Chapter 422: Tormenting Guilt
"I know, I can understand, I know you don't want to see me now, but you can't help it, your state is very worrying, and those who really care about you are very difficult, so I have to appear in front of you."
Feng Xiyan really didn't want to appear, although it wasn't her fault, but she always felt inexplicably a little weak, and she didn't know why.
"Huh."
Hu Mingzhi sneered twice and said, "Who do you think you are?" Do you think that appearing in front of me can change me? ”
"You...... Don't overdo it. Feng Xiyan was a little angry, "It's not my fault that I'm not Jiang Lianrong, it's not my fault that I deceive you by taking her identity, it's not my fault that you missed her life, and it's not my fault that you missed the opportunity to save her." ”
"Compared to those of you who have some relationship with her, I have nothing to do with her, and I haven't even met her in person, I just sympathize with her experience, but I haven't reached the point of empathy, and it's only because of Xianggong that I came here to help her take revenge."
"Because I don't want to see Xianggong feel uncomfortable, I don't want to see Xianggong feel guilty for the rest of my life, and I know that Miss Jiang is a kind and good girl from other people, so I risked my life to help her get revenge."
"I know that the truth will make you uncomfortable and painful and unacceptable, but, please don't put these emotions on me, don't feel that all this is my fault, and don't vent your bad feelings on me, I don't owe you anything, and I don't owe Jiang Lianrong anything."
Looking at Hu Mingzhi's face that was green for a while and white for a while, his eyes showed a sad look, his pupils were full of red bloodshots, his eyes were swollen because he had been drinking all night, his face was abnormally blue, and his lips were dry and cracked, and he was extremely haggard.
Hu knew that the corners of his mouth were squirming, wanting to say something, but he couldn't say a word for a while, the whole person was like drowning, and he wanted to shout for help.
Originally, he thought that as long as the person was alive, he could not care about the rest, as long as she could be happy, but who could tell him why this was? Those who thought that they were fulfilled and let go of what they thought were actually missed a long, long time ago.
When he missed it, he really missed it, how ridiculous and ironic his peace of mind was.
"Ah...... Yes...... Why? …… Why...... Don't give me a chance to make amends?. ”
Hu Mingzhi stared at Feng Xiyan's face that was exactly the same as Jiang Lianrong, closed his eyes in pain, two lines of tears slowly fell down his cheeks, and he didn't know who he was questioning in his hoarse questioning voice?
After venting his dissatisfaction, Feng Xiyan immediately regretted it, regretting that he shouldn't have been so impulsive, anyway, Hu Ming knew that now was the time to need help.
I have endured it for many years, just to make up for the miss of the year, just for my beloved cousin, I thought that I had completely let go, and I sincerely wish my cousin happiness and wish her to find her own happiness.
But in the end, I found out that everything was fake, my cousin had died a long time ago, and it was other people who were alive who were wearing my cousin's face, and no one could bear this shock and blow.
"Which ...... I'm sorry, I just said it unintentionally, don't take it to heart, it's not your fault that this is actually your fault, it's Mrs. Tang who is at fault, it was the tragedy she caused, and she also got retribution, so don't torture yourself. "I love to read books
Hu Mingzhi slowly opened his eyes and glanced at Feng Xiyan, his eyes were full of sadness, the neat hair in the past was scattered around his neck in twos and threes, and there was no half of the appearance of a son in the past, some were just full of gloom.
"No...... It's my fault, it's me who didn't protect her, it's me who let her die a tragic death...... I promised to protect her, but what did I do? What exactly did I do? ”
"Why? Why? Why is God torturing me like this? Yes? Why is that? I know that I don't want much in this life, and the only thing I want is only a cousin, but why? Why do you do this to me? ”
"Ahh Rong'er ...... Cousin I'm sorry for you...... It's my cousin who didn't protect you...... Rong'er ....... ”
"Bang!"
Immersed in poor Hu Mingzhi's emotions, before he could react, Feng Xiyan watched Hu Mingzhi pick up the stone table that had been broken into pieces on the ground and smash it to the ground again.
Feng Xiyan was startled by his sudden move, hurriedly stepped back, and hurriedly raised his hand to cover his face, afraid that the smashed stones would splash and scratch his face.
After everything around him calmed down, Feng Xiyan put down the hand that was covering his face, and looked at Hu Mingzhi with a heart that was so frightened that he was "banging" and asked sharply.
"Does Hu Ming know that you are crazy?"
Hu Mingzhi didn't pay attention to her at all, in his bloodshot eyes, a little starlight flickered and dimmed, and finally it dimmed completely, and he couldn't get half a minute of light anymore, and looked at Feng Xiyan fixedly.
Feng Xiyan was cold at his eyes, and cold sweat broke out on his back, "Hu Mingzhi, I know that you can't accept this cruel truth, but this is already an established fact, no one can change it, and you can't turn back time by torturing yourself like this." ”
"Although I have never met Jiang Lianrong, but she is such a kind person, I definitely don't want to see her beloved cousin do this for her, if you still miss her in your heart and love her, then live well and don't live up to her kindness."
Feng Xiyan actually didn't know what Jiang Lianrong thought and what kind of feelings she had for Hu Mingzhi, but she knew that Hu Mingzhi was in a super bad mood now, and she was afraid that he would continue to act excessively, so she continued the "lie" she was good at.
Sure enough, Hu Mingzhi heard her words, and his dim eyes flashed with flickering stars, with a little doubt, a little doubt, a little expectation and a little hope.
A little homesick, squirming with abnormal blue lips, hesitated for a long time before slowly speaking: "You...... You said...... Be...... What is the meaning? What the...... Call her...... Call her ....... ”
A normal question, Hu knew that his hoarse voice couldn't be finished for a long time.
Feng Xiyan felt very uncomfortable in his heart, the dead had been liberated, and the living people continued to torture themselves with guilt, regret and other obsessions that they couldn't let go.
If Jiang Lianrong was still alive, what kind of mentality would she have for her cousin, who was one of the culprits in her tragic life, who was unintentionally involved? Seeing him like this, is it happy or distressed? Or disgust?
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