The corpses in front of the door were carried out one by one on stretchers by the officials.

Yang Jian looked at the dead body that was carried out, chuckled and complained, "I didn't expect that after many years of not seeing you, you sent me such a big trouble as soon as we met." ”

I remembered that the petty officials just now treated him with respect and called him Da Sima, and I also smiled back: "You are now a big Sima, and you are in a high position, and this little trouble can still be difficult for you." ”

Yang Jian smiled and said nothing, I sighed: "I think back then, you were just a little palace uncle, but now you have become a big Sima, and you are still the general of Zhuguo." Yang Jian, you will definitely have a great achievement in the future. ”

Yang Jian said without humility: "I think so, too. ”

"Garo often said that you are the only woman in this world who knows her, understands her, and can compare with her. When you have time, you can often come to the house to see her. Yang Jian mentioned Dugu Jialuo with a smile when he left.

I smiled and replied, "Definitely." ”

After cleaning the door of my house, I went to the Yongkang County Mansion.

"Jing'er liked his father the most, and he carried him to ride a horse. He often said that when he grew up, he would be an invincible general. He has only been literate for less than a year this year, and the master praised him for being very smart, and his two elder brothers were not as smart as him when they were his age, and my father and I told him that if he could memorize all the "Three Character Classics" within a month, we would take him to ride a horse. ”

When I came to Yongkang County Mansion this time, Mrs. Li seemed to have figured it out, agreed with me to take Jing'er away, and talked to me about Jing'er's growth in detail.

"Jing'er likes to eat suckling pig with slices of skin the most, he doesn't like to eat fish, because he is troublesome to pick fish bones; When he was in a bad mood, he almost ignored anyone, and only his father was willing to listen; He likes to listen to the stories of chivalrous people, especially worships a sword fairy, and he has to hug me every night and let me tell him the stories of chivalrous people in the rivers and lakes, otherwise he won't be able to sleep......" Mrs. Li said as she said, and she could hardly hold back her tears.

She told me carefully about Jing'er's big and small things, and she knew Jing'er's living habits and preferences well, which showed that she really loved Jing'er very much. Mother's heart is not adulterated at all, no wonder Jing'er is so attached to her.

Jing'er was brought over, and as soon as he came, he threw himself into Mrs. Li's arms, and said coquettishly: "Mother." ”

I looked at them and felt empty.

Jing'er said proudly: "Mother, I'm almost finished memorizing the "Three Character Classic", you and Daddy must take me to ride a horse." ”

The smile on Mrs. Li's face froze, and she didn't answer.

The child's mind was sensitive and sensed that something was wrong, so Jing'er asked, "Mother, what's wrong with you, you're not happy." ”

"No, my mother is very happy."

Jing'er looked at Mrs. Li's red eyes, obviously not believing it, his eyes turned, and then he noticed me, and a little face wrinkled, "Is she making my mother unhappy?" ”

Mrs. Li smiled with red eyes: "No, it's none of her business." ”

Jing'er still didn't believe it, and stared at me with big eyes, "It must be her, I'll help you beat her." ”

At this moment, tears burst out of my eyes. I threw my head back and tried my best to control my emotions.

Mrs. Li grabbed Jing'er and scolded lightly: "Jing'er, don't mess around!" She-she's also your mother-in-law, call her mother-in-law. ”

Jing'er pursed her lips and said, "I don't want it." ”

Mrs. Li straightened her face and said seriously: "Go over and call her mother, otherwise your mother won't like you in the future." ”

Mrs. Li pulled Jing'er to me and said, "Jing'er, call my mother quickly." ”

Jing'er reluctantly whispered, "Mother." ”

When this "mother" called down, I was moved to tears, and my heart was like honey, "Jing'er." ”

Mrs. Li put Jing'er's soft little hand into my hand, and said with tears: "I will return Jing'er to you, you have to take good care of him." ”

I nodded and picked up Jing'er at once, "Jing'er, let's go with my mother." ”

I hugged Jing'er and left, Jing'er suddenly woke up, "I'm not leaving, I don't want to go with you!" ”

He turned his head and shouted back: "Mother, mother, I don't want to go with her, you come and save me!" ”

Mrs. Li couldn't bear to look at him, so she just turned her back and cried silently.

"Mother!"

Jing'er began to struggle violently, his little hands pounding on me, "I don't want to go with you, you let go of me!" ”

No matter how he thrashed, I didn't let go, and I walked forward resolutely. This time, I definitely won't let go again, it's been five years and I'm not going to let my kids leave me again.

Jing'er saw that she couldn't resist me, and began to cry, "I don't want to go, I want my mother, I want my father." Daddy, mother, brother, come and save me, I don't want to go. ”

"Woo, daddy, mother, eldest brother, second brother, younger brother...... Woohoo......"

The crying became more and more poignant, and each time it seemed to pierce my heart, a burst of pain. He cried badly, and I felt even harder. I really couldn't bear to see him so sad, and at the moment when he was about to step out of the mansion, Jing'er cried and shouted back, "Mother! ”

When I saw Mrs. Li crying behind me, I couldn't help but let go of my hand, and Jing'er immediately jumped off me and ran straight towards Mrs. Li with her calves.

Mrs. Li hugged him, and Jing'er hugged Mrs. Li tightly and cried, "Mother! ”

Jing'er cried aggrievedly: "Is it that Jing'er has done something wrong, my mother doesn't want me anymore." Jing'er must learn to be obedient in the future, and she will never be naughty again, and her mother will not let me go. ”

Mrs. Li hugged Jing'er tightly, like holding a lost treasure, "How can my mother not want Jing'er, my mother likes Jing'er the most." ”

Seeing them hugging and crying together, this situation is pitiful but not sad, because no matter what, their hearts are tightly connected, never leaving, and there is no power to separate them. Only I am the saddest, the child is in front of me, but the hearts of our mother and son are so far away, so far, never close.

I cried with my aching heart, and their mother and son hugged each other tightly, no one saw me crying, no one cared about my pain.

I cried and turned my head, let the tears flow, step by step, out of the door.

——

As the sun set in the evening, I sat on the grassy hillside and watched as the blood-soaked remnant sun illuminated the mountains as if they had been washed with blood. In the distance, there were several white birds flying over the cold mountain, as clean as frost and snow.

In the cold mountain area, the remnants of red shine on the snow.

As I watched the flocks of white birds fly into the forest, I felt even more lonely.

"I heard you didn't bring the child back." Yu Wenyong came from behind and sat down next to me.

I didn't care about his sudden appearance, I was just immersed in my own distress.

Yu Wenyong said: "Otherwise, I will order the Li couple to bring the child to you, they will not dare to disobey me." ”

"No, you don't." I humbly refused.

Yu Wenyong asked: "What are you afraid of, Jing'er is your child, he should be with you." Why don't you dare bring him back, do you really want to give up your own child? ”

"Yes, I'm afraid, I'm afraid that Jing'er will be unhappy, I'm afraid that Jing'er will be unhappy. When I went to pick him up today, he kept crying in my arms and calling for his mother, very pitiful. In his heart, Mrs. Li is his mother, and I am nothing at all. If I take him away like this and forcibly separate him from Mrs. Li, how much harm will it do to him? How can I go about hurting my child? Tears fell suddenly, I quickly wiped them away, and continued, "Mrs. Li has worked hard to raise Jing'er for five years, although there is no blood relationship between them, but Mrs. Li's love for Jing'er is definitely no less than mine, and the mother-son relationship between them is no less than anyone else's. If I take Jing'er away like this, it will not be fair to Mrs. Li. ”

Yu Wenyong frowned and said, "Then is this fair to you?" How many years have you been looking for the child, how much suffering you have suffered for him, how many tears have been shed, does he know? ”

I had tears in my eyes, but I still smiled: "I don't care, as long as Jing'er is happy." ”

"Chen Ji is sending someone to kill me now, if I take Jing'er back, I'm afraid Jing'er's life will be in danger. I can't give him a stable life, I can't even give him a complete home. He lives in Li Mansion, he still has a father, a mother, an older brother, a younger brother, a complete home, and he has a very happy life. And I, I can't give him anything, so why bring him back and suffer with me. "At the end of the day, my heart was filled with bitterness.

"I also heard Yang Jian say, I don't feel at ease that you live alone now." Yu Wenyong stared at me, and suddenly said very seriously, "You follow me, let me take care of you." ”

I paused for a moment, looked into his eyes, and I gently but forcefully refused, "I can take care of myself by myself." ”

There was a moment of loss on Yu Wenyong's face, and then he returned to normal, and Yun smiled lightly: "I knew you would say that." You still haven't changed at all, you are deeply affectionate, you are infatuated with the people you love, and you are ruthless to the people you don't love to the end. ”

I have no rebuttal.

Yu Wenyong stood up and said, "It's not too early, I should go back to the palace." ”

I stood up and watched Yu Wenyong's figure slowly disappear in the evening breeze, and I couldn't help but stop him, "Thank you!" ”

Yu Wenyong turned his head and smiled indifferently at me. His smile was as bright as a star, with an indescribable lightness, as if he had let go of something very important in his heart.

The sun is setting, and the white birds return to the forest. Yu Wenyong walked slowly in the dark red sky, and his heart was full of emotion.

Time can really kill a lot of things, such as hatred, and love.

In the past, although his liking for Xiao Qingqiang has always been restrained and restrained, every time he sees her, he is always excited and excited, and there is fiery love hidden under his calm appearance.

But after so many things, when they met again, the feeling of excitement disappeared. Maybe it was the long-term unreciprocated love that made him tired and tired, so he chose to let time slowly forget this love for her.

Xiao Qingqiang's refusal today made him once again convinced that he had already let go.

After being rejected, he was only a momentary loss, then relieved and relaxed, without the slightest sadness, and years of trouble disappeared in an instant.

It turns out that time can really change everything.

Not all people can be like Xiao Qingqiang, who has insisted on loving someone for more than ten years, the love in this world, there are too few people who insist on going one way to the end, and more people will often change their route halfway and find another way.

The bond between him and Xiao Qingqiang also ended here.

Exegesis:

(1) The title is from Zhu Yi's "Sitting and Sleeping in a Sedan Car", "Let go and wake up"