When I first asked Ruoxiu, it seemed that she and her mother had already colluded to confess, and even the words they said were similar, but I noticed that something was wrong.

I lay on the bed and met her gaze and said, "Ruoxiu, do you know? When I received your letter in Jiangdu, I always felt that the situation was not good, but when I came back, you told me that my mother was fine, and I didn't believe it. ”

Ruoxiu rolled over and knelt on my chest and muttered, "Do you want something to happen to your mother?" ”

I didn't care about this kind of heart-damping argument at all, I just said: "I remember you once said that you always cheated on me." Can you stop scolding me this time? Tell me the truth, okay? As I spoke, I only felt that my chest was hot, and the not thin underwear had already taken a long time.

Ruoxiu is crying.

I hugged her and said, "What the hell is wrong with Mother?" ”

Ruo Xiu said in a low voice: "Sick, sick...... Very sick. ”

I said, "You're so good at medicine, you have a way to cure it, right?" ”

In fact, I was deceiving myself at all, as if I could get her affirmative answer by asking like this, in fact, I knew that the answer was no, otherwise why would my mother collude with Ruoxiu to hide it from me? How could Ruo Xiu cry like this without saying a word? Not only Ruo Xiu, but even Xu Ren and Xun Jian must have nothing to do.

If Xiu didn't answer my question, I continued to ask, "How can this be?" My mother has always been in good health...... "I was halfway through the words, but I only felt very uncomfortable, and I couldn't say any more."

After a long time, Ruoxiu moved his head, pressed it on my shoulder, and whispered in my ear, "Built, I'm sorry." ”

I know why she feels sorry, but I don't know what to say, I can't even comfort myself, how can I comfort others?

It was a long time before I said, "Don't be sorry,"

I didn't fall asleep at all that night, and all I could think about was my mother—the first warmth I felt in this world came from her.

When I first met my mother, she was dignified and gentle, holding me for fear that I would be damaged by Yang Xuangan - in fact, her real son was dead at that time, and I was just an unqualified stand-in, but this stand-in has been for more than ten years, even if it is fake, it has come true. When I first called her "mother", I was a hundred unwilling, but then I liked to stick to her to make me food, and pulled her to call her "mother" over and over again.

When I was drunk and wanted to stab her with a sword, I couldn't help but hug me and cry in distress when I was beaten half to death by Mr. Fang, and I would be aggrieved not to talk to me for a month, but he forgave me unconditionally, and very generously never mentioned this matter again in the future.

When I first became an official, she was both happy and worried. She knew that the officialdom was sinister and that there were constant disputes in the court, so she personally sorted out the court clothes for me, and told me to think carefully about everything in my ear, and I thought she was really annoying at that time.

When I wanted to get married, I didn't know that the person I wanted to marry was Ruoxiu, and I was very unhappy, she saw it in her eyes, and when she combed my hair, she couldn't help sighing, comforting me to talk about fate in everything and look away. I bluntly said that I envied my father, and it also made her shy.

When Anping and Chengping were just born, my father was away, but she taught me the way to be a father, telling me that since I am a father, I should be lenient and kind to them, and I remember all of them. When I came back from the Turks, she didn't write to her when she knew I was still alive, and she was very reserved and angry with me, but she cooked a lot of dishes that I liked to eat......

Although she is no longer young, but in my opinion, her appearance has not diminished as she used to be, and she has always been disease-free, how can she say that she is seriously ill when she is seriously ill?

I even thought that my mother's illness was entirely due to my foreboding, and I hated myself for cursing my mother.

I didn't know it was just a mother-son connection.

On the second day, Ruoxiu's face was not very good, and she sat on the dresser for a while before she went with me to see my mother and father.

She and I walked very slowly in the snow, both sorting out our emotions, and before we reached the door of my mother's room, Li Xuanba came to him, he saw us, looked at me with each other, and turned away.

His body was much thinner than when I left, and there was a layer of worry in his eyes, and I remembered that my mother was sick when Li Yuanji was just born, and at that time he had read a few medical books sent to me by Ruoxiu, and accurately deduced the illness of my mother, and now that my mother is seriously ill, he must have already known.

The three of us walked together, he was beside me, I took his hand, and I didn't speak.

They all know each other.

This year was as lively as in previous years, but the mother did not cook herself, everything was done by Rong'er, and the mother only guided for a while.

It's almost the Shangyuan Festival, Sanniang and Chai Shao returned to Beijing, my mind is all on my mother, and I'm not in the mood to ask her what she's doing this year.

Sanniang was originally a very smart person, and when she saw me and Ruoxiu, she guessed that something was wrong, and pestered me to ask me what happened.

I couldn't bear to tell her, so I had to divert the topic to ask her whereabouts, it turned out that after she and Chai Shao escaped from Shibi Khan, they met a group of businessmen, and as a result, this group of businessmen did not do any serious business at all, it was completely a robbery of grass coles, Sanniang recognized their identities, and as a result, she and Chai Shao were outnumbered and tied up by them, and later the head of this group of grass cobs He Panren saw that Sanniang and Chai Shao had righteousness, and actually made friends with them regardless of their previous suspicions, and left them to go with them for a while, and invited them to He Panren's base camp Si Zhuyuan, so that a toss is a year.

After she finished talking about her experience with Chai Shao, she asked me what had happened.

Ruo Xiu said on the side: "Just now Boss Cao sent someone to invite you to go, you go first." Sanniang, come with me. ”

I thought about it, and I really went to the Zui Hong Teahouse.

Xun Jian was also there, and lowered his head as soon as he saw me.

I went into the tea room on the third floor with him, and before I could sit down, I asked, "Ruoxiu has already told me, my mother...... Really ......"

Xun Jian glanced at me and nodded.

I said again: "Didn't you say that Jiangdong Sijun's face is not good, and his medical skills are higher than that of Mr.?" Find him maybe ......"

Xun Jian waved his hand and said: "Madame's disease was born in the lungs, and it has a tendency to spread, even if the senior brother is here, it cannot be cured." ”

I said in a deep voice, "I don't believe it. ”

Xun Jian said: "The master died of illness because of this, and my senior brother and I couldn't cure the master after going through the medical books, and even the master himself knew that there was no way. ”

I looked at him in despair, thinking that in the modern age of my life, it must not be a problem. What I didn't know was that my mother had lung cancer, and even with the most advanced medical treatment in the 21st century, the probability of curing it was extremely low.

Still, I had a glimmer of hope.

If I can come back here, why can't my mother go to the time in which I live?