The next day, Zhuang Yuncheng went to Qu Yingjiao's house and told her what he said.

"I understand," Qu Ying said weakly, "I am Yanxi's 'body', Yin Hong is his 'heart', that's what he means." ”

Zhuang Yuncheng seemed to understand whether he understood or not, and said: "His choice may be hidden in this sentence, he can say this, he may already have the answer subconsciously, but he doesn't know it himself, you guess slowly, Zhang Yanxi has a strong personality, I can't influence his choice, I can't help you with the rest." ”

Qu Yingjiao smiled bitterly, shook her head and said, "There is no need at all." ”

"Why?"

"Because he's Zhang Yanxi." Qu Yingjiao said sadly, "He wrote an article about body and mind before, and he said that the soul that has lost the body is liberated and will be eternal; Without a body of heart and a pair of skins, man becomes a walking corpse. His words are reflected in this metaphor, and I understand these things clearly, I just fill the void in his real life, Yin Hong fills the emptiness in her spiritual world, and he cares more about his heart. ”

"Do you have to think like that?"

"It's not that I think this way, but the facts, I know ...... him" Qu Yingjiao muttered, feeling lost, and said regretfully: "I just know that he may not have gotten real happiness in the past ten years." ”

"But he does live in the real world, and he may not be able to give up you."

"That's why he's so entangled, but it's no longer a question of whether he can give up, when he can't have both, he can only choose, so he takes more important, in his heart, I don't have Yin Hong's important ......" Qu Yingjiao's eyes were melancholy and lonely, but empty, Zhuang Yuncheng remembered Xiaodie's words, she was a rational person, and the loss of Zhang Yanxi made her extremely painful, but she did not lose hope for her future life.

This is her most vulnerable time, Zhuang Yuncheng has never seen such a gloomy and bleak Qu Yingjiao, the extreme pain makes her show her most real face, and the ten years of married life with Zhang Yanxi have also made her, a pampered eldest lady, a little woman, now she can cry in front of anyone, no longer caring about identity and decency.

Compassion is the most basic character of being born, reflecting the compassionate care for all sentient beings, Zhuang Yuncheng is willing to care for this sister who is four or five years older than him with compassion, "You are not alone. Zhuang Yuncheng hugged her, and Qu Yingjiao only quietly wept in other people's arms without crying.

In the back garden, Zhuang Yuncheng sat quietly with her for an hour, and suddenly a girl shouted: "Miss, Young Master Yanxi is here again, do you want to see me?" ”

"Do you still see him?" Zhuang Yuncheng asked.

"I want to see, this may be the last time we see each other as husband and wife, I want to thank him in person, but I also want to hate him in person."

Zhuang Yuncheng accompanied her to the door, at this time, Qu Yingjiao's girl and mother also came, Zhuang Yuncheng went home by himself, and Zhang Yanxi was standing at the door.

"You all go, I'm fine." Qu Yingjiao pushed away the girl beside her, and the mother who held her hand, and said, "Yanxi won't do anything to me, and he is not a murderer." ”

The girl and her mother glared at Zhang Yanxi like a murderer, and the girl helped Mrs. Qu into the house.

"Have you ever cried?" Zhang Yanxi asked.

"yes, crying for you." Qu Yingjiao did not shy away from it at all.

Zhang Yanxi lowered his head and almost bit his lip.

"Come in."

Zhang Yanxi raised his feet and stepped up two or three steps of the ladder and stepped into the threshold.

Everything you see in front of you is no longer human.

Zhuang Yuncheng returns home, but he doesn't see Fluttershy, knowing that she is gone.

I saw a note left in the hall that read: "You can blame me, I was really selfish. ”

Zhuang Die went to Yin Hong's house, she understood the same truth as Qu Yingjiao thought, and when she arrived at her house, Yin Hong was still sleeping.

"It's ten o'clock, and you're still sleeping?"

Seeing that it was Fluttershy, Yin Hong sat up wrapped in her pajamas and said lazily, "After Yanxi left at noon yesterday and came back in the evening, he didn't say a word to me, he left early this day, and he didn't tell me where to go." ”

"You're not going to get up?" Zhuang Die asked.

"I don't feel bored or energetic." Yin Hong suddenly asked: "You went to ask Lin Zhixiao yesterday, what did he say?" ”

Zhuang Die sat next to Yin Hong, hugged her and smiled: "Zhang Yanxi told him that you are his lifelong confidant." ”

"I also regard him as a confidant, it's just that I don't want to be a confidant in a friend relationship, but a confidant of husband and wife." Yin Hong said, "Although he didn't say a few words to me, I could see that he wasn't angry with me, he was just anxious and flustered." ”

"Because he's making the hardest decision of his life, he's choosing someone to spend the rest of his life with, and you have to understand him."

"I understand, but I'm also anxious and scared, and if that person wasn't me, the sky would fall." Yin Hong's eyes showed empty fear.

"I know how to ease your emotions, and maybe I can impress Zhang Yanxi."

"What?"

"Cook."

"Cooking? Neither will I. ”

"I can't learn," Zhuang Die urged her to get up, pulled her out of bed, and said, "Yanxi is with you, there is never a lack of happiness, he lacks a feeling." ”

"Oh, what does it feel?"

"The feeling of home, the feeling of landing, and the feeling of life." Zhuang Die said, "The more talented and individual people are, his spiritual world and his current life are clearly separated, you are part of his spiritual world, Qu Yingjiao is a part of his real life, you have entered his spiritual world, if you can also integrate into his real life, you will be his only one." ”

Yin Hong also heard the reason, and asked earnestly: "Really?" ”

"Really, think about it, why do you quarrel, it's not because you are out of real life, sleeping and playing cards all day, this is not what real life should be, with the passage of time, people will always transition from ideals to reality, to put it clearly, you and Yanxi are now fiery feelings above life, but gradually, no matter how hot the feelings are, they will be wiped into ashes by trivial life," Zhuang Die said while helping her take care of her clothes: "So, while your feelings are still there, cherish them and use life to consolidate it, Instead of spending it. ”

"Understood." Yin Hong said, but looking at the extremely simple clothes that Zhuang Die took on, she complained again: "This dress is too simple and not good-looking." ”

"You are going to cook, not to a banquet, you should have the appearance of cooking, and you don't even need to wear makeup, this is the woman in the hall, the woman who can be touched in life, not the goddess who is high."

"Okay." Yin Hong reluctantly accepted.

Dressed well, a simple dress, a very light dress, a yellow face, a small mole at the corner of the eye, and a few faint freckles on the cheeks.

"It looks closer this way." Fluttershy stares at her and laughs.

Yin Hong only smiled, extremely uncomfortable.

The nanny aunt helped the two of them pour together, and by noon they had made a table of side dishes.

Sweating and flushed, Fluttershy leaves, saying she'll come back tomorrow.

After waiting for a while, Yin Hong was anxious, so she said, "Auntie, go to the door to see if Yanxi has come back." ”

"Nope."

"If you don't come back, won't all this energy be wasted." Yin Hong sat alone, looking at these dishes that I didn't know if they were delicious or not, she had no appetite, and said, "If you don't come back at noon, I'll continue to cook it at night, and you will come back eventually." ”

Yin Hong lay on the table and waited, sleepy for a while, and was about to fall asleep.

A breeze blew in the hall, and Yin Hong seemed to see Zhang Yanxi walk in, half-asleep and half-awake, she fell into a deep sleep.

Zhang Yanxi walked into the room and saw a table of dishes and a person lying on his stomach, if it weren't for the half of his face, he wouldn't have believed that this person was Yin Hong.

The nanny aunt took Zhang Yanxi's coat, hung it on the hanger, and went to serve the meal.

"No, I'll do it myself." Zhang Yanxi said.

He went to the kitchen to fill two bowls of rice, gently put them on the table, set up the chopsticks, did not call her, he looked at half of her face, while eating, he tasted this dish slightly salty, not like the aunt's craftsmanship, under the red face carefully, it was also like a layer of oil stains, he knew what was going on, and a warm current rose in his heart.

Suddenly, Yin Hong moved her arm and touched the two chopsticks on the table, the chopsticks fell to the ground, she was awakened, and suddenly looked up to see Zhang Yanxi.

Yin Hong smiled and asked, "Are you back?" ”

"Hmm."

"I'll serve you dinner." Yin Hong got up as she spoke, and saw that there were already two bowls of rice on the table.

Zhang Yanxi picked up the chopsticks on the ground, took another pair, handed them to Yin Hong, and said, "Eat." ”

Yin Hong's nose was sour, she picked up the bowl and put the vegetables in her mouth, and laughed at herself with a wry smile: "It's not delicious." ”

Zhang Yanxi said: "It's delicious." ”

She pursed her lips, two tears coming out of her eyes, crying and laughing.

She wiped away her tears, lowered her head, and choked up to finish half a bowl of rice.

The two were speechless, after the meal, Yin Hong cleaned up the dinner table, Zhang Yanxi saw her busy and hurried, and felt that she was the cutest at this time. At this time, he poured a glass of water, took out two pills from his clothes pocket and stirred them in the water, Yin Hong saw it, dropped the dishes and chopsticks in his hand, wiped dry a pair of wet hands on the scarf on his waist, and ran over and asked, "What did you put in it?" ”

"Medicine."

"What medicine?"

"I don't know, it's anxiety relief, the doctor gave it."

"Why haven't I seen you eat before?"

"I'll just take it today." Zhang Yanxi picked up the water cup and drank it.

"Relieve anxiety, give me a sip first, okay?" Yin Hong took it from his hand, touched it to the warm water, and took a sip.

After drinking, he handed it back to him, and still went to wash the dishes.

"You know what, if it's poison, you're really dead." Zhang Yanxi asked: "You're not afraid of death?" ”

"It's poison, you won't give it to me." Yin Hong washed the dishes by herself, and her heart was extremely calm.

Zhang Yanxi smiled, looked at Yin Hong's back, and asked, "You are so well-behaved today, who taught you?" ”

Yin Hong paused, the sound of washing dishes stopped abruptly, the air seemed to freeze, she blushed, continued to wash the dishes, and the sound of the noise echoed in the living room again, "Who want to teach this?" She asked.

"Isn't it Fluttershy?"

Yin Hong thought about being exposed, she was ashamed and embarrassed, she didn't dare to look back at Zhang Yanxi, and muttered: "Even if she taught it, I learned it, and I can cook for you every day in the future, isn't it?" ”

"Not good."

Yin Hong's heart trembled, her heart was half cold, and she couldn't say anything. The world at this moment is quieter than before, like dead silence.

"I'm not going to marry a nanny, we already have an aunt."

"You—you said to marry ——?" Yin Hong turned her head and looked at him stunned.

"Yes, marry, marry you."

Her red circles have not subsided, but her eyes are full of tears, the reflection of happiness and despair, so that Yin Hong experienced great sorrow and joy, she cried and ran, threw herself into Zhang Yanxi's arms, and sobbed loudly, putting all her doubts, grievances, and fears...... Tears and cries are discharged.