of people left, I was the only one left in the hall, and the most common thing the students said was to ask me to help take care of the luggage......

This is probably the most emotionally unspeakable night I've ever experienced, after calling my parents, I sat in the yard silent, at this moment, I suddenly felt that I had seen an old acquaintance I hadn't seen for a long time, as if there was another restless voice, screaming hysterically in my heart, like in the hottest summer, expecting a sudden downpour, I didn't bring an umbrella, the rainstorm came suddenly, I ran up screaming with joy, the rain wet me, the stagnant water splashed my shoes, and my pants stuck a few bits of mud sporadically. I ran as fast as I could, and finally found an eaves to dodge, and I lifted the bangs that were attached to my forehead, and suddenly I saw that the eyes in the glass mirror were so bright and the world, and I laughed happily......

Finally, I knew that I was not lacking a stable life, but freedom......

……

After a while, everyone began to come down to carry their luggage, and I looked at the younger students who were several years younger than me with a smile on my face, they had no pressure of life at the moment, they were fresh and angry, and they were full of spirit, unlike my world, which was as old as an old wall clock, running too methodically, and responding to new people and new things like a numb bystander.

The others were tidying up in the room, and after the squad leader finished registering, he walked up to me and said, "Brother Yu Hang, do you know?" We've never met, but I think I've known you for a long time. ”

"You kid, don't use the trick of hooking up with girls to deal with me, be careful that I kick you."

"I'm not bragging, really, it seems that when you play the guitar in the tidbits, I've been struggling, should I become a master like you, or should I fully learn to become a master?"

The squad leader's words silenced me, and after thinking about it repeatedly, I said responsibly: "I think that the difference between a master and a master is not in technique, but in expression. Music is essentially a kind of individualized expression, and successful expression requires a variety of accumulations beyond the technical level, which is closely related to the life experience of the performer himself. But the trajectory of a person's life should be unpredictable, some people's life experiences are full of drama and touching, while others have a dull life. When performers with very different life experiences express themselves through music, the effect is naturally different. ”

"I seem to understand what you're saying."

I finally put my arm on the squad leader's shoulder and smiled, and then said: "To put it simply, excellent skills can make a master, but the birth of a master requires not only superb skills, but also a specific life accumulation, especially the latter is accidental and uncontrollable, so masters become scarce and rare." ”

After a long time, the squad leader, who had been silent, finally took over my words, and he couldn't tell whether he was serious, or jokingly said: "Masters are scarce, but masters are not scarce, I think you are drama and stories, big brother." ”

As soon as the squad leader said this, the chic gesture I deliberately made just now suddenly fell apart, and I didn't know how to respond to his words for a while.

In my tiredness, I raised my head and wiped my face, went through all the fragments of the past in my mind, recalled the past, and pulled out the emptiness and depression of the present.

……

The squad leader told me that he had been playing the guitar for six years, and especially hoped that I could give him some guidance, which made me feel weak and quickly shirked myself, after all, I am not Lin Ke who has studied music professionally, if he is here, he can give the squad leader some guidance.

You pushed me and argued for a while, and I finally couldn't resist the persuasion and nodded in agreement, while the squad leader excitedly went back to the room to get the guitar.

After running around, Li Shi was finally able to rest for a while, and I said leisurely: "Do you feel particularly tired and regretful?" ”

"It's fine!"

Li Shi's absent-minded answer made me unable to answer her words, but continued to wait for the squad leader in silence.

After a while, the squad leader walked downstairs quickly, and said with some embarrassment: "Brother Yu Hang, my classmates have advised me not to play, saying that I want to rest after a tired day, so I can only communicate with you during the day." ”

I waved my hand to show that it was okay, found Lin Ke's number from the phone book of my mobile phone, handed it to him, and said, "Write down this number, you can consult him if you have any questions, he is very good at musical instruments and music theory." ”

The squad leader nodded excitedly, and then went upstairs, and I finally stood up tired and said to Li Shi: "It's time to meet and finish, I should go back and rest." ”

"You can make an exception to stay here tonight."

"No, see it, the hotel opposite has already hired me as the manager, I don't need to sleep with you."

Li Shi was silent for a while before saying to me, "Then you hurry up, I'm going to close the store and rest." ”

When I was about to leave the hostel, I suddenly remembered the blackboard in the corner, and I couldn't help but walk over and write on the blackboard: "Thank you for coming to Xi'an to play in the good season of June, you can walk with time, enjoy the tranquility in your heart for a long time, you can pretend to be in the courtyard, and have the most intimate contact with the sun; You can even open your arms and breathe in the most ancient flavors from the depths of your soul, and after being away from the hustle and bustle of the city, you are left alone in the monologue, and life can go on like this......"

Finally, after I walked a few steps, the street lights of the hostel were all extinguished, and my emotions gradually calmed down in the darkness, and then I ran wildly and sang Xu Wei's "Blue Lotus" under the violent gasp.

I don't bother to care about the rights and wrongs in life anymore, but in silence and resignation, I care more about the so-called freedom!

……

The next morning, I washed up from the guest room dedicated to the staff, this is my first day of work, and the employees in the work group are quite full of spirits, as if the news of my appointment has been spread, just waiting for Jiang Laiyue to announce it in front of everyone this morning.

Passing through the hall and preparing to go to the backyard to have a look, at this time, Jiang Laiyue, who has rarely shown up, suddenly appeared, which immediately stunned me who was unprepared, but in an instant I returned to normal, put away my lazy waist and smiled and said to her: "Good morning, Mr. Jiang, come so early!" ”

"Don't you know I'm staying in a hotel at night?"

I thought to myself and responded, "I see! ”

"You see you're disheveled, you woke up early, didn't you go out last night?"

I nodded and smiled, straightened my tie, smoothed my suit, and said, "I think I'm pretty neatly dressed!" ”

Jiang Laiyue approached me with a smile and said, "Really? ”

When Jiang Laiyue approached me, I suddenly became a little speechless, and I couldn't say anything awkward, and then stared at her for a long time, not knowing what to say.

"You haven't answered me yet, what did you do last night?"

Jiang Laiyue's words made me stunned, I found that she was a little wilted, she seemed to know something, but she didn't say anything, now she just wants to force me to admit it in a different way......