The night I rescued Limo, it was a rare good night's sleep.

I said to myself vigorously, "Look, I can survive under the sword of Limo, and what is there in this world that I can't survive, and what is more important than my life?"

I really don't think about dying or anything like that now, after all, Limo is right, I still have my family, and many people who love me, and my mother. My father has so many children, but my mother has only one daughter in her life, although Sister Wan was raised by her since she was a child, but only me and her are really connected by blood. What should my mother do if something happens to me?

Even if it's for my mother, I'll live well.

When he was about to return to Beijing, he met an unexpected person at Mu Jing.

The last time I drank with Yiyang, he also said that he had to leave Beijing for a few days for some things, and he didn't expect to meet again here. If it hadn't been for that drunkenness with him, I might not have remembered these things so quickly.

Listening to Yinyang, he and Mu Jing met inadvertently two months ago, he likes to meet friends with wine, this Mu Jing is a well-known alcoholic, and has always been informal, because he is not in the seniority with whom to rap, such a temperament of two people put together, that's not the same as the last time I met with Lingyang, as soon as we met, there were endless words.

"Yi'er, I always thought that you were very smart, and you would understand many things when you thought about it." Mu Jing went out to buy wine, and there were only two people left, me and Yiyang.

I figured in my heart that if I could say such a thing, I was afraid that he was not really saying something to me, but saying good things about someone.

"If it's because of Li Xuan..."

Sure enough, he said the man's name.

But before he could finish speaking, I interrupted him: "I have nothing to do with him. ”

He didn't annoy me because of this, and continued to talk about it: "You know what? When Li Xuan was a child, he played alone on the street, and he couldn't remember the way back when he was late, but a little girl helped him, and from then on he would go to her whenever he had time. ”

"Later, one day, he was discovered by his father, that girl was just an ordinary person, and even her family background was not very good, Bai Yushi would not allow such a person to approach Li Xuan, so he strictly ordered Li Xuan not to meet him in the future, but he didn't listen, disobeyed his father, and after a few days, he secretly ran out to see the little girl."

"When he arrived, the girl's family had all burned to death because of the fire in their home, and no one survived."

I was a little shocked to hear him say this, but I didn't say anything, so I listened to him continue to say what he had to say.

"You should have heard that more than ten years ago, Concubine Bai Jiao, because she was jealous of Concubine Huixian, poisoned her, and she was unable to conceive for life. After Concubine Bai Shu died, the Bai family wanted to avenge her, but there was no way to move Concubine Huixian, and then they thought of King Chen, when King Chen was ten years old, Bai Yushi found someone to assassinate him, of course, this matter also has a share of our Murong family. ”

When talking about the Murong family, he paused, thinking that he didn't like this kind of deception.

"King Chen's fate was great, and when he still had a trace of sanity, he jumped into the river, and at that time, because the group of people were a little afraid of death, the river was deep and fast, so they did not catch up. But because of that injury, I still have scars. ”

As he spoke, for some reason my heart was as distressed as a colic, as if I saw such a small person in front of me, chased by a group of killers, seriously injured, and finally had to jump into the river, I was afraid that at that time he didn't know if he could live, thinking that even if he died, he couldn't die in the hands of those people, and finally picked up a life, I'm afraid I couldn't believe it.

I was angry with the methods of the Bai family and the Murong family, and at the same time sympathized with King Chen's plight, and muttered, "Ten years old... He's just a kid..."

"The family that was burned to death back then was not all old and weak women and children, but they were still ruthless." The person in front of him seemed to be careless, looking like he didn't care about himself, and continued to drink. But I can still see that he is also dissatisfied with the Murong family's approach, the Bai family and the concubine have enmity, but the Murong family does not, even if there is, at most the concubine robbed the queen of the queen's favor, but that is not enough for the Murong family to be so ruthless to a ten-year-old child.

I was amazed that he would tell me such a thing, and suddenly I didn't think that it had anything to do with Bai Lixuan, and looked at him suspiciously.

He continued to explain: "The methods of the Bai family have always been ruthless, Li Xuan has been exposed to it since he was a child, he is just a little playmate, his father will cut the grass and eradicate the roots, if he is a person who is in love with him, and the family is still at odds with him, what will he do?" ”

I sneered, and then said, "I don't know." ”

He didn't speak again, as if he knew I wasn't finished speaking, and didn't say what was in his heart.

"Do you want to tell me that Bai Lixuan didn't choose to be with me at the beginning, and nominally couldn't give me what I wanted, because he was afraid that his father would be unfavorable to me and our Prime Minister's Mansion?"

He didn't expect me to get a little emotional, and reached out to take my restless hand: "You are such a smart person..."

I shook off his hand, picked up a full glass of wine in front of me and drank it bitterly, the cold air went down to my intestines, and the smell of wine spread to my brain, and I slowly calmed down.

"What he thinks, it's none of my business, I don't know, I don't want to know, it's all in the past. If I hadn't been drinking with you that day, I wouldn't have known that I had been living in a dream all along. ”

Zhenyang finally couldn't help sighing, since I knew him, I haven't seen him sigh, he is such a cheerful person, even if he was born with an eye disease, he has to live with a white silk for many years, and he has never complained.

"When I came to you, I had already talked to your sister. Yi'er, I can't help you anything, others can't help you anything, there is some pain, only you can come out slowly. Didn't you ask me last time, why did you call my mother Mrs. Murong? I can tell you that she is not my biological mother. ”

"She's not your biological mother, so your biological mother..."

I didn't expect him to say it, and I had a vague guess that maybe it really was. Over the years, the Murong family has never had any rumors in the family, I didn't ask him, first, I really don't have that kind of doubt about other people's private affairs, I have to know, and second, he has already expressed his willingness not to say it, so I shouldn't poke his sore spot again. It's just that since he said it today, I can also follow the boat to find out.

I only heard him explain to me slowly: "My mother left me when she first gave birth to me. She didn't die, she just wasn't in Murong's house, and she wasn't in South Vietnam, and she talked about my father for a long time... I've known about it since I was a child, and sometimes when I think about it, it's nothing, she's not around me, she's just loving me in another way. ”

After he said that, he went on to talk about me.

"Yi'er, sometimes what choice people make, it will not be 100% for themselves, maybe for the dearest and most beloved people around them. You have been sick since you were a child, and all the doctors said that there was no way to cure it, but your father and mother never gave up on you, they all thought that you could live well, and some things, since they have happened, don't worry about why it happened and why it happened. People don't live for someone, something, you don't have to, so despise your own life. ”

I looked at his eyes bound by white silk, he didn't inherit the ruthlessness of the Murong family at all, and he didn't learn it, but he didn't know where to learn such a kind heart.

I never thought that I would meet such a confidant who knew me and understood me, and could talk to me and comfort me when I had something on my mind.

We can drink together and talk together from night to dawn.

"Did you understand what I said?"

I smiled, clinked glasses with him, and confessed to him what I was thinking: "Yang, you misunderstood. I didn't want to give up my life, just yesterday, I had figured out that I shouldn't have given up my chance to live for someone who is no longer there. ”

"But you know what? With a body like mine, even the doctor who healed me can't be sure when I'll be gone, and over the years, that agreement is like a force that supports me to go on. ”

"Ling Xueyun, from the time we met to now, it has been almost nine years, I have been with him for two months, waiting for him for eight years, until I learned of his death and lost his memory for half a year, going around and around, I still remember him."

"You're right, it's true that people don't live just for someone or something, perhaps, I should forget about him, I should live my life well. But I can't help it. ”

Every time I talk about him, I can't hold back my tears, in fact, I still can't believe it, I can't believe that he is no longer there. I always felt like he was still alive, he was watching me all the time. If it weren't for Mu Jing, the person who told me about that incident might not have believed it at all, and I would have continued to wait for him.

"You'er, you forgot about him."