Feng Xiyan's whole person was tightly held in his arms by Shangguan Candle, and his body was strangled to pain, but he couldn't say anything, only tears kept falling, and his heart hurt so much that he couldn't breathe.

"I'm sorry......."

This belated apology, Feng Xiyan waited too long, until he thought that he would never hear it in his life.

"Woo...... I hate you, I hate you, why? Why do you want to do this to me? Why? Who do you think you are? You're just relying on the fact that I like you, and I like you enough to die for you. ”

"That's why you are so unscrupulous to hurt me again and again, to deceive me...... Don't you see me crying, sad, and struggling for you, and your heart is very happy? ”

"Now I don't like you, why are you talking about this? Do you want me to never forget you for the rest of my life? ”

Feng Xiyan struggled to escape from Shangguan Candle's embrace, and questioned him in a crying voice.

"What can't you help yourself? What's not to help? It's all nonsense, if you really had me in your heart, would you be like this? I don't know what the hell you're up to? ”

"However, what I can tell you is that if you want to use me through feelings to achieve some goals, I advise you to die as soon as possible, because this is my bottom line, we can exchange interests, and we can cooperate fairly."

"But I don't allow you to use any feelings to restrain me and control me, you will not only anger me, but also make me look down on you very much, and you don't have to say sorry to me, you are not sorry for me."

"Because I was alone in my own emotions from beginning to end, you never showed your heart to me, it was me, it was me who shouldn't have liked you, I shouldn't have feelings for you, all of this is my own fault, it has nothing to do with others, and it has nothing to do with you, so you don't have to feel sorry. ”

"It's not like that...... It's really not like that...... What I just said is true, and there is absolutely no lie...... I know that no matter what I say at this time, you won't believe me anymore, but ...... I really...... Don't want to lose your ....... ”

Shangguan Candle tilted his head with difficulty, showing his weakness that he never showed in front of people, his voice was choked and endlessly sad, he hadn't been so afraid of losing someone or something for many years as he was at this moment.

Because after losing his most precious parents, he deliberately suppressed his emotions, not desperately wanting to get someone or something, except for revenge, no one has been able to enter his heart for many years.

And Feng Xiyan is an outsider, this outsider breaks all his established constraints, constantly changes for her, and even has reached a state of fear of losing, and can't even imagine what it would be like to lose her.

Therefore, knowing that her existence has disturbed his mind, made him lose his due calm and judgment, and made himself constantly change his plans and panic, but these are nothing compared to the pain of losing her.

He was scared, regretted, and wanted to do everything in his power to make amends for the mistakes he had made.

"Yan'er...... Can you teach me well? Can you teach me how to do it well? I really...... Loved your ....... ”

Watching the painful dance, Feng Xiyan didn't feel half a point of joy at all, there was just endless desolation and pain, it turned out that watching the person he liked was in pain, and he would also feel heartache.

It's just that she doesn't dare to believe it anymore.

Countless exploits, countless deceptions, has made her dare not believe every word Shangguan Candle said, such a painful experience, she has experienced too much, afraid that if she believes in it, she will lose her trust in people, and she will make herself not like herself.

Feng Xiyan shook his head, and the tears kept slipping down because of the shaking, falling on the back of Shangguan Candle's hand, burning the back of his hand with a hot pain.

"It's too late to Shangguan Candle, if you ...... a little earlier Even if you find a little bit to be honest with me, tell me all this you can't help yourself, you are forced to helpless...... I will always believe in you, and I will support you unconditionally. ”

"But, no, too many lies are immersed between us, so that I can't see your true face clearly, I am like a snake shadow now, I like you...... I like it enough to die for you, but I can't believe you anymore. ”

"Because I don't know which of the things you say is true and which is false, even if I give you a chance to reconcile now, but it's all superficial, and once there is a rift in trust, it will bring endless doubts."

"After that, everything you say, I have to think twice, and think twice about whether it is true or false, I don't dare to believe you anymore, do you understand?"

As soon as Feng Xiyan's words were finished, Shangguan Candle's whole body stiffened, and the blood on his face quickly receded, leaving only pale, pleading eyes, and the bright light quickly dimmed, like a stagnant water, and could no longer emit any light.

And he held Feng Xiyan's arms hanging weakly, with a sad wry smile on the corner of his mouth, and said, "You go...... Let's go! When I get back to the palace, I'll have someone find a new stand-in, and when I find it...... I'll let you go...... Leave. ”

Feng Xiyan was stunned, his heart was suffocated, he looked forward to it day and night, and his wish was fulfilled day and night, but there was no half of excitement and joy, some were just endless emptiness and confusion, and there was even a sound of heartbreak.

After turning around with difficulty, Feng Xiyan clenched his teeth tightly to prevent himself from making a sound of crying.

Isn't that the result you want? Isn't this a wish that I have been looking forward to day and night? Should I be happy? Why is it so uncomfortable ?

Feng Xiyan held back his grief, and walked to the door with top-heavy steps, obviously only a few steps away, but every step was very long, as if he had finished this life, and every step he took was full of the past when he met Shangguan Candle, and those good and bad memories were like movies, constantly flashing in front of his eyes.

It turns out that they have been through so much before they know it.

"Let's go! If you go far away, don't come back, you're right, I'm a liar, an unintentional liar, only those who are far away from me can protect themselves, because I can't keep you, and I will sell you one day I don't necessarily. ”

Shangguan Candle's body did not move, his eyes slowly closed, his hands hanging by his side were clenched into fists, and the back of his hands was bruised.

With his back to Feng Xiyan, he said loudly words that hurt others and hurt his own mouth, and while saying loudly, he was arrogant, but two lines of tears slowly flowed out of the corners of his eyes.

The teeth that were clenching the lower lip were dyed red, blood kept flowing from the corners of the mouth, and the pungent smell of blood mixed with tears dripped on the ground, making a "pop" and "pop" sound.