I know it's ridiculous, but people hold on to even the faintest hope in times of despair.

I began to desperately think about how I got here, but I couldn't remember anything, I just remember falling asleep with a dizziness and waking up here.

Xun Jian was still sitting silently across from me, and when he saw that I was pondering, he didn't disturb me.

After a while, I said, "Mother's illness...... And more...... How long does it take to ......"

I hardly dare to ask this question.

Xun Jian said: "If you take care of it, you may be able to barely maintain it for a while, and if your condition deteriorates, I am afraid that it will ...... within a few months Alas. ”

Nameless anger suddenly rose in my heart, and I didn't know whether I was angry with heaven or myself. I took a deep breath before I could barely maintain a calm tone and said, "The condition is so serious, why was there no warning before?" ”

Xun Jian said: "At the beginning of the onset of this disease, I didn't notice anything abnormal, and even if there was a warning, it was ...... There is no cure. Childe ......"

I waved my hand, picked up the tea that was already cold in front of me, and poured it down. A chill hit me, and I calmed down.

Dad asked to see Yang Guang alone after the court meeting and asked for resignation, Ding Cheng said that he was sent out, so he didn't know what Dad said to Yang Guang. But Yang Guang agreed to his father's request. He didn't even go back to the building to bother packing his things, because he had already planned to do so when he came back.

My mother's body is losing weight day by day, and even the most delicate makeup can't hide her sickness, and I know that my mother usually only paints a little light makeup, but now it's different.

The atmosphere at home became more and more silent. Strangely, no one mentioned the mother's illness, but everyone seemed to know about it. Even Li Shimin and Li Yuanji, who have always been fighting and making trouble, have settled down a lot.

One night, I couldn't sleep again and wanted to go out for a walk, but Ruoxiu pulled me and said, "It's cold outside, don't ...... it."

I waved my hand and said, "Ruoxiu, let me go out for a walk, okay?" ”

Seeing this, I helped her to sleep on the bed, and then arranged the quilt for her, and said, "Don't worry, just go out for a walk and come back soon." ”

She nodded.

The moon outside the room is as bright as water, I haven't been in the mood to appreciate such a good moonlight for a long time, and I'm not in the mood tonight.

I unconsciously walked towards my mother's side, and when I reached the halfway point, I smiled bitterly, what is this for? My mother had already fallen asleep.

I looked at their dark room, but I heard a noise coming from not far away, and I didn't know what it was.

When I got closer, I saw Rong'er standing under a plum tree.

She hurriedly wiped her eyes when she saw someone coming, and when the brick saw that it was me, she took two steps back before saying, "Childe......"

I didn't look at her, I just looked at the shadows in the distance, and whispered, "It's so late, why don't you go to rest?" ”

Rong'er smiled reluctantly: "The moonlight is good tonight." ”

I said, "Rong'er, how long have we known each other?" ”

Rong'er said: "Childe is confused again? Ever since Childe was born, I have served Childe. ”

I nodded, "You're right, I'm confused. Rong'er, we've known each other for 14 years. ”

Rong'er was stunned and looked at me inexplicably.

But I ignored her, and only continued: "You have taken care of me in every way and taught me how to behave in the world, why...... Why ......" I trembled uncontrollably, my eyes blurred, Rong'er was frightened and hurriedly supported me.

I said, "Didn't the Buddha bless the good?" You often go to Buddhist temples, copy scriptures and worship Buddha, extremely pious, why doesn't the Buddha bless you with a long life? Why? ”

Rong'er helped me and said, "Childe, don't ...... like this" Her gaze passed over me and fell behind her.

I heard someone coming this way, and a pair of hands behind me were holding me.

I turned around and saw that it was Ruoxiu.

I couldn't help but hug her tightly, and I felt a little more settled, as if I could grasp the life of my mother little by little.

Ruoxiu gently stroked my back and said to Rong'er: "Rong'er, Childe is too tired these days, you don't have to take it to heart, rest early." ”

I hugged Ruoxiu like this for a long time before I said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." ”

Ruoxiu pushed me away and stood up, before he smiled and said, "Are you saying this to me, or to your mother?" Tears were still streaming in her eyes.

While wiping away her tears, I said, "It makes you worry and makes you suffer, which is naturally for you." ”

Ruo Xiu nodded with satisfaction and said, "Let's go to the Ink Storage Hall, shall we?" ”

I was stunned for a moment and asked, "Go to the study?" ”

Ruo Xiu said: "I can't sleep either, let's go play chess." ”

The charcoal fire in the Ink Hall had only been extinguished for a short time, and there was still a trace of warmth in the room, so Ruoxiu and I worked for a while before rekindling the charcoal fire.

Ruo Xiu smiled: "Actually, father and mother, they are very happy. ”

I set up the chessboard, sat down with Raosiu, and said, "Kuroko first." ”

Ruo Xiudao: "If so, I won't let it." As she spoke, she began to fall.

As I fell, I said, "Have you heard the story of my father's selection?" ”

She said: "This matter has been spread all over the world twenty years ago, so naturally I have heard about it. I heard that my father had two arrows in the eyes of the peacock on the screen, so he had to add up the blue eyes. ”

I laughed: "Later, I heard from my mother that in fact, she and my father had known each other for a long time and had feelings for each other, but my grandfather felt that he couldn't be cheap for his father, so he came up with the idea of painting a peacock on the screen to choose a son-in-law." ”

Ruo Xiu smiled: "I see? ”

We were playing chess while telling gossip stories between my father and my mother, and before I knew it, it was dawn, and my previous depressed mind calmed down a lot.

Ever since I found out that my mother was sick, I rarely went out at all, and I didn't care at all about what was going on in the court. But one day, Sanniang ran to Cunmotang and told me that there was another war.

I thought about it, the Turks in the north are not moving now, and the Tuyuhun in the west has even occupied the royal city, who are they going to fight with?

I suddenly said, "He wants to go east to Goguryeo?" ”

Sanniang nodded and said: "It's not that I want to, it's already started, I heard that all the food and troops in the world will be gathered in Zhuo County, the emperor has gone to Jiangdu at the moment, and he will go back to Luoyang immediately, and then go to Zhuo County." ”

I waved my hand and said, "If he goes to fight Goguryeo, he will fight, and the eldest brother is not in the mood to care about this." ”

Sanniang was silent for a while and said, "Big brother." ”

I said, "Huh? ”

Sanniang said: "Today, my mother asked, saying that you have been locking yourself in the study recently, which is not good." ”

I was stunned for a moment after listening to this, and saw Sanniang's concerned expression, Sanniang is like this, and the mother will definitely be worried.

I was so confused that I forgot about that.