I'm afraid I only have to break your heart now......

Why is it so hard to be a human being!

I didn't want to hurt him, he was so sincere and didn't have any distractions.

"I've been married, you should have a better life, you can't waste it on me, it's not worth it, I have my destiny, you have your mission, my mission is to maintain peace, so that the Sun and Liu families are safe, although the world is not necessarily peaceful so far, at least half of the country can be stabilized, so that half of the people in the world can be reunited, peaceful, I don't want to have a war, although the war stops at war, but I don't think so, I don't think the world needs to fight, I also know that this is a fool's dream, I tried, I also worked hard, I know, In the end, it failed, but since there is a mission, how can you give up halfway! You know, that's not my style, don't you have to start and finish what you do, that's what you told me? ”

He listened to my words, looked at me in shock, his hand slowly withdrew back, suddenly, he asked me, "The truth is dead, people are alive, I also know that you are stubborn by nature, no matter how I persuade you, you will do what you think is right, but have you ever thought about it, you obviously know that you and Liu Bei are no longer possible, why do you still have to do these useless work, he Liu Bei has already failed you, he already has Wu Amaranth in Yizhou, why don't you give yourself a new start, even if you are afraid that Liu Bei will attack Eastern Wu, I am not afraid of him, I can fight him to the death, fight to the end, no matter how bad it is, you can cheat to death, change the name, we start from scratch, start anew, start our new life, at that time you want to do whatever you want, I will not stop you. ”

Speaking of this, he shed tears, he said cautiously, his voice was very small, as if he had no confidence, "Give you a new start, and give me a new chance, okay, I don't want to continue acting like this, I don't want to miss you again, it's really tiring, I'm afraid that in the end, not only can't I save you, but I will also get in, you know, Ruyi is just a child, I don't have any extra thoughts about Ruyi, my heart is given to you, for more than half a year, I'm really tired and tired, I think you know my hardships, don't get me wrong." ”

What should I do......

The only one who is good to me, do I have to bear to be hurt!

I just want to reassure him that he has no distractions, and go to war with peace of mind, and I will wait for him to return in triumph.

"I'll wait for your triumphant return."

I smiled, and continued: "Go to the war with peace of mind, don't leave these problems to me alone, I'll wait for you to come back, you come back and solve it personally." ”

He listened to me, as if he saw hope, and was as happy as a child, and he got up and took me in his arms, and nodded, "Wait for me, and I will soon be back in triumph." ”

I was stunned and hugged by him, and my heart was mixed, what a good person he was!

Why did I do this to him, I said, "Go back and pack your bags early, tomorrow is about to leave, there are still many things waiting for you to do!" ”

He smiled and nodded, "Whatever you say, it's up to you, I'll go back and prepare, and I will live up to Xiang'er." ”

At this time, I saw that someone was eavesdropping outside the door, and it must have been sent by Sun Quan to keep an eye on me at all times.

I sent Bo Yan out of the door, but the guards outside the door reprimanded me loudly and asked me to go back to the house.

Bo Yan had some atmosphere, I shook my head, signaling him not to be impulsive, he also knew that the consequence of his impulsiveness was that he was gone and I was more miserable, and my life was more sad.

I looked at Bo Yan's back and walked out, he was in a hurry and very happy, he was no longer the stunned young man.

He turned around three times, and from time to time he signed with me, telling me that he would return triumphantly soon.

When he came back, he took me away, and I never had to be imprisoned here like this again.

I watched his every move, and remembered when we were children, whenever I was bullied outside, he would raise his sword and shout to avenge me.

I looked at him, just smiled and waved goodbye to him......

He's so nice, he's always been the same boy he used to be......

And me! It's no longer the innocent girl of those years.

I've changed......

The only constant is trust in each other, and I trust him more than I trust myself.

Now, when he is about to go on an expedition, I refuse to say it openly, and I hide secret words with him, which is not my intention.

I'm just afraid that he will be distracted on the battlefield and miss the fighter, and I'm even more afraid that he won't be able to come back if he's not careful.

I am willing for him to go to the battlefield with a misunderstanding, and even if he comes back, I will kowtow to him and admit his mistakes.

Because I am deeply in pain of losing someone......

It was more than a year since Bo Yan left, and he wrote countless letters in the past year or so, and I replied to them one by one.

And in today's letter, he said that the Yutu people have been suppressed, the rebellion has been quelled, and he will return with his army in a few days.

Looking at the letter in his hand, he was happier than anything else, Bo Yan was coming back, and while he was happy, he couldn't help but be worried, after all, when he was about to go on the expedition, I said something unpleasant.

Now that he's back, how can I cash in!

Thinking about it, I was even more upset, and I couldn't calm my mind left and right, I don't think he would blame me, we grew up together, he knew me better than anyone else, and understood me.

Ruyi kept making trouble around me, but I wasn't in the mood to play with her.

I haven't seen my sister-in-law come for a long time, and I don't know what happened to my sister-in-law, whether she was also grounded by Sun Quan, otherwise my sister-in-law wouldn't have come for so long.

I thought, could it be related to Bo Yan's return, or maybe I was too careful.

When I think about this, I have a headache, although this headache is not a big problem, but it also makes people feel impetuous and upset.

I tried to endure and suppress, but it hurt more and more, I asked Ruyi to go to the military doctor to get some medicine, Ruyi didn't ask, and knew what prescription I wanted.

Ruyi is very good, has an excellent memory, and never forgets it, this advantage has been inherited from the eldest brother.

Every time I think of my eldest brother, I am very sad, and I still remember that year in the fire, my eldest brother rescued me and Boyan.

When he came back from his official duties, he saw me wake up, and said to me happily, "Xiang'er finally woke up, and she scared my eldest brother." ”

He touched my head, so happy that his eyes were crooked with a smile, "This time Xiang'er has made a head, right?" Whatever gift you want, as long as the eldest brother can do it, it's up to you. ”

When the eldest brother said this, he looked at me dotingly.

I bit my lip and asked in a low voice, "Big brother, can you give my maid permission to allocate some military uniforms, armor, and equipment." ”

I was afraid that my eldest brother would refuse, so I explained: "Although they are women and they are still young, they have contributed a lot to our army's rebellion this time!" If they hadn't saved my mother and me, and my sisters-in-law had broken through, we would have been burned to death by the fire instead of being killed by the rebels. ”

I was about to continue, but my eldest brother suddenly interrupted me, "These eldest brothers all know that you are ambitious men, and these maids of yours will not lose to the soldiers under the eldest brother, this time you have made a meritorious contribution, no matter what you ask the eldest brother will agree to you." ”

Hearing that my eldest brother promised me, I was overjoyed, and my heart was already happy, as long as I had the words of my eldest brother, I would have confidence in my heart.

Although the number of my maids is only a few dozen now, these dozens of people have to be allocated military uniforms, armor, and equipment.

Besides, at this moment, the eldest brother's army uniforms, armor, and equipment are in short supply, and he still has to build these for my maid, but he didn't say a word, and I responded in one bite, and I was grateful in my heart.

"You! Heal your wounds quickly, and then your military supplies will be complete, and your maids will be able to receive training like regular soldiers, and the eldest brother who doesn't understand there can give you some pointers. ”

Oops......

I was so happy, I covered my face, shook my head, and lowered my head in embarrassment.

The eldest brother looked at me, raised his hand to the top of my head, and I was full of excitement at this beating, and I looked up at the eldest brother in a daze.

The eldest brother turned around and walked out with a smile, and I hummed to ask for justice and return it......

Big brother is so annoying, he never treats me as a girl, he always treats me like a tomboy.

He always said that I was cast in the wrong child, I should have been a boy, but I didn't expect it to be a girl's family.

My eldest brother often tells me that it would be nice if I were a boy! Big brother can take me to the battlefield with him.

Over the years, my eldest brother has taught me a lot, such as horseback riding, archery, spears, short knives, and kung fu martial arts, so I am not afraid of temporary dangers.

My eldest brother taught me a lot, but the only drawback was that he was very busy, sometimes he didn't see each other for ten days and half a month, and at most he did two or three months, or even more than half a year.

Once the eldest brother left for more than half a year, but as soon as he came back, he returned home with a beauty.

There is also Brother Gongjin, one of them brought back one, and my mother and I were dumbfounded.

Not only that, but those two beauties are also sisters, and I really like the beauty that my eldest brother brought back.

My mother didn't let me bother my sister-in-law, but I just couldn't help but like to look at her, she was really beautiful, and her beauty was amazing.

Soon after the eldest brother returned, the family held a happy event.

Since my eldest brother married my sister-in-law, my eldest brother has supervised my training a lot less, and he has been chatting with my sister-in-law, singing and laughing, so lively.

In this way, I was more free, although my eldest brother did not come, and another sister-in-law came to see me in training, and my sister-in-law always came to supervise me on the grounds of sending fruits and vegetables to my maids.

I know that my eldest brother is willing, and sometimes I ask my sister-in-law that I am a little reluctant to let her do not touch the spring water with her ten fingers and work for my maid.

Instead, she smiled and replied to me, "Marry a chicken and beg, marry a beggar and beg, since I am married to your brother, how can I not help him with household chores!" Besides, the little sister has military talent at such a young age, and the sister-in-law admires it, but she only hates that she is not a man, otherwise she will join the army in the name of your eldest brother. ”

I know that my sister-in-law is all there to flatter me, and I know that she is supervising me for my eldest brother, and saying these nice words comforts me so that I don't feel disgusted.

I really like my sister-in-law, not only is she beautiful, but she also has a good heart, and she thinks about our brothers and sisters in everything.