When I returned to Beijing, it was already evening.

Because of the cold in the falling water, Lou Yihang was afraid that I would have a hard time walking, so he came out of the woods and carried me all the time, fortunately the road was not very far, and it was not difficult to walk, and it didn't take long to find the location of the carriage.

When I got out of the car, because I was afraid that others would gossip, I asked him not to send me and just go back to the palace. Before parting, he told me a thousand times, go back to the house to take a shower and change clothes, go to bed early, don't stay up late at night, and boil some ginger soup to drink before going to bed.

Thinking of what he said in the woods, I was a little dazed.

Going out with him today really made me change my opinion of him, it turned out that he was not so arrogant and domineering, and there was a trace of how good he could take care of people. And today, I am very good at talking, and some of the things I said to me are very close to my heart.

"Child!"

There was a call behind him. I thought I had heard it wrong for a moment, and when I looked back, I saw Ouyang Junyu slowly walking forward.

I stood there, looked at him suspiciously, and when he walked up to me, he asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"Why did you go out with Lou Yihang?" He suddenly reached out and pinched my shoulders, a little hard, and I still had a slight pain when I pinched it.

"Did I go out with him, in your way?"

"Why, you like Bai Lixuan today, and Lou Yihang tomorrow, what do you want to do? Is it going to marry them in a few days? ”

He was suddenly very emotional, and as he spoke, he squeezed me harder, and his forehead was bruised, and his whole face seemed to twitch. I was a little scared, I had never seen him so angry in all these days of knowing him.

I struggled to break free of him, because he was pinched so tightly that I was shaking and almost fell to the ground.

After thinking for a while, he finally said to him: "I don't like Bai Lixuan, I don't like Lou Yihang, I won't be with any of them, are you satisfied?" ”

Having said this, he still didn't seem to give up, and continued to ask, "What about me?" ”

What about me?

I don't like Bai Lixuan, I don't like Lou Yihang, will I like you?

What day is today, why are they all talking nonsense in front of me like crazy.

It can be seen that it is getting late, I should go back, or don't irritate him, let's talk to him.

"The man in my heart, he's gone."

It is to obey him, and it is also the word of my heart.

He seemed very surprised to hear my words, and the anger that had just dissipated in an instant, and he just stood there and listened to me continue.

"I'm not going to fall in love with anyone. Even if one day, I get married, it's just because I found someone who can be entrusted with my life and doesn't mind who the person in my heart is, I will respect him well for the rest of my life, I will live well with him, but I won't love him. ”

After listening to me, he shook his head desperately and walked up to me again: "Since you will never fall in love with anyone again, why should you marry someone in the future, you don't mean that you will never marry someone you don't love." ”

He actually remembered what I said at that banquet, and I smiled: "Because I promised him that I would live well, find someone who is really good to me, and live my life, so that in the next life, he will let me find him." ”

He smiled wryly: "You love him so much? ”

I replied firmly, "I have waited for him for eight years, and I have loved him for eight years." I love him, I love him deeply, I love him to the core, and I only love him alone in this life. ”

The person in front of me suddenly burst out laughing, and I was surprised to not dare to speak, so I just looked at him.

The laughter stopped, and he looked at me intently, and I didn't know if it was dark or not, but I seemed to see the tears in his eyes, and there were teardrops on his long narrow eyelashes.

"Do you know that I've been waiting for you for eight years... I've been thinking about you for eight years..."

"Why is he still the only one in your heart?"

I listened to him spit out the words word by word, and saw that there were real tears in his eyes, but a sentence suddenly flashed in my mind.

"Little brother, you look so good."

When was that? Who said that?

He was puzzled, but he was already asking, "What did you say?" ”

The man in front of him was still staring at me with teary eyes, as if expecting me to say something that would make him happy. But I just asked him this, and finally he slowly spit out two words from his mouth...

"Xiao Yan."

I blurted out, almost subconsciously, "What do you call me?" ”

I suddenly remembered that Concubine Li summoned me to the palace at that time, and Ouyang Junyu also called me like this when he sent me out of the palace, but I couldn't remember the previous things at the time, although I was puzzled, I didn't ask him, but now I think about it...

Muyan is the small character that my mother gave me, and the name Su Muyan is only known to my father, mother, Mu Jing and Brother Yun, and even Sister Wan and Xingyi don't know. And from birth to the present, the only people who call me Xiaoyan are Mu Jing and Brother Yun, this Ouyang Junyu, why do you call me like this?

"You attach so much importance to your agreement with him, and you value every word he says so much, why do you remember nothing to me."

His voice grew quieter and quieter, and after saying the last word, he slowly turned around and started to leave.

"Did we know each other before?"

I asked softly, but I knew he heard it, but he didn't answer, didn't say anything, and walked away quickly.

Xiao Yan...

With such a familiar name, I thought that no one else in this world would call me that way except for Mu Jing. But I didn't expect that when I heard it again, it was actually from Ouyang Junyu's mouth.

If we hadn't known each other before, he wouldn't have known and wouldn't have called me that, but looking back on my experience growing up, I really don't remember meeting him. But when did the sentence that came to mind for no reason come about? I can't remember it at all.

Unconsciously, I walked into the house, Yuyin saw that my face was a little haggard, and made a basin of hot water for me to wash my face first, soak my hands, I have been thinking about what Ouyang Junyu said, what he meant, obviously we knew each other before, but I didn't lose all my memories half a year ago, and now I only think about the part about Brother Yun.

Probably because he recognized the wrong person, thinking about it, there is only this explanation, which makes sense.

He also said that he had waited for me for eight years, and since he had known me for a long time, why didn't he look for me? If it is really as he said, with his temperament, I am afraid that he will not be able to wait for eight days. If it were me, I would have known where Brother Yun was and what his identity was, so I would have gone to him to recognize him.

It's a pity that I don't have such a good fate, and I don't have such a good fate with him.

"Miss, what's wrong with you today? Always absent-minded? His Royal Highness the King of Ling bullied you? "When I was about to go to bed, Yuyin suddenly asked me.

I hadn't had time to sort out Lou Yihang's affairs, and I was still worried about Ouyang Junyu's abnormality, so I asked her: "Yuyin, do you know that when I was a child, in addition to meeting Brother Yun, did I meet others?" ”

Yuyin was stunned for a moment and replied, "Miss, this, I don't know." ”

It's that I've thought about it too much, Yuyin definitely doesn't know, when I was in Peach Blossom Village, she wasn't by my side, and if I wanted to ask, I had to ask Mu Jing, and muttered in his mouth: "Then Ouyang Junyu, why did he say such things to me, and last time in the palace, he sent me back to the house and called me Xiaoyan, how could he know that I have another name?" ”

"Why don't you ask him yourself?"

Every time Ouyang Junyu is mentioned, the first thing that comes to mind is that my father mistakenly thought that I drank with him and punished me so heavily, and the deepest impression of him is his unique family background.

The glorious Ouyang family, how can my Su family be compared.

sighed, "That's it, if it weren't for the last resort, I wouldn't want to have anything to do with him." ”

Yuyin stopped talking and sorted out the things on the table. Thinking of what Lou Yihang said to me today, my heart is very uncomfortable, I hope that he is just lying to me, I will not be bothered by this matter, and on the other hand, I feel that if what he said is true, I have found someone who loves me, as he said, we can live a life in peace and stability, and my father will not object, isn't that what I want?

However, the person I love in my heart is not him.

"Yuyin, you know what? Lou Yihang, he confessed to me, in that situation where he didn't know if he would die, he kept trying to save me, to be honest, I was moved. ”

"Brother Yun, he hopes that I will live well, find someone who really loves me, and live my life well, so that in the next life, he will meet me again. Should I do what he says? ”

Yuyin was stunned again, even I felt that what I was thinking about today was beyond the usual range, and it was no wonder that Yuyin was surprised.

After a long while, she asked, "Miss, do you think His Royal Highness the King of Ling is worth entrusting?" ”

Entrusted...

"I don't know. You made me think about it. ”

Is he worth entrusting? He said that he liked me and wanted to be with me, didn't Bai Lixuan also say that he wanted to protect me, but what happened later? As Yang said, because of some things when he was a child, because he was afraid of his father, he let go of it.

What about Lou Yihang? I hated him so much before, just because of his words this time, and he saved me in that situation, so I think he is better? So what he did to me before was he deliberately done to get close to me?

Even I thought it was too unreliable, and what would he do if he knew that I had another person in mind, someone no longer alive, and that he knew about it after I had promised to be with him? will think that I am a watery Yang Hua and deceived him.

It's not just him, it's anyone, it's probably like this, even if it's me, I can't accept the husband I like in the future, and I've always loved another person in my heart.

What's the point of having a life without love?

Tossing and turning all night, I have always felt extremely uncomfortable in my heart, like a pimple, and I am uncomfortable.

I don't even remember how long it lasted, and Lou Yihang didn't come to me again, which gave me enough time to think clearly.