Nalan Jinxiu didn't expect that Ruyi, who has a big grinning temperament, could also see her abnormality. It seems that people will grow, and when Jixiang was in the past, Ruyi always relied on her for everything. Now I have learned to think for myself, and my temperament is much more sensitive than before.

"Yesterday he was so sick that it scared the hell out of me. It occurred to me that I usually only make some clothes for him, but I never make anything for him to wear. So I stayed up late to do this, hoping to stay by my side in the future, and remember that it was all the love that my mother gave him. ”

Ruyi listened to Nalan Jinxiu's explanation, and his heart settled down. She let go of her sleeves, bowed her head and said to Ji Boyan, "Little Master is lucky, because your mother loves you very much." ”

Ji Boyan was so young that he couldn't understand what the adults were saying, so he just poked his saliva-stained fingers in Nalan Jinxiu's face. Nalan Jinxiu looked at him with disgust and asked, "Are you dirty?"

Ji Boyan probably thought that his mother was teasing him, and suddenly laughed, his voice was very tender, but it was very good. Nalan Jinxiu couldn't help but laugh too: "Look at how you made my face like this, you're still embarrassed to laugh!"

Ji Boyan stuffed his finger into his mouth again. Nalan Jinxiu frowned, pulled out his little hand, turned his head to the nurse behind him and said, "You can't let the little young master eat his hands in the future, it's too unhygienic, and he will be prone to diarrhea." ”

Nurses have taken many children and know that children like this. This is the first time I've heard that you are not allowed to eat your hands, and I am a little puzzled. But she didn't dare to ask, only thinking that her wife would not let her eat, so she must take care of it, so as not to be punished when the time comes.

Nalan Jinxiu couldn't help but start to worry a little again, no matter how well the nurses took care of her, but after all, the starting point was just to be afraid of the master's punishment, and she couldn't treat him as her own child. The third brother is busy all year round and is not at home all day, if she leaves, the child is afraid that no one will know if she suffers.

"Ruyi, you must take a good look at your little master in the future. "Nalan Jinxiu now has three personal girls, but Ruyi has followed her for the longest time and is the person she can trust the most.

Ruyi thought that it must be because of the little master's eating hands, which made Mrs. unhappy. felt that the nurses were not attentive enough, so she was asked to supervise, so she nodded solemnly: "The slave will definitely take care of the little master." ”

Nalan Jinxiu looked at her lame foot, and felt a little bad in her heart, this girl was disabled for life in order to protect her. She once told herself that she must find a good home in the future. But now that she's leaving, how can she take care of her?

"Ruyi, if you have a favorite person in the future, or if you have a good place to go, go to the third master. He will definitely agree to let you out of the house for the sake of you taking care of the little master. ”

Ruyi looked down at her legs and whispered: "The slave is like this now, how can there be any good place, and the side of the lady is my best home." ”

Nalan Jinxiu couldn't say more, she was afraid that Ruyi would be suspicious. Everyone has their own fate, and the blessings and misfortunes are destined by God, and she can't take care of it so much now, but she feels sorry for her in her heart.

When she followed Pu Shaozi's guidance and arrived at the edge of the moat, she found that there were many people on the bank, and they all looked like couples. Each young man and woman had a river lantern in their hands, apparently coming to the shore to pray for blessings.

She went to a vendor stall selling lanterns and asked while picking up lanterns, "What's wrong today, why do so many people want to put lanterns?"

The lamp seller had a particularly prosperous business today, so he smiled: "Madame doesn't know, a phantom appeared on the edge of the moat this morning, and in that position, a lot of palaces and gold, silver and jewels appeared. ”

The peddler stood up and pointed it to her, not far from them. He seemed very excited when he talked about what he saw: "I also saw it at that time, and a palace appeared in the middle of the air shrouded in mist, and it must be the place where the gods lived. ”

Nalan Jinxiu understood that the illusion he was talking about should be a mirage. When she used to read essays, she had seen records. At first, she didn't believe it, but later found out that it was mentioned in many ancient books. So, she thought, it should be a natural phenomenon.

"So everyone came here to put river lanterns and pray for blessings?"

"Yes, no one thought that in their lifetime, they would be able to see the place where the gods lived. Maybe there are gods watching us, as long as we are sincere, maybe our wishes can come true. ”

Nalan Jinxiu took a lotus-shaped river lantern, paid for it, and walked to the river himself and put the river lantern into the water. She watched her lamp drift farther and farther away, couldn't help but close her eyes and fold her hands, and said secretly: "May my husband and children be safe and happy all their lives." ”

"What did you wish?"

A cold voice sounded beside him, making Nalan Jinxiu open his eyes instantly. She looked at the person who was squatting beside her to put the river lantern, subconsciously dodged back, and sat directly on the ground.

Zong Xuanyi frowned, and the expression on his face was very cold: "Are you so afraid of me?"

Nalan Jinxiu didn't know why he came, and she wasn't prepared at all. She felt that she had just lost her temper, and that it was a little embarrassing to see him like that! She stood up and beat her shirt with her hand until the dust on it had cleared and her dress was as smooth as ever.

"I'm asking you, why don't you answer?" Zong Xuanyi couldn't help but ask again when he saw that she ignored herself for a long time.

Nalan Jinxiu pretended not to hear it, and turned around to leave. She didn't want to have any entanglement with him, and Pu Shaozi should have called the third brother here, she was still very afraid that the third brother would see him and Zong Xuanyi together. She deliberately concealed it, and she couldn't live with the third brother. If he saw the two of them together, wouldn't he feel a chill?

Thinking of this, she realized that the third brother had cultivated Biluo Huangquan and became a ruthless and loveless person. At most, he would despise her and look down on her, but he would no longer feel sad or disappointed.

Because I don't love anymore!

Zong Xuanyi had been waiting for her to reply, but found that she hadn't looked at herself at all, only her eyes were empty and blank, as if she had lost her soul. can make her show this expression of loss, I'm afraid only Ji Hongye is the only one.

This realization made him very jealous, even in the previous life, when she relied on him so much, not as much as now. It seems that she really likes Ji Hongye. The more he thought about it, the more angry he became, and he couldn't help but say coldly: "Nalan Jinxiu, how long are you going to hide from me?"

Nalan Jinxiu stopped, she had been Xu Jinsheng for so long, and now she was not used to being called by her name. And she deliberately doesn't want to remember the past, and this name seems to be a tragedy.

"I'm asking you, why don't you answer, are you deaf or dumb!" Zong Xuanyi finally couldn't bear it anymore and burst into foul language.

Ever since he knew her true identity, he had suffered day and night, barely getting a good night's sleep. Every time she fell asleep with exhaustion, she would have a dream in which an arrow pierced her chest.

For several days in a row, he always had the same dream, and every time he died in pain. Therefore, his whole person is not in good spirits, and his body is even worse. Chen Zhi and the others were frightened, and invited many famous doctors for him, but the medicine stone did not work.

He knew that the real root of his illness was actually in his heart, so it was useless to take any medicine. Chen Zhi mentioned more than once that he wanted to invite Mrs. Ji to treat him, but he refused.

He thought about not disturbing her for the time being, and when her children were old enough to leave their mother, and then bring her back to him. Otherwise, she would have been thinking about that child, and he was a little selfish.

In the previous life, she would rather die than be with him again, which is why he did not dare to use strong means again. He thought that since Ji Hongye already knew the truth, it was impossible for the two of them to have no contradictions, and the longer the contradictions were backlogged, the more difficult it would be to clean them up.

He hoped that they would get tired of each other and not be forcibly torn apart by him. He didn't dare to let her hate him anymore, because he was afraid that in that case, she really refused to give him another chance, and they would really be doomed.

"I said I didn't know you, it's you who have been pestering you repeatedly!" Nalan Jinxiu was tired of him to the extreme.

"You say I'm pestering? I ask you to correct your attitude, and you must remember whose wife you are. As long as I don't divorce my wife for a day, you will never be able to leave me!"

"Your wife is Nalan Jinxiu, not me. ”

Zong Xuanyi was so angry that he gritted his teeth, and originally wanted to get along with her and let her accept her ideas again, but all of a sudden it was like being eaten by a dog. He held her arm tightly and snapped, "Is it fun to make a fool of yourself?"

Nalan Jinxiu shook his arm away vigorously. In the past, there was a huge disparity in strength between the two, and it was impossible for her to do it. But during this time, Zong Xuanyi has been sick, so the whole person is very weak, and when she tried her best, she actually threw him away.

Zong Xuanyi took a few steps back a little embarrassed, looking at the person opposite him, his eyes were full of bloodshots, and he looked like a child at a loss for a while. He wanted to catch her fiercely, but her hateful look discouraged him.

He never dared to think of the way she begged him with tears in her eyes, nor the way she looked at him from the crowd before she died. Because every time I think about it, it makes him feel painful.

He was afraid, he was afraid to see resentment in those sad eyes, to see what she could never forgive, what he had done to her, to see their future.

At this moment, the eyes he saw were completely different from before. Inside is resentment, hideous, and the eyes of a beautiful woman that can never appear.