In 1955, in the third speed, there was a female teacher, named An Shaojuan, a native of Qinglong, transferred from the art troupe, teaching music, and dancing, innocent and lively, cheerful, hot and energetic, and everyone got along, divided into the natural group (naturalized physical and chemical group management), she often went down to understand the situation, diligent in tutoring students to learn, sometimes with me to tutor a class (at that time the teacher was a bag), for a long time, nothing to talk about. She saw that I usually had a "three-person turn" with Wu Guilan and Fu Zhimo, a woman and two ----men, and she was having a good time, and she seemed to have neglected her, so she often sulked.

Once, on the way to the classroom, she suddenly asked me, "Why don't you attack me?" "What a bold question! I didn't know how to answer at once. Halfway through, she said again: "Am I not beautiful?" "I'm even more proud! I had to say, "You're beautiful." It's too early to think about personal issues. She was a little annoyed, twisted herself and walked alone. Soon, the leaders sent her to the Southwest Military Region Teachers' Training School in Ba County to study middle school mathematics.

Immediately after that, I also went to the Southwest Military Region Teachers' Training School as a middle school teacher to study chemistry. The further study school is located in Bajun South Hot Spring (is a scenic spot), I studied in the same school with her, got along for more than half a year, almost inseparable, is love is not love, each other tacitly knows.

In that era, whoever fell in love would be punished, I was not a regiment-level cadre, who dared to risk the world's condemnation and try the "rules"! Later, she returned to Chuncheng to teach at the military cadre school (that is, Wang Gang's school). I also often go to her to play, and when we meet, everyone is very kind and casual. Every time I go to the dry school, as long as Wang Gang sees me, he smiles and says, "Looking for Xiao An, right?" I smiled and waved, "Go, go, go." After a while, she brought Xiao An and pushed me to the side: "Don't thank me yet?" He turned around and left, and left a sentence: "Come to my place for lunch later." ”

To be honest, I am almost twenty-seven years old, I really want to have a home, Xiao An is not bad in all aspects, and what is more valuable is that she has a strong sense of professionalism. Now, she has a heart, Nong is intentional, but discipline does not allow it, I don't have the courage to take a step beyond the thunder pool. Later, she transferred to the local area, and was in the Yuxi Lantern Troupe, and she also wrote from time to time, and sometimes I went to play with her.

One day, I received a letter and opened it to see that it was Zhang Jiuling's poem "Looking at the Moon and Huaiyuan": "The moon is born on the sea, and the end of the world is at this time." The lover complains about the night, and he is lovesick at night! The candles are extinguished, and the light is full, and the clothes are dewed. It's unbearable to give away, and it's a good time to sleep. It expresses her feelings of loneliness, loneliness, and melancholy. But I never dared to take the initiative to woo her.

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One day in June 1955, a meeting for the public trial of counter-revolutionaries was held in Chuncheng City in the square in front of the Victory Memorial Hall. On this day, there was a sea of people, and the momentum was huge, although it was raining lightly, but it was in order.

While listening to the content of the trial, Xiao Zhou gave me a small paper fold, and I opened it to see that it was two sentences from Du Fu's "Spring Hope": "The country is broken by mountains and rivers, and the spring city is deep in grass and trees" (just change "city spring" to "spring city"). I whispered to her, "Who wrote it?" She whispered to Teacher Zhang next to her with her hand, and I returned the note to her, signaling him to be silent.

Back at school, Xiao Zhou reported the situation to Team Leader Wang Yi, and she said: "Teacher Zhang wrote this note to me at the venue, and I feel that there is a problem here...... Wang Yi immediately felt that this was not a trivial matter, and he had to report it to the leadership.

At that time, we also felt that it was very inappropriate for these two lines to be thrown out at a public meeting of counter-revolutionaries.

Wang Yi frowned and said to me: "I am not highly educated, and I don't know much about ancient poetry, but on the surface, I don't seem to see any problems. Have you read this poem? ”

I said: "I have read it, these two poems are from the Tang Dynasty poet Du Fu wrote a quatrain - "Spring Hope", Du Fu experienced the Anshi Rebellion in the Tianbao period, witnessed the tragic scene of the Hu people's Anlu Mountain massacre and burning Chang'an, felt the pain of the people's displacement, the destruction of the family and the country, so he wrote this poem. I showed him the original poem:

"Spring Hope" Du Fu

The country is broken by mountains and rivers, the city is deep in spring, the flowers splash tears, and the hatred of farewell birds is frightening. The beacon fire lasted for three months, and the family letter was worth 10,000 gold, and the whitehead scratching was shorter, and the hairpin was overwhelming.

Wang Yi listened and nodded, "You have a good memory, and you are very familiar with poetry and background." ”

I smiled faintly and thought to myself, this kind of thing is too sensitive, don't talk nonsense.

Xiao Zhou looked at it and said, "The problem is here, Mr. Zhang changed 'Chengchun' to 'Chuncheng'." ”

Wang asked again: "Oh, in this way, what does Mr. Zhang mean by writing these two sentences in the public trial hall?" ”

Xiao Zhou said: "It should be a feeling, and the meaning is more obscure." ”

Wang Yi nodded, feeling that there was an "article" in it.

Later, Wang Yi said to us: "This matter is over here, don't spread it again." I will talk to Mr. Zhang, educate him, help him, and believe that he will correct his mistakes, so that this matter will not be expanded. ”

We all nodded.

I often warn that we must be honest and honest, do things in a down-to-earth manner, work hard, strengthen reform, abide by discipline and law, dare not say a word more, dare not take one more step, although I am a "three-door cadre" (that is, the family gate, the school gate, and the army gate), but I must also strengthen ideological transformation and strive to become an excellent teacher.

After the mission in the third speed is completed, all the teaching materials are merged into the first speed (in the city). Soon, Wu Guilan went to study at Chuncheng Institute of Technology, and Fu Zhimo was transferred back to Tianfu to work, and when I came back from studying in Ba County, they were all gone.