Shangguan Candle didn't speak, but his face was a little pale, and he was silent for a long time before he spoke again, "Come here, let's talk for a while, okay?" ”

The words were full of pleading, the eyebrows were tired, and the eyes were full of blood.

When will Shangguan Candle, who has always been high-minded, speak to people with such a demeanor and tone, especially for her as a tool person, it has never been a threat or a threat, and she will only be tempted when she is in a better mood, but it is the first time to speak so low like now.

This was supposed to be a happy thing, but Feng Xiyan was not happy at all, and he didn't have the pleasure of being quick to speak for a while, and some were just full of sadness and sadness.

After lowering his eyes and hiding his complicated emotions, Feng Xiyan slowly spoke: "If it's about Rong'an Hall, I'm standing here and saying the same, if not, I think, there shouldn't be anything to say between us." ”

Shangguan Candle's eyes were opened, and her eyes were full of hurt looks, but unfortunately, Feng Xiyan was immersed in her own thoughts and couldn't extricate herself, and she didn't see it, because she was dead now, she didn't have any illusions, and she didn't want to lose her self-esteem again and again.

"If I say that I have a hard time in this matter, will you give me a chance to explain?"

Shangguan Candle said lightly, his eyes lowered again, although his face was light and light, but the fingers on the futon unconsciously curled up still inadvertently exposed his nervousness.

Feng Xiyan smiled self-deprecatingly and said, "What are you not suffering about?" What's not a last resort? If you want to explain, you can explain, why do you need me to give you a chance? Between us, the initiative has never been on my side, so why give me such a big face? ”

"Yes, you're right, I have a hard time for everything, and I don't need to ask for your consent."

Shangguan Candle's voice was ethereal like falling snow on a snowy mountain, although it was light, it was enough to cause Feng Xiyan's heart to be dark and difficult to avalanche, and he couldn't stop sneering, and the self-deprecation on his face became stronger and stronger.

See, that's it, every time she is self-inflicted, self-righteous, and every time she overestimates her place in his heart.

"However, it's different now, I have a person who cares a lot, knowing that I have too much burden in the depths of darkness, and I am a person who is not worthy of standing in the sun with her, but I am a little greedy, I want to have her, I want to stand side by side with her in the sun, I want to have a bright future with her, and I want to make up for the damage I brought her before."

"However, because too many things cannot be explained clearly in a few words, I can only slowly plan in my own way, but she misunderstands me too deeply, so I chose a very stupid and stupid lie that I thought she would never find out in her life, thinking that by doing so, I would be able to keep her by my side."

Feng Xiyan sneered, "It's all this time, you still say this kind of thing, I am controlled by you, what you want to do is just a matter of words, why do you do this?" Going around in such a big circle, if you are not tired, I will be tired for you. ”

Shangguan Candle's already ugly face was blue and white, white and blue, his eyes were full of sadness, and his voice was difficult and forbearing.

"What I just said is sincere, not half false, the reason why I go around in such a big circle is only because I want to use the bitter trick to win your heart, I want to win your sympathy, and I want to use your kindness to keep you by my side...... It's just that too much of my body can't help but make me make a wrong step, a wrong step. ”

"So Feng Xiyan, whether you believe it or not, I have you in my heart, only you."

Shangguan Candle's voice became lower and lower, and the clenched hand loosened weakly, and the whole person was weak and helpless.

Feng Xiyan's heart twitched unconsciously, his fingers curled up slightly, and he shook his head violently, wanting to speak, but he didn't dare, for fear that as soon as he opened his mouth, all his persistence and grievances would be shattered to the ground, and he could only grit his teeth tightly, and the tears could no longer be contained in his eyes, and the "whoosh" fell.

It's so ridiculous, what is this person to her? Why didn't you tell her, hide her, calculate her, keep her in the dark, and in the end, a sentence of involuntarily canceling all the grievances she has suffered these days?

When she is a person? Isn't she worthy of being honest? Is she so untrustworthy?

"Hahaha...... It's ridiculous, do you believe that? If you had me in your heart, would you do this to me? Will you keep me in the dark? Will you play me like a fool? Does it give you a special sense of accomplishment when you see me crying for you? Isn't it fun to see me planted in your hands? ”

"Isn't it proud to play with my feelings? Seeing that I am sad for you and crying for you, heartbroken for you, is it unstoppable ridicule in my heart, this fool is really stupid, you are just acting in a play, she is going to live and die with you, isn't it very proud? ”

The tears on Feng Xiyan's face fell more and more, and he looked at Shangguan Candle's eyes and asked frantically while crying.

Shangguan Candle suddenly stood up from the bed, hugged Feng Xiyan tightly in his arms, trembling all over, and his voice was choked.

"Don't say that...... Don't be presumptuous, I've never thought about it that way, and now I know that no matter what I say, you won't believe me, but don't do that...... Good no good? If you do this, I will be heartbroken and ...... distressed. ”

"When I went to see you in your room that day, I knew that you must have found me, but I was still holding on to the luck of thinking that you had always been nervous, so I shouldn't have found out...... I knew I was deceiving myself, but for the first time, I didn't dare to face the reality. ”

"Because I know that when you know the truth, you won't forgive me...... I don't dare...... I'm afraid of ...... to face you, so, like a turtle with a shrunken head, hiding here and not daring to appear...... When I knew that your attitude was getting colder and colder, I knew that if I didn't get it back, if I didn't explain it to you, I might really lose you. ”

"Feng Xiyan, I have too many shackles on my body, so I can't act like a normal person, and my behavior is different from ordinary people, and even sometimes, I don't know what the reason for doing this is? But I did it anyway...... I can control the situation, I can use people's hearts...... But I can't control my heart like you, I can't control myself from falling into liking ......you day by day. ”

"I know it's going to be hard for you to accept, but what I want to tell you is that this is me, me in the depths of darkness, if you're willing to accept me like this...... Will you give me a chance...... Then don't drive me out of your heart...... Good no good? ”