I like it, but I can't say why, the feeling of Yuexi Bridge to deal with Xijing has always been like this. Even if I occasionally wonder when this so-called "always" began, I can't find a specific date.

Even if he knows that he only wants to use her to deal with the Central Plains decency, but he still has a dead heart on him, what is the reason for this? She hadn't seen his face, and she wouldn't be confused by his appearance, could it be that he was like a woman of the Qianghu tribe who was able to charm and control her heart unconsciously?

Yue Xiqiao knew in her heart that her liking for him had continued until now, until the meridians were abolished, reduced to waste, and returned to him again after two years of being snubbed by him, now.

Even though her heart has been towards decency, she has decided to do things for decency and is willing to go undercover here, it is undeniable that she still likes him, no matter how much she says she hates it, her body still honestly wants to be touched by him.

During the two years that he was cold, she reacquainted herself with herself, completely accepted the kindness of Fu Yiyi and the others in Shui Jingxuan, and regarded herself as a complete and independent "person", rather than his tool. Her feelings for him were worn out because of this, but they were never wiped out, and she still persistently retained that trace.

It's as if as long as he is alive, as long as he is still alive, she will not give up liking him.

I remember that after the first child was aborted, in order to prevent such a thing from happening again, she proposed to Voy Yiyi about poisoning and sterilization soon after. Fu Yiyi looked at her for a long time, and finally could not stand her red but determined eyes, and regularly provided her with a small amount of mercury according to her wishes.

Because of the small amount and the mixture of other medicines, she didn't feel uncomfortable every time she drank it, but it was obviously useful. Later, I had a few more times with him, but afterwards she didn't drink Huanhuacao but only mercury, and she never conceived again.

She made such a decision because she knew that he must not want to keep their children, and she was not in pain. But yesterday ...... Yesterday he debunked her desire to be loyal to decency, blindfolded her again, did not give her any chance to struggle, pressed her from behind and made her suffer for an unknown amount of time, but not because of her betrayal, but because she did not tell him about the abortion of the child and the sterilization of the pregnancy.

That short sentence seemed to fill up the disappointment with her, and not only because she took it upon herself to have an abortion.

Also because ...... What the?

She felt that she had been awakened by the cold, and she was still sitting on her pedal with her bedclothes, looking at the sky outside, it seemed that she had not slept for long.

The dinner that had been brought in on the table not long ago was still steaming, and she felt more energetic after sleeping for a while, so she propped herself up, threw her bedclothes onto the bed, and walked to the table step by step with her numb legs.

Something still has to be eaten, since he still plans to keep her, she still has a chance to live, so why kill herself.

Holding on to the edge of the table and sitting on the embroidery pier, Yuexiqiao picked up the chopsticks, and swallowed a few bites of the cold and hot. The dishes on the table looked exquisite and varied, but in fact they were just a few simple meats, vegetables and tofu that she had requested, and it must have taken a lot of effort to make them look and taste like this.

She ate hard one bite at a time, biting her chopsticks until her teeth hurt, perhaps because of this pain, her eyes turned red.

I remember that a few days ago, Xingru was like an inn, he and her ate at the same table for the first time, he carefully removed the thorns of fish meat for her, and then held the corner of his forehead to look at her obviously hungry and wanted to eat but could only chew slowly, and occasionally said "eat more" and "won't be fat". She didn't listen, she resolutely dropped her chopsticks, and at the end she would glare at him.

For some reason, I always felt that it wasn't the first time she had heard such a thing, and it wasn't the first time he had done something like that. And that time...... It's not the first time they've eaten together, maybe many, many times. Many times, he would remove the fishbones for her, watch her swallow, and tell her to "eat more".

But if that's the case, why doesn't she have any memories? From the age of fourteen to fifteen, in the year when he was by his side, why was there no little, a little, only a memory that belonged to the two of them, not at all?

She chewed the meat in her mouth vigorously, unconsciously swallowing the already tasteless food, and the bloody smell between her teeth turned into her lips. Maybe it was because I bit myself again, and the big tears fell into the bowl and hands like broken threads, and they didn't go into my mouth.

It's obviously delicious, but she doesn't think it's good, she feels a lot less, and it's so bad that she wants to cry.

If someone can look at her gently from the sidelines, and tell her that no matter how much she eats, she will not get fat, and she will look just as good when she is fat, and it will definitely be very delicious.

……

"This time I went to Shangzhou, whether it was in a brothel, or Xingru, or even on the way back, I tested her many times between words." Fu Xijing's eyes didn't have any waves, he closed them emptyly, and the fan that was synthesized into a bunch gently tapped on the palm of his hand, "...... At least she didn't go crazy as soon as she saw me. ”

Nanmen squinted at him. Since learning of Yuan Wennong's betrayal, two years have passed, and he has been able to completely show no one the clues in his look and voice, especially the emotional clues.

Even though he was very sad in his heart, there was no emotion in his eyes, and his tone was even more flat, as if he was saying something that had nothing to do with him.

Seeing that he was still like this to himself, Nanmen was sparsely teasing, and pretended not to understand and asked: "How much has Xiqiao forgotten about being with Gongzi in the past few years?" ”

"......" Fu Xijing's eyes were slightly sluggish, his long eyelashes trembled, he bit his lip, he didn't want to endure it anymore, and threw the fan on the bookcase, "I forgot that I only remember me." After a pause, he added, "And I asked her to work as a prostitute." ”

Nanmen sighed: "Wen Nong's move is really ruthless. "It's not just as simple as hypnotizing Xiqiao and making her forget Childe, but making her forget her and Childe's past little by little, forgetting those truly happy times, forgetting those promises and vows, and finally presenting an image of Childe who will only use her and hurt her in front of her.

Two years ago, on the eve of going to Phoenix Pavilion in front of Xiqiao, they learned Wen Nong's purpose, but at that time, it was too late to rush to Shangzhou to cut off Fu Yiyi's trip. At that time, Wen Nong and Xiqiao met for the last time, and hypnotized her to say that it was he Nanmen Shu who conveyed the instructions of the childe and asked her to use the demonic energy in her body to frame Xuan - Wen Nong told them plainly, nothing was hidden, but they didn't have time to stop everything from happening.

Xiqiao actually began to receive Wennong's hypnosis when he was in the Seven Star Sect, about after Childe decided to send Xiqiao to Shuijingxuan, under the influence of the stimulation and hypnosis of suddenly leaving Childe, Xiqiao began to slowly forget the days when he was with Childe, forget his kindness to her, forget his explanation and commitment to her, and only remember that he ruthlessly let her go to be a prostitute.

Not to mention that after Xiqiao had settled in a brothel, every time Gongzi returned to the king to report on his work, Wen Nong would take the opportunity to go to Shangzhou, and in the name of visiting her instead of Gongzi, in fact, he continued to strengthen her hypnosis, so that she kept forgetting, forgetting every word that Gongzi said, and only remembering those "bad".

However, when Wen Nong completely broke with Childe, he kindly reminded Xiqiao that he had forgotten a lot of memories that should not be forgotten at that time, and he had reached a critical point, and his consciousness was likely to completely collapse and become a madman at some point, and persuaded him not to appear in front of her immediately.

Especially when her meridians are completely destroyed and even her body is as fragile as a paper kite.

Childe knows a little about hypnosis, and knows that normal people can't be hypnotized all the time, and if the consciousness is changed frequently many times, it is entirely possible to cause a collapse. At that time, Xiqiao had been hypnotized intermittently by Wennong for more than four years, and his body was suddenly destroyed, and it was likely that he could not withstand such a blow, resulting in a complete collapse of consciousness.

And that blow was Childe - what was the image of Childe in Xiqiao's heart at that time? A demon who used her life to deal with decency and eventually hurt her to that point. If such a son appeared in front of her and explained the ins and outs to her, she would definitely not listen to it, and she would definitely be greatly stimulated until she went crazy.

Even if he persuaded Childe to give it a try, maybe the Childe in Xiqiao's heart may not be perfect because of memory, if Childe explained to her in time, maybe she would slowly accept it and trust Childe again.

It's just that Childe doesn't dare, the memories of four years of getting along day and night have been forgotten, and the feelings that arise and disappear on the basis of memories are not something that can be recalled by a few words of explanation from him. At that time, Xiqiao was at its most vulnerable, and his body and mind could no longer be stimulated, and he would not risk her life just because of that little "possibility".

Therefore, Childe "snubbed" Xiqiao for two years, although he would still see her once a month in the past two years, but he went to see her late at night, when she was already asleep. And Xiqiao's personal maid Yuqu has also been hypnotized for several years like Xiqiao, and from time to time she will coax Xiqiao's inferiority complex, saying that she is just a lowly prostitute. Although Yuqu is innocent, the people who have been controlled by Wennong must not continue to stay by Xiqiao's side, so Gongzi killed her ruthlessly and replaced the people around Xiqiao with Mingxiao.

In this way, Childe stayed for two years to restore Xiqiao's body and consciousness. Although Wen Nong did not hypnotize her again, her lost memories would not be restored by the suspension of hypnosis, so even if her consciousness became firm, there was still no childe among them, the real childe.

In the past two years, Xiqiao has gradually "figured it out", no longer feeling sorry for Childe's "use and ruthlessness", and has turned more concerned about Shui Jingxuan's sincere treatment of her disciples. Her consciousness is also because the people around her have become stronger again, more or less, Childe should be grateful to the people of Shui Jingxuan, grateful to Fu Yiyi who has never given up on her.

Maybe it's good to let Xiqiao live in Shuijingxuan and be her world-famous beauty, and for her, this is also the happiest and most complete choice. It's just that Childe is unwilling in the end, unwilling to let the person he has given so much and loved for so many years be a stranger to him like this, so he still wants to try again after her consciousness recovers, to see if she can recall her feelings for him.

It's just that I don't know when Xiqiao reached an agreement with Chongxiao Pavilion and volunteered to come to the Seven Star Sect as an undercover agent. It should have been after that that she began to look for a "destined person" again, looking for it every day, taking this only opportunity to wait for her son.

She probably thought that Childe would at least see her again and get rid of her useless pawn, and she could coax Childe not to kill her, but to keep her by her side, so that she could return to the head teacher smoothly.

It's not this that Gongzi is angry - but it can't be said that he is not angry at all, what he is most angry about is still the established between them, and there is no possible ending.

Xiqiao's memories could not be recovered, and he no longer loved him, and even took it upon himself to kill their first child, the only child, while still loving him. There was really nothing between them, no evidence that the two had ever loved each other that way, none of them.

But he couldn't blame her, after all, Wen Nong wanted to deal with only Childe, and Xiqiao was only targeted because he became Childe's sweetheart. Childe understands that everything Xiqiao is suffering now is because of himself, because he didn't protect her in the first place, and because he pushed her into the abyss from the beginning.