Seriously, I wanted to end my life here, but I thought about a lot of things, a lot of things that I couldn't just die of, and I gave up.

If I die, then the saddest thing must be my parents, they raised me so much, I haven't enjoyed Qingfu and haven't held my grandson, won't it make them sad if I die like this?

If I just die, won't I be the same as Merrico? He ended his life struggling under PTSD, do I really have to do the same?

I don't know how PTSD comes about, but existence must be reasonable, so what can I say?

Why did it become this virtue? This is what I have asked myself more than once, I can't live a normal life, deal with things, fall in love, and even want to end my life more than once.

People die every day in this world, but people like me who die should be able to account for a small proportion, or even negligible.

I took out a pack of cigarettes from my pocket and lit it, I used to smoke very little, partly because the girls in the relationship didn't like me to smoke, but now I don't care, no one cares about me anymore.

I lit the cigarette in my mouth and stared blankly at the ground, what was I thinking? Nothing, blank.

I want to recover, I want to live a normal life, but I can't control myself, otherwise I might have married Zheng Xin now.

She still left me, who can stand my stinky temper? Can I blame her? I don't have the qualifications.

Who wants their boyfriend to be like a lost soul when he's okay and use cold violence inexplicably?

Besides, my current temperament is really weird, and I know that if I continue to get along with others, I know that I am harming others, so why bother?

Why can't I just live my life normally? Isn't it good that no one provokes and lives quietly by yourself?

So I saw the psychiatrist again.

It was a little strange when he opened the door, didn't he let this kid come a month later? It's only been a few days and you've been here again?

But he still received me warmly, and it was a coincidence that he was not as busy as before and had plenty of time.

This psychiatric clinic is not big, it is a private house, and the layout here is very clean and tidy, not like a clinic, but very much like an ordinary house, and the owner of this house is the doctor in front of me.

"I don't have any impression of many patients, but you, I remember it very well."

I'm a little curious, is it because this scar on my face is recognizable? Or am I the only one who has this condition? I don't know.

I told me about my situation in the past few days, of course, I can't say all of them, on the one hand, it is also my heart, I really want to see if this doctor has two brushes.

In fact, nine out of ten patients who come to see a psychiatrist have some water mixed in when they narrate orally, and as for why, I don't bother to analyze it, because I am not such a virtue myself.

As he listened, he picked up his teacup and went to the drinking street to fetch water, then turned to look at me and nodded.

"It seems that the last treatment was not in the right direction." He took a sip of tea and placed the cup on the table.

I looked down the table, and the flower had been replaced, replaced by a flower that I didn't know what it was, and I really didn't know about it, and I didn't have that amount of knowledge.

I frowned, how is this doctor always like to put different flowers on the table?

"You mean?"

"Ah, I mean, I happen to be free today, let's do some hypnosis, this may be a great improvement for your condition."

This doctor must be fifty or sixty years old, wearing a pair of square-framed black-rimmed eyes, white hair mixed with black, and the wrinkles on his face are very precipitated by age, but his eyebrows are full of kindness and kindness, which makes people can't help but trust him.

Of course, I'm willing to trust him, and if I don't, I won't be stupid.

He guided me to a chaise longue chair, I lay down, and a flower appeared in front of me.

I stared at that flower, that gentleman's orchid.

I turned my head and looked at him suspiciously, as if I had something to say.

"Isn't it weird? Take it. ”

I took it in my hand and looked at the flowers in a daze.

"Before the hypnosis begins, I think it's necessary for us to talk, and we'll talk about you, and the story of this flower."

He did have two brushes, no wonder my friend strongly recommended me to come to him, just a few of my micro-expressions, and the doctor judged what this flower meant to me.

Actually, this flower is just an association for me, in fact, the flower I picked at the beginning is only not similar to it, the problem is that I can't find such a flower in China.

Its existence is like witnessing all my memories.

The three of us were now meeting up and discussing our next steps when we heard a faint burst of gunfire in the distance.

There is a high probability that Yang Yuan and Ercheng will be Yang Yuan and Ercheng, so we will touch Yang Yuan and their position along the mountain range.

The mountains are already very conducive to the transmission of sound, and the sound of gunfire gradually becomes clear as we get closer.

We have already lost Li Xiao, and no one can sacrifice anymore, this is what I thought at the time, and I also believe in my heart that Yang Yuan will definitely have nothing to do, his guy is a slippery head as a whole, why he didn't meet Xiao Wu at the predetermined place must have his own reasons.

When we climbed the mountain, we saw people running in the mountains in the distance, and a group of people chasing after us a few hundred meters behind.

This distance is at least about a thousand meters, and there is not much obstruction in the sight of the rugged mountains, but the distance is too far away and only two figures can be seen moving, and we dare not guarantee that it is Yang Yuan and Ercheng.

"Yang Yuan, Yang Yuan! I'm a magpie! Are you guys shooting? ”

。。。

There was no response in the headphones.

I wondered, "Not them?" ”

Xiao Wu said: "No, this distance should be within the signal range!" ”

Xiao Wu handed me the binoculars as he spoke, and then set up his sniper rifle himself and observed.

I couldn't wait to put the telescope in front of my eyes and take a look.

"How? Isn't it them? "When the magpie saw that we were all looking at it again, he couldn't help but be a little anxious.

I adjusted my focus, it was too far away, and I could only see two guys in enemy uniforms and equipment constantly firing back at the pursuers behind me.

Xiao Wu was also puzzled: "The enemy's uniform, the headphones haven't responded yet, do you want to go and see it?" ”

I put down my binoculars and said to the magpie, "Could it be that they have changed into enemy clothes?" ”

Xiao Wu put the gun behind his back and looked at the magpie like me, now Yang is far away, we are counting on the magpie tacitly for the decision-making of many things, she is a little overwhelmed, after all, she is all kinds of wit and cleverness in front of me, but there is a little more Xiaowu, which seems to make her a little uncomfortable.

I saw her look at the two of us, her expression was also tangled, and she seemed to be a little stressed.

"You, what are you asking me for? As long as you agree, I have no opinion. ”

I pretended to be surprised: "Yo? Magpie Commander, are you serious? ”

The magpie also heard that I was deliberately hurting her, and she raised her fist at me: "As long as you talk too much, then don't leave quickly." ”

I quickly responded, Xiao Wu got up and walked in front first, because my wound was still very serious, so the magpie and I could only walk behind, during which the magpie supported me from time to time for a while.

They were running towards the side of the mountain, and if nothing else, they would pass through our necessary path to the reserved spot.

So we don't have to go too far either.

I held down the headset and shouted twice, but there was still no answer.

The gunfire in the mountains also gradually disappeared, and it seemed that the enemy had given up the pursuit, but we still dare not confirm whether those two people were Yang Yuan and Ercheng.

The three of us ran to a hill and saw them moving towards us from a distance, and after we hid up, I asked Xiao Wu to take out the binoculars, and I saw them slow down and start to be vigilant.

With guns in their hands, they slowly searched and moved forward.

But the faces under their helmets, I still can't tell if they are Yang Yuan and Ercheng.

Because they were so far away, and they were constantly moving, they looked particularly blurry in the telescope, and they could only tell that the weapon in their hand was an enemy rifle.

The magpie stuck its head out from behind the stone and looked at them as if thinking about something.

Xiao Wu rested for a while and set up the gun just in case.

There is no enemy behind them, now we are all safe, the two of them began to vigilantly hold their weapons and use the nearby stones as alternate cover to retreat, when I saw this, I already understood in my heart, such a way of action, who else could there be besides Yang Yuan? I don't believe it when I say it's a soldier in this country.

But we still can't relax until things come to light, everything must be done without leakage in order to save our lives to the greatest extent, and there can be no relaxation without 100% certainty.

They approached slowly, eight hundred meters, six hundred meters, three hundred meters.

Their target is the mountain where we are hiding, in fact, this is what Xiao Wu speculated, according to Yang Yuan's thinking and decision-making, he is very likely to climb over the mountain under us.

Three hundred meters was already close, and they broke away from cover and began to pass through an uncovered area.

I saw both of them guarding around with guns in hand, and suddenly, one of them fired at our hiding place, and then they opened fire on us as they moved towards the nearest bunker, typical of enemy fire suppression and diversion.

The whistling bullets made us retract with a single exclamation.

"That's right, it must be Team Leader Yang and Ercheng, they think we are the enemy's lurking outposts."

Xiao Wu said.

I said, "Little Five! Magpie! Stay still! I'll go out and have a look! ”

As soon as they tried to speak, I raised my hands and stood up, and limped in their direction.

Actually, I don't know how I got the courage, if I was really an enemy, what would I belong to?

Surrender or die? It's not bad anyway.

I saw a man look at me for a moment, then shouted something behind a rock.

Then one of them walked out of cover with his hands raised and slowly approached me.

We can't see each other's looks clearly, we can only see each other vaguely as a person at a distance of a few hundred meters, if you get closer, you can see the clothes on your body, and you can see each other's looks at dozens of meters or even a few meters.

We were a little unsure, so we could only raise our hands and walk towards each other.

Xiao Wu must have been ready to cover me at any time at this time, but my heart was still pounding.

God forbid, don't be an enemy.