Diana didn't react, I don't know if she really didn't understand, or pretended not to know anything, but looking at her aggrieved appearance, I was also quite helpless, after all, living together for so long, the average couple would have considered whether to get married.

But there is still a diaphragm between me and Diana, and that layer of diaphragm cannot be untied for the time being, I am a cautious person, so under normal circumstances, I will not easily trust a person, especially the people around me, although Diana has paid a lot, but this is nothing to me.

I think that a man like me who has experienced too many ups and downs will not feel how precious it is because of a dedication, I have no shortage of women who like me, and there is no shortage of women who can have a relationship, this cannot be a prerequisite for marriage, and I rarely have the concept of marriage in my head.

I can see from my uncle's affairs that marriage is just a contract, and those who abide by the contract are the ones who abide by the contract, and if they don't obey it, even if they reluctantly sign the contract, they will still be contacted in the end, and people can't give everything to a piece of paper, which is impractical.

I didn't tell Diana these words, because I knew that she wouldn't listen, she was still a simple child, and she only thought that I would get something in return for what I had paid, but there were a few people who could be rewarded for my efforts, and everything was just an illusion.

I whispered, don't cry, we're all adults, crying can't solve the problem, you can get married if you want to, wait for me for a few years, wait for me to finish what I have to do, I will marry you, if you feel that you can't wait, then you go to find someone else, maybe we just have fate, I believe in the so-called fate, if fate really comes to the time when we get married, I won't escape, but now is definitely not the time to get married, don't cry, I will be sad, I will be very troubled, I will feel that it is right not to get married, Because after getting married, you cry and cry all day long, who can stand it.

I turned around and walked away, ignoring Diana, perhaps a little ruthless, but I knew that there was always a price to pay for kindness, and at this time, any soft-hearted heart could be lost, and I couldn't extricate myself from it.

Because of the decoration of the home, so I can only go to the hotel first, but that kind of hotel, almost all for young couples to prepare, I must not have rested well in the past, I usually choose to go to the company's room to rest, the company that place is quieter, and the environment is not bad, although not as good as the star hotel, but at least than the previous hotel to live comfortably.

I took a car to the company, got out of the car and went upstairs, today is the weekend, so there is no one in the company, the corridor seems empty, I took the key to open the door, went into the room and lay on the bed and began to read the newspaper.

Now I have developed a habit of reading the newspaper when I have nothing to do, and this is the method I used when I was learning English before, so I can't quit after a long time.

What makes me feel the most interesting is that the things written in these newspapers are all things related to life, and unlike domestic newspapers, these newspapers often have some bold headlines and contents, and after reading them, I will feel refreshed, I will not read so depressing, and I feel more real.

After being abroad for a long time, I like the depression at home, and every day is some good things, as if nothing bad has ever happened in this world, but some songs of merit and virtue, one by one with a smile, singing how beautiful the world is.

I put the newspaper on my lap, lit a cigarette, and I couldn't sleep after a long work, and now I want to sleep, but I have to stay awake, otherwise I can't sleep at night, and the problem of insomnia at night will be big.

I can't stay up late for a long time, now I can feel that my head occasionally has a dull pain, at first I didn't think too much, but now I always feel that this will be a problem, I went to the hospital twice to check up, the doctor told me that it is because I think too many things, so there will be a huge pressure, this pressure leads to some insufficient blood supply to the head, and occasionally there is a lack of oxygen.

So many big bosses look glamorous, but in fact, only they know the sin of suffering, no one can succeed casually, including me, I am relatively lucky, there are many people to help, without the help of those people, it is difficult for me to say that I can mix into what I am today.

Now I am most worried about the death ritual, it is said that I will go into the coffin, and then I will be resurrected, these anti-lock steps, every step must not go wrong, otherwise the ritual is not successful, it will be equivalent to losing the qualification.

However, Gao Ming told me that he would help me perform this ritual, that is, as the presiding mage, he would first cut open a sacrificial goat, and then take the sword of Freemasonry, drink the blood of the sacrificial goat and recite a prayer in Hebrew, which is a ritual of worshiping Satan.

The next thing is to take the oath, and I have to read out the vows one by one, and let all the people be witnesses, and I have to keep these vows, and it is really scary to say, I didn't believe in the gods before, but when I was really asked to swear, I was a little scared.

I'm really scared, because I always feel that there will be gods watching human beings in the underworld, this world is so regular and magical, it must be created by gods, but people can't see the existence of gods, everything proves that people almost have souls, and the material of the soul will gradually leave the body from the head with the decay of the body after death, so when someone dies in the hospital, nurses and doctors can't stand on the side of the dead person's head, which will make the soul have no way to get out. Many people in the hospital know about this kind of thing, and my aunt told me about it before.

So I was still scared in my heart, and after taking the oath, it meant that I would keep my oath and become a member of the Freemasonry, and I would have many strong brothers and sisters, and those people would be responsible for helping me, but I would also have to keep my promise because of my loyalty.

Looking at the words that need to be sworn above, my heart is nervous and scared, it is indeed expected, I keep reciting so that I can memorize it by heart, and when the time comes, the ceremony can be carried out successfully, I close my eyes and feel a little sleepy in my head, and after a while I entered the dream.

Time passed minute by minute, and when I woke up again, there was a woman sitting next to me, this woman was none other than Diana, who was still crying just now, she was sitting on a stool not far away, turning on the computer and not knowing what she was doing.

I sat up a little nervous and said, "How do you know I'm here?"

Diana smiled and said, of course I know that you are here, I am your girlfriend, I don't care about you, who cares about you, do you think that those words you say will drive me away, I am not as fragile as you think, you don't want to get married because you don't trust me, you think I'm not good enough, but I will try to do a good job so that I can be worthy of you.

Anyone can be stupid, not only men will be like this, when a woman falls in love with a man, it is usually like this, especially with the power of faith, this Diana has been completely brainwashed by Gao Ming, under Gao Ming's explanation, she really thinks that we are her true son, and I will be very happy to marry me.

I have to say, Diana did this, but I couldn't be cruel to her, people's hearts are flesh and blood, although I have experienced so many things, but I have always understood a truth, sincerity for sincerity, if a person is good to you, then you can't live up to her, or you will live up to yourself, or you will live up to God's kindness.

I missed one Zhong Siyuan, and I don't want to miss the second one, after all, no one can catch time, time can take everything, maybe it will be Diana who will accompany me to the end.

I looked up to the sky and sighed and said, I have a headache now, these rituals seem so cumbersome, I don't know if I can carry it out, you said that if there is a problem in the middle, then I will not have a chance.