I continued to observe, Li Shi used the company's work machine, the card or my ID card, this is obviously a business phone, she frowned slightly, and then looked at me, I responded to her with a calm smile, and then pretended to ignore the green plants on the side.

At this time, there is basically no need to doubt it, the information revealed in Li Shi's expression is already obvious, and the content of this call must be related to me.

I only heard "Okay, that's it!" Li Shi hung up the phone, I'm sure she may have reached some kind of consensus with the other party at this time, otherwise she would not have the confidence to say this.

Ended the call, Li Shi threw the phone on the table, wiped her hands heavily from her face, and then let out a long breath, just now her conversation with the other party, although it was brief, but it had revealed a lot of hidden information, I knew that she was going to speak, and hurriedly said: "That Lin Ke, I'm a little tired today, go to sleep first!" ”

Li Shi cleared her throat and looked at me, but did not speak.

I put down the cup in my hand, gently extended my breathing, and said to her, "If your throat is uncomfortable, go back and take some medicine!" ”

Li Shi poured herself a glass of beer again, drank it all, and said to me with deep emotion: "Aren't you sleepy, why are you still talking nonsense?" ”

I suddenly couldn't figure it out in my heart, could it be that I made a mistake in judgment?

"I'm not sleepy, and I don't want to sleep anymore."

"Since you're not sleepy, let me ask you, did you launch a campaign on social networks called "Looking for the Memories of Xi'an" before? ”

As soon as Li Shigang reminded me, I immediately remembered that more than two months ago when I was just in spring, I did plan such a video with Jing Qi, because my appearance was not attractive, so I asked Jing Qi to help record the video, and then posted it on social networks, at that time, I was looking forward to this video to cause some sensation, but it backfired, and there was no movement for a long time.

"yes, I recorded a video."

"A college student just contacted me and said that they were traveling in a group before graduation and passed through Xi'an, and wanted to come here to see it and stay for three days."

"How many people are there?"

"Thirty-three!"

"I planted trees for you to enjoy the shade, why did this good thing fall on your head?"

"These people are attracted by your video, saying that they are here to come by charter at about half past nine in the evening, do you want to meet them?"

Even if Li Shi didn't ask for my opinion, I really wanted to see this group of students, because subconsciously I had been like them, during my graduation trip, I met the "Youtu" youth hostel, and then fell in love with this place, and I think in this situation, we can resonate. But it is very inconvenient for me to participate in such an event now, after all, I have already joined "Laiyue".

I was silent, and then I imagined myself as a bystander, trying to figure out how to resolve the course of events before me, but I had no clue.

Because everything is different from the past, things have developed to this point, I have no way back at all, and the road ahead can be blocked by some wrong decisions at any time.

At this time, Li Shi has the right to speak in the hostel, if she doesn't want to operate, she may transfer it at any time, I am at a loss, what to do to hope that the hostel can get out of control......

After a short while, I finished drinking the beer in my cup, looked at the time, it was almost nine o'clock, took out a hundred-yuan bill from my wallet, and deliberately said in order to prevent Lin Ke from refusing: "I will continue to drink the rest of the money tomorrow night, so I won't look for it first." ”

Lin Ke walked up to me, took a cigarette from the cigarette case and threw it into his mouth, took a sharp breath, and said to me after exhaling it with great enjoyment: "People can go, the cigarette is left, and I have to go to the radio broadcast." ”

After some weighing, I finally said to Li Shi: "If you want to go, hurry up and go, while I'm not drunk!" ”

……

On the way, I drove the car, Li Shi sat next to me, she picked up her mobile phone, asked me for the ID of the live broadcast room of Lin Ke Radio, and then put the mobile phone on the center console and listened quietly.

After a period of light music, Lin Ke spoke again: "It's still a radio station with only double-digit listeners, I am familiar with the nicknames of each of you, you are at the end of the world, I am at the cape, far apart, but I greet you every day, that day, only on the Internet." In life, the people who used to tell me about the long future are now no longer intersecting unless they meet by chance. When they met, they were speechless, but they were no longer yesterday's closest lovers, so a good time had passed, and the past was buried cleanly. The goodbye of the person who was once in my heart is a stranger, and the person who has tried so hard to stay may have already taken someone else's hand. What would you do if you once loved someone deeply and held on to an obsession for her, but now she turns around and tells you in a contemptuous tone that everything is a fool's act, and even the walls built together have to be torn down by herself to relieve the hatred, in order to show a break? ”

Li Shi wanted to type and speak, but found that she hadn't registered, and while she was busy registering, she said without raising her head: "Why do I think Lin Ke is talking weird tonight?" ”

One of his "old friends" came over tonight, maybe he did something to make him sad! Didn't you notice that all the CDs in the guitar case at the door were gone? ”

"It seems like it's really empty......"

"They were all bought and thrown into the garbage pool."

Li Shi was silent with a shocked and resentful expression, and this expression of surprise only appeared when I tore up the letter of appointment signed by Lao Gou in front of her.

During our conversation, Li Shi had already registered an account and started typing on the public screen.

"What did you write?"

"Over time, I learned to stop in moderation, no longer love people very full, no longer throw away all my heart."

"I didn't expect your feelings to be so profound, and it's really a philosophy of life!"

Li Shi glared at me, and before she could answer me, Lin Ke continued: "What this netizen said is very reasonable, we are all using the most clumsy means to protect ourselves, resisting others outside our own world, afraid of losing and being hurt, and afraid that our minds will eventually become empty. But before you try to choose to give up, before you try your best to let go, the rest of your life is a long way, what will we be like in the future? When I was young, I envied people who had slick accidents, and I always felt that they were comfortable in life, knew how to retreat, knew how to let go, and ran life elegantly. But when I grew up, I was a little envious of those teenagers, and their reckless behavior inevitably led to bumps and bumps, but it made life full of excitement. It's not that I won't like it, but I'm afraid that it's going to be an empty joy again......"

Li Shi quickly tapped the screen and whispered: "You can choose a better life, why not take another step ahead?" ”

Lin Ke smiled miserably, and then there was the sound of lighting a cigarette, he coughed lightly, and said a little choked: "Once upon a time, the future I can imagine is with her, and all my efforts and dedication are also because I think we can live better in the future, but if there is no her I love in the future to share the touching and joy of life with me, I don't understand why I want to stay in a place without her and fight alone." Even so, no matter how many medals and achievements she gets, she lacks her blessings and encouragement. What if you lose and win the whole world; Losing you, winning everything but being so lonely. ”

I reminded Li Shidao: "You ask him, since he once loved that woman, since he didn't want to stay in a place without her, why did he choose to give up so many great prospects and not let himself live." ”

Li Shi nodded, and after sending the text out, after waiting for a long time, Lin Ke said with a little excitement: "This netizen, why do you ask me why I am so stupid and give up my good future?" Because you don't know, she's my future! And the place I stick to is the life she once longed for the most! ”

After a moment of silence, Lin Ke's choking sound was heard on the mobile phone, Li Shi quickly exited the live broadcast room, and cried out, she sobbed, I gasped, wheezing because I really felt the pain and unwillingness in Lin Ke's heart, he was really too difficult!

I think Li Shi's crying is in the same mood as me, except that women can cry freely when their mood swings are greater, while men prefer to digest calmly, and those who can't digest it hold on to it until these emotions are digested......

We may unfortunately be hurt, for the sake of the family, for the sake of the children, for the continuation of life, and even to manage a second marriage, but since life has forcibly given you this necessary way, why should you condemn yourself with this? If it is suitable, it can be called love, and if it is not suitable, it can only be called family affection, we can't use whether it is appropriate to do the reason for abusive love, but we can't give up the right to live comfortably, don't use the pot of warm water to "live together", and you can "live better" this frog by boiling to death......

The end of the road is still the road, as long as you are willing to walk......

……

Before driving to the hostel, the student representative called Li Shi again, informing us that there was a traffic jam on the road and that we might not be able to arrive until 9:50, which means that there were nearly 25 minutes before the students arrived.

Li Shi opened the door of the hostel, then opened the neon sign that said "OPEN" and called me in.

"Lonely man and widow, who is responsible for what happened to me!"

This humble sentence is not the emotion I really want to express, but the real feeling is: whenever I get close to the hostel, I always have a strange feeling that this is no longer the hostel I am familiar with......

I didn't care about Li Shi's emotions, I walked to the bridge and looked at the flowing water under the light and shadow, because the smoke was left for Lin Ke, so I could only play with the lighter in my hand to relieve my boredom, trying to relax myself, so that the tired soul could be silent for a moment in this world of darkness and light and shadow.

A few minutes later, Li Shi walked over, turned and leaned against the guardrail of the stone bridge.

I stared at her and said, "This mobile phone card was registered by me with my ID card for work, please don't put it in your pocket?" Hurry up and hand it over, or I'll take my ID card tomorrow to cancel it. ”

Li Shi just smiled, and then pinned the wind-blown messy hair behind her ears, and said after a long time: "I am reluctant to use this working machine in the store, but for business needs, I always bring two mobile phones when I go out, and if you want to log out, go and log out!" Actually, I received this group of guests because I promised you to run the hostel for two months, otherwise it would be about 4,500 yuan for a bed for 45 yuan for 33 people for three days, which really doesn't matter to me. ”

The more I thought about the events of these days, the more angry I felt in my heart, so I asked with emotion: "You have gone to great lengths to do such an inconsequential thing, is your conscience really not guilty?" Do you know how devastating it is to watch the "ideal" you run by yourself fall in this prosperous city like this, even though it is so inconspicuous......"