It's so embarrassing to die or live for a man, and even every time the tears are shed because of him, what's more, all this is speculation, and there is no evidence to prove that all this is Shangguan Candle's means, so I am so sad that I want to die and live first.

Thinking of this, Feng Xiyan hugged his legs tightly, yes, before the truth is determined, you can't make a conclusion because of doubt, you can't be so arbitrary, yes, you can't!

I don't know if I'm convincing myself or what? Feng Xiyan thought nonsense, his eyelids became heavier and heavier, and then he fell asleep.

As soon as she fell on the bed, before falling into a deep sleep, she seemed to smell the familiar smell again, and desperately opened her eyes, but she couldn't resist the sleepiness, and could only open a slit.

And in this crack, she seemed to see Shangguan Candle again, and saw him standing beside her bed expressionlessly, looking at her with dark eyes.

There are too many questions in my heart that I want to ask clearly, but at the moment I speak, a thousand words turn into a simple sentence, "Shangguan Candle, is it you?" ”

After asking this sentence, Feng Xiyan fell into a deep sleep completely.

When I woke up, there was still no Shangguan Candle on the side of the bed, but the unique smell of Shangguan Candle was still lingering in my nose.

And one of her hearts also dropped sharply the moment she got up, her ears were ringing and she was dizzy, she was upset, her eyes were pitch black, and it was difficult to breathe.

She really hated, hated herself for being a fool, hated herself for having the answer in her heart, but she never dared to admit it, repeatedly making excuses for him, and letting him deceive and play with him again and again.

I think of how sincere and sincere I was in front of him before, how sincere and sincere I was at that time, and how much I regret it when I think about it now, how much I feel that I am an out-and-out fool.

Feng Xiyan raised his hands and patted his head hard, hating himself for being indecisive, hating himself for constantly compromising, hating himself for constantly crossing his bottom line, hating himself for always thinking too much.

If you were stupid and not so sharp, wouldn't you have found these clues? Wouldn't it be so sad? So sad? Isn't it a joy to be kept in the dark for a lifetime and not find out?

She really hates herself, hates herself for not being really stupid, hates herself for not being ruthless enough, hates herself for not being ruthless enough, hates herself for not being able to let go decisively after realizing the truth and making sure that she has been deceived again?

In his heart, he kept making excuses for him, thinking that he had a hard time, something unspeakable, something unavoidable, and even waiting for his explanation.

She really hates, not hates Shangguan Candle, but hates herself, hates herself for being able to afford it, can't let it go, and is tormented by feelings, why can't she put it down handsomely, and say to Shangguan Candle who deceived herself, "The old lady doesn't like you anymore, in the future, what do you like to do, the old lady won't accompany you." ”

However, she couldn't do it, she couldn't let it go.

If feelings can really be easily let go, then it is not feelings, feelings are things that cannot be seen or touched, the more you want to see it clearly, it does not want you to see clearly, the more you want to get, or do not want, it has to do the opposite.

It's like being trapped in a swamp, and the more you struggle, the deeper you sink until you can't move at the end.

Feng Xiyan didn't want to face the established facts, didn't dare to think about it, his head always thought about something that he didn't have, and he slept for several days, one day, looking at the sharp handful of bells and his emaciated face, he suddenly woke up.

What are you doing? For an unworthy man who wants to die or live, he can't live without him, and there are many people around him who care about him and love him, why are they blind and lost?

Early in the morning of the second day, Ling thought that Feng Xiyan was still asleep, thinking that she had a bad appetite these days, so she went to the kitchen to get some light porridge and a few appetizing side dishes.

When she entered the door, she was afraid that she would still be asleep, so she walked into the house with light steps, but saw that Feng Xiyan seemed to be alive again, she had already gotten out of bed and dressed neatly, although her hair was not coiled, and although her face was still pale, her spirit came out.

The bell was a little surprised, and while putting the porridge on the wooden table, he asked, "Young lady, why did you get out of bed?" Although your wound has recovered a lot, it has not yet fully healed, and you still have to recuperate for a few days, so you should go back to lie down. ”

"I've been lying down for so long, and I'm getting a bone headache, don't worry, I'm not impulsive, and I'm not risking my body."

Because it's not worth it!

"I'll be careful, I won't involve the wound, lying in bed all day, maybe I can't wait for the injury to recover, I will suffocate first, maybe get out of bed and move, and recover faster."

Hearing Feng Xiyan's words, Ling Bell thought about it, too, the young lady was in bed to recuperate for so many days, and the doctor said that the injury that should have been recovered a long time ago has not recovered yet, and the recovery speed is too slow, maybe after getting out of bed and moving, he can recover faster.

"Also, young lady, it's best for you to think like this, you haven't eaten properly for many days, the slave went to the kitchen to get some porridge and some appetizers, do you taste it?"

Watching the bell take out a bowl of barley porridge and some pickled cucumbers and other side dishes from the food box, Feng Watermelon, who had not eaten well for a long time, moved his index finger, consciously walked over, picked up the bowl and ate.

"By the way, how did you do what you were told to do? Is Hu Ming suspicious? ”

After drinking a few sips of porridge, Feng Xiyan remembered that she hadn't asked about the things she had told the bell to do before, and she had been in a mess for the past few days, and she didn't know what night it was, and the bell definitely didn't want to bother her with these things.

"Young lady, don't worry, according to your instructions, the slave maid deliberately went to the road that the master of the Hu Hall must pass every day to wait, and when he was about to approach, he deliberately talked loudly with the other sisters about you and Shangguan Candle, so that he could hear it."

"But young lady, the slave doesn't understand that since Shangguan Candle is the young master, and the young master is Shangguan Candle, why don't you tell Master Hu Tang and deliberately let him misunderstand?"

Feng Xiyan smiled silently, the bell still didn't know enough about Hu Mingzhi this person.

The bell is close to himself, if he deliberately waits for Hu Mingzhi to know the way to go, and says those words that are even more thought-provoking, ordinary people will definitely not continue to inquire, but rush up directly to question.

But Hu knew that he had just had a dispute with her, and he didn't want to see him, so he would definitely not come to question her in person when he heard those words, but would try his best to find out the truth from the bell's mouth, and this way he didn't have to do it himself, just send someone else.

"Because I don't want him to have a good time."

The back of the bell was a little cold, and he was speechless for a while, and he looked at Feng Xiyan blankly, not knowing what to say.

Feng Xiyan smiled meaninglessly, and turned to other topics, "Did anyone talk to you about Shangguan Candle when they were talking to you later?" ”

Bell didn't understand how the topic turned to this, although surprised, but still 1510 answers.