Chapter 195: Isn't It Better If I'm Dead? (1st Update)

Shen Bai didn't know how to respond, but he could feel Gu Hengzhou tighten his arms and hug her tighter.

After a while, Gu Hengzhou said, "I won't marry someone else." ”

He was actually not completely awake in Lingmeng, but he remembered from beginning to end that the person he liked was Shen Bai, and he couldn't be good to other women.

How the matter of marrying Su Xiaoqiu was decided Gu Hengzhou couldn't remember clearly, it seemed that someone just notified him, and this matter became a tacit fact for everyone.

After waking up from the dream, Gu Hengzhou thought about the things in the dream many times, and he felt that the most unreasonable thing in the dream was that he was forced to marry Su Xiaoqiu.

In the dream, he already has military exploits, although he moved out of the Guogong Mansion, the exploits earned by the ancestors of the Guogong Mansion are still there, Gu Tingge is unloading his armor and returning to the field, but the Zhenbei Army is still there, even if Zhao Che intends to give marriage to restrain him, he will discuss it with him, as long as he doesn't nod, no one can enter the Grand Commander's Mansion, let alone sit on an equal footing with Shen Bai.

Although this dream was very real, as if it had really happened, these irrationalities still made Gu Hengzhou suppress his anxiety and treat it as a dream until he saw Shen Bai again.

He didn't get the news that Shen Bai was going back to Zhaoling in advance, but the soldier who took Shen Bai to the state mansion always felt uneasy, and after Shen Bai left, he still returned to the state mansion and told the state government about the situation.

At that time, he happened to be next to him, knowing that Shen Bai had come to the state mansion, but he didn't come in, and only stood at the gate for a while before going to the city inn to stay.

Almost at that moment, Gu Hengzhou was sure that it was the problem of the dream.

After meeting Shen Bai at the inn, Shen Bai's various small details of evasion and resistance let Gu Hengzhou know that he was not the only one who had that dream, but Shen Bai also dreamed.

This realization made Gu Hengzhou's heart sink for more than a month.

He remembered that every time Shen Bai stood at the gate while pregnant and watched him go to the barracks, he was helpless and lonely; remembered that on the day Shen Bai gave birth, he sat alone in the courtyard and suffered great pain; remembered that Shen Bai was standing on the street with a pale face when he came out of confinement, being pointed at by everyone, as if he had been abandoned by the whole world.

Many, many of these moments, he was not by her side.

He gave her the title of the Grand Commander's Wife, but as if he was using it as a shackle, he broke her wings and trapped her whole person in a square inch, and she could never see the demeanor that Shen Xiaoye should have again.

With a pain in his heart, Gu Hengzhou continued: "In the future, when we get married, I will not leave you alone, I will always protect you and not let you be hurt in any way, no matter what happens, I will not marry another." ”

His tone was solemn and solemn, as if he was more afraid than Shen Bai that the dream would become a reality in the future.

Shen Bai's eyes couldn't help but heat up, grabbed his collar and panted lowly, she couldn't breathe because of this heavy bondage, but she still forced herself to say calmly: "Gu Hengzhou, I ......"

Gu Hengzhou, the person I like has never been you.

Shen Bai wanted to tell Gu Hengzhou what she said at the end of Lingmeng, but as soon as she got up, she heard Gu Hengzhou snort.

His thoughts were interrupted, and Shen Bai hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?" ”

Gu Hengzhou let go of Shen Bai and said in a dumb voice, "It's okay." ”

Is this okay?

Shen Bai didn't believe it, he immediately got up and got out of bed and lit the lamp, Gu Hengzhou was lying on the bed with his chest covered, his forehead was already sweating, and the situation was very bad when he saw it.

"I'll take you to the hospital right away!" Shen Bai said in a deep voice, dressed in three or two, and directly put Gu Hengzhou on himself, Shen Qi was still asleep in the corner of the bed, Shen Bai hesitated, did not call him, and helped Gu Hengzhou out of the inn first.

It was almost time, there was no medical hall open in the city, Shen Bai knocked on the two houses, and sent him back to the Lingzhou Prefecture at Gu Hengzhou's suggestion.

The state capital also had a concierge to keep vigil, and when he saw Gu Hengzhou being helped back, he immediately called his subordinates to get up and serve.

Shen Bai sent Gu Hengzhou back to the room, and after a while, the doctor came, and as soon as he entered the door, Shen Bai and the doctor were a little surprised.

It was no one else who treated Gu Hengzhou, but Imperial Doctor Zhang, and Imperial Doctor Zhang was also a little surprised, but at this time, he didn't care about catching up with Shen Bai, so he rushed to the side of the bed first to untie the gauze to help Gu Hengzhou check the injury.

The wound was a little cracked, and a lot of blood was shed, Imperial Doctor Zhang gave Gu Hengzhou medicine to stop bleeding and reduce inflammation, and explained in a serious tone that Gu Hengzhou couldn't run around, and he had to recuperate.

Gu Hengzhou stiffened his face and didn't respond, Imperial Doctor Zhang frowned and looked at Shen Bai, Shen Bai hesitated and responded: "I will help supervise Captain Gu's healing." ”

Imperial Physician Zhang was relieved at this time, and spared his energy to ask Shen Bai: "Aren't you in Nanxiang?" Why did you come back by yourself, Uncle Guo? ”

"Uncle still has something to do in Nanxiang, so let me come back first." Shen Bai said briefly, Imperial Doctor Zhang didn't care about the court, and took the opportunity to diagnose Shen Bai's pulse, and said strangely: "I was worried that you wouldn't take good care of yourself when you went to Nanxiang, but I didn't expect that this time, your body is very well recuperated, but the climate over there is different from Zhaoling?" ”

Shen Bai thought about it carefully, it seemed that except for when he first met Shen Qi, when he was frozen by Shen Qi's cold air, he had unbearable abdominal pain, and there was no abdominal pain in the next two times.

Shen Bai couldn't tell if this was caused by the incense-making technique or the influence of the climate, so he only vaguely replied.

This toss came to Yin, and after making sure that Gu Hengzhou had no other adverse reactions, Imperial Doctor Zhang yawned and went to rest, Shen Bai was also very sleepy after a few days, Gu Hengzhou beckoned to her, "Come here." ”

Shen Bai walked over, he was not pretentious, took off his shoes and lay down next to Gu Hengzhou.

Even if there is a big event, I will wait until she wakes up and will talk about it tomorrow.

There was no dream all night, and Shen Bai slept peacefully this night.

When I woke up the next day, it was three poles on the sun, the side was empty, Gu Hengzhou was not there, Shen Bai stared at the bed tent in a daze and didn't want to get up, and there was a complaining accusation in his ears: "Bad guy!" ”

Tilting his head, Shen Qi put his hands around his chest, hanging cross-legged in the air, there was a cluster of flames in the center of his eyebrows, his eyes drooped, and there was a lot of evil qi around his body.

Shen Bai was a little weak-hearted, knowing what Shen Qi was angry about, and hurriedly said: "I didn't want to leave you, there was an accident last night, I saw that you slept soundly so I didn't wake you up." ”

Shen Bai sat up, wanting to soothe Shen Qi in his arms, and just took a step forward, Shen Qi's sharp claw tips were exposed, and he said angrily: "Liar, I don't believe what you say!" ”

Speak as you speak, what do you do with bright paws? Bullying for a mother doesn't have nails, right?

Shen Bai stopped, tried to reason with Shen Qi, and said, "Think about it, my luggage is all in the inn room, I didn't take anything, I definitely want to go back to get something, how can I leave you alone?" ”

Shen Qi didn't care so much, and said with a small face: "I'm still so young, you don't worry about someone bullying me." ”

“……”

Shen Bai was speechless, he wanted to roll his eyes, although he looked small and his mind was not an adult, but he had lived for almost two hundred years, and he was raised as a Gu spirit by Yuanjun before, ordinary people couldn't see him, and ordinary people estimated that they would have to take a detour when they saw him, it was good if he didn't bully others, how could anyone bully him?

However, Shen Qi was angry, Shen Bai didn't dare to tell the truth, and coaxed him to say: "Of course my mother is worried about you, just now I was still worried about you being bullied in my dreams, didn't I just wake up and prepare to go back to the inn to find you?" ”

Shen Qiyi slammed his paws on the table, knocked all the teapots to the ground, and said angrily: "Liar, you haven't slept until now, you don't care about me at all, you just don't want me anymore!" ”

The teapot smashed on the ground and made a loud noise, Shen Bai was startled, and was about to continue coaxing people, Gu Hengzhou pushed the door in, he couldn't see Shen Qi, he only glanced at the mess on the ground, looked at Shen Bai and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

Shen Bai smiled dryly, shook his head and said, "It's okay, I accidentally slipped and dropped the teapot." ”

Gu Hengzhou swept around the room again, found nothing abnormal, walked up to Shen Bai, and asked, "But you're not feeling well?" ”

Shen Bai shook his head, afraid that Gu Hengzhou would find something abnormal, but he couldn't help but look at Shen Qi.

Seeing that Shen Bai didn't refute those words, Shen Qiyue became angry, his mouth grinned, and like when he first met, he showed his tiny fangs, his mouth made a snoring sound, and the flame in his eyebrows turned red, as if it was really burning.

This little devil is going crazy again.

Shen Bai's heart hung up, she didn't care about herself, but Gu Hengzhou was still injured at this moment, and it would not be good if she was hurt by this little devil.

Shen Bai didn't expect a good excuse to take Gu Hengzhou away, and two raging flames condensed on Shen Qi's two fat paws, and his eyes gradually turned red.

Shen Bai's brain was hot, and he shouted "Be careful" and blocked in front of Gu Hengzhou.

Shen Qi smashed the two flames at Gu Hengzhou, the heat wave hit first, Shen Bai was a little scared but didn't let go, but the flames didn't hurt Shen Bai, and the fire went out halfway through the flight, and the snoring in Shen Qi's mouth turned into a muffled cry of pain, and then fell to the ground and rolled around.

Of course, Shen Bai couldn't really be angry with such a child, seeing Shen Qi like this, he hurriedly rushed over to hug him, and asked nervously, "Son, what's wrong with you?" ”

When the words fell, Dongfang Ying's voice sounded: "He's fine, but his temper is too irritable, and he needs to lower his anger." ”

Dongfang Ying snapped his fingers after speaking, Shen Qi stopped rolling, and the flame between his eyebrows also dimmed, Shen Qi suffered a lot, and he didn't dare to act rashly, when he saw Gu Hengzhou, his eyes lit up, and he wanted to pounce on Gu Hengzhou, Shen Bai pinched the back of his neck and caught him back, and the calf protector frowned and looked at Dongfang Ying, and said dissatisfiedly: "How old are you, why are you still bullying children?" ”

Dongfang Ying didn't care, raised his chin as if watching a good show, and reminded Shen Bai: "Instead of arguing with me here, it's better to think about how to explain this matter." ”

Shen Bai's body stiffened, and he finally remembered that Gu Hengzhou was standing behind him at this moment, witnessing everything that had just happened.

Shen Bai drove Dongfang Ying out of the room, and then sat down in front of Gu Hengzhou and said, "Do you have anything you want to ask?" ”

Gu Hengzhou couldn't see Shen Qi, and asked after a while of silence with a stiff face, "Your son?" ”

It's not biological, either.

Shen Bai coughed lightly twice, and said uncomfortably: "It's okay, this matter is very complicated to explain, when I was in Nanxiang, he drank a drop of my blood, and recognized me as a mother, I also have some relationship with him, my uncle asked me to raise him for a thousand days, so I will at least be his mother for a thousand days." ”

Gu Hengzhou snorted and stopped talking, Shen Bai sat for a while, looked at him and asked, "Don't you have anything else to know?" You can't even see him, aren't you afraid that I'm evil? ”

Gu Hengzhou lifted his eyes to look at her, his eyes were serious, and he said, "I can accept him." ”

Even if he couldn't see Shen Qi, even if Shen Qi's origin was unknown, even if there was an invisible gulf between him and Shen Bai because of that weird dream, he was willing to accept everything strange about her for Shen Bai.

Shen Bai was stunned, suddenly speechless, she didn't dare to look directly into Gu Hengzhou's eyes, she lowered her eyes to avoid, the atmosphere was a little embarrassing, Gu Hengzhou coughed lightly, Shen Bai hurriedly asked, "The wound hurts again?" ”

Gu Hengzhou nodded, his brows furrowed slightly at the same time, Shen Bai immediately got up and helped him back to lie on the bed, and couldn't help but mutter: "Didn't Lao Zhang say that you want to recuperate now, why did you get up so early?" ”

Gu Hengzhou didn't say anything, he was obediently helped by Shen Bai to lie down, his eyebrows were stretched, his eyes were slightly raised, and he seemed to be in a good mood.

However, he behaved quite vaguely, and Shen Bai didn't see it too clearly.

Waiting for Gu Hengzhou to lie down, Shen Bai wanted to go out to find Dongfang Ying to settle accounts, and just took a step, Gu Hengzhou asked: "What about Gu Sangu Si, didn't they accompany you to Nanxiang, why didn't they come back together?" ”

Gu Hengzhou asked Gu San and Gu Si to follow Shen Bai in order to protect her, but after Lingmeng, Shen Bai always felt awkward in his heart, and deliberately distanced himself from Gu San and Gu Si, and said calmly: "The Dongfang family sent a lot of wood for me to bring back, those woods are precious, although the Dongfang family sent someone to transport it back, I still didn't feel at ease, so I asked them to transport the wood with Chabai and slowly return to Beijing." ”

Since Shen Bai went to Nanxiang, Gu Hengzhou also collected a lot of information related to Nanxiang, knowing that the Dongfang family was the first family in Nanxiang, and it was also a relatively mysterious family. ”

"Well, it's a top-notch figure among the juniors of the Dongfang family, called Dongfang Ying." Shen Bai replied truthfully, thought for a while and said, "There are many strange people in Nanxiang, this kid can also do evil arts, and he is still a dog's temper, don't worry, I will watch him and won't let him get into trouble." ”

Gu Hengzhou was thoughtful and asked, "People from the Dongfang family, what are you doing with you in Zhaoling?" ”

Shen Bai was caught off guard by asking these words, Shen Bai choked and coughed, not wanting to deceive Gu Hengzhou, so he could only say vaguely: "The head of the Dongfang family got rid of me and did something, let him help me do something." ”

Gu Hengzhou pursed his lips and stopped talking, Shen Bai saw that his lips were a little white, and he was about to let him rest, when he suddenly heard him say again: "The kitchen left you porridge." ”

Shen Bai was stunned, so this person just deliberately went to the kitchen and ordered someone to help her keep porridge?

With this conjecture, looking at Gu Hengzhou's pale lips again, Shen Bai was a little unbearable, and asked hesitantly, "Do you want to drink some more porridge?" ”

Shen Bai asked politely, but he didn't expect Gu Hengzhou to answer immediately: "Okay." ”

Answering so quickly, Shen Bai couldn't help but doubt his intentions, but Gu Hengzhou's eyes were dark, and he looked at her openly, not caring at all that Shen Bai saw his intentions.

He was deliberately showing weakness and showing his pain, so that Shen Bai couldn't bear to say what was in his heart.

In order to keep her, he used the means he had ever disdained the most.

Shen Bai looked away and said lightly, "Then I'll go get an extra bowl of porridge." ”

Shen Bai fled after speaking, Shen Qi hung on her arm and muttered suspiciously: "Dad? ”

Shen Bai didn't want to deny it directly: "He's not your father." ”

Shen Qi was a little confused, this person is obviously the breath of his father, how could it not be?

There are people guarding outside the courtyard, knowing that Shen Bai is looking for food, he directly takes Shen Bai to the kitchen, Dongfang Ying is also in the kitchen, he is still wearing the previous clothes, the clothes are always tattered, several mouths are pouring cold air into it, he is not cold at all, he chats with the kitchen people with a steamed bun in his mouth, and it seems that he has become one with the kitchen people.

Shen Bai looked at him at the door for a while, and Dongfang Ying walked over after eating the steamed buns.

Shen Bai wanted to beat him up when he saw him like this, and led him to a place where no one was there and whispered: "This is Zhaoling, not Nanxiang, you should be careful when you talk and act, and be careful of being arrested as a madman." ”

Dongfang Ying didn't care, and said lazily: "I haven't been to this place, it's not like I've never been here, what's there to be afraid of?" ”

Shen Bai raised his eyebrows: "Have you been here?" ”

Dongfang Ying raised his eyebrows, and was about to pretend to be profound, when a flattering voice came: "Little fairy, it turns out that you are here." ”

When the words fell, a little guy nodded and walked over, saw that Shen Bai was also there, saluted respectfully, and then said to Dongfang Ying: "Adults invite the little fairy to drink tea, I wonder if the little fairy is free now?" ”

Can this broken child afford the title of a fairy?

Shen Bai rolled her eyes widely, Dongfang Ying bumped her shoulder and walked forward, and said with a smile: "I just have time now, lead the way ahead." ”

The little guy immediately left with Dongfang Ying.

Shen Bai grimaced at the air behind her back, and Shen Qi hung on her arm and said resentfully: "I haven't forgiven you yet, why don't you continue to coax me?" ”

Yes, I almost forgot about this little ancestor.

Shen Bai took two pieces of fragrant cakes to block Shen Qi's mouth, and said some good things before returning to the room with the porridge.

Gu Hengzhou was serious about pretending to be weak to the end, so Shen Bai had to feed him a bowl of porridge with his own hands and help him change his medicine.

When he really saw the wound, Shen Bai knew that Gu Hengzhou's weakness was not all pretended, he was really seriously injured, the wound was two inches wide, running from the front chest through the back, which showed how dangerous the situation was at that time.

Shen Bai carefully helped him clean the wound and reapply the medicine, from beginning to end, Gu Hengzhou's eyes were nailed to her and did not leave, Shen Bai could feel a burning heat even if he lowered his eyes.

When the gauze was almost wound, he suddenly said: "After drawing the sword, I was in a coma for five days, and I had a high fever all the time, and all the doctors thought that I would not survive. ”

Shen Bai's hands trembled, and then he was grabbed by Gu Hengzhou, the burning palm wrapped her like a soldering iron, Shen Bai had nowhere to hide, and heard Gu Hengzhou ask bitterly: "Shen Bai, do you think that it is better for me to die at that time?" ”