Chapter 12: It's Hard to Say Goodbye When We Meet (Part I)
There was beyond's song "Like You" in the room, and Huang Jiaju's deep voice echoed melodiously in the room:
"Listen to an old song, read an article!
Boundless thoughts, inexplicable hesitation.
The drizzle outside the window, ticking and ticking!
Watering my little flower, I miss you!
Listen to an old song, read an article.
When I like you, it makes no sense!
Like you, like you, I like you!
Like you, like you, it doesn't make so much sense!
Like you, like you, I like you!
When I like you, it makes no sense ........"
Jennifer listened to the song while looking at Zhou Shengsheng. With hot tears in his eyes, his hands gently stroked Zhou Shengsheng's chest, choked up and said: "I just like you, from the first time we met, from the first thing you said to me, I liked you." In my eyes, you will always be so handsome and chic. There's a lot of charm in your body. ”
"When was that? Besides, how can I be so good? I've always been just a normal person!" Zhou Shengsheng asked with some hesitation.
"That was when you were five years old and I was three years old. At that time, you were standing at the door of the women's toilet with a small stick in your hand, blocking the bullying of those bad children for me. I was probably too fat at the time, and they bullied me a lot. And you often fight for me, and beat a few of them to the bottom of the ass. I liked you so much at that time. You have often said to me, "Hide behind me and I will protect you." I like the way you talk at that time. To this day, when I think of this sentence, my heart is surging and full of joy. Just like today, you still let me hide behind you and protect me. I really like the way you stand in front of me like a mountain. Jennifer looked at Zhou Shengsheng affectionately and said seriously.
"At that time, we were all children, and there would be no real feelings there. Besides, your memory is okay, you can still remember things so far ago! I seem to be underestimating that one now, as a little brat! ”
"You told me at that time that I looked like a friend of yours, and that you would always protect me and love me. You said that as long as you are there, others will not want to bully you! I like it so much to see you speak categorically! ”
"Did I say that? Did I say that? ”
"Yes, you said that! At that time, you looked me in the eye and told me very seriously. Say it to me. Your affectionate gaze and firm words, I will remember it for the rest of my life! ”
Zhou Shengsheng thought: "I guess I was too bored to pretend to be a child at that time, so I talked nonsense about a little girl." Who knew that it was an overly precocious child, who could understand so many things at such a young age. The most important thing is that she can hide it from herself. Under her innocent gaze, how stupid her actions were at that time. It seems that in this era of knowledge explosion, children know too much and are too precocious. But he said disapprenanently: "You will remember, it was many years ago." That's really child's talk, and you shouldn't take it that seriously. ”
"At that time, although I was only three years old, I had a high IQ, and I would recite every word you said to the people who asked me to spy on you. Wasn't I very good at the time? Amazing memory, huh? Even the people who were spying on you at the time said I was amazing! ”
"Hey! At that time, I had the body of a child, but I had the body of an adult, in fact, I was just bored with an innocent little girl, and said something nonsense! I don't remember what I said, so how would I know you were that good back then? If I knew, I wouldn't have said anything. By the way, what else am I talking nonsense? ”
"You also talked about several of your childhood experiences, you said your lofty ideals in this life, you said that you want to live an ordinary life, marry a wife, and have a child! You also said what the ideal woman looks like in your heart, you also said that you can only live for thirty-two years in this life, and you said that you have to learn some new things so that you can prepare for your next life, because the next time is very long, enough for you to experience the true meaning of life again, the ideal of life. In short, you said a lot, a lot. ”
"What? I said so much? Have I really said so many things? Did you really recite it all to the people who were watching me? Oh my God, I said it all, I betrayed myself. Ay! I said, how do you know that in such detail? What do you know about me? I told you that I was such an idiot, what an idiot. ”
"I was still young at the time, there were some things I didn't understand, I didn't know the cause of the incident and the truth hurt you! So I basically said everything I heard, and recited it to them! I thought you were a really powerful brother, brother! I just like you, I love you talking to me, I love telling the world what you say to me! ”
After Zhou Shengsheng heard those words, he was stunned, not knowing how to express his feelings. Jennifer continued: "When I overheard you at noon, it was as if you had unconsciously kicked me in my ass, causing my ass to break and bleed a lot. Leaves me with a flower-like scar on my ass! Brother, how can you have so much strength, why are your feet so hard! ”
Zhou Shengsheng seemed to wake up from his sluggish state, and replied in a panic: "I may be unconscious, I seem to be in a dream at the time, something happened, and I instinctively fought back." But when I reacted and scared the hell out of me, how could I have kicked you? That was probably my first time hitting someone, the first time I kicked someone, and it was you, such a weak little girl? I saw how much blood you shed, I was terrified! Of course, I'm also distressed! ”
"But I didn't betray my brother! I just told them that I fell on my own! I don't hurt! Do you think I was brave at the time? ”
Zhou Shengsheng looked at Jennifer, and an inexplicable feeling surged in his heart, and he couldn't help but stretch out his arms, hugged Jennifer tightly, and kissed her cheek gently!
"You were so strong back then! I did feel that someone was attacking me, and I did kick it unconsciously......."
Jennifer blocked Zhou Shengsheng's mouth: "I didn't blame you, that's actually my reason, I eavesdropped first!" I don't blame you! It's true! ”
Zhou Shengsheng gently stroked the flower-like scar and sighed softly!
"Later, we went to elementary and junior high school together, and we could be together every day, and I loved it! I like to watch you quietly, and I love to see you listening carefully! I love you really, all the time! Later, on your sixteenth birthday, I received a note from you, and I was really happy, and I was glad to know that you also enjoyed being with me. I really like it! I feel that my efforts over the years have not been in vain, and you have finally confessed to me. ”
"But you left anyway, never to be seen again. I haven't seen you since! You have not been heard from since, you have not appeared, it is as if you have disappeared into thin air. ”
"That's because they noticed that my feelings for you have changed, so they only let me spy on you in the dark and make me disappear from your reality! It's good for both of us! I'm afraid that because of our relationship, you will do something that will change the course of history. ”
"How nice it would be if I knew? I don't have much time, and I cut one day off every day I pass. I really enjoyed being with you then, really! If I had known you were always by my side, I probably wouldn't have been so desperate! I have no good feelings for this world, no feelings! ”
"yes, that woman who suddenly appeared in your life is so unfair to you?"
"Or I'm lucky, I don't really invest much in that relationship. It may also be my fault that caused the results in the future! She and I are responsible. ”
"Hey! That's a devilish woman, you're just a means of transportation for her! I say that, I hope you don't mind too much! ”
Zhou Shengsheng muttered: "It's really, it's really, I really didn't expect that the relationship between people would be so complicated, so weird, especially in a relationship that is already so close and intimate, there will be so many changes." Those things, for me, are really too complicated. ”
"That's because you're too simple, too simple. I've actually been by your side all the time, watching you all the time! Rejoice when you're happy, and be miserable when you're miserable! ”
"Rejoice, do I have a time to rejoice? Am I really happy? I seemed to be slowly and aimlessly pushed by a hand that does not exist all the time, like a puppet! I seem to know everything, but I don't know anything! ”
"Do you like that kid very much?"
"Me? I don't know if I like it or not. Zhou Shengsheng suddenly felt a pain in his heart, remembering the past, and remembering his past with that woman! I seem to have liked that woman too! Do you like her emotions for herself, or do you like emotions that you feel can easily control! I don't know, and it's really hard to tell! I don't seem to understand anything, and I seem to understand everything: "I met her in a winter, and when we first met, we didn't seem to leave any impression, but vaguely remembered her hearty laughter!" When we said goodbye, we were at a party, and for some reason, I would send her home, and she seemed to drink too much, but at her house, nothing seemed to happen! We just said something inconsequential, and I seemed to find that she was a very mature woman, or rather a woman who was already ripe! Later, we were together, only she once said that she liked the smell of a certain perfume, the smell of a man's perfume! Later, I knew that the person she actually wanted to marry was not me, but the one who smelled of perfume! But the man with the smell of perfume is inconvenient! So I was with her during the window period. And then there's everything that happened after that. ”
Jennifer looked at Zhou Shengsheng who was lost in thought, and hummed a song softly!
"I once loved such a man,
He said I was the most beautiful woman in the world.
I keep that innocence for him,
Close the door to love others.
It's also this man who I love so much,
Turn me into the dumbest woman in the world.
I take everything he says seriously,
He said he loved my lips the most.
I'm not very demanding,
Treat me as well as ever.
But one day you said the same thing,
Embrace others in your arms.
You have the smell of her perfume,
It is my nose that commits sin,
You shouldn't smell her beauty.
Wipe everything off and sleep with you,
You have the smell of her perfume,
It's the inferiority you give!
The love you want is too perfect,
I'll never learn ......"
Listening to Jennifer's song, a tear fell from the corner of Zhou Shengsheng's eye, and the tear flowed into his mouth very bitter and astringent! He thought to himself: "Yes, is it my own reason, or not, I really don't know." It's easy to start, but it's easy to lose. Perhaps, from the beginning of the time, he has already finished her. Maybe she and she were too lonely at the time, and they all needed their respective bodies to comfort each other, and that's all. ”
Jennifer looked at Zhou Shengsheng, who was deep in thought, and said slowly: "In fact, the most ridiculous thing is that the man she found in the end didn't smell of perfume!" That man is just a little older than you, and younger! In fact, for some women, physical pleasure is the most important thing. That's the kind of woman you've met......"
Zhou Shengsheng looked at Jennifer and said seriously: "Since you all know, why didn't you show up, and where are you?" Look at me? Spy on my life? See my jokes? Watch me cry like an idiot? ”
"Actually, we can only watch you, we can't and can't intervene in your life! Who knows if she's a part of history? If you move her, is it to change history again? No one dares to try to change you, change and anything about you. We can't do it and we don't dare to do it. We can only stand beside you and watch you quietly. ”
Looking at Zhou Shengsheng's face and observing the wonderful expression on his face, Jennifer looked at Zhou Shengsheng seriously again, and said solemnly: "Don't forget, your true identity." You are the singularity, the singularity that changed the fate of the universe. We dare not do anything, and we must not do it......"