"It's not that I don't understand."

As soon as Xu Sa opened his mouth, he heard his voice unconsciously mixed with a bit of coldness.

He looked at Su Tong, and suddenly closed his eyes fiercely, and the memories of the past suddenly flooded him like a tide, and the tide receded.

I don't know why, seeing the painful expression that flashed on Xu Sa's face, Su Tong couldn't bear it, Xu Sa seemed to have something to say to her, but her heart was obviously in a situation where heaven and man were at war.

She bit her lip fiercely and said, "Let's go up first." ”

Now that they have obtained the special approval letter from the Sun Bureau, they must interrogate Wang Yanran as soon as possible.

As soon as she took a step, Xu Sa grabbed her wrist and said in a low voice: "I'm ......"

He paused for two seconds, the memories weren't really good for him.

In the moment he was entangled, Su Tong had already held his hand tightly, Xu Sao paused, and continued: "I was an assistant police officer for less than two years after I left school, and I once shot and killed a drug dealer by mistake......

Su Tong didn't speak, and the two of them were in a weird posture of missing the hand behind back, but neither of them moved.

"He is not guilty of death, he is just a small minion of the criminal gang, but the scene was too chaotic at that time, I was young and frivolous, and I shot at the big drug lord who was about to escape."

But that shot didn't hit the big drug lord, everyone ran around, and he just rushed out and blocked the shot for the big drug lord.

"It's not your fault." Su Tong didn't know what to say, and she didn't dare to look back at Xu Sa's expression.

Xu Sa nodded, where is it wrong to kill a drug dealer?

But he was wrong.

"His son is at his hand, and he is holding him." It seems that like an ordinary narrative, Xu Sa's voice is quiet, but only he knows it, and he can't suppress the tremor of his voice.

Su Tong's body stiffened, "And then?" ”

Xu Sa didn't speak, Su Tong pursed his lips fiercely, according to normal practice, the child should be sent to an adoption home, at most, Xu Sa will often visit.

But this is a regular practice, and since Xu Sa said it, she doesn't think that this matter will make people feel relaxed.

Xu Sa opened his mouth, and he took a deep breath: "He is also dead, dead under my gun." ”

The big drug lord was quickly subdued, and none of the small drug dealers escaped, except for the blinding red on the ground.

No one will pay attention to the little one until his pistol is suddenly snatched away, and with the roar and the violent gunshots, the little boy is in front of him, falling in a pool of blood at his feet.

He was not punished for this, but it was a shadow of his life, and for a long time, he couldn't eat, he couldn't sleep well, and when he closed his eyes, he was the little boy, and when he opened his eyes, he was the father of the little boy.

They were all innocent, but his gun, ended two innocent lives.

He ...... The little boy ......" Su Tong said, "Why do you want to do this?" ”

Growing up well to avenge her father, or numbly continuing to live, is the way she can imagine living.

Xu Sa's next sentence made her eyes widen in shock: "He didn't want to live for a long time." ”

In the diary of the little boy, it is written throughout that he feels that life is meaningless and does not know why he wants to live in this world.

He wrote that his father was a drug dealer, but it was clearly said on TV that drug dealers were bad people, and he couldn't understand why his father wanted to be such a bad person, in order to be arrested by the police uncle?

He loves to write, maybe he is a little boy who doesn't like to talk, and there are many strange questions in his diary, but in the end, before his questions can be answered, the little life is accompanied by a gunshot and disappears into the vast universe with a doubt.

"You didn't tell me." Su Tong was a little dazed, and the hand holding her wrist didn't know when to let go.

She lowered her eyes and landed on the large, somewhat feeble hands.

Xu Sa pursed his thin lips tightly and formed a straight line: "You didn't tell me either." ”

Just like just now, she didn't want to dissect herself and present it.

Two stimuli are the most suitable for hugging.

They all have sharp spines on their bodies that protect themselves, but they are soft and even lethal on the inside.

If two hedgehogs want to hug, they can only shrink their thorns and hug each other with their softest and deadliest side.

Su Tong's heart was sour, and she suddenly understood what kind of mood Xu Sa was in and told her: "Don't fall into endless self-blame." ”

She knew that Xu Sa didn't come out.

Children know a very simple truth.

If you do something wrong, you have to apologize, you have to be forgiven, and you can regain your peace of mind.

But what if, they can't get forgiveness?

They want to apologize, they want to plead with the wrong person, they are no longer in this world, so who will forgive them?

That 'it's okay', who should I ask for?

Su Tong fell into confusion, day after day, year after year, they could only carry on the road, the increasing 'sorry' that could not be unloaded, the difficult burden to move forward, could not be lost, and could not pick up.

"I won't hurt you."

Xu Sa pinched the mountain root fiercely, and her voice smashed into her ears in a deep voice.

She lifted her hand and found her fingertips trembling.

Su Tong said: "I know. ”

The two sorted out their mood and went back to the office first.

Chen Hui held a pen in his hand, and when he saw the two of them coming back, he was a little curious: "Boss, Sister Su, what's the matter with the two of you?" How can I hear that the little police flowers who just came here are talking about you? ”

He went to pick up a piece of water and heard Xiao Gonghua and another colleague muttering about Xu Sa, and thought that Xiao Gonghua had a secret promise to Xu Safang, so he hurriedly came up: "We have a target at the head, let's digest it internally." ”

"Huh?" The little policeman was shocked, and Chen Hui realized that he might be in trouble.

After asking cheekily, I realized that their leader took Sister Su away from the director's office without saying a word, and the princess hugged her.

"You guys just play office romance, and you're still so blatant?" Chen Hui's face was incredulous, "If I were the Sun Bureau, I would have fired the two of you." ”

As he spoke, Chen Hui slashed his neck with a knife in his hand.

Chairman Luo's death didn't seem to mean anything to Chen Hui, perhaps he didn't realize the importance of the matter at all.

Su Tong sighed, and was suddenly taken into Xu Sa's arms, she was caught off guard, and her face quickly turned red for a moment.

Xu Sa left a dashing back of his head for Chen Hui: "You can also do it." ”

Chen Hui, who was shown off: "? ”

He really wanted to do it, and he didn't see anyone who wanted to do it with him......

Zhou Li and He Xingchen, who watched the play, both said: "You deserve it." ”