The scenery of the peach blossom forest is still the same, the peach trees are one after another, and the small saplings planted at that time have grown a lot. Surrounded by flowers and mountains, it is truly a desperate situation. If I could, I really wouldn't want to go back to that sad place and want to stay here forever. Ten more Ice Lake Gardens, I'm afraid they can't match this peach blossom forest with Brother Yun and me.

When I think of the Ice Lake Garden, I have to think of that person. Should I be happy or pessimistic? Although Yang had already made it clear to me about the man's plight, I still resented him after all. After all, during the time when I lost my memory, it was undeniable that I really had feelings for him, but it didn't reach the point where he had to be as he was as Xingyi said.

But it's also very good, I didn't really have anything with him at the beginning, if I was really with him, when I recovered my memory and remembered Brother Yun, wouldn't it be more of a headache for me.

I still clearly remember that when I set foot here half a year ago, the first thing Mu Jing said to me was that he was no longer there. I was in despair, I couldn't hear what Mu Jing said later, I just felt that at this moment, the sky had fallen, and I didn't have time to think about why he didn't come to me before.

I asked myself vigorously, it turns out that he is no longer there? Why? Why is this happening? Didn't he promise me that he would marry me when he grew up, and didn't he tell me to wait for him?

It was as if my brain had exploded, and I was recalling the scene when we were separated over and over again. Ling Xieyun, he was really ruthless, he left me alone like this, violated the agreement between us like this, and left me completely. I'd rather he had forgotten about me, I'd rather he had married someone else, I'd rather he really failed me, than he would have been so cruel to me.

There was a sudden silence around me, I looked at the front blankly, only to notice the tears in my eyes flowing down little by little, my brain was stunned, I couldn't feel my heart hurting, as if the moment I heard that he was no longer alive, my heart was dead. How can a person whose heart is already dead still feel pain?

I still remember when I was a child, I often heard my mother talk about her when she was young, she also married her father despite the opposition of everyone around her, and her father promised her at the wedding that he would be good to her for the rest of his life, and he would only love her for the rest of his life, and he would only marry her for the rest of his life.

And then? I can't remember a little, probably when my father was just promoted to prime minister, I went to drink with some colleagues, and I came back the next day, and my mother didn't suspect anything at that time, but a month later, a woman came to my father who was pregnant, claiming that she was pregnant with the prime minister's heir, and told me the whole process of being with my father that night, but my father didn't deny it at all. The mother fainted at that time, and when she woke up, she found out that she was also pregnant, but for the sake of the reputation of the Prime Minister's Mansion, the mother did not get angry, nor did she do anything to the woman, but advocated that her father marry the woman as a concubine.

The woman is Sister Wan's biological mother, the mother never thought of embarrassing her at that time, she thought that after she gave birth, she could take the child with her duty and live a good life, but she didn't expect to be famous, she gave birth to Sister Wan Soon after, she only left a suicide note and committed suicide.

At that time, I didn't know who it was, so I reported it to my father, saying that her mother forced her to commit suicide, but my father believed it in a daze, and angrily accused her mother of being vicious.

The mother was about to give birth at that time, and she was so troubled that she suffered a lot of fetal gas, and she almost had to die twice. Later, although I gave birth to me, I have been weak and sick since I was a child, and my mother was fundamentally injured because of this, and my body can no longer be recuperated.

In fact, I don't know at all whether my father really loves my mother, and even if there is, how much that love is. I don't know if my mother really had a difficult birth because of that distrust, and completely broke her heart and body, or because she didn't explain a word to her father when she was pregnant with me, or because her husband, who promised her to marry only one person for the rest of her life, would take one concubine after another when she was pregnant.

In my memory, my father and mother have always respected each other and never made noise, even if there was occasionally, it was my father who let my mother. I often ask myself, will I want such a lifetime if I am given it? The father's failure to explain at the time has proved that he no longer loves his mother. And the mother's lack of crying or fuss at that time also proves that she no longer loves her father.

I always boasted about how much I loved Brother Su, but in the end, I realized that I didn't understand the so-called love at all.

This big peach blossom forest, from now on, there will be no Ling Xueyun's figure. I, Su Yi'er, even if I wait for another eight years, I can't wait for that person. It turns out that in this world, no one can fulfill the promise he made, my father did not, and my brother Yun did not either. How unfortunate my mother and I were, we didn't know we regretted it until we saw everything clearly.

Maybe I'm lucky, maybe he still thinks about me at the moment he leaves. It's just my regret, but I regret meeting him, if it weren't for me, he should still be alive in this world now.

Su Yi'er, you are now Su Yi'er, not Su Muyan, from the time you left Ling Xie Yun and returned to the capital, you should know that you will not have such a day as before.

I don't know when, the eyes have been empty, it turns out that I have walked uncontrollably to the edge of the cliff, below, is the Lake of Forgetfulness, because of fear before, I have never been so close to here, only dare to look at it from afar. Now I know that there is such a superb view below, everyone here knows that the end of this peach blossom forest is the Lake of Forgetfulness that few people have set foot in for thousands of years, it has such a magical ability to make people forget everything, but those who want to forget, really have the courage to come here, how many of them?

I looked at everything in front of me and muttered, "Lake of Forgetfulness, Lake of Forgetfulness." ”

I shook my head over and over again, looked down, smiled wryly, and said to myself: "At that time, I heard that the water of this lake of forgetfulness can make people forget everything, everything that should be forgotten, and everything that should not be forgotten. Since he has died in Huangquan, he should have drunk the Meng Po soup of the Lechuan River, he has forgotten everything about me, I have always been unwilling to suffer from other people's losses, he forgot me, how could I be willing to continue to remember him. ”

"Xiao Yan, you wait for me, I will definitely come to you, when I grow up, I will propose to your father, marry you, promise me, wait for me, I will definitely go to you, this is our agreement."

Ling Xieyun, in this life, whether you owe me or I owe me, after all, I can't figure it out.

"Xiao Yan, I'm sorry, I can't stay with you all the time, this bracelet was left to me by my mother when I was born, I never left me, and now I will hand it over to you. Xiao Yan, you wait for me, I will definitely come to you, and when I grow up, I will propose to your father, marry you, promise me, wait for me, I will definitely go to you, this is our agreement. ”

No matter how prosperous the land of the capital is, how brilliant the Prime Minister's Mansion is, if I can, I just want to stay in our peach blossom forest and keep our agreement, just like that, until I am old.

This time, it's for my own sake, for my mother, for Sister Wan, for Xingyi, and for those who can't lose me. I want to live for myself, I want to live for that promise.

Is it that everyone who jumps off the lake of forgetfulness, before forgetting, everything about that person will come to mind in front of them, and those sad and cheerful memories will come flooding up.

I seem to have seen the scene when I first met Brother Yun, I saved him with Mu Jing, he was estranged from us when he first woke up, I took the initiative to approach him again and again, we went from strange, to acquaintance, to familiar with each other, we made promises to each other again and again.

I seem to see that one day later, my father and mother came to see me, and Brother Yun was so frightened when he first saw them, and the next day he left, I begged him so hard, but he still left, and left me without looking back.

I heard him say that he would come back and marry me. I waited and waited, watching my body get worse day by day, and my mother cried into tears every time I was unconscious, and this was a full eight years. But he didn't come, and he didn't come.

I also seem to have seen that day when I came to the Peach Blossom Forest, I heard from Mu Jing's mouth that he was no longer there, at that moment, I fell into a desperate situation, what a big joke God played with me, the person I had been waiting for, it turned out that he had already passed away, it turned out that my eight years of waiting, in exchange for nothing more than an empty dream.

I saw that I was standing alone on the edge of the cliff he had jumped on, and that cliff was so deep and so desolate, that I would surely die if I jumped, but I still resolutely jumped down.

Those memories of ours will never belong to me again.

"Xiao Yan, do you know that I am really happy with you."

"Xiao Yan, we will be together for the rest of our lives."

"Xiao Yan, wait for me."

Ling Xueyun, you missed the appointment.

Everything you've said has come to naught.

You have promised me nothing.

Now that I have forgotten you, I will see it as a punishment for you, and for myself.