The day of Ruijue's production is approaching. This incident caused anxiety among Aunt Chen, Mrs. Four, Mrs. Five, and several maids, and at first they were secretly discussing behind people's backs. Later, one day, Aunt Chen said to the brothers Keming with a serious expression about the "Bloody Disaster" [Note 1]: When the coffin of the elders stops at home, and someone in the family gives birth, then the blood of the mother will rush to the deceased, and a lot of blood will come out of the deceased's body. The only way to avoid the disaster is to move the mother out of the mansion. It's not okay to move out of the mansion, and the blood of the mother can still come back to the mansion, so it should be moved out of the city. It is not enough to go out of the city, and the city gate cannot close the blood of the mother, so the mother must be allowed to cross the bridge. And this is not necessarily safe, and at the same time, you should build a fake grave with bricks at home to protect the coffin, so as to avoid the "blood and light disaster".

The fifth wife, Shen, was the first to approve of this method, and the fourth wife, Wang and Keding, echoed beside them. Ke'an seemed unimpressed at first, but after listening to Wang's few words of explanation, he completely agreed. Keming and his eldest wife, Zhou, finally agreed. Among the older generations, only the third wife, Zhang, didn't say a word. In short, everyone decided to follow Aunt Chen's advice. They wanted to do it immediately, they said that the grandfather's interests were above all else.

Although these words were a bolt from the blue for Juexin, he accepted them peacefully. He didn't say a word of rebellion. He had never said a word of rebellion to anyone in his life. No matter how unfairly he was treated, he would rather cry in his heart, be angry in his heart, suffer in his heart, and never resist in front of others. He endured everything. He doesn't even think about whether such endurance would harm the happiness of others.

Juexin returned to the room and told Ruijue about the incident, and Ruijue didn't say a word of complaint. She just cried. Her cry was a sign of her defiance. But it didn't work either, because she didn't have the strength to protect herself, and Juexin didn't have the strength to protect her. She had to be at the mercy of others.

"You know I don't believe it, but what can I do? They all said, 'It's better to believe what you have than what you don't.'" Juexin spread his hands in despair and said sadly.

"I don't blame you, I only blame my own bad life," Ruijue said with a sob. "My mom isn't in the provincial capital. How can you afford the notoriety of unfilial piety? Even if you are willing to bear it, I will never let you bear it. ”

"Jue, forgive me, I'm too cowardly to even protect my own wife. We've been together for a few years...... You should be able to forgive me for my distress. ”

"You don't want to ...... Say this," Ruijue said with a handkerchief wiping tears from her eyes, "I understand...... Yours...... Difficulties. You've ...... Enough bitterness. You treat me...... That's good,...... I have nothing but gratitude. ”

"Gratitude? You're not scolding me? You don't know how angry you are for me! You're almost full-term pregnant now, and you're not in good health. I'll send you to a calm place outside the city, and it's inconvenient for you to live there alone. It's that I'm sorry for you. You say, will other people's daughters-in-law be treated like this? And you have to say thank you! When Juexin said this, he held his head and cried.

Ruijue stopped crying, stood up quietly, and walked out without saying a word. After a while, she led Haichen and walked back, and Sister-in-law He followed her.

Juexin was still wiping tears in the room. Ruijue sent Haichen to him, asked Haichen to call him "Daddy", asked Haichen to pull his hand down, and asked him to hold Haichen to play.

Juexin picked up Haichen, looked at it lovingly, kissed Haichen on the cheek a few times, and then put Haichen down and handed it to Ruijue. Again, in a bitter voice, he said, "I have no hope." You better raise Hai'er well, I hope he won't be a person like me in the future! With that, he walked outside, rubbing his eyes with one hand.

"Where are you going?" Ruijue asked with concern.

"I'll go out of town to find a house." He looked back at her, tears clouding his eyes again, and he tried to say it, and went outside.

Juexin came back late that day. Finding a house was not an easy task, but he was able to do it the next day. It was a small yard, a row of three houses, low paper windows, floorless land, rooms with little sunlight, damp and heavy walls. He couldn't find a more proper house. This place meets the two main conditions of "going out of the city" and "crossing the bridge".

The house is rented. Before Ruijue moved away, Aunt Chen also personally took Sister-in-law Qian to see it once. Wang and Shen also went to see it. Everyone has no opinion on the house anymore. Juexin began to prepare for his wife's move-out. Ruijue was going to pack her luggage by herself, but Juexin stopped her. Juexin insisted that he would take care of everything for her and not let her worry about it a little. He told her to sit in her chair and not move, just to watch him do all sorts of things. She couldn't bear to brush his thoughts, and finally agreed. He took every thing he thought she could use, took it again, walked up to her and asked, "Take this with you, okay?" She smiled and nodded, and he took it and put it in his suitcase or basket. Almost every time he asked the same question, she smiled and nodded in agreement, or cordially said, "Good!" Even if she didn't need it, she wouldn't say anything she didn't want. Later, when he saw that his luggage was almost ready, he smiled and said to her, "Look, I have done so well." I can guess your heart. I know your heart perfectly. She also replied with a smile: "You really guessed my heart." You know exactly what I'm going to use. You're good at tidying up. Next time I'm going to go far away, I'll still ask you to pack my bags. The last sentence was uttered.

"Next time? Next time you go wherever you go, of course I will go with you all the way, and I will never let you go alone! He said with a smile.

"I want to go to my mother's, but I'm going to go all the way, and I'll never leave you next time," she replied with a smile.

Juexin's face changed suddenly, and he hurriedly lowered his head. But then he raised his head again and smiled reluctantly, "Yes, let's go all the way." ”

Both of them were deceiving each other, and neither of them would reveal their true hearts. They wanted to cry in their hearts, but they tried their best to smile on the surface, but the smile still couldn't hide their grief. He knew it, and so did she. He knows her heart, and she knows his. And yet they deliberately hide their hearts, in their smiles, in pleasant conversations. They would rather laugh on their faces and cry in their hearts at the same time, but they would not like to see a single tear of their loved ones shed at this time.

Shuhua and Shuying came, and they only saw everything on the appearance of the two of them. Then Juemin and Juehui came in, and they only saw everything on the appearance of these two people.

However, Kyaw Min and Kyaw Hui cannot be silent. Juehui was the first to ask, "Big brother, do you really want to send your sister-in-law out?" He had heard it say, but he didn't believe it, he thought it was just talking. But just now he came back from outside and ran into Yuan Cheng at the second gate. The middle-aged servant called affectionately: "Third Young Master." He stopped and said a few words to Yuan Cheng.

"Third young master, do you think it's okay for the young grandmother to move out of the city?" Yuan Cheng's thin face was originally a little dark, but now it looks even darker. His eyebrows furrowed.

Juehui glanced at Yuan Cheng in surprise and replied, "I don't approve." I don't see it being a real move-out. ”

"Third Young Master, you don't know yet. The eldest young master has already ordered me and Sister-in-law Zhang to serve the young grandmother. Third young master, in our opinion, it is not good for the young grandmother to move out like this. Didn't you call the plasterer to repair the false grave? I said that if I want to move, I have to find a good place. It's just that there are so many rules for rich people. Why doesn't the eldest young master fight? The people under us are not sensible, and in our opinion, it is always the people who matter. Third Young Master, can you persuade the eldest young master and the wife? Yuan Cheng covered the tears in his eyes, and he said excitedly: "Young grandma is important." Which one in the mansion doesn't want the young grandmother to be good! In case the young grandmother has ......," he stammered.

"Okay, I'll go and say, I'll go find the eldest young master right away. Don't worry, nothing will happen to the young grandmother," Juehui replied movingly, excitedly, and in a resolute voice.

"Third Young Master, thank you. But please don't mention Yuan Cheng's name," Yuan Cheng whispered, and he turned and walked to the porter.

Juehui immediately went to Juexin's room. The situation in the room fully confirmed Yuan Cheng's words.

Juexin frowned and glanced at Juehui, and nodded silently.

"Are you crazy?" Jue Hui was surprised and said, "Do you believe those nonsense? ”

"Do I believe that?" Juexin said irritably, "What's the use of not believing it?" They all claim that! He twisted his hand in despair.

"I said you should resist," Juehui said angrily. He didn't look at the new, but he looked out the window.

"Eldest brother, the third brother is very right," Juemin continued, "I advise you not to move your sister-in-law out, you go and explain it to them in detail first, and they will understand." They are also sensible people. ”

"Reason?" Juexin still said in an irritable voice, "Even the third father has been reading books for many years and has studied law in Japan, so he has to nod, will my explanation still be useful?" I can't afford that charge of unfilial piety, so I have to listen to everyone. But it's hard for your sister-in-law. ……”

"What is my suffering? It's much quieter to move outside. …… Besides, there are people to take care of them, and there are people to accompany them. I think it must be very comfortable," Ruijue interjected with a smile on her face.

"Big brother, you give in again! I don't know why you keep giving in? You should remember how much you've already paid! You have to remember that this is a sister-in-law! Sister-in-law matters! Who in the mansion doesn't want my sister-in-law to be good! Juehui remembered Yuan Cheng's words and said angrily. For example, the second brother, he almost sacrificed himself and another person because of your submission. It was still thanks to him that he rose up and resisted that he had today's victory. ”

When Juemin heard what happened to him, he unconsciously showed a smug smile, and he felt that as Juehui said, he was the one who fought for happiness himself.

"Third brother, don't talk about it, this is not what your eldest brother meant, this is what I meant," Rui Jue hurriedly explained for Juexin.

"No, sister-in-law, that's not what you meant, and it's not what the eldest brother meant, that's what they meant," Jue Hui said loudly with a blushing face. He immediately persuaded Juexin earnestly: "Big brother, you have to struggle!" ”

"Struggle, victory," Juexin said as if laughing at himself, holding back his heartache. "Yes, you have won. You rebelled against everything, you despised everything, and you won. It is because of your victory that I have failed. They have concentrated all their resentment against you on me alone, and you have sinned against them, and they have taken revenge on me alone. They hated me, ridiculed me, scolded me behind my back, and called me a 'load-bearing master'. …… You can say that you can rebel, you can leave your family, you can run outside. …… What about me, what do you think I can do? Will I be able to escape alone? …… Many things you do not know. For the second brother's family affairs, I don't know how much anger I suffered! And the third brother, you run a publication outside, and you interact with such new friends, I have also suffered a lot for you! I put up with it. I alone know my suffering. You can all say anything to me to resist and fight. To whom do I say these nice words? When Juexin said this, he couldn't help it, and the tears he had endured for a long time finally flowed out. He didn't want others to see him crying, and he didn't want to cause others to cry. …… He felt something weigh heavily on his body, and he couldn't support it anymore. He hurriedly walked to the bed and collapsed.

At this time, Ruijue's last line of defense was breached. She put away her fake smile and fell on the table and cried quietly. Sook-young and So-hwa persuaded her with a crying voice. Juemin's eyes were also wet with tears. He regretted that he shouldn't have only thought for himself, and that he didn't pay attention to his brother's pain at all. He felt that he was too harsh on his brother and that he shouldn't have treated him like that. He wanted to find something to comfort Juexin.

However, Juehui's mood was different. Juehui didn't shed a single tear. He watched from the sidelines to see Jue Xin's movements. Juexin's words naturally made him miserable. However, he felt that he could not sympathize with Juexin: in his heart he hated too much, more than love. A lake of water was in his eyes, a coffin lay in front of him, and ...... Right now...... Future. These were things he could not forget. Every time he thought of this, his heart was throbbed with hatred. Like his two older brothers, he would have received the affection of love from their loving mother. After his mother left a memorial of love among a small group of people, he also did what his mother taught them to do: love others, help others, respect their elders, and treat their subordinates kindly. But now the so-called elders are showing what kind of faces they are in front of his eyes, and at the same time he sees how the dark forces that destroy love in this family are growing. He also saw with his own eyes how some lovely young beings were unnecessarily sacrificed. These lives were too dear to him to lose them, but they finally said goodbye to him. He couldn't save them either. Not only could he not save them, but he was forced to watch other lovely young lives go on the road to perdition. Sympathy, he can't give people sympathy now, whether this person is his brother. He didn't say a word, and walked away. When he arrived at the outer room, he met Sister-in-law He taking Haichen's hand and walking into the room. Haichen smiled and called "Third Dad", he agreed, and felt very sad in his heart.

Back in her room, Juehui suddenly felt lonely that she had never felt before; His eyes gradually became wet. He looks at the world as if it is a place for tragedy, so many tears, so much pain! Many people are born only to bring about their own destruction, or the destruction of others. They can't do anything but that. Struggling in pain, the result is still inevitably perishable, and even affects others: the fate of his eldest brother is clearly before his eyes. And he knew that this was not only the fate of his eldest brother alone, but many, many people who followed the same path. "Why is there so much distress in the world?" He thought like this, and all kinds of unsatisfactory things gathered in his heart.

"Why does even Yuan Chengdu understand, but the eldest brother doesn't understand?" He asked himself suspiciously.

"In any case, I am not like them, I will go my own way, even stepping on their corpses, I will walk forward." He was surrounded by pain and could hardly find a way out, and only later did he take such words to encourage himself. So he went to the Liqun newspaper office to meet his new friends.

Juexin also stopped his sadness for the time being, and accompanied Ruijue to his new home outside the city. There were two sisters, Zhou, Shuying and Shuhua. Juexin also brought a maid and a servant, namely Sister-in-law Zhang and Yuan Cheng, to serve Ruijue. Later, Juemin and Eumin also went.

Ruijue didn't like her new home. After she married into the Gao family, she has never been separated from Juexin. Now she has to live alone outside, and they have been separated for at least a month this time. It was the first time, but for such a long time, she moved to such a dark and damp place. Thinking about it this way, even if she wanted to comfort herself with some pleasant thoughts, it was actually impossible. But in front of people, she should hold back her sorrow. Although when others were busy arranging furniture, she had tears on her back, but when others were idle to talk to her, she was talking and laughing again. This also relieved those who cared for her.

Soon the time came to part, and everyone was to take their leave and go into the city.

"Why do you just leave when you say go? Qin Mei and Third Sister Yan can't go at all? Ruijue said with attachment.

"The gates of the city are about to be closed. It's a long way from the city gates, so I'll come to see you tomorrow," Jean replied with a smile.

"City gates," Rui Jue said twice in succession, as if she didn't understand, but in fact she knew very well that there was now not only a long road between her and him, but also several city gates. The gates cut her off from him, and he would not know that she died here between this evening and the dawn of tomorrow, and he would not be able to come to see her. Her tears couldn't stand her urgency, and they flowed out. "It's deserted, it's scary." She unconsciously said something like this.

"Sister-in-law, it doesn't matter, I'll move in with you tomorrow," Shuhua comforted her.

"I'll go discuss with my mother, and I'll accompany you too," Shuying said movingly.

"Jue, you have to be patient, you will get used to it in two days. There are also two underprivileges here, both of whom are very reliable. You don't have to be afraid. Tomorrow, the second sister, they will really move over to accompany you. I'll come to see you every day whenever I can. You have to be patient, and more than a month will pass quickly. Juexin reluctantly pretended to smile and comforted her. In fact, he just wanted to hug her and cry.

Zhou also commanded a few words. The crowd then said a few words and left. Ruijue sent them to the door, leaned in front of the door and watched them get into the sedan chair one by one.

Juexin had already gotten into the sedan chair, and suddenly came out again, and went back to ask Ruijue if he wanted to bring anything. Ruijue doesn't want anything, she said, what she needs has been completely brought. She also said, "You can bring me Hai'er tomorrow, I miss him very much." Then he said, "Take care of Hai'er." And he said, "Don't believe my mother, she'll be worried when she gets the news." ”

"I wrote two days ago. I'm hiding it from you because I know you won't let me write," Juexin explained in a soft voice.

"Actually, you shouldn't believe it. If only my mother had known I was ...... now," she swallowed after only half a sentence. She was afraid that her words would hurt him.

"But in any case, you should tell her that if she rushes to the provincial capital to see you, there will be one more person to take care of you," Juexin argued in a low voice. He didn't dare to think about the half of the sentence she swallowed.

The two of them looked at each other, as if they had nothing to say, but in fact, they had a thousand words in their hearts.

"I'm leaving, you can rest for a while," Juexin said with a smile, and he stood for a few minutes before leaving. He repeatedly looked back at her before getting into the sedan chair.

"You're coming early tomorrow," Ruijue said, leaning against the door and looking at him, waving to him incessantly. When his palanquin turned and disappeared, she walked into the room step by step with her big belly in her arms.

She wanted to take a few things out of the basket. But she felt that her limbs were weak, and her spirit was a little dazed, and she could barely stand still, so she reluctantly walked to the bed and sat down on the edge of the bed. She suddenly felt the fetus moving in her belly, and it seemed as if she heard the fetus's voice. She was so angry that she slapped her belly with her feeble hand one after another, saying, "You have hurt me!" She cried in a low voice until Sister-in-law Zhang heard the voice and ran to persuade her.

The next day, Juexin really came early, and brought Haichen with him. Shuhua moved in as promised. Sookyoung also came, but she couldn't move outside the city without her father's permission. Later, Jean also came. There was a brief moment of joy in this little courtyard, laughter, and much more.

However, time passed faster than usual in the midst of laughter, and the time of separation finally arrived. Before leaving, Haichen suddenly cried and refused to go back, saying that he wanted to stay here with his mother. This is naturally impossible. Ruijue said a lot of things to comfort him and lied to him, so that he turned into laughter and promised to follow his father home well.

Ruijue still sent Juexin to the door. "You'd better come early tomorrow," she said, tears glistening in her eyes.

"I'm afraid I won't be able to come tomorrow. They called the plasterer to repair the false grave for my grandfather, and asked me to supervise the work," he said melancholy. But he suddenly noticed the tears in the corners of her eyes, and could not bear to disappoint her, so he changed his words and said, "I will come to see you tomorrow, and I will come." Jue, why are you so easy to get sad? Your own body matters. If you have any more pain, you call me ......," he swallowed.

"I don't know why I'm so sad," Ruijue said with a desolate smile on her face, her eyes refusing to take her eyes off his face, one hand still caressing Haichen's cheek. "Every day when you go back, I feel like I can't see you again. I was scared, and I didn't understand why I was afraid. She said and rubbed her eyes with her hands.

"What's there to be afraid of? We're so close, I can come and see you every day, and now there's a third sister here to accompany you," Juexin reluctantly pretended to smile to comfort Ruijue. He didn't dare to think about it.

"Is that the temple?" She suddenly pointed to the roof protruding not far to the right and asked, "I heard that Cousin Mei's coffin is parked there." I'd like to see her someday. ”

Juexin looked at Ruijue's fingers, and his face immediately changed. He hurriedly turned his head, and a terrible thought began to bite his brain. He reached out to squeeze her hand, and he held the soft hand tightly, as if someone was going to snatch her away. "Jue, don't go!" He repeated it twice, in a voice like that Ruijue couldn't forget for a long time, though she couldn't understand why he insisted on not letting her go there.

He didn't wait for her to say anything, suddenly let go of her hand, and said again: "I'm going back," and called Haichen twice more "Mom", and then strode into the sedan chair. Two palanquin bearers lifted the palanquin and placed it on their shoulders. Haichen was still calling "Mom" in the sedan chair, but he silently swallowed his tears.

Juexin returned home, and before he entered the mourning hall, he saw Aunt Chen coming out of there.

"Young Master, is Young Grandma okay?" She asked with a smile.

"It's okay, it's hard for you to ask," Juexin replied with a smile on his face.

"It's almost going to be produced, right?"

"I'm afraid it's a few days away."

"Well, it doesn't matter. But young master, please remember, you can't enter the moon room [note 2]," Aunt Chen suddenly put away her smile and said to Juexin seriously, and walked away with the fragrance she usually had.

Juexin has heard this three times. However, today, when he heard her say it in this voice, he was so angry that he couldn't spit out a word. He stared blankly at Aunt Chen's back. Haichen, who was holding in his hand, raised his head next to him and called "Daddy", but he didn't hear it.

[Note 1] In the southern provinces, there used to be such superstitions, and one of my nieces was born outside the city.

【Note 2】Confinement room: that is, the bedroom of the mother.