I don't know if everybody likes fantasy.

At the very least, I fantasized about it.

Until now, it is difficult for me to imagine that a little girl of five or six years old can clearly understand what love is.

I am even more able to distinguish between my feelings for my brother and my intentions for him, which is different.

I will reminisce about it countless times and be attached to it.

It's a very stupid thing to do, but I always enjoy it.

In each fantasy, his image became taller and taller, and I became more and more happy.

The more I pleased, the more I felt that he treated me differently than others.

He has feelings for me, I can be sure.

Until...

That day, the helper went out.

That day was also the birthday of my brother.

I did something special that I will regret for the rest of my life.

I guess Chongyuan will definitely want to spend his birthday with the helper.

So, when the helper went out, I secretly drew a picture of a bowl of longevity noodles and put it in the helper's room.

At the time, I thought it was a bowl of shoumen, which should be recognizable.

I excitedly told him that there was a big gift for him.

He said he never had a birthday.

However, I repeatedly persuaded him that the birthday should be the happiest day of the year, and there is no reason for everyone to miss this birth day.

In the end, he took it seriously.

I can imagine how such a small he, and little me, waited stupidly at the door all night.

One night, the helper never returned.

I'm sorry, but it's still so gentle.

Three days later, the helper returned.

That day, in front of all the disciples, the gang leader almost beat him to death.

I don't understand why, but I've always felt that it has a subtle connection to the picture I kept.

Immediately afterwards, the helper brought him into the room, lit the candlelight, and talked all night.

Talking at night, I hid outside the door, unspeakably depressed.

I didn't close my eyes for a second. It was the first time, I wanted to stand up, I wanted to face him together, I wanted to stand behind him, I wanted to be with him. Even if there is a mountain of swords and a sea of fire, as long as there is him, it will be fine.

They talked all night, and I waited all night.

When the sun came out, Shigeen was very surprised that I would be at the door.

I drugged him, and his blue nose and swollen face reminded me of my brother again.

If you ask me who is more important, my brother or him, I can't choose, at that time, I will really become a slug because of this boring question.

I found out much later.

Only children make choices, and when I'm older, I want both.

At the last minute, I still thought so. Even if it's to give up on myself.

After that day, the relationship changed.

He is no longer as humble as he once was, but is pressing step by step, and the knife is deadly.

That's when I realized that he was so powerful.

I realized that it turned out that he practiced in the ice cellar every night, 365 days a year, and if it weren't for me, I am afraid that a day would not be broken.

I never asked what the helper had said to him that day. I knew he wouldn't tell me, he would just laugh it off like he used to.

He never blamed the helper, to be precise, he never blamed anyone, including me who caused him trouble again and again.

After that day, he became very busy, and I didn't sleep again, so I didn't have to call me.

One day, he threw down his sword and replaced it with a sharp dagger.

I knew that from that moment on, he lost the most important thing about himself.

Happy.

Not long after, he suddenly knocked on my door in the middle of the night.

I was so agitated that I ignored his helpless eyes.

He said he had just come out of the helper's room.

He said he was leaving tomorrow and had a mission.

To reassure me, he also made a point of telling me that he would be back soon.

He told me that today, a person from the Hechu Gang came to the Gang, who had very good martial arts, and was a woman, called Zhichou.

I just care about when he's going to come back and if he's going to get hurt.

But he didn't answer the question.

That day, I knew that he had a mission from birth. A mission that has nothing to do with him, but has to devote his life to completion.

Protect his two younger sisters.

Two younger sisters? This is not something that surprises me.

What surprised me was that these two younger sisters did not include Chongyun.

"Why?" I never understood.

"It's the mission." He smiled, "Man, you have to complete your mission." ”

If it were some other milky little kid who said something like that, I would have laughed my big teeth off.

But he made me unspeakably heavy. I always felt as if he had taken on too many things that he didn't have to bear.

He could, he didn't have to work so hard.

Early the next morning, I secretly hid in the doorway, and I wanted to see him more before he left.

That was the first time I saw that legendary heavy cloud.

Innocent, such an innocent smile bloomed on his face without hesitation.

Little did I know at the time that it would be the last time I would see her.

To be precise, I haven't seen a pure smile since.

One day, two days, three days.

I've done countless useless things. For example, stacking stars, making a wish to the moon, praying that you will see him tomorrow.

One month.

Trimester.

I didn't wait for the news of Chongyuan's return, but I received a message of help.

The Hechu Gang, the whole gang moved from the Wudesert Country to the Nehua Country, and changed its name to Qianqiu Sui.

I followed them back to the country of Nehua, the familiar air, the familiar sun.

I know, I don't have a home.

Because, there is no martial arts alliance leader in the rivers and lakes, and I have never seen my brother's father and mother who said that he was hiding from me.

Such a big country of Nehua, but there is no place for me to live.

I only have a fate.

Chiaki is in a shady place called the Undercurrent Cave.

It doesn't sound like it's going to be a favorite place. On that day, everyone gathered in the cave called the main hall, and the relationship was different.

He wore a large black cloak and stood in front of everyone.

He said that from now on, he would be the high priest of a thousand years old, and if we did not want to, we could leave now.

But if you don't leave today, you will be a traitor in the future.

Die.

That was the first time I realized that people are going to die.

I didn't leave, I stayed. Even if you die, you have to be remarried.

However, soon, Chongyuan needed an internal response, an internal response that could inquire about the news.

I didn't know what it was going to do, but when everyone said I was the only one who was the right person, I didn't hesitate to say yes.

If it had been before, I wouldn't have left Chongyuan.

But...

Heavy fate, he brought back a little girl.

Yun'er.

Not his sister.

is one, the new girl.

With a woman's instinct, I could see at a glance that her pretended innocent smile was a world of difference from Chongyun.

But with that kind of look, I understood it at just one glance.

It was, not only a gentle look, but even if there was no smile, I could clearly feel that it was a look that had never appeared in my eyes when he stared at me.

I'm still the only one.

Yun'er is another one.

I'm still a heavy preference. But this preference, I finally knew. It turned out that I was the sister.

It's funny, it's like a story.

It was supposed to be a childhood sweetheart.,But it's a sister.。

It was supposed to be a stand-in, and the sister with the same name turned out to be a person buried deep in her heart.

How I hope that with Yun'er, there will never be me in the eyes of Chongyuan again.

In that way, at least it can be proved that there was at least a moment when I was also Yun'er's position for Chongyuan.

But no, he still has me in his eyes, this is his last openness now.

I know, now, we're all assassins, we're all killers.

As they had blood on their hands again and again, I left.

Chongyuan gave me a book of light skills, and he said that he practiced it, and girls can also practice it.

I took the cheats and arrived at nephrite incense.

I thought that if I could help him, he would come back to me eventually.

If I can't be his heart, I have to be his most important person.

I'm not the heartless person anymore, I've become a selfish person.

Even if it is with guilt and indebtedness, I have to keep the relationship, and I will always have a place in his heart.

Nephrite incense is the largest green building in the country of Nehua.

For Jianghu, this is a place to help Qianqiusui get all the information they want.

And I became a Qinglou woman.

Like all girls, I was taken down by Mother Liu to teach.

She told me that if I had a skill, I could be a young man.

In the end, I chose the piano that my mother used to put at home.

Day and night of hard training, this is the same principle as martial arts, which is the only way to make perfect.

Day and night are reversed, I just want to practice the piano well and be a young man.

The hard work paid off, and in the end, I became an Oiran and made a nephrite-scented green girl.

My mother has always appreciated me, and I know that this is not my ability, but because of Qianqiusui's secret dots.

When I became an Oiran, I relaxed. I began to practice the light skill cheats that Chongyuan gave me, and I also began to help Qianqiu Sui find out the news.

The boss here is a strange man called the landlord or the pavilion owner, always with a smile and always exuding an ambiguous atmosphere.

With me was a woman named Jiuchen.

She is big and informal, but in her eyes, there is a story.

Probably I'm a person of affection, so I can easily perceive the people around me.

Wine dust is always with me on this dry and often robs my guests.

I don't care, guests, only useful and useless for me. It doesn't matter how much.

They all say that I am cold, only I know, I want to leave all the warmth to the heavy edge.

If I had known that this was the Qinglou at that time, I would still have agreed without hesitation, this is what I can be sure of.

Women may be like this, for the sake of their beloved, they do everything, there is no reason at all, this is their nature.

I think the same goes for wine dust.