Chapter 196: Still Worried About What I'm Doing (Second Update)
Shen Bai, do you think it's better for me to die at that time?
Shen Bai felt that his eardrums were buzzing, and he couldn't believe that this sentence came out of Gu Hengzhou's mouth.
He is the prince of Zhenguo, the youngest and most promising Gu Hengzhou in Zhaoling, he should be as dazzling as the warm sun, and be looked up to and sought after by everyone, how could he say such a thing?
The young man who was cold and lonely all around him seemed to have been sucked away by his life, and when he had nothing to lose, he became cautious.
Shen Bai knew that Brother Gu in the previous life put on a sad and joyful face after abandoning responsibility and morality and abandoning benevolence and kindness, and he smashed everything that originally belonged to him in exchange for her rebirth, which already made her heart ache, and now she wants her to personally turn Gu Hengzhou, who should have been high-spirited, into this, it is better to kill her directly.
This is Gu Hengzhou.
How could she turn him into this?
Shen Bai's eyes turned red instantly, he held Gu Hengzhou's hand, and said firmly: "I have never thought like this, and please don't have such thoughts no matter when." ”
After being held by the counter-hand, Gu Hengzhou's eyes flashed slightly, and he continued to ask: "Then in your heart, what point is I not as good as him?" ”
He still remembered that at the end of the reimeng, Shen Bai said that the person she loved was not him.
That person has the same background, the same family background, the same appearance, and the same character, but it is not him after all.
Shen Bai's tone and demeanor at that time had been constantly emerging in Gu Hengzhou's mind during this time, he kept thinking day and night, wanting to distinguish the advantages and disadvantages, but he couldn't understand why that person was the same as him everywhere, but he couldn't be him.
Gu Hengzhou looked at Shen Bai fixedly after asking, and waited patiently for her to answer.
Shen Bai shook his head and said without hesitation: "There is no place where you can't compare to him." ”
Your family background is the same, and you are also the pride of the sky, but the father and uncle you admire are still alive, and the Hanjing school captain camp you care about is also good, the Guogong Mansion is still your home, as long as you go back, you are the master of the Guogong Mansion.
He is different, he has lost his loved ones, he is used to seeing bloody storms, he is more indifferent and ruthless than you, and he is more indifferent and unkind, he is less sincere than you.
But he was desperate to destroy himself in a rather resolute manner, in exchange for my rebirth.
No one in this time and space will know who he is, and no one will remember what he has done for Zhaoling, if there is no trip to Nanxiang, he will bear the curse of joy and sorrow alone, wander the world, and walk in purgatory.
He only has me.
Shen Bai didn't know how to explain to Gu Hengzhou, before she met Gu Hengzhou, she could treat Brother Gu and Gu Hengzhou as two different individuals very rationally, but now Gu Hengzhou was standing in front of her, looking at her very seriously, as if listening to a very important tactical strategy.
She reminded Shen Bai all the time that what was sitting in front of her was Gu Hengzhou, who was alive and had not experienced the pain of the previous life, he who was indifferent in front of everyone in Tai Academy as soon as she woke up, and it was she who announced to the people of Quanhanjing that she liked him and wanted to be with him desperately, and she deliberately teased him to embed herself in his world.
He refused to doubt it, and finally chose to believe that he gave up all his net worth, used the military exploits of the Gu family for generations and himself as a guarantee, and asked Emperor Hengde to allow her the position of county lord and give her the most beautiful wedding, and he also thought about everything for her, and bought a house in Beijing early, not hesitating to tear his face with his own uncle to protect her, and he sent his personal servant who had been with him for more than ten years to her to protect her.
is obviously his heart that moves later, but when he uses love, he is much deeper than Shen Bai.
Now he has done nothing wrong, but Shen Bai wants to leave him behind because of a bizarre and strange dream.
Not to mention Gu Hengzhou, even Shen Bai put aside his personal feelings and looked at this matter from the perspective of a bystander, and felt that he had gone too far.
It was she who owed Brother Gu, why did she let Gu Hengzhou repay it?
But she knew that Brother Gu was now suffering the curse of joy and sorrow, how could she be with Gu Hengzhou with peace of mind?
Shen Bai had never been so entangled, she felt as if there were two invisible forces, constantly pulling her soul from two different directions, and she couldn't wait to split herself in half to atone for her sins.
Gu Hengzhou is not a stupid person, when he was in Tai Academy, the reason why his literary cultivation was slightly lower than Shen Bai was only because he was too upright, did not know how to be flexible, and his words were too cold and hard, which was not enough to please those pedantic old masters.
Gu Hengzhou clearly remembered what happened in the spirit dream, as well as the words that Shen Bai said at the end, after these years of pondering, although he felt incredible, he still guessed the cause and effect, and said in a deep voice: "In the dream before, you said that I was reborn in your place, so you have to end all this, in my memory, I have never done such a thing." ”
Shen Bai shook his head and said in a low voice: "It's true that you didn't do it, it's ......"
"It's another me who did it." Gu Hengzhou preemptively answered, and continued under Shen Bai's surprised gaze, "That I lost my father who was the Duke of Zhenguo in the late spring of this year, and Yuanfeng County was also captured by the enemy army in Yuexi, and for many years after that, I have been fighting bloodily in the field, but I died at the hands of the enemy general in Yuexi not long after I recaptured Yuanfeng County, right?" ”
All right.
Shen Bai nodded sneeringly, Gu Hengzhou looked at Shen Bai with a solemn face, and noticed that her palms were sweating with nervousness, let go of her hand, took a handkerchief to help her wipe her sweat, and continued: "Later, you died for some reason, and I, who should have died a long time ago, used extraordinary methods to make you return to your youth, so you thought that you could change the future, and finding me changed the direction of many things." ”
"Yes."
Shen Bai nodded, inexplicably relieved, in fact, he should have made it clear a long time ago.
In this world, the prince of Zhenguo is still there, the captain camp of Hanjing is still there, Gu Hengzhou can marry whoever he wants to be the princess, while nothing has happened to them now, she can help Brother Gu lift the curse of joy and sorrow with peace of mind, if Providence wants Brother Gu to be gone, she will not survive in the world, and Gu Hengzhou can continue to live his life.
He will make a lot of feats like in the previous life, become the god of war of the new generation of Zhaoling, and marry a very good wife as the wife of the commander, he will ......
"Did you see me?" Gu Hengzhou's calm and cold voice interrupted Shen Bai's thoughts, Shen Bai came back to his senses, looked at Gu Hengzhou blankly and asked, "What?" ”
Gu Hengzhou let go of Shen Bai's hand, put the handkerchief aside, and asked word by word: "This time you went to Nanxiang and saw me who replaced you and was reborn?" ”
Shen Bai pursed his lips, not knowing how to answer, Gu Hengzhou continued: "Do you think you owe him a life, he lives alone in this world, so you can't let him go and be with me?" ”
It seems that this logic is right, Shen Bai subconsciously wanted to nod, but soon realized that it was wrong, shook his head again and again, and justified rationally: "What I like is Brother Gu, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't belittle you in Tai Academy, and I wouldn't do so many deviant things, you...... You won't have as many opportunities to contact me, and you won't like me. ”
"What did you do before that to make that person like you?"
Gu Hengzhou asked rhetorically, Shen Bai was speechless, she couldn't remember what she had done that Brother Gu liked, Brother Gu's liking in the previous life was too secret and hard to find, if it weren't for meeting Brother Gu wearing a sad and joyful face in this time and space, Shen Bai would have always felt that she was wishful thinking for Gu Hengzhou.
Gu Hengzhou was not surprised by Shen Bai's reaction, and said: "Even if you don't come back here from the future and don't do those deviant things, I will like you, it has nothing to do with what you do." ”
Gu Hengzhou's logic was too strict, and Shen Bai couldn't refute it.
She stiffened her face and didn't say a word, the room was silent for a while, and Gu Hengzhou started a new topic and asked, "What do you want to do after leaving me?" Everything in the world has a fate, and I should have paid a lot of price in order to exchange for your rebirth, you don't want to use your life to bring everything back to square one, right? ”
Gu Hengzhou has never believed in ghosts and gods, but he said this so much, Shen Bai habitually answered: "Gu Hengzhou, why do you talk so much like a monk now?" ”
Gu Hengzhou didn't answer, he looked at Shen Bai directly, waiting for her to answer the question just now.
Shen Bai licked his lips and said, "I have been reborn, it should be impossible to bring everything back to the original point, but Brother Gu has endured too much for me, I will never pretend not to know, I have to do something for him." ”
Gu Hengzhou's thinking was too quick, and he instantly pointed out the key: "It has something to do with what the Dongfang family entrusted you to do?" ”
Shen Bai nodded, Gu Hengzhou didn't ask any more, slowed down his tone after a while, and said in a consultative tone: "Shen Bai, when you were in Tai Academy, you didn't say hello to me, and then you announced that you liked me and didn't get my consent, and now I have asked Your Majesty to ask Your Majesty to marry us in the future, even if you want to give up on me, you have to say goodbye to me, don't you?" ”
Shen Bai was at a loss, hung his head and said with little confidence: "Gu Hengzhou, I'm sorry." ”
She has only liked such a person in her upper and lower lives, and now that she is about to achieve positive results, this one person will suddenly become two people, and she doesn't know what to do.
I really don't have much experience.
Gu Hengzhou didn't get angry with her, and still said calmly: "I have been recuperating from my injuries in Lingzhou for more than a month, and I should go back to Beijing to explain the situation, and you will return to Beijing with me in two days, I won't stop you from doing what you want, but we also have a marriage contract, before doing anything, I hope you can discuss it with me first." ”
Gu Hengzhou showed a very reasonable appearance, Shen Bai became more and more weak, and said weakly: "Your injury is still very serious, I am afraid that it will ...... after a long journey."
Not good.
Before the last two words were finished, Gu Hengzhou interrupted coldly, looked at her coldly and asked, "Since you have decided to give up on me, what are you still worried about my body?" ”
“……”