Chapter Ninety-Five: She Longs for His Side
The clouds and mist were filled, the sky was of its own color, and in the haze, the continent was covered with a light veil, as if falling into a dream.
The crisp ringtone of "Jingle Bell" drives people's thoughts and pulls her into the depths of memory, the place of most desire.
Yunluo woke up leisurely, covering her eyes with her hands, and in front of her eyes was a place that was still familiar in the depths of her memory, but it was slightly unfamiliar.
There is also a picture of a jade hairpin hanging high on the wall, and her embroidery is placed on the square table of Liuling carving.
She approached the table and looked down at the multicolored silk frame, on which there were embroideries that had not been embroidered before. One of the handkerchiefs with the pattern of mandarin ducks playing with beads is buried at the bottom, only a mandarin duck is exposed, but it is slightly lonely.
At this moment, her heart is very stable, and the square handkerchief was originally what she wanted to give to her brother Shixian. Now she just wants to hide at the bottom.
She took the veil and tried to hide it. She thought about burning it, but that was her joy, and she didn't want to give up.
She spun around, and a flash of inspiration flashed in her mind, the box.
She looked at the box, and it didn't have anything remarkable, except that it was mostly engraved. If you look closely, you can see a few small characters carved on the far left.
She glanced at it, her hand rubbing slowly, but there was a smile on the corner of her mouth. In the past, she held this box, and her mind was full of assumptions about a lifetime and a couple, and the white head would never be separated.
It was a bright smile in love, but now it's an open-minded smile.
She opened the box, and on it was the items she had treasured and treasured since she was a child, and the top was undoubtedly the letter.
She put the veil in it, and the letter was a thing of the past for her. In the depths of her memory, she still remembered the care with which she had written this letter, every word of which she had carefully written, and every word contained her deepest love.
Many years have passed, and she has long forgotten the contents of the envelope, but she remembers her girl's heartbeat at the beginning, and her foresight.
Now, if you think about it, this kind of thing of expressing love needs to be told by herself, and she lost from the beginning. She didn't dare, she actually always knew in her heart that he and herself had never had a beginning or an end.
She used to deceive herself, the corners of her mouth were full of feelings for herself, and now her mind was full of no more than that person, and some were deeply guilty of her best friend.
"Miss, she's here again!" The eldest lady didn't say who that person was, and the eldest lady had ordered that no mention of that person in front of her, so she could only be called "she".
"Big girl, let Wan'er come in!" She looked at the big girl carefully, she had a feeling that she hadn't seen her for a long time, and her dream was really terrible.
In the dream, her friend left her, and that became the biggest regret of her life.
Jiang Wan'er, her best friend!
She reached out and closed the box, sorting out those fragments in her mind, she was really scary to think about, and her whole body had goosebumps.
"Settled." The girl quietly appeared in front of her, and she thought too seriously to look into it for a while.
"Wan'er, come, sit!" When she saw her friend she hadn't seen for a long time, her eyes couldn't help but flush, full of sadness and bitterness.
"You, what's wrong?" The girl did not understand her emotions, and she attached great importance to their friendship in her heart.
Yun Luoyi hooked a smile at the corner of her mouth, and she knew that her friend cared about her, "No, my eyes are in the sand." ”
In that dream, she only cared about her own feelings, and she didn't see her Jiang Wan'er's worries at all.
This time, she looked at her carefully, her eyes were full of worry about her, and her heart was warm.
The friendship from childhood to adulthood is naturally difficult to let go.
"Wan'er, I want to tell you something."
If she remembered correctly, now was the time when the two of them fell out in her dream, and she wouldn't let that happen again, wouldn't let her fate be bumpy, and didn't want to owe her for the rest of her life. She wants this friendship between the two of them, and she wants to be good together.
"Luoyi, I, him"
"You don't have to say it, I know." When she saw her like this, it turned out that she had wanted to talk to her about it, but she was ruined by herself, and the source of everything was herself.
If she hadn't been aggressive in her dreams, maybe they would have been happy for the rest of their lives, and she wouldn't have left too soon.
"You, you know?" There was a puzzle in her eyes, but it was only for a moment, but her eyes were wandering, she didn't dare to look at her anymore, and even felt a little unbearable, as if she had snatched her love and snatched what belonged to her.
Although he is not the same thing, after all, they knew each other before her, and they even had a so-called baby kiss since they were young. She has always felt that she is unbearable, and she has been thinking about it for a long time when she came this time.
She liked him, but there was no way she could give up on her. In love and friendship, she chose the latter.
It's enough for them to be together, and she comforts herself like this in her heart, and the people she loves are together, which is also a happiness for her.
Besides, her character is not what she would be without love, on the contrary, her friends are dignified, and her show of love is the result of careful consideration. She's not like her, she's a traditional person, and she can't guarantee what would happen to her without love!
She also knows that if she has no love, she will not even have friendship! She can't be so selfish and leave her with nothing left.
But herself, if she doesn't have love, she at least has friendship. As human beings, we cannot possess them all. In life, you can never have both.
"I know that you have a heart-to-heart relationship with Brother Shixian, and I hope you are happy!" Her eyes were sincere smiles, which made the girl unable to react for a while.
"You, you, you" she couldn't say a word, she just couldn't understand her transformation. But they have been together since childhood, and she naturally understands her emotions, which come from her heart.
She didn't ask anymore, she just knew that she had fulfilled herself.
"Then you ······"
"My best friend has become my sister-in-law, isn't it good! Our relationship is one step closer! ”
She didn't react for a while, and when she thought about it for a while, her white face was about to burn into a big red face, which was really embarrassing.
Why hasn't she seen her for a few days, and she is so ashamed to speak.
"You, don't talk nonsense!" She leaned in front of her, trying to cover her mouth, her smile was so bright, but she was ashamed to see it.
"Alright, sooner or later!" She took her hand and took her shy hands, even the tips of her nails were slightly shrunk and slightly red.
A few months later, she watched her get on the sedan chair with her own hands, she married love, and she gained a deep friendship.
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"Jingle Bell... Jingle Bell··· Jingle Bell·· When·" It is far away from people, and some are living a good life in the present. The bell rang and woke everyone up.
After a good night's dream, Yun Luoyi woke up, her eyes were red, and she felt a sense of relaxation on her body, which she had never felt. The big stone that seemed to be pressing on the bottom of my heart was finally lifted away, and it would never pile up again.
She called the palace maid beside her, washed her, and put on a plain white dress. She was used to it, and if it weren't for that dream, she would never have noticed her outfit. She summoned the grandmother for the first time and asked her to change her clothes, at least contaminated with the smoke and fire of mortal dust.
"Mama, are there any other colors of clothes, not white!" She was in front of the mirror, the palace maid was holding her hair, and she looked up at herself in the mirror.
Seeing a white hair, she chuckled, and her hand came to the silver hair, and she tore it off without hesitation, connecting the roots, and tearing it off.
It was as if those troubled things would leave her from now on, but her only regret was that it had been fulfilled. Even if it's a dream, she's willing to do it.
"Mother, here." She took a pink robe, on which were the flowers she had loved embroidering, which she had loved, but had been abandoned for a long time.
In fact, in her life, there is not only love, she also has other things she loves.
She raised her eyes to look at the people in the room, her smile was even brighter, and two lines of tears flowed down her face. She has her family and them.
"Mother." When everyone saw her like this, they all knelt on the ground.
"Get up! I'm fine! There was no ripple in her words, and there was even a hint of a smile.
"By the way, Ayan!" She didn't see the people who had often appeared in front of her for more than a month, and that dream was like another life for her.
"She's tidying up her things, and the Seven Princes are back!"
Yun Luoyi's heart was sweating for her, and his return would undoubtedly cause an uproar. If he can't keep her, she will also fight to protect her, her heart is tight and relaxed, "It's okay if he comes back, that girl can't think about tea and food these days!" ”
"I'm going to see her off!" After she finished speaking, she walked out the door, she knew that the girl was smart, and she also knew that she was affectionate and righteous. Although I knew that she would definitely say goodbye to her, I also wanted to see her earlier.
She doesn't often go out of the palace, and He Yan doesn't have any name now, so she can only hide it privately, so naturally she can't move around at will. If she is the prince's woman, she can't be involved with the concubine, and she is most afraid of being accused of colluding with the harem by the former dynasty.
She came to the main hall and saw her by the door. She looked at the sky, as if she belonged to that world, not from here.
She doesn't want her to be like herself at the moment, in this huge harem, although she now has the favor of the Seven Princes. If one day..., she doesn't want her to be like the women in this harem.
"Ayan." She called her softly, she felt sorry for her in the bottom of her heart, and she knew that she missed her sweetheart.
"Concubine Yun." She saluted her, and the loneliness on her face turned to a smile.
He Yan has been with her for more than a month, and she has already regarded her as her own. At the moment, she knew her fears, but she couldn't tell her the truth.
Knowing nothing is the greatest happiness.
"If you can, I want you to be free!" She often looked out of the palace walls, and she understood her feelings.
"Mother, take care!" There was affection in these simple words.
"Hmm." She hugged her for a moment, and she hugged her tightly, and at the end there were only endless smiles on their faces.
She looked at her figure, and gradually moved away.
He Yan looked at the boundless sky and let out a long sigh.