Four days later, Juexin went to Ruijue's new house as usual, and on this day he went a little later than usual because of something at home, and it was already more than three o'clock in the afternoon when he arrived there.

He walked into the courtyard, called "Jue", and hurriedly walked to her room. As soon as he put one foot on the threshold, he was stopped. The obese sister-in-law Zhang stood at the door of the room with a ** expression, stopped him, and didn't want him to go in. She said, "Young Master, you can't come in!" She didn't say a second word. But he already understood.

Without resistance, he retracted his foot and stood in the middle room for a long time. He suddenly felt a little nervous and went outside. Then there was a bang, and Ruijue's door slammed shut. There were footsteps inside, and unfamiliar female voices whispered.

He stood under the window, gazing at the grass and wildflowers in the small patio. He had a strange feeling. Whether it was bitter or sweet, joy or sorrow, anger or satisfaction, even he couldn't say, but he felt like it was everything. A few years ago, he had a slight resemblance to this, but it was only slightly similar, but in fact it was much worse. He still remembers that a few years ago, when he was in a situation that seemed similar to this but was actually different from this, he used to thank her with emotion and tears of joy to thank her and take care of her. He was pained by her struggles, and he rejoiced in the gifts she had brought him. He watched her go through it all and reach the final victory, and his mood changed from nervous to relaxed, from pain to joy. He saw the child, his first child. He remembered how he took the baby from the midwife's hand, kissed the little red face with gratitude and love, and swore in his heart that he would love the baby and sacrifice everything for the baby, because he had placed his life on the newborn child. He went to his wife's bed again, looked at her pale, tired face, stroked one of her hands, whispered about her health, and uttered many words of gratitude and love that could not be heard by others. In the same way she looked at him with triumph and affection, and at the baby, and said to him in a grateful voice, "I am fine now." You see, isn't he cute? Give him a name. How her face shone with joy, the joy of a first-time mother!

Yet today she was lying in bed again, and she began to whisper**, and there were people walking around in the room, and some people were talking in serious voices. It seemed to be the same as before, but now he and she were in such a place, and two wooden doors separated them, so that he could not go in at this moment to look at her, to encourage her, to comfort her, or to share her pain. Now he waited for everything that was going to happen with a completely different mood than before. He has no joy, no satisfaction, only horror, only remorse. He had only one thought, and that was, "I hurt her." ”

"Young grandma, what do you think?" Sister-in-law Zhang's voice asked.

A solemn silence followed.

"Ouch! …… Wow...... Ouch...... I'm in pain! ”

Suddenly, a cry of pain flew out of the window and drilled into his ears. The sound made him shiver. He gritted his teeth, clenched his fists, and struggled as hard as he could. At first, he even thought, "This can't be her voice, she's never had such a loud voice." "But who else in the room would make such a cry but her?" It must be her, it must be Jue," he muttered to himself.

"Wow! …… It hurts,...... I'm in pain! …… Ouch! The voice was more poignant, barely like a human cry. In the room, the sound of footsteps, human voices, and the sound of dishes and furniture were echoed along with the cries. He covered his ears with his hands and muttered to himself: "It must not be her, it must not be Jue." She wouldn't scream like that. He approached the window frantically and craned his neck to look. But the windows were tightly closed. He could only hear the voice, he couldn't see inside. He spun around in despair.

"Young grandmother, you have to hold back, and it will be fine in a while," said an unfamiliar female voice.

"I'm in pain! …… Wow! Another strange scream.

"Sister-in-law, bear with me, this is just a short pain, and it will be fine after a while," it was Shuhua's voice.

The screams gradually subsided, and then there was only a faint ** in the room.

Suddenly, the door opened. He turned to look. Sister-in-law Zhang hurriedly ran out of it, went to the stove room, and quickly walked back with a basin of hot water. He hesitated, and then went into the middle room, and looked at the half-hidden door, and occasionally a figure swayed in it, his heart beat hard, but he had no idea of entering. When Sister-in-law Zhang walked out of the other room and returned to Ruijue's room, he suddenly made up his mind to follow her in. But as soon as she entered, she closed the door.

He pushed the door a few times, but there was no response from inside. He put down his hand in despair, and was about to walk out, when he heard strange screams inside. He pushed the door hard, he pounded it hard.

"Which one?" Someone in the room was asking, this was Sister-in-law Zhang's voice.

"Let me in!" He shouted. The voice was filled with horror, pain, and anger.

No one answered, and no one opened the door. His wife was still screaming in pain.

"Let me in! Sister-in-law Zhang, let me in! He screamed angrily as he continued to pound his fist on the door.

"Young Master, you can't come in! I don't dare open the door for you. Mrs., Mrs. Fourth, and Mrs. Chen have all commanded! ......" Sister-in-law Zhang walked to the door and said loudly inside.

Sister-in-law Zhang seemed to be still talking, but he didn't listen to her anymore. He understood what she meant. He remembered what his elders had said to him. His hope, his courage were driven away by those words. He stood in front of the door in despair, unable to say a word to refute Sister-in-law Zhang.

"Where's the eldest young master? Where is he? In the room, Ruijue cried out in a miserable voice. Why hasn't he come to see me yet? …… Sister-in-law Zhang, you go and invite the eldest young master! I'm in pain! …… Wow! ......" This voice made Juexin's heart tighten.

"Jue, I'm here, I'm here! Jue, I'm here! Open the door! Let me in! She wants to see me! Let me in! He forgot to scream as loudly as he could. He pounded the door with his fist again.

"Mingxuan, where are you? Why can't I see you? …… I'm in pain! Where are you? …… Why don't you let him in? …… Wow! ……”

"Jue, I'm here! I'll just come in! I'm going to keep you! I won't leave you! …… Let me in! Let me in! You see her in pain like this, don't you pity her? He hissed, pounding the door with all his might.

The room fell silent. But there was another rush of commotion. Someone is running, someone is calling. "Sister-in-law!" "Young Grandma!" The voices rang out. He thought she must have fainted. He was even more nervous, and he shouted in the loudest voice: "Jue, I'm here!" Can you hear me? ”

The call in the room stopped. It seemed that Ruijue was talking, and then it was her **, and her voice was very weak.

Some more time passed.

"Wow! I'm in pain! …… You're not coming to save me! …… Mingxuan, where are you? Why didn't you come to my rescue? …… I'm in pain! ......" she screamed inside again.

"I'm here! Jue, let me tell you I'm here! I'm here! Jue, do you hear me? …… Let me in! …… Third sister, you are sensible, open the door for me! Let me in! He was still screaming outside.

Her voice stopped again. No one in the room spoke. Suddenly, in the solemn silence, the cry of a baby rang out. It's a loud cry.

"Thank goodness!" He said with relief. He felt a sense of relief, as if the big stone in his heart had been removed. He thought her pain was coming to an end.

Now the horror and the pain are gone. Once again, he felt a joy that could not be described in words. His eyes filled with tears. He thought movingly, "I will love her more in the future, take care of her, and love this child too." He laughed alone outside the door and cried outside the door.

"Sister-in-law!" After a long while, suddenly a terrible cry came out of the room, and fell on his head like a boulder.

"Her hands are cold!" This is Shuhua's crying voice again.

"Young Grandma!" Sister-in-law Zhang also began to call.

"Sister-in-law!" and "Young Grandma! The voice rang out again. There were only two people in the room, because there were only two people besides the midwife. It was so bleak!

Juexin knew that a catastrophe was coming. He didn't dare to think about it. He slammed his fist against the door again, making it louder. But it didn't work either. No one paid any attention to him. He hissed, "Jue," and "Let me in!" However, two peeling wooden doors coldly obscured everything in the room. They stopped him and refused to back down. They wouldn't even let him save her, or see her one last time. Hopes were completely dashed.

The woman in the room began to cry. However, he still shouted outside the door: "Jue, I'm calling you, can you hear me?" ...... "It was not just a wail and a scream, it was a cry for life, and he poured all his love into it to bring her back from the way to another world." He's not just saving someone else's life, he's saving his own. He understood what his survival was like without her.

But death came.

Someone inside approached the door, and he thought that Sister-in-law Zhang had come to open the door. Who knew that it was the midwife holding the newborn baby in the crack of the door: "Congratulations to the eldest young master, it is a son." She turned and walked away. Juexin also heard her patting the baby while muttering to herself: "It's a pity that I was born without a mother." ”

This sentence pierced his heart, and he did not have the joy of being a father. The child did not seem to be his beloved son, but his enemy, the one who took his wife's life.

Anger and sorrow mixed and clung to him. He pounded the door harder. However, the two small doors now seem to weigh a thousand pounds.

He had made up his mind to run inside in desperation, and fell down at his wife's bed, confessing to her his mistakes over the years, and begging for her last forgiveness, but it was too late. What a fragile thing the two wooden doors were, now despotic monarchs, who prevented him from the last love, from going in to say goodbye to the man he loved, or even from weeping bitterly before her.

He suddenly understood that these two small doors had no power, and what really took away his wife was something else, the whole system, the whole rituals, and the whole superstition. All this was on his shoulders, crushing him for many years, robbing him of his youth, his happiness, his future, and the two women he loved the most. He was now starting to feel that the burden was too heavy. He wanted to drop it. He's struggling. But at the same time he knew that he could not resist all this, that he was a powerless and cowardly man. He was desperate. He suddenly fell to his knees in front of the door. He cried sadly. At this time, he was not crying for her, he was crying for himself. The cries in the room echoed with his cries. But what two different voices are!

The two-seater sedan chair stopped in front of the gate of the courtyard. Coming in were his stepmother, Zhou, and a female guest. Yuan Cheng followed behind angrily.

As soon as Zhou entered the door, she heard the cry, her face immediately changed, and she said to the female guest in horror: "It's over! They hurried into the middle room.

"Mingxuan, what are you doing?" Zhou cried out in surprise when he saw Juexin kneeling there.

Juexin looked back, immediately stood up, spread out his hands and sobbed and said to Zhou, "Mom, Jue, Jue." Then he saw the woman, and greeted her in a voice of shame and sorrow, and saluted her, and began to weep aloud. A baby's cry came out of the room.

The female guest didn't speak, she just wiped her eyes with a handkerchief.

The door had already been opened, and it was Yuan Cheng who called it open. Zhou asked the female guest to go in, and said, "Mrs. in-laws, please go in, I can't enter the moon room." ”

The female guest said yes and walked in. Then a loud cry was added to the room:

"Ruijue, Ruijue, you can't bear to go like this? Aren't you waiting to see your mother? Mom is here, Mom has come from a long way to take care of you, Mom has a lot to say to you. Tell me what you have to say! …… Ruijue, you have to come alive! Mom is here, why don't you even wait a day? …… You've died such a miserable death! My son of misery! Look at you alone here. If I had come a day earlier, you wouldn't have died so pitifully. …… My son, my son of misery! Mom, I'm sorry for you......"

Zhou and Juexin heard these words clearly, and they seemed to be many needles, piercing their hearts one by one.