Cuixiu is the name left to me by my mother, my own mother.

She wrote her name in blood on a handkerchief, which was the only bond I had with her, and the only memory I had of her.

Cuixiu, a very delicate name, is not easy for my mother from the mountains to come up with such a name.

But I don't like it.

Because this name has never brought me good luck, and since I have been called this name, I have suffered a terrible fate, and I hate the woman who gave birth to me, and I hate everything about her.

So, I hate the name.

If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have come to this vicious world, accustomed to seeing the warmth and coldness of the world, and finally turned into an emotionless machine and a person with a split personality.

The people who gave birth to me gave me a kind appearance, which made me look good, but do they know how dirty the heart is hidden under this appearance?

Feng Qiao, the first time I saw you, the first thought was not obedience, but possession.

The world owes me so much that it needs people like you to compensate me.

The concubine said that my name was too rustic, and it was not suitable for the splendid palace, and said that she would change my name, and asked me if I would agree, and she was worried that I had feelings for my former name.

If there is any feeling, there is also hatred, I wish I had a different name and get rid of the dark memories of the past.

But a piece of Niangniang's heart, I can't directly say that I am very happy to change my name, so I only got a name, which is a bit of a loss.

I was very happy in my heart, but my face was very good at pretending to be happy, mixed with a little reluctance.

Guilt appeared on the concubine's face, and she was in my mind.

I said, Xie Niangniang, the slave was from a humble background, and it is a blessing to be given the name of the mother for several lifetimes, my mother died in childbirth, and the name was also given by the stepfather in the countryside later, and it can't be put on the stage.

I also told how bad my stepfather was to me, how my stepmother and I begged for a living under him, how I escaped from death with all kinds of hard work, and how I was abducted and trafficked, and I had to have a bed of my own in the Huanyi Bureau, and I was very happy.

When a god opens a door to a person, it is likely that all his windows will be opened, or they will not be exposed at all, and it will be as dark as a confinement room.

The reality is so cruel.

And after six years of confinement, I finally met the Nine Emperor Princes and Niangniang, maybe God made me suffer for those six years, just so that I could meet the current nobles.

So I am grateful to be rewarded with a name from my mother.

Concubine Fei is very emotional, she has never suffered much since she was a child, she was born in the largest merchant family in the capital, she was spoiled by her father when she was a child, and when she grew up, she was favored by the emperor, so naturally she has never heard of my miserable life.

More brilliant than a storyteller.

Concubine Yu said, what kind of miserable life is this, I have really suffered you all these years, you will stay by my side in the future to do things, no one can treat you like that anymore, I will protect you, if it is not in the palace, I will recognize you as my goddaughter.

Concubine Fei cried three handkerchiefs, and my purpose was achieved.

But not at the palace, and I don't want to be your goddaughter either.

How can a person who wants to marry your son want to be your goddaughter?

The concubine cried, and I cried too, and finally she took me in her arms and lined up my back one by one, just like coaxing you to sleep.

I subconsciously dodged for a while, and the concubine probably felt that she was scared of me, so she hugged me tighter, and whispered that she was not afraid.

This is the first time someone has treated me so gently, but my heart can no longer be gentle.

The shadow of men is too severe, and I am afraid of the contact of others. Sometimes a man is saying this, and suddenly he slaps him, and his hand is so strong that when he touches my flesh, I feel like my flesh is blooming.

In addition to men, women take care of me, but after all, I am not her biological child, and the towel she gave me to wipe the blood was a rag to wipe the table, and the skin was sore from scratching.

The woman has a slight mental illness, and the originally gentle and gentle person suddenly tears her hair and screams, using her hands and feet at the same time, and smashing whatever she grabs.

So I'm afraid of contact.

I was afraid that the person who had said good things would suddenly slap me and break my head and bleed, and I was afraid that the person in front of me would suddenly go crazy, and the table and bench would fly over, and I wouldn't even have time to hide.

But Concubine Fei can't hide in her arms, I've been playing a poor child for so long, and today I can count on a little result.

The corners of my mouth went up, everything was pretending, everything was going according to my plan.

Later, I found out that I didn't have the slightest guilt in my heart, I should be guilty, I should be.

But I couldn't feel guilty, because the world owed me so much, that I couldn't feel any sense of gratitude to them, and even the joy of seeing their pain was a source of excitement.

The idea that Concubine Fu wanted to adopt me would definitely not be accepted by the world, and she also knew that she didn't force the emperor anymore, but just flipped through the books for several days and named me Fengwu.

Feng is the surname of the country, and I can't have a surname, so I use the wind to replace it to show my unique status.

There are three literal meanings of dock, one is a small barrier, a small fort for defense. Also known as "Sucheng".

The second is the place where the four sides are high and the middle is concave: the mountain dock. Flower dock.

The third is the place where the waterside building is parked or repaired: the dock.

Concubine Fei said that these three meanings are her blessings to me. There is a place to live, preferably a sturdy fort, that will protect me peacefully and joyfully through this life.

The capital is too complicated, and she hopes that I can live among the beautiful and carefree mountain streams and flowers, and there is a sparkling river next to the mountain. In fact, this is the life she yearns for, although I still prefer the rich and glorious palace, but I don't want to disobey her wishes, so I gladly accepted it.

At least that little castle sheltered from the wind and rain is what I want.

Concubine Guigui didn't fulfill her wish to recognize me as her goddaughter, but she still distinguished me from the palace maids in her heart, and gave me high rights and love, which also gave me more opportunities to contact you.

We have known each other since we were very young, and it can also be said that we are childhood sweethearts, Feng Qiao, do you know that you are the most important family member in Fengwu, it was you who pulled me when I was the most humble, and it was your mother who made me live a life with my head held high.

When Fengwu was vulnerable, Concubine Fu gave me a hug and encouragement, letting me know that there are not so bad people in this world.

Concubine Fei arranged me by her side, I didn't have to do heavy work, I played chess with her, and she sometimes tied my pigtails on a whim, with small clothes, and dressed up beautifully.

I've never looked in a mirror so bright, and I've never seen a girl in a mirror look so good.

It turns out that I am also good-looking, and I can also be held in the palm of others' hands as a little princess.

You have been raised in the Queen Mother's palace all the year round, and the concubine's longing for her children has nowhere to be placed, so she put her love for you on me, and the delicious and fun things are left, and when you don't come, these are mine.

It was the easiest time of my life.

When I was a child, I never took care of a chicken nest, but I didn't expect that six years later, I tasted the childlike joy of childhood.

Concubine Guifei's hands are very skillful, she has been pampered since she was a child, although her ten fingers don't touch the spring water, she can't cook, she can't be popular, she can't clean, of course, she is a young lady, and she can grow up without knowing how to eat and drink.

But she can dress up, how to match each dress beautifully, how to put each hairpin in a good way, and all kinds of complicated buns, she will and no one can compare to her.

She likes to dress you in girls' clothes, wear beautiful hairpins, take delicate embroidered handkerchiefs, and go to that station, pretty, more beautiful than a little girl. But you don't like it

When I was a child, I was okay, but I refused directly when I was older, which made Concubine Guifei lose a lot of fun, and at this time I came, and she had a great fun of developing people, and she was naturally very happy, and every time she dressed up to look good, she couldn't wait to give me gold and silver jewelry.

She was happy, and I was happy, killing two birds with one stone.

What I like the most is not the gold and silver jewelry, but the beautiful dress to meet you.

I combed my double-ring bun, climbed the peach blossom tree in the small courtyard of blue bricks, and looked down over the low wall, you were still a boy wielding a sword made of bamboo, wearing a blue Yunxiang talisman bat pattern small warm robe, and only a white jade pendant was hung on the waist with a white jade exquisite waist pendant, with elegant temperament and compelling bearing. The snow-white fox fur on the hood is mixed with snowflakes and flutters in the wind.

The cuffs are inlaid with gold thread auspicious clouds, and the indigo blue robe collar and cuffs are inlaid with silver silk edge cloud pattern piping. The cuffs of a black dress are also decorated with bright yellow satin trim, looking more than usual, a little heroic and chic, and the end is full of spirit. At a young age, you can see what an extraordinary appearance you will look like in the future.

The jet-black hair is tied up and worn with a small silver crown inlaid with jade, and the white jade crystal on the silver crown is moisturized to set off the black and smooth of your hair, like silk.

A riding outfit with your pretty little face, give you a bit of elegance, wearing a raccoon hat, a bright yellow brocade edging on the brim, embroidered with a hundred kinds of inverted blessing patterns and a piece of excellent quality jade in front of the forehead, and add an elegant atmosphere, I don't know how many little girls to attract when I grow up.

I lay on the wall, just waiting for you like that, looking at you, the corners of my mouth rising without realizing it.

You don't like to be watched, and when you find me looking at you, you will turn your head awkwardly, and you will glare at me fiercely, and every now and then, I will consciously lie down on the wall, and wait for you not to look at this side, and then quietly climb up.

Sometimes I will take the opportunity to send tea and say a few words to you, if you ignore people, I will use sugar to lead you to talk. There is nothing lacking in the palace, but the Queen Mother is very strict, and you can rarely eat sugar, so this also provides an opportunity for me to successfully get close to you.

Children are best coaxed, a piece of candy can be coaxed, like a concubine, I have successfully gained your trust, and I have become the person with the first and only position in your hearts.

Qingming rain is coming, you are laughing and running on the wide palace road, so I can't take my eyes off it.

I hold your hand, running, jumping, and smiling carefree.

For more than ten years, when I was a child, you once held my hand and said that I would grow up quickly and protect my sister for the rest of my life.

Every spring, you will pick the best peony flower for the concubine in the imperial garden, and you will also pick a small sunset for me, saying that I am like a sunset, small and small, but tenacious, innocent, and dazzling.

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