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Zhuang Yunyun, who had just finished smoking opium, nested in bed and slept, the originally orderly room became chaotic, and the air was filled with a faint smell of opium.

After a while, she woke up from her dream, opened her eyes dimly, squinted and looked out the window, the sky was still bright, she didn't care what time it was, she didn't care what day it was, she lived almost all of her life in this room, she only needed a cigarette.

"Hmm~" Zhuang Yunyun snorted, turned over, rolled up the quilt on his body, suddenly touched a wall, and looked sideways, it was Liu Ying!

She rolled violently, fell under the bed, and shouted, "Why are you here?" ”

Liu Wei woke up, his face did not change, and he muttered, "I don't remember." ”

"Get out!" Zhuang Yunyun put on her coat, stood up barefoot, and ran to the cabinet to rummage through the boxes while scolding.

Liu Wei got up and didn't care, he didn't remember much, but he remembered that he came to this room in a half-dream, saw the sleeping Yunyun, and hugged her to sleep.

Yun Yun turned out a gun, it was the gun that Zhuang Yuncheng gave him, and it was also the gun that killed an Englishman, she walked over tremblingly, pointed the muzzle of the gun at Liu Wei, and said in a daze: "You... If you dare to touch me, I will kill you. ”

"Don't, don't..." Liu Wei's mind instantly cleared up, and he hurriedly stepped back, trembling and said: "Don't, I won't touch you until you agree, no..."

"Get out!"

Liu Wei crawled out with a roll, Zhuang Yunyun fell on the bed, and at this time, she was a little more sober. "I'm done, I'm hopeless," she asked herself, "Who am I?" … I'm Zhuang Yunyun, I still have my brother, I still have my sister, I still have... Cousin, and a lot of friends... But I'm like this now, they're going to abandon me, I'm ruined..."

"Knock knock."

Yun Yun didn't hear the knock on the door, she sent herself into the abyss of destruction overnight, all the beauty has nothing to do with herself, family affection does not exist, relatives are gone... All she was left with was the loneliness of seclusion.

"Xiao Yun, it's gone." Liu Wei suddenly broke in.

"What are you doing?" Yun Yun stared at him, turned over and pointed a gun at him.

"Smoke, gone." Liu Wei was stunned and said, "I don't have any money." ”

"Isn't your family so rich, enough is enough."

"That's not my money, I stole it, I took everything I could, and my dad would be suspicious."

"I don't care." Yun Yun put the gun still on the bed, leaned against the window, and said calmly: "Forget it, either quit smoking this time, or die here in pain, hmph, it is estimated that no one will find out if you die here for a few months." ”

"What precepts? Can you quit? Liu Wei sneered, "Besides, isn't it good to smoke a lot?" Man, who doesn't have pain, your pain is deeper than mine, and you can't quit, because this is the best way to get rid of pain. ”

"You hurt me, I can't see people anymore, now let me face them, I might as well die." Yun Yun's eyes were full of hatred, and she said in a deep voice: "I hate you, you will never want to get me in this life." ”

Liu Wei smiled pervertedly, crooked his mouth and said, "No need, I have gotten you thousands of times in my dreams, and I have shared a bed with you thousands of times." ”

The resentment in Zhuang Yunyun's heart was about to swell through her chest, and for the first time, she had the idea of wanting to kill, staring at Liu Wei tightly, her eyes were like a sword. Liu Wei was stunned for a moment, hurriedly turned around and left, disappearing from her sight. Yun Yun gasped for breath and took a long time to withdraw this murderous thought.

"Cousin, are you at home?"

"Who?" Yun Yun had a question in her mind, and she turned to see that it was Bai Chenxuan who appeared outside the gate.

She instinctively dodged away, but Bai Chenxuan saw her dodging shadow from the window.

"Cousin, I see you." Bai Chenxuan shouted, "My cousin has sent a letter to your home, and you haven't come to pick it up for a few days." ”

"Brother has sent a letter...... Yun Yun thought sluggishly, "What to do, what to do?" ”

"Cousin, wait for me, I'll come down right away." As she spoke, she rinsed her mouth to get rid of the smell of smoke in her mouth. When she returned, she sat down in front of the mirror and combed her hair, roughly drew a simple makeup, and applied a layer of powder to cover the black circles in her eye sockets, then rubbed her eyes a few times to make them look bright, and she went to Fluttershy's room to get a set of clothes and a pair of shoes to put on, and looked in front of the mirror. She smiled knowingly when she felt that she was still shining in the mirror, but she suddenly realized that this was only a temporary appearance, and there was some sadness in her eyes.

"Cousin-" Bai Chenxuan had been waiting for ten minutes, and he hadn't seen Yun Yun go down yet.

"It's coming!" Yun Yun ran down and warned Liu Wei at the same time, "Don't make a fuss, don't talk!" ”

Liu Wei nodded.

"Cousin." Yun Yun smiled and went to open the door.

"What are you doing?" Bai Chenxuan stared at her.

Yun Yun was flustered for a while, for fear that Bai Chenxuan would see something, so she hurriedly smiled and covered it up: "I didn't do anything, I just got up, and the whole person was in a mess, so I combed my hair and changed my clothes." ”

Bai Chenxuan looked at her, a suspicious look in his eyes.

Yun Yun panicked and asked cautiously, "What's wrong, what's wrong with me?" ”

"You've lost weight." Bai Chenxuan said with a frown.

Yun Yun suddenly felt sad, she suppressed her emotions, raised her hand and touched her cheeks, and still asked with a strong smile: "Is it?" Much thinner? ”

"Not much, a little." Bai Chenxuan said, "I went to the school to look for you, but you weren't there, so I came here to take a look." ”

"I'm off today, so I'll come back and have to go back to school tomorrow."

"But I asked your classmates, they said they hadn't seen you for nearly ten days, are you really at school?"

"I... I just didn't live at school, I was usually in the library, or outside, so they didn't see me. Yun Yun forcibly explained.

"Really?"

"I don't lie to you, cousin." Yun Yun puffed out her eyes, hoping that Bai Chenxuan would believe in herself, and then suddenly asked, "You said that my brother sent a letter?" ”

"yes." Bai Chenxuan gave her the letter and said, "It's been a few days, I thought you would come back to get it, but I didn't expect you to come in the past few days, I don't know what you're busy with, so I just came to see you today and gave you the letter." ”

"Thank you, cousin." Yun Yun held the letter and didn't know what to say, so she bowed her head and said nothing.

"I didn't see you so silent, are you okay?"

"It's fine."

"Since it's the weekend, come with me."

Yun Yun's brain was no longer enough, and she really couldn't think of a perfect reason, so she just lowered her head like a little girl and shook her head again.

"Don't want to go, live in my house, tired of living?" Bai Chenxuan asked with a smile.

"It's not...... Cousin......" Yun Yun hesitated, "I...... I just want to be alone and quiet. ”

Bai Chenxuan stared at her, always feeling uneasy in his heart, but he couldn't speak, so he looked into the house and asked, "You live alone?" ”

"yes."

"I remember you were cowardly."

"Not now."

"Okay." Bai Chenxuan felt very strange, in the past, he would never have nothing to say when he got along with Yun Yun, and he would never feel bored, but today's conversation was simply boring with every word.

Yun Yun didn't dare to look up at him, and she didn't know what to say, so she lowered her head, bit her reddened lip, and trumpeted the letter in her hand.

"Live alone, close the doors and windows at night, don't let people you don't know in, come to my house when you're free, Yuan Ying misses you." Bai Chenxuan said with concern.

"Got it." Yun Yun raised her head and said goodbye softly: "Goodbye, cousin." ”

Bai Chenxuan nodded, and left, taking away a lot of doubts.

Yun Yun entered the house mournfully and went upstairs, fortunately there was still a letter in her hand, which was the only contact with the outside world.

She tidied up her desk, sat down, and opened the letter, which contained two pieces of stationery, one written by Zhuang Yuncheng and one written by Fluttershy. She hadn't read it yet, only smelled the familiar smell of the envelope, her heart sank, she clenched her teeth, tried to keep her eyes open, and looked from the first word:

To my favorite sister:

Yun Yun, how are you?

You haven't heard from you in a while, have you forgotten about your big brother?

It's been almost a year and a half since our brother and sister separated, and this is the longest time you and I have been separated in the past 21 years, and I understand and agree with your idea of trying to be independent, and I'm very pleased with your decision, but, seriously, I miss you, sister-

Seeing this, Yun Yun's eyes were already full of tears, her vision was blurred, as soon as she closed her eyes, a few tears fell on the letter, she couldn't read it anymore, and cried on the table.

Liu Wei came in quietly and stood behind her for a long time.

"Xiao Yun." Liu Wei handed her two pieces of paper.

Yun Yun cried and wore makeup, cried wrinkles, and showed tiredness and decadence on her face for days.

"Why?" She cried out in despair, "Why do you want to hurt me, why do you want to hurt me? Make me look like this person is not a person, a ghost is not a ghost, how can I meet my brother and sister, how can I face them...... Why are you doing this to me, I hate you to death..."

Liu Jing can't do anything, he can't quit himself, let alone help her, he has no other way to atone for her sins, only to hand her a cigarette stick when she is addicted, so that her pain can be alleviated, that's all, but this makes her gradually go to the abyss.

"Get out of here! I don't care about you! She cried bitterly, turned around and slapped Liu Jing's body, Liu Jing cowered and went out, and her consciousness became trance.

Yun Yun slammed the door shut, slid down the door and sat on the ground crying...... I don't know how long it took, but she only saw the last rays of orange-red sunlight hidden in the dark clouds, and by this time she was already in pain, holding her chest and curling up on the floor sobbing. However, it didn't take long for the pain of a deeper addiction to replace her longing for her loved ones and the deep sadness in her heart, which was devastating, and she could not bear a tenth of it, but the smoke helped her stop the pain and gave her a beautiful vision.

She was relieved the moment she compromised, and after a while she fell into a deep sleep, and in her dreams, she was still the bright and bright girl, enjoying the warmth and beauty of the world.