Zhang Xuanxuan's words reached my heart, although I was smiling on the surface, in fact, when I was alone in the dead of night, I would be afraid, especially at night, I would have nightmares, dreaming of those people begging for mercy in front of me, dreaming that they asked me to let them live, that feeling was very painful.

I remember watching a movie before, that movie was called First Blood, which was about an American soldier after the war, who was distrusted and ridiculed, and always recalled the picture of killing people on the battlefield in his head, and couldn't live like a normal person.

Zhang Xuanxuan saw that I didn't speak, and threw it over with a piece of fish, I came back to my senses and said, Brother Xuan is right. I don't know if it's instinctive, I blurted out and shouted Zhang Xuanxuan's title, Zhang Xuanxuan didn't say anything to me this time, I think it's more important for her to explain to us some of her experiences and views on life now.

Speaking of bastards, Zhang Xuanxuan is definitely an old qualification, although she is not much older than us, but the things she has experienced since she was a child are all related to the gray ground, this woman is definitely an old-timer, we are almost halfway monks, even if Zhang Baoqiang and they were mixed in society very early before, but there is still a big gap between them and those real bastards.

Maybe it's also because of Brother Xuan's shouting in my life, which made Zhang Baoqiang and them listen more attentively, now that I have drunk three rounds, everyone is almost a little drunk, and this fish is almost eaten up, I actually recognized Zhang Xuanxuan a long time ago, so I didn't listen carefully to what she said.

I focus on eating fish and drinking, it is rare to have the opportunity to eat something at leisure, a comfortable life is short, I have to have the opportunity to enjoy, I must enjoy it secretly, Zhang Xuanxuan gushed endlessly, she has experienced a lot of things.

are all things and people that Zhang Baoqiang's gang has not been in contact with, so these people are very worshipful, just like the people who eat melons, Xiaocang frowned a little puzzled, she looked at Zhang Xuanxuan's eyes changed, and now she is calling Zhang Xuanxuan Xiaoxuan, it is estimated that she can't shout herself.

Similar to me is Ergou, this kid is also a foodie, in fact, he didn't want to participate in the gray area for a long time, after all, he was followed by Xiaocang, after having a woman, men often have the concept of home, so that wild and fighting feeling, will slowly retreat, this is a process of a person's growth.

Xiao Cang whispered in Ergou's ear what to say, because the voice was too small, so I couldn't hear it at all, but eighty percent of it was about Zhang Xuanxuan, Ergou and Xiaocang, the two people, were really tacit, and the voice was smaller than a little, and I was too curious to ask what people said.

Zhang Xuanxuan finally finished speaking, Zhang Baoqiang and Zhang Qi and Daniel Zhang three people, listening to the stunned, one by one big eyes staring at the small eyes, it seems to be like losing the soul, after I ate and drank enough, I took a cigarette from Zhang Baoqiang, lit a fire and smoked and lay on the grass, looking at the stars in the sky, I didn't miss home at all.

Because I don't have a complete home, I have been used to wandering since I was a child, where I live comfortably, I feel that where is home, Zhang Xuanxuan began to fight with Zhang Qi and them, and a group of people are also born calves who are not afraid of tigers, and Zhang Xuanxuan also fights.

I don't know how long it took, I was a little sleepy, only then did I find Zhang Xuanxuan squatting in front of my head very conscious, patted my face and said, they all went back, what are you still doing lying on the ground, do you want to sleep here.

I smiled and said, no, I just think the stars here are very clear, my favorite thing to do in the past is to look at the stars, at that time with Ergou, I slept on the roof of their house, didn't think about anything, I felt what a pleasant thing it was.

Zhang Xuanxuan said with a smile, it seems that your childlike appearance is not very good, you don't think about things and feel very beautiful, you don't want things to do when you were a child, you have to think about a lot of things now, you have to work hard to become a qualified boss, and you have to take everyone to change your life together.

I grabbed Zhang Xuanxuan's hand and said, Xuanxuan, I actually rely on you to support all this until now, everyone trusts you more, you are more capable than me, I know this very well, you don't need to worry about me being a man, I am different from other men, I don't like to show off myself, and I don't want to say things against my will, you are indeed better than me, and I have experienced more things than me.

Zhang Xuanxuan looked at me affectionately, silent for a long time, she said lightly, no matter how you praise me, in fact, it can't change the fact that I am a woman, I always avoided this problem before, but I always have to face this problem.

Zhang Xuanxuan's tone of voice was different from usual, she pulled me up from the ground, and I realized that there were only two people left on the empty grass, Zhang Xuanxuan and me, the ground was relatively clean, and the fish and charcoal were also buried in the soil.

As soon as I was about to speak, Zhang Xuanxuan turned around and patted me on the back, she was helping me sort out my clothes, this should be the first time she has done such a thing to me like a woman like this.

When Zhang Xuanxuan stopped, I turned my head and grabbed her hand and said, Don't say half of what you just said, I don't understand what you mean, what do you want to say.

Zhang Xuanxuan said with a smile, what a fool, I want to say that women have a lot of things that can't be put on the table after all, I can help you now, and I can hold it up, but the girl's endurance is not enough, you see that I am a little bad now, so the burden in the future will fall on you.

I sighed and said, no, I don't know how to raise money at all, I don't know what to say when I raise money, and I don't know how those guys are willing to pay, I can't do it, you won't say that today because you drank too much, right?

Zhang Xuanxuan shook her head and said, I didn't drink too much, I am better than you in terms of drinking skills, not to mention that little wine, even if I give me a few more bottles, I won't have a little thing, it's just some sneaky tricks, I'm not drunk and sober, but I see you're a little drunk.

Saying that, Zhang Xuanxuan pushed my hand away, she walked towards the villa alone, I ran a few steps quickly and followed Zhang Xuanxuan, she turned her head and glanced at me and said, I didn't say let it go, I just want to say that people still need to rely on themselves, and I can't always be by your side.

I grabbed Zhang Xuanxuan's hand and said, no, what you said seems to be hiding, didn't we say okay, we want to live together, and you don't want to listen to promises, but I still want to say, I like you very much, I want to live with you, isn't that good?

The corners of Zhang Xuanxuan's mouth raised and said with a smile, I didn't say bad, it's just that many things are not up to you and me to decide, okay, I'm very tired today, I don't want to talk to you about these things, I want to go back to the room with you to sleep early, and do something meaningful by the way.

When I came to the familiar room, Zhang Xuanxuan uncharacteristically didn't let me take a bath, and she didn't go to take a bath, which made me feel that something was wrong, and there must be a demon when something went wrong.

I let go of Zhang Xuanxuan and said, no, there must be something, don't hide it from me, just say anything, I'm very passive when you do this, do you still think I can't trust it.

Zhang Xuanxuan was lying on the bed, she arranged her messy hair, sighed and said, Actually, it's good not to know, it's not good for you to know, Yang Fan The relationship between us is actually very delicate, saying that friends surpass friends, saying that lovers are actually not counted, we don't love each other, you have a woman you like, I'm just an accessory.

I shook my head and said, you are wrong, I have never treated you as an accessory, in my eyes you are more important than any woman, to put it cheekily, everything I have here depends on your help, if it were not for you, now I have nothing, and the same is true in the country, although you calculate that I use me, but don't people just use others to be used by others? At least you didn't kill me completely, and left me a way to live. Zhang Xuanxuan nodded and said, Okay, since you want to know, then I won't hide it, he has already sent someone to find me, I think it's because I found out about your registered company.