I don't know how much wine I drank in a daze, and the last memory is still taken home by Yuyin in the restaurant.

This time, I slept for a long time, and this sleep reminded me of many things.

"Who are you? How did I end up here? ”

"You're finally awake, you've been in a coma for a long time. This is Peach Blossom Village, this is my house. When someone saw you fainting by the river, they refused to help, and I asked Uncle Mu to take you in. He's the most skilled doctor here. Don't worry, you're fine now, it's just that the knife wound on your head should leave a scar. ”

"My name is Su Muyan, when you are well, we can play together."

"Well, good. Then I'll call you Xiaoyan in the future. ”

"Okay, so what's your name?" .

"My name is Ling Xueyun."

"Your name is so nice, you are older than me, then I will call you Brother Yun from now on."

"Brother Yun, can you not go back, stay here with me all the time."

"Xiao Yan, if I can, I will always be by your side, we will always be together. Not separated. ”

"Okay, let's pull the hook then. Pull the hook, hang yourself, a thousand years, not allowed to change. ”

"Hold the hand of the son, grow old with the son, Brother Yun, do you know what this sentence means?"

"I don't understand, is it holding hands to get old?"

"Isn't it like we are now?"

"Xiao Yan, I'm sorry, I can't stay with you all the time, this bracelet was left to me by my mother when I was born, I never left me, and now I will hand it over to you. Xiao Yan, you wait for me, I will definitely come to you, and when I grow up, I will propose to your father, marry you, promise me, wait for me, I will definitely go to you, this is our agreement. ”

"Brother Yun, you promised me that you wouldn't leave me, your words don't count."

"Xiao Yan, obedient. You have to wait for me, you must wait for me, I will definitely go to you. ”

"This person has a special identity, and it is really not appropriate to have too much contact with Yan'er, but fortunately, the husband had the foresight to force him to leave, otherwise we will have ** annoyance in the entire Prime Minister's Mansion in the future."

"For the Prime Minister's Mansion, but also for the future of the Emperor. Go back to Beijing in two days, take Yi'er with you, she is still so young, I really don't worry about her being alone outside. ”

"Father, mother, are you really here to tie up your children? I don't believe it. Brother Yun, don't worry, I will wait for you, no matter how long, I will wait. ”

When I was eight years old, I was still living at Uncle Mu's house in Peach Blossom Village, and that night, he rescued a seriously injured boy by the river, and that person was Brother Yun. I grew up in this place, and I was the only kid in the neighborhood, and for the first time, I had a playmate.

We promised each other that we would be with each other for the rest of our lives, maybe we were ridiculous and ignorant at that time, but I was still very happy. He gave me one of the happiest times of my life.

He told me that his parents died when he was a child, and he was alone, and he had no hope for life for a long time, and it was my kindness that began to give him a little hope, and made him begin to feel how precious life was, and he said that I was the greatest blessing given to him by God. But he didn't know, and it was because of his appearance that I had new expectations for life, and I longed for him to accompany me for a lifetime, holding the hand of my son. Growing old with my son, I still can't understand the true meaning of this sentence until now.

He told me to wait for him, and I waited, but eight years later, no one but me set foot in that barren peach blossom forest.

My father, my mother, and the people around me all told me why I was so stupid, he had long forgotten about me, it was just a joke when I was a child, and only I would take it seriously, and if he really remembered the agreement, why did he make me wait for eight years, and he still didn't show up. Still, I believe that he still remembers me, and that he will still come to me, maybe he has something to delay, maybe he can't get out of the way now, or maybe, there are many possibilities.

I have never liked this prosperous place in Beijing, if God can give me the opportunity to choose, I would really prefer to stay in the countryside forever, the identity of the prime minister's only concubine, seems to be noble, but in fact it is just a shackle to my happiness. This luxurious and huge Prime Minister's Mansion is just a cage that traps me in freedom. These ethereal things are always reminding me that the carefree country girl Su Muyan no longer exists.

"Xiao Yan, I don't want to lie to you, Yun'er is no longer there..."

"He appeared in front of my house full of scars that day, and he was already poisoned and did not live long."

"I saw him jump off that cliff."

"He asked me to give you this letter, and you have to live well."

The past came to my heart, and I will never forget that year, my most beloved father cruelly separated me from Brother Yun and forced him away. I can't forget that half a year ago, I set foot in the peach blossom forest again, and what I was waiting for was the news that he was dead. At that time, I felt that he was gone, and I didn't have the courage to live, and I thought that maybe there would be an afterlife, and we could still be together. But I was wrong, my life was not my own, my father rescued me, and when I woke up, I forgot everything about Brother Heyun.

I spent half a year in mediocrity, with those fragmentary memories, and when I dreamed back at midnight, I dreamed of him again and again, dreaming of our past. I don't know why my father and mother never mentioned my past, I don't know, I don't remember many things, my father and mother never worried.

It turned out that what happened in my dreams these days was not a dream at all, but a real memory of what I had experienced before. It turned out that I didn't have a memory disorder because of the treatment of the disease, I remembered what Xingyi didn't finish saying that time, I knew that it was my father, he wanted me to completely forget those things, that memory, he didn't know, how could a person with incomplete memories live happily for the rest of his life.

"Yi'er, on such a cold day, why did you come out in single clothes."

I don't know when, Sister Wan has stood behind me, and as she spoke, she put a cloak on me, and I realized that I was just wearing a single coat and standing outside.

I turned back, and Sister Wan looked at me: "Yi'er, in fact, some things are over when they pass, and my father is also for your good, don't worry too much." ”

Somehow, tears flowed down her eyes, and she said to her with a wry smile, "Good for me?" I never knew when he was good for me, Sister Wan, you don't know, what Xie Yun means to me. He is my father, but he is not qualified to deprive me of my right to make friends and deprive me of my memories. ”

"Miss, Miss, Madame is here." Yuyin suddenly walked over.

I really don't want to see others now, so I turned around and was about to enter the house, but I was stopped by Sister Wan, and then my mother's voice came: "Yi'er, are you feeling better?" ”

I wiped tears from the corners of my eyes and blurted out, "It's none of your business." ”

I only heard my mother sigh, slowly walked towards me, held my hand tightly, and said sadly: "It's been eight years, and you still can't let go?" Yi'er, you are the only daughter of me and your father, our most beloved child, I and your father do everything for your good, why don't you understand? ”

Holding back tears, I broke away from her grip on my hand, "Good for me? What's wrong with Brother Yun? He was just a kid at the time, and he was going to hurt me? Will it hurt our family? Obviously, it was because you saw that he was helpless and had no family background that prevented me from contacting him. ”

"Shut up!" Before I finished speaking, a scolding voice came from the door: "You rebel girl, for a person whose origin is unknown, you have been against your father many times, how can you be worthy of our Su family?" ”

I was already in a much calmer mood, but when I heard him say Brother Yun, I was angry and sad in my heart They all said that father and daughter are connected, why is my father different He never took into account my feelings, and didn't care if I was happy or not. Whether or not I am born to him.

"Yi'er, it's not me who embarrass you, that Ling Xueyun, he's not a good person at all. I went to check his background, there is no Ling Xie Yun in this world at all, he is lying to you, he doesn't even dare to tell you his real name. He approached you, absolutely not well, we did it for your own good. He came to my side and spoke in a much calmer tone.

But I was a little excited, my eyes were fixed on him, tears could not help flowing down anymore, but my tone was very calm: "Father, he is not a bad person, he is the person I have been waiting for for eight years, and he is the person I love the most." ”

"How long are you going to go crazy?" Before I could react, his slap had already landed on my face, and he had done the same before, and every time he hit me so hard that I fell to the ground and my mouth was bleeding slightly.

My mother hurriedly helped me up, "How can you beat your daughter at every turn?" Is there something you can't say well? The man is obviously gone, one has to worry about the dead, the other has to worry about the father and the dead, the father and daughter have the same nature, and neither of them will let anyone. ”

I fell to the ground and did not move, without the slightest intention of getting up, nor did I speak, and let the tears flow. The mother couldn't say anything, so she got up and walked out the door. After I came back from Peach Blossom Village, even I don't remember how many times it was, and at the beginning, my mother would persuade me to say a few words about him, but next time it will be the same. If she doesn't want to take care of it, if she helps me and I don't get up, she will let our father and daughter quarrel enough.

"I really don't understand, what kind of ecstasy soup did he pour you, is my father not as important as him in your heart?" He continued to add fuel to the fire.

I was afraid to look at the ground blankly, crying and laughing, at this time, if someone else saw it, they would think that I was an out-and-out madman, in fact, I am a madman, I have been crazy for so many years, how could I care about a few more years of madness.

"You obviously know that he is no longer there, even if we still remember each other, it is impossible to be together, why, you have to deprive me of my memory, do you know, he is the person I Su Yi'er will never forget in my life."

I knew he had given up, he didn't want to persuade any more, and I felt a sense of purity as I listened to the footsteps of them leaving one by one. I was the only one left in the courtyard of Nuoda, and I stared at the tears that fell on the floor, not wanting to get up at all, and finally simply lay on the cold ground.

There was a gust of wind in my ears, and I was still at a loss in my mind when I looked at the sky that was gradually darkening. There has never been a moment when I was so desperate as now, I knew that he would not come back, that agreement, in the end, I was the only one who kept it, so it was okay, I could keep our agreement, keep our memories, keep this obsession in my heart, and live like this forever.

"Yi'er, it's cold on the ground, get up."

Sister Wan appeared behind me again, I don't want to get up at the moment, only this outright coldness can make me feel that I am still alive and that this world still exists.

"Hello."

Sister Wan called me again.

I glanced up at her, and then said, "Sister, I want to go to the Peach Blossom Forest to see, you can help me talk to my mother, it's best to leave tomorrow." ”

"Okay." She blurted out. I smiled faintly at her, in fact, I still have a family, a mother, and Sister Wan, no matter what happens, they will face me, they will protect me, I still have Xingyi, and Yinyang. In this world, there is no one who will not survive without it.

"Yi'er, actually, you lost your memory at that time, not exactly your father, it was indeed partly because of medication, if it was really your father who did it on purpose, you wouldn't have remembered it so quickly."