Chapter 5 is wishful thinking
Yan'er has nothing in her head at the moment except feeling happy. Just thinking that Brother Aoki is really a decent gentleman, worthy of being the person he likes.
Quickly took off her essence, stepped into the bathtub and sat down, put on a huge amount of bath cream, and used her strength to scrub desperately and repeatedly, until her skin was rubbed red and red and painful, she refused to stop. By this time the water was already cold, and the night was deeper.
She wiped her body dry again. When I stepped out of the barrel, I suddenly realized that I didn't have any replacement clothes at all. She categorically won't wear the clothes she took off just now, not only will she not wear them again, but she also has to throw them away to relieve her anger. Yan'er supported her forehead, standing on the edge of the bed and didn't know what to do, the coolness of the cold night in early spring made her shiver and panting, and the clothes would be talked about tomorrow, and she pursed her lips and slipped into the quilt.
Brother Aoki is different from other men, when the wounds on his body festered and spread to the muscles and bones and made him unable to move, she washed his body, she saw almost every part of his body, although she was half-closed eyes to clean his wounds at the time, but she would still look through the half-closed eyes to sneak a glance. So much so that the relationship between them is more mysterious and casual. But it's not a couple.
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"Brother Aoki, come in"
Yan'er shuddered. As soon as the futon was tamped, he suddenly frowned strangely and reached out to grope into the quilt, and then frowned lightly, and actually pulled out a white stump sleeve from the quilt. What is it?
Long Aoki gently pushed open the door and walked in, closed the door again, and when he saw the clothes on the ground, he couldn't help but shake his head helplessly, he couldn't get his feet down! Leaning over to pick up a few pieces of Yan'er's clothes fluttering lightly on the cyan bamboo shelf, waving, a wisp of fragrance rushed to the face, this fragrance is not as sweet as flowers, fruity fragrance, fresh incense, fragrant, is a strange and never smelled faint and intoxicating fragrance, the sight can't help but fall on the bamboo frame,...... Long Qingmu frowned suddenly, what he was holding in his hand just now was Yan'er's peach pink belly pocket, and suddenly thought that she should not have changed her clothes, and now she is probably naked under the futon. The surging geese suddenly entrenched in Long Qingmu's heart, lingering, his heart was like a beating drum, and his whole body was so hot that his face was sweating. I should have prepared a change of clothes for her early, but somehow I forgot about it.
"Brother Aoki, you should go to sleep too"
The geese called softly.
Long Aoki moved and sat down on the floor.
The dim candlelight intimately concealed the embarrassment on Long Aoki's face, so that he would not be more embarrassed.
Yan'er asked eagerly, "Why is there a sleeve on the bed?"
Long Qingmu frowned and said embarrassedly: "When I help you cover the quilt...... I accidentally scratched it, so I was rolled up in the futon...... Don't care" I'm afraid she will break the casserole and ask to the end, just lightly pass by.
Yan'er let out an "oh", and suddenly seemed to think of something more important, and suddenly asked:
"Brother Aoki, you saved me that day, and what you gave me was the magic medicine Agatha, but it was taken by the bandits, did you get it back later? …… Why didn't you tell me it was the magic elixir Agatha? ”
Long Aoki was stunned for a moment when he heard this, and said softly:
"Well, take it...... Fortunately, it was in time,...... How do you know it's Agatha's? …… I didn't tell you that day because I didn't know what the wooden box was, only that it was a rare treasure! Tatsu Aoki struggled to straighten his tongue.
"Oh...... I also learned about it that day when I heard the fat pig and the bandit offer treasure," Yan'er recalled angrily.
"Fat pig?" Long Aoki looked puzzled.
"It's the villain who wants to marry me!" The geese gritted their teeth!
Long Aoki chuckled in his heart, and turned his head to look at the bed, "...... Why...... Will you get married suddenly? The words were urgent and anxious.
"I'm ......, it's a long story, after all, I don't want to and can't help it," Yan'er sighed slightly,
"I want to hear it," Tatsuki cut the railway.
Yan'er only felt that Brother Aoki was so eager to know why he got married suddenly, this was the performance of caring about her, and his heart was warm, so he told him everything that had happened, from his father being deceived into gambling to his desperate way to save his father, to how he heard how Ajata was humiliated by the bandits, and focused on describing how he was forced and reluctant. And the reason for this reluctance is not only because the person is vulgar, ugly, disgusting, despicable, and shameless, but also because he belongs to someone, so he is unwilling to marry a wife.
Long Aoki listened carefully, her father's gambling addiction, and the despicable deeds of those people were all presented in front of his eyes one by one with her story, which made his heart burn with anger and indignation, he must make those who bullied her pay a terrible price! When Yan'er talked about the disgusting of the fat pig and the shamelessness of the bandits, Long Qingmu's eyes were full of murderous energy, and if he dared to covet his woman, he was bound to let them die a good death! He didn't expect that the disciples of the Futu Sect, who had risen rapidly on the rivers and lakes, put down the eight masters of martial arts in just one year, and were known for their iron and bloody skills, and made people talk about the tiger's color, actually wandered to this remote and poor country, is there any ulterior secret in this? Why did the people of Futumen know the guy who forcibly married Yan'er? ……
I didn't see so many things happening for half a year, if I was by Yan'er's side, I wouldn't let her be aggrieved, but ...... What can he do? Take her back to Lingyun Castle? Although he is a young castle master, there are several young castle masters in Lingyun Castle! Besides, his father doesn't seem to be particularly fond of him, every time he is assigned a task is extremely dangerous, even if he is covered with scales and bruises, he will not slack off, saying that the blades are sharpened from the sharpening, and it can be made into steel by a hundred refinements, and that Aoki still has a lot of shortcomings, and you must work harder to make up for the shortcomings......
And the most terrible thing is that his father has absolute control over his marriage, and his wife's choice of father seems to have long meant the second lady of the Murong family,............ Long Qingmu frowned deeply, his face was gloomy, and he lowered his head in frustration, stopping his chaotic thoughts, and his heart was only uncomfortable and at a loss. But in the end, he still heard the meaning of Yan'er's words. She...... Is she happy with herself? He vaguely knew her thoughts, and every time he looked at him, he was the faint and stunningly bright eyes; Braving the wind and rain to hold a broken oil-paper umbrella, just so that he could eat on time, he still remembered that when the rain was slowly dripping down her eyelashes and beautiful chin, her face was as beautiful as a spring lotus after the rain, and a cute little elk named Xinding crashed into Long Aoki's originally closed heart; When he recovered from his injuries and stood in the sun, tears in his eyes, and took her soft little hand, her crimson and shy eyes, he seemed to see countless invisible pink bubbles floating in the air. He knows. But even so, he still didn't want to be trapped by love. Don't be confused, don't be trapped in love, you can be at ease. This is also what my father taught him by word and deed, and I hope he must keep it in mind.
Time seemed to freeze, the goose nested in the quilt, staring at him through the hazy candlelight, for a long time, Long Aoki only said a word
"When I finish the important business at hand, I will help you take care of those bad people"
Yan'er thought to herself, that's all? After a few more moments, but he never spoke again, she finally understood that he did not seem to want to respond to her lovesickness. Looking at the geese through the autumn water, they became gloomy and sad.
I can't bear him to be so embarrassed, I can't force him to fall in love with him just because he saved his life in the first place! But Yan'er's intuition quietly told herself that Long Aoki was different from others to her. I vaguely feel that there is drama in my heart.
pouted abruptly, and said with emotion:
"I drank the mushroom water...... Why didn't he die? She was really confused.
"Mushroom water? …… Is the mushroom boiled? Long Aoki raised his eyes and said with a whimper.
"Uh,...... Hmm" the goose is out of breath. She remembered that he had told her not to make poison without authorization, the poison was ruthless, and she was not familiar with pharmacology, so she was afraid that if she accidentally spilled it on her hands, eyes, face, etc., then the Daluo Immortals would be unable to return to heaven. Listen to him say that people who deal with poison are often themselves poisonous.
Long Aoki was frightened for a while, he wanted to say something but couldn't find a breakthrough, and he only felt panicked in his heart. I only remember that she said that she would rather die than marry someone she doesn't like. It seems that he indirectly harmed her.
He lowered his eyes gloomily, staring quietly at his slightly helpless hand, thoughtfully.
Yan'er asked with white eyes:
"Why didn't I die? I've seen goats eat this mushroom with purple patterns on a white background by mistake, and in a few moments they will die of rotten sores all over their bodies," said the sores in his tone with a hint of excitement.
Long Aoki's heart suddenly burst out, and he said sharply:
"Yan'er, you are really so cruel to yourself"
Yan'er was taken aback by Long Aoki's sudden attack, she thought she had heard it wrong, for a moment, after confirming that she had not heard it wrong, Yan'er glanced at Long Aoki with an inexplicable expression, he was saying that he was ruthless, he actually said that he was ruthless?
Instantly furious:
"I ...... What is ruthlessness? …… Who is not afraid of death? What girl would want to be covered in sores? Who wants to be tortured like that if it weren't for necessity? …… Could it be that Brother Aoki wants me to be a rooster and dog thief for the rest of my life? Or should we succumb to the cowards and bandits and steal their lives? The more Yan'er said, the more aggrieved she felt, this Aoki brother actually said that he was ruthless, he didn't understand himself at all, his nose became more and more sour, and his tears were lifted in the blink of an eye, tears were like rain, could he still do something wrong? Should you accept your fate to let the fat man marry him, and let the bandit rape him to be called ruthless?
Long Aoki's body stiffened when he heard the cry, and he quickly got up and ran to the edge of the bed to look at her, only to see that her body was covered with a futon, and her hand tightly pulled the corner of the quilt against her chin. Long Aoki was so anxious that he hurriedly explained
"Yan'er, you misunderstood me, I didn't mean what you thought...... I just don't want you to give up your life casually, you have to know that there is hope when there is life, and when life is gone, there is no meaning in anything."
When Yan'er heard this, she only cried even more, what casually gave up her life, it was a matter of women's honor, how could it be called casual abandonment. He really doesn't love himself, so he will feel that his name is not important, if it is the person he likes who is trivialized, he will not be so indifferent! The more Yan'er thought about it, the more sad she became, tears welled up, and even the air seemed to flow with a sadness that was visible to the naked eye. Said abruptly
"I know, you want me to be raped by that bandit, and robbed and married by that fat pig."
A biting chill swept over her and surrounded her, and Yan'er said in a cold voice:
"You came to chase me that day in Old Worm Mountain, presumably only because your Agata is still with me!"
Long Aoki was so upset by her crying that he was anxious, and he didn't know what to do, so he listened to her angry words and went straight to the point with a wild bombardment, Long Aoki's heart couldn't help but be shocked, and his face changed greatly.
I thought to myself, isn't this getting darker and darker? Where did he say that he wanted her to be raped and forcibly married by someone, not at all! He just wanted to tell her that at the critical moment when fame and life cannot coexist, she must choose life, even if she loses her fame, as long as she has life, she has the opportunity to turn the tables and rekindle her hope.
A gentleman takes revenge, ten years is not too late, this sentence was told to him by his father.
When I came to chase her that day, it was indeed because of Agatha, and this thing had to be brought back to restore her life. Second, because of Yan'er, of course he would not be willing to let go and see him marry another woman. If there was no Agatha, then this lovely man would have died because of poisoning. I must regret it, where can I talk to her here?
She was born so beautifully, I feel pitiful, and a man will covet it, this is an established fact. Of course, he would never want anyone to touch her, whoever despised her, he would definitely dismantle that person, peel her skin and cramp, he cared about the honor, but he cared more about whether she was safe or not. Of course, he will definitely do his best to protect her and will not let her be light to anyone. It's just that his current situation doesn't allow him to keep her by his side! He can't! And at this time, Keren still looks willful and ignores his own life! It seems that the next time she is not around, she will be accidentally slighted again, and she will choose to get rid of it. How can this be good, do you want to tie her to your trouser belt at all times, take her deep into the Longtan Tiger's Den to charge, and then let her die for life? Not to mention that the enemy is like a forest, the father alone will not be able to pass this level no matter what! With his father's thunderous means, he will definitely ruthlessly get rid of the lovely son to maintain his dignity as a father.
Still is...... Or hide her so that no man has a chance to covet her?
Long Qingmu was anxious, and his thoughts from all sides were intertwined into knots, making a mess.
He only knew that the only thing he hoped for was that when he was successful in the ninth transformation, he would take this lovely person with him like glue and never separate. But before that, you have to have a life!
Long Aoki saw that Yan'er was crying breathlessly, crying until the green tendons on his face that he was biting the corners of the futon, and the quilt was shaking violently, as if he would cry in the next second.
Don't cry like this anymore. wanted to get closer to appease her, but because he couldn't find the entry point, he couldn't start, his hand could only stop in the air indiscriminately, he was anxious, like an ant on a hot pot, just thinking about whether it was good to explain clearly, she could really cry blind her eyes, sighed hard, and said earnestly and sincerely:
"Yan'er, don't cry, I will try my best to protect you, but within the scope of my care, if you are in prison, you must wait for me to come to the rescue, instead of giving up your life before you can wait for me."
He could only explain so much, and he didn't want to say more, he was indeed here for her that day, but he didn't want to tell her, he just hoped that she wouldn't be unreasonable again.
Yan'er was now crying and forgetting herself, where could she listen to his nonsense, she didn't understand why he couldn't tell her straightforwardly, that he had come for her alone, not because of Agatha, and that he would never let her be coveted and hurt by anyone again, he would...... He will always take her with him day and night. Even...... She hoped that the rest of her life would give him the joy of regain, that he would re-examine his heart, realize his importance in his heart, and promise to marry her. But...... Everything was very different from what she had imagined, he ...... I don't love myself at all!
Thinking about it like this, he began to cry even harder.
Long Aoki had collapsed, and his headache was splitting.
He reasoned with her earnestly, but she insisted on wondering why she was chasing the sedan chair that day.
Sure enough, my father was right, women are trouble! It is better to spend your mind on strategizing, ascending, and seeking martial arts.
Waving hands,
"Yan'er, don't be unreasonable anymore, it's late at night, what will happen tomorrow"
After that, he sat straight on the floor and sighed, his eyes were hollow and sorrowful, and he shook his head gently, no longer paying attention to the geese, and he didn't want to bother more. Let her figure it out for herself! I will only paint darker and darker. Pull the futon and lie sideways with his back to the direction of the bed, closing his eyes and recuperating, but his heart is full of sorrow.
The more Yan'er drilled into the sadness, the more she fell into it, unable to extricate herself, no matter how much she changed her tricks and tone to cry, Brother Aoki turned a deaf ear.
I don't know how long I cried until I couldn't cry, and Brother Aoki didn't coax her, and she had no motivation to cry.
But this heart is really broken, he doesn't coax her, let himself cry, it's really hard-hearted! The heart that tore himself and the coiled out was bloody, and he couldn't fight it together. He really doesn't love himself! He...... He didn't love himself in the first place! Yan'er's brain boomed, and she was suddenly frightened by this fact. It turns out that he cares about her and treats her well just because he once saved his life and repays her kindness! In fact, she has always known in her heart, but it is because of her own illusion that she has a dream bubble that she does not give up. Now even that last haul is gone.
A flower is a world, a leaf is a pursuit, a song is a sigh, a life is a person.
It seems that everything is my own wishful thinking! The goddess has a heart, but King Xiang has no intention! After all, it's just a mistake.
The night is as cold as water, and the lonely pillow is sleepless, tossing and turning.
Yan'er silently swore in her heart:
I, Lin Hongyan, don't be wishful thinking anymore.