This night, I, Lin Ke, Jiang Laiyue and Shen Lin all drank some wine, but no one was drunk, I don't know if it was the cold wind that made us refreshed, or we didn't want to get drunk, maybe we both knew that once the wine woke up, we had to face the painful reality, this gap was too uncomfortable, so we gave up the idea of buying drunk.

During the meal, I always thought that Lin Ke would pick up the guitar and yell a few times on a whim, but he didn't, maybe he had found a way to vent other than singing.

I still remember that when I had dinner with Shen Lin in the past, she always liked the madness of giggling, and from time to time a few words of crazy rap, although we were embarrassed and buried our heads, but we all smiled and sighed that youth was invincible, and now she has lost a lot of things as she grows older, I look at her from time to time with the corner of my eye, she seems to be very quiet from beginning to end, but I see the hardships of life in this quiet, this hardship has nothing to do with material, it is her mentality, has been gradually erased by life with the color of youth and fearlessness.

Shen Lin looked at the smoke from the barbecue stall, his face was a little dazed, and he whispered to me for a long time: "Yu Hang, apart from the hostel, is there anything else you want to do?" ”

"Not at the moment."

"I want to go back to college and finish something that wasn't done."

I didn't ask any further, and I vaguely understood why she said this, but I couldn't be sure.

In my silence, Shen Lin rarely took the initiative to say to me: "Forget it, don't talk about this heavy topic, I'll go and sing a song to everyone again, and then I have to go back." ”

After speaking, Shen Lin held the guitar and sang on the makeshift small stage, Lin Ke and Jiang Laiyue chose a better position to listen to the song, sitting in a corner, Lin Ke played with the lighter in his hand, and Jiang Laiyue looked at the old house opposite with a little sloppy eyes, saying that he was listening to the song, but they all had their own thoughts in the singing.

I approached them, patted Linko on the shoulder, motioned for him to make way for me, and sat down beside him.

Lin Ke threw me a cigarette and asked with concern: "I think this girl's mood is not quite right, it will definitely not work in the long run, since you are classmates, you should find a way to help him." ”

Jiang Laiyue came back to her senses and looked at me eagerly.

I lit the cigarette, took a heavy puff and said, "I haven't thought of any way yet...... I'll keep figuring it out, though. ”

Lin Ke patted me on the shoulder and motioned for me not to put too much pressure on myself.

……

The night is getting deeper, Shen Lin left before us, she carried the guitar, still waved to us freely, and then walked to the end of the alley, in my memory, she has been saying goodbye to me in this posture, she is basically the appearance of summer, wearing a ball head, wearing a white T-shirt and pencil pants that show off her figure, always wearing Converse canvas shoes, I used to say that she doesn't rock 'n' roll, now I think about it, this dress is diametrically opposed to her temper, It made me see a rare ladylike temperament in her.

Jiang Laiyue watched Shen Lin leave with me, without saying a word, sitting down beside me in a rather pretentious posture, and learning to support my chin with both hands.

Our surroundings grew quieter and quieter, as if we were isolated from the great city by night, and a night breeze blew through it, bringing peace that I had never felt before, and I finally realized that the purpose of Lin Ke had brought me here was to find peace without fear.

"Alright, it's time to go back!"

Lin Ke stood up and reminded me, rushing to settle the bill before me, I raised my hand and looked at my watch, it was almost eleven o'clock at night, it was time to go back.

Separately, Lin Ke rode his motorcycle and quickly disappeared at the end of the alley, while I still pedaled the bicycle sadly, sighing at the magic of mechanical vehicles.

On the way, Jiang Laiyue didn't fall asleep again, and asked me while snapping her fingers: "Yu Hang, which singer do you like?" ”

"I used to love listening to Xu Song's songs, but now it's Li Zhi."

"I don't listen to this singer very often."

"In the past, you grew up with a golden key, of course you won't listen to it, Li Zhi's song sings about all the loneliness in the city. There are very few shouts, at most they are joking, like talking to themselves, singing many cities, Nanjing, Zhengzhou, Chengdu, and many streets. People who live in temples may not love Li Zhi, and people who are far away from the rivers and lakes will not love Li Zhi, only people who are floating on the road know that it is a song sung to countless themselves. ”

Jiang Laiyue didn't seem to mind me commenting on her like this, and sighed for a long time: "No one is born to look at the world with worldly eyes, we are all determined by the acquired environment, and we can't help living, if I have to choose, why don't I want to let myself live a more ordinary life, no famous brands, no high-end cosmetics, even if I am bothered by luxury goods every day, but at least there are thoughts, and it is much better to have some pursuits than to get easily." ”

"Your thoughts are still from the perspective of a CEO to sigh life, it is precisely because you have a lot of extraordinary insights, once in the business field to scold Fang Xuan, so you will feel ordinary and precious, this is like you live well in the pond, the loach is ugly but can say festive words, the toad is very sloppy but very interesting, the snail is a gentle autism, and the little crucian carp is your common goddess. One day you heard that rivers, lakes and seas should be bigger and better. You jumped out and met beautiful dolphins, majestic beluga whales, graceful tropical fish, all good indeed. It's just occasionally, I feel that the world is very empty and life is very salty......"

After returning to the hostel, Jiang Laiyue asked me to borrow a laptop, and then sat in the yard busy, I was afraid that she would catch a cold, so I took a blanket and came to Jiang Laiyue's side, at this time, she was holding the screen to the darkest mobile phone, looking at it with the faintest light, and her hair covered the corners of her eyes because of her head down, which made her look a little hazy.

I draped the blanket over her shoulders and sighed, "Don't you sit here and look up information, are you letting the tourists who stay in the hotel look at the desperate Saburo, and then lie on the bed to reflect?" ”

Jiang Laiyue didn't look up, and replied quickly: "The temperature here is cold, which can keep me awake at all times and keep my mind smooth." ”

I sat down next to her and sighed, "I remember that you didn't seem to be so hard-working before, but now you want to start a big business from scratch?" ”

Jiang Laiyue raised her head and pinned her low-hanging hair behind her ears, then looked at me and said complainingly: "Nonsense, didn't I work hard enough before?" ”

In the intentional or unintentional temptation, I found that Jiang Laiyue seemed to be able to calmly face the past failures, and it was also reassuring, so I joked: "Do you know why you are still single and no one pursues you?" ”

"Why?"

I smiled and said nothing.

Jiang Laiyue frowned and asked, "What are you laughing at?" ”

I waved my hand and said, "I'm not laughing casually, I just think of the first time we met, your imposing appearance, I'm afraid that you are like this to every man, and everyone is scared to think of you as a cold female president!" ”

Jiang Laiyue was stunned, and then scolded me unreasonably: "You crow's mouth, why don't you die, if I can't get married, I'll rely on you, you crow's mouth!" ”

After being scolded by her, I was speechless for a long time, then went into the house and made her a cup of hot honey lemonade, and said, "You drink some water to moisten your throat before scolding." ”

Jiang Laiyue took the cup from my hand and asked, "You have soaked a lot of little girls with this water, right?" ”

"How do you speak, this is a giveaway in the store, every customer can get it for free, how did I end up with this hat?"

"Then I won't drink it."

I was very surprised by Jiang Laiyue's refusal, and even a little inexplicable, I couldn't speak for a long time, but my heart was full of loss after being rejected, and I calmed down before I said to her: "It's okay not to drink, can you give me a reasonable reason?" ”

Jiang Laiyue looked at me, took a sip of the cup, and said with a smile: "It's so sour, don't ask, this honey lemonade Li Shi has also drunk it, right?" ”