My name is Shang Yunfei.

Since I was a child, I have known that my mother is just an unpopular concubine in the General's Mansion.

If I want to live well, I have to rely on one person.

That is, the eldest lady of the General's Mansion.

Therefore, after I became governor, the first call to my mother was not to my mother, but to the eldest lady.

At that time, there were many people around, and my father was also there.

The eldest lady felt that she had a lot of face, and immediately rewarded me with a lot of delicious food.

Since then, I've been calling more and more cheerful.

Until one year, I overheard Shang Yunyan complaining to the eldest lady, "Mother, I am your daughter, how can you be so good to her, I am angry." ”

The eldest lady suddenly panicked, she hugged Shang Yunyan and kept coaxing, Shang Yunyan didn't give up, "Mother, do you like that little cheap hoof, don't like me anymore?" ”

"How so? Smoke is the heart of your mother's heart, how can your mother not like you? ”

"But her mother is clearly very good to her, and even her father said that her mother treats her like her own child."

"How? If I could, I would love her to die......"

They were talking a lot, and I was too young to fully understand them, but I knew that they didn't like me.

said that I was a slut, that my mother was a slut, that he wanted to poison me to death, and even drove me and my mother out of the house......

I know what it means to die.

One of the people in the house didn't know why he was beaten to death, and when I saw it, I was so frightened that my mother told me that if I died, I would go to another world and never see him again.

I also know what it means to be driven out of the house.

Someone in the house was kicked out if he did something wrong, and his mother said that after he went out, he would have no home, no father and no mother.

I was terrified.

My name is the eldest lady, just to get good food.

But I now know that she gave me delicious food with bad intentions.

Since then, I haven't liked her anymore.

She wished I hadn't gone to her, but when my father was home, she still liked to give me good food, but I didn't dare to take it anymore.

Because I know that she wants to poison me.

Gradually, I grew up.

There are more and more things to understand.

I finally knew that although my mother's food was not very good, what she gave me was always the best thing she could give me.

The main thing is that I am very happy with my mother.

My mother grovels in everything, and later I know that it's because her status is too low.

I can't get used to her low-brow and pleasing look in front of the eldest lady.

I can't get used to seeing the eldest lady and Shang Yunyan beat and scold us at every turn, but we can't fight back at all.

I asked my mother why all this was going on.

My mother told me that it was because her status was too low.

"So how about not being bullied by them?"

My mother touched my head, and after a long silence, she told me, "Only by standing in their position can we not be bullied." ”

"Mother, I don't want them to bully me, and I don't want them to beat you."

My mother's hand touching my head paused slightly.

That night, she didn't sleep all night.

Later, my mother told me, "Son, you are already ten years old, you should be sensible, since you don't want to live like that, you have to work hard." ”

"How?"

"Listen to the words of the eldest lady and Shang Yunyan, they will do whatever they tell us, because only by relying on them can we live for a long time in this general's mansion."

It was also from that time that I became a dog by Shang Yunyan's side.

We helped the eldest lady calculate Shang Yunqian and Mengniang.

Anyway, if you bully Mengniang, the eldest lady will be very happy.

I always thought that life would go on like this.

Until later......

Mengniang really had an accident.

That day, I saw Shang Yunqian and Shang Yunyan having a dispute because of the crown prince's twilight cultivation, and I saw Shang Yunyan scolding Shang Yunqian for being an idiot.

Seeing Shang Yunqian kneeling alone in front of the coffin, her figure was so thin.

Shang Yunqian didn't cry, her back was straight, she was very arrogant, and if she said she wouldn't eat, she really wouldn't eat.

Unexpectedly, I stood around the corner, silently accompanying her.

Later, they asked us to get rid of Shang Yunqian.

I was disgusted in my heart.

I was very scared at the time, and I kept thinking about whether it was after Shang Yunqian died, it would be time for me and my mother to kiss.

So when I started with Shang Yunqian, I kept an eye on it.

I discussed it with my mother.

After that, I felt that we had to listen to the orders of the eldest lady.

However, there are some things that still need to be done.

We deliberately left a flaw in the slope.

Shang Yunqian really didn't disappoint us.

She searched for the melon and found the purse......

But the actions of the eldest lady completely confirmed my suspicion.

She really only thought about herself.

After the accident, she put everything on my mother, and in order to save me, my mother almost committed suicide.

Then, the eldest lady actually wanted to kill me directly......

In my heart, I finally don't have any luck.

I suddenly understood that although the General's Mansion is my home, it is also a place where people eat people without spitting out bones, and if you don't pay attention to it, blood will be splattered on the spot.

That time, if Shang Yunqian hadn't come forward to save me and my mother, my mother would have died.

Because of the matter of the eldest lady, I finally understood that there is no help in the world for no reason, and Shang Yunqian's help must have other plans.

So in fact, I've always been very defensive about this person.

But it is undeniable that Shang Yunqian has indeed lived the life I want to be the most.

She may have little strength, but she is never afraid.

A lot of things that seemed impossible to me, she did it in her own way.

I have to say, she's really amazing.

And......

She was also lucky.

The man named Qin Muhan has always given her the strongest backing.

At first, I didn't approve of what Shang Yunqian did.

Even like most people, she feels that she has lost herself in order to get what she wants.

But I forgot that I used to be the same.

During that time, I was in pain.

While spitting on Shang Yunqian, in order to kill the eldest lady, he actually went to make friends with a eunuch.

I also feel that it is really hard for her to avenge her mother.

Gradually, we came into contact more and more.

Then I realized that she didn't seem to be the same as what I had heard......

I don't know when my opinion of her changed.

But I found that I hated Shang Yunqian more and more.

And her mother, with the help of Shang Yunqian, regained her father's heart.

In fact......

I don't approve of her actions.

As the things experienced gradually increase, as more and more things happen.

I have come to understand that men are not a reliable thing.

At least......

None of the men I've ever met can be trusted.

Father is like this, and so is the twilight cultivation that Shang Yunyan likes.

Watching my mother cater to my father made me feel very uncomfortable.

Finally, my mother saw my thoughts.

"Do you think it's a shame for me to dress up in a fancy way to please your father?"

I pursed my lips and said nothing, it is undeniable that I have such thoughts, but the person in front of me is my mother, my relatives, and I don't want to think of her like this.

"Do you think it's not worth it for me to go around learning his favorite dishes? Because this person is not worthy of me at all? ”

I looked up in dismay.

Although I don't know why my mother married my father back then, I know that there should be no love between them.

"I was abandoned by my family as soon as I was born, and I grew up in the Qinglou since I was a child, although I am good-looking and there are many men who like me, but I know very well that they are not sincere to me, and the same is true for business wars."

The birth of her mother has always been a taboo in her heart, and we never mention it.

"Then why did you marry him?" 20

"No one wants to be abandoned, and I'm the same, when I was a kid, I always thought that when I grow up, I'll make a lot of money, and then I'll make a lot of money, and then I'll smash them in my parents' faces, and ask them why they don't want me."

"So, what about later?"

"Later...... I finally understood that it had always been my whim. The woman in the Qinglou has only two paths to go. One is to take advantage of your youth to hug a thick thigh, no matter what you do as a concubine, just leave the Qinglou. ”

Hearing this, a deep distress flashed in my heart.

Everyone wants someone to love them, and so do mothers.

However, she couldn't choose her own birth, nor did she choose her own life.

As she said, her strength is too humble, so in this life, she can only let people lead the nose.

"One is to be in the green building, wait until you are old and decrepit, wait until no one likes it anymore, and then be lonely for a lifetime......"

"I served a sister when I was a child, she was a pillar in the Qinglou when she was young, she was very beautiful, she had a very high vision, she didn't want to be a concubine, so she kept wandering between = men."

"She kept dreaming that a prince charming came to take her away, and finally, she waited,"

"Isn't that great?"

Hearing my inquiry, my mother smiled instantly.

It's just that there are too many emotions in that smile that I couldn't understand at the time.

"What's good?"

"Do you know that the man said that he really loved her, and said that no matter what, he would definitely marry her against all odds. That silly sister of mine, that's what she believes. ”

"She gave him the innocence she had kept for a long time, and gave him the money she had saved over the years to prepare for her retirement, just because he said that he came to the capital, in fact, he came to the exam, and the reason why he came to Qinglou last time was because he missed the exam that year, and he had to wait for the second year, but in order to let him come to the imperial city, their family had used up all their savings......"

"Since you have no money, how can you go to the Qinglou......

I frowned slightly, always feeling that the man's words were not very credible.

The mother nodded, "Yes, but a woman who talks about feelings is a fool, a shrewd person on weekdays, at this time, she can't hear the loopholes in his words, she believes him." ”

"She treats him very well, provides him with food and clothing, only lets him prepare for the exam with peace of mind, and doesn't even mind that he has no money, and doesn't mind if he really will be on the gold list."

"What a stupid ......",

"Isn't it?"

She said that she could wait for him, if he was won, she would wait for him to come and marry her, and if she couldn't marry, just take her out. She didn't want to fake a smile at other men. ”

"She said that if it doesn't work, it doesn't matter, anyway, marry a chicken and a dog and marry a dog, as long as she is with him, she can accept it any day, it doesn't matter."

I don't think it's a good story, so I don't dare ask about the ending.

"Since ancient times, affection has always been ruthlessly wounded. On that day, I accompanied my sister out shopping, and suddenly found ......"

"That man has a woman next to him?"

This kind of thing is actually not difficult to guess, and it is often said in the play.

Just looking at the mother's expression, it seems that there is more than that.

"It's more than that......"

"More than that?"

"When we saw it, our first reaction was that the woman should be his new love, and I wanted to catch up and scold him, but my sister asked me not to say it first, we followed him all the way, and finally found out that the woman was his new love, yes, but it was also a girl in another green building......"

"So you mean, he took her money and went to raise other women?"

"I thought it was over here, but I didn't expect it to be just the beginning...... We watched him deliver the woman to the door of the green building, saying the sweet words that had only been said to her before, and we were shocked beyond measure. ”

"It turns out that he can say those words to many people."

"I couldn't stand it anymore, and I wanted to pull her away, but at this moment, the man turned around and walked towards another place."

"This time, he walked very cautiously, and even found a broken temple to change clothes on the way, and we followed all the way and actually found his house."

"He is actually not a poor scholar, and even the conditions are okay, the most important thing is that he already has a wife and two children at home......"

"We inquired, and later learned that he was a scholar who went to Beijing many years ago to catch the roast, and after arriving here, because he was married to the young lady of the family, he gave up the exam, married someone directly, and inherited part of the family business, but because he didn't know how to do business, over the years, the family property has been lost a lot, therefore, his son-in-law will inevitably be ridiculed, he has no status in the family, her wife is arrogant in front of him, and even his two children can be insulted at will......"

"Bastard, so he's a bastard through and through."

"We were found out, and he was nervous when he saw us, but his sister questioned him anyway and told him about the girl from before......"

"His wife and father-in-law are so angry."

"But for the sake of the family's face, in front of people, he naturally protects him."

"However, as soon as we left, they sent people to surround us......"

"My sister hid me in a corner and led people away by herself......"

She will never forget the events of that day.

The mother hid in the corner, trembling as she watched the big men keep throwing things in their hands at her.

"That day, there was blood all over the place, and I saw a lot of blood flowing out of her lower body, and she was holding her stomach in pain, and she kept asking people to save her child."

The big men were also frightened by the sudden situation, so they ran away...... It was raining heavily that day, so I took her and walked all the way until I finally got out of the alley and found a kind person who asked him to take us to the hospital......"

"But it's useless...... Her child still died, and even herself, not long after learning the news, died of too much blood......"

"Before she died, she told me not to trust anyone, let alone any man."

"This incident left a huge shadow in my heart, and I finally grew up, and gradually, I began to pick up customers......"

"In my life, I can really see the head at a glance. I didn't want to do this, and I didn't want to repeat her life, so when your father took a fancy to me, I didn't hesitate to leave him. ”

"I've been in the Qinglou for too long, and I've already learned to talk to people and talk to ghosts, so the eldest lady has always thought that I can't handle the climate well...... I know that I will also help her do some small things, because only in this way can I live. ”

"With you knowing, I'm more cautious, I'm reining in my edge, not fighting or grabbing...... But I didn't expect that we had already retreated like this, and the eldest lady still refused to let us go......"

"Seeing Shang Yunqian, I instantly felt that I was alive again, and her simple words were a rebirth for me."

"I'm not dressed up to deliberately please your father, but because of this look, I feel a little more confident and less humble."

"Actually, learning what he likes to eat was just a matter of passing me, and I took the opportunity to learn a lot of things......"

"Fei Fei, after having power, I know that I don't have nothing to live, I still have a lot of things to do, so each of us shouldn't give up on ourselves, we should work hard and try to live the life we want to live......"

"Fei Fei, you are still young, your life is still very long, you have to be brave."

In fact, I rarely talked to my mother.

This all-night long talk made me discover a lot of problems.

I thought about it for a long time.

In the end, I decided to contact Shang Yunqian in person.

Shang Yunqian has a powerful aura on her body, and I don't dare to contact her directly.

So after I apologized to her, I chose to stalk her, and ...... Inquire about her.

It turned out that unconsciously, Shang Yunqian had already done so many things.

Unconsciously, she has become the kindest and smartest girl in the eyes of the people.

However, there are still many bad rumors.

I suddenly discovered that no matter what she did, she could never change the fact that she was Qin Muhan's cannibal.

"If you want to know me, why don't you go to me directly, but also through someone else?"

When Shang Yunqian found me and asked me this question, I was stunned on the spot and didn't know how to answer.

She smiled and seemed to like the way I was embarrassed.

"Let me tell you, when you really want to understand someone, you must contact it in person, everyone looks at people differently, so what you know from other people's mouths is me in the eyes of others."

I think Shang Yunqian is very powerful, because of her words, I actually think it makes sense.

So I blurted out, "Everyone says that you are with Nine Thousand Years Old because he is powerful and powerful, and you hooked up with him entirely because he is useful to you, is this true?" ”

As if he didn't expect my words to be so powerful as soon as I opened my mouth, Shang Yun was stunned for a moment.

The way she blinks her eyes is actually very cute.

"Qin Muhan is indeed rich and powerful, hooking up with him, I can indeed walk sideways in this imperial city, you see, even my father and eldest lady don't dare to point fingers at me, right?"

She smiled so crooked that I couldn't tell if it was true.

"But that's all on the surface."

"That'...... What is the real situation? ”

"The real situation is that Qin Muhan has a life-saving grace for me, he dropped something, and when I returned it to him, there was a new intersection, and what's more, until now, it is Qin Muhan who has always liked me, not ...... I posted him upside down. ”

She spoke with humor and a relaxed tone.

I was shocked by her words.

"So, then you can't do the same? My mother said that there is no good thing in the world, what if you are deceived? ”

I don't know why, but it's obviously an accusation, but when I say it, I am deeply worried.

Shang Yunqian also noticed it, so she smiled more and more deeply, "Fei Fei, you look like this, it's actually quite cute." ”

Me: "......"

Why can't you change the topic, what does this matter have to do with whether I am cute or not?

Fortunately, she didn't make me wait too long and answered my question very quickly.

She said, "This world is not all bad people, to be precise, there are still many good people, and you can't look at other people with a prejudiced eye just because you have been hurt by the people around you in life." ”

She said it so seriously, I couldn't even find how to refute it.

"I chose to be with Qin Muhan, naturally because I saw a better place for Qin Muhan. As I believe you know, he was very nice to me. ”

"No matter how good he is, it can't change the fact that he is a eunuch, do you want your life to be ruined?"

"How can this be considered a funeral?" Shang Yunqian suddenly became very serious, she said, "This is not a funeral, liking is not child's play, since you have decided to like him, you can't give up halfway, let alone dislike or give up a relationship because of his identity, physical reasons or other things." ”

"So, so, are you serious? You're actually ...... Like him too. ”

"Yes, I like him, so whether he is a eunuch or not, I will always like him."

"But, but you ......"

"I understand what you mean, but in fact, the road of life is my own walking, and the days I want are also lived by myself, so what others say can't affect me."

Under the sun, the girl's words were convincing, she said, "I like Qin Muhan, I just like him, this liking is not mixed with anything, in the end, feelings are just a matter of the two of us, and our lives are not something that others can mix in at will, even so, why should I care what others think?" ”

"All I need to know is a little bit."

"That is, I like him, he likes me, we're happy and comfortable together, and that's more important than anything."

From that day on, Shang Yunqian, a person, suddenly became tall in my heart.

It dawned on me that she was unlike anyone I knew.

I even feel that being able to meet Shang Yunqian in this life is the greatest luck in my life.