Chapter 106: The Pain of Losing a Mother (2)
Sanniang is right, what's the use of me blindly avoiding like this? It's never been my style to run away from trouble, so why don't I dare to face my mother now? Running away from all things won't solve the problem.
I was standing in front of my mother's room, and I was hesitating whether to go to her, but Rong'er happened to come out of the room with a basin of water, and when she saw me, she asked softly, "Why is Childe standing here and not going in?" ”
I said, "Just come here." ”
Rong'er looked at me, shook her head and left.
My mother was sitting at the dresser, and I went in and looked around, "Where's my father?" ”
The mother smiled and said, "Your father went to Xingshan Temple, and he is not there, so I have something to talk to you about alone." ”
I tried my best to avoid it, but I had already had this in mind when I came, and she had already pushed me forward in an empathetic way, so wouldn't it be too much for me to retreat back to her kindness?
I forced a smile and said, "Mother, what's the matter?" ”
My mother looked at me with a deep eye, and I rarely dared to look directly into her gaze, and I always felt that if I looked at it for a long time, I would fall into it. But today I don't want to avoid it anymore.
I looked directly at her, trying to decipher the deep meaning in her gaze, but I didn't see anything, she was still as calm and solemn as ever.
She seemed to hesitate for a moment before she said slowly, "You already know?" ”
I really wanted to ask her what I knew, but I could only think about such a cruel and evil thing, but I would never really ask it. So I just nodded.
She smiled lightly and said, "I knew that Ruo Xiu wouldn't lie, and he wouldn't really hide it from you." ”
I asked rhetorically, "If she really hides it from me, what do you plan to do until ...... You...... Aren't you going to tell me either? ”
She nodded and beckoned to me, and I walked over and knelt down in front of her.
She put her arm on my shoulder and said, "What is this?" Get up! ”
I said, "I'm sorry. ”
The mother froze and sighed softly, "It's not that I don't want to tell you. Built, you are introverted, forgiving and forbearing, I am afraid that you will know it, and it will only increase your troubles, just like now, locked up in the study alone. ”
I whispered, "If you don't say it, it won't be?" ”
She sighed and silently did not answer me.
I said, "It is not filial piety...... Please forgive my mother. ”
She laughed, "It's all stupid! Who doesn't know the name of the prince of the Tang State Mansion, the son of benevolence and filial piety......"
I interrupted, "But I ...... I'm not your son at all! ”
When my mother heard this, she stood up with a loud voice, but she fell unsteadily to the dresser, and I hurriedly got up and supported her.
She paused for a moment before saying, "Don't talk nonsense. ”
I held her up and whispered, "Mother, I'm not talking nonsense. Do you remember when I was injured by Yang Xuangan? ”
My mother was helped back to the stool, she looked at me and nodded, "Why don't you remember?" When you were only seven years old, Yang Xuan felt that there was no one in his eyes, and he was ruthless, so you were in a coma for many days, and you almost didn't save your life. ”
I knelt down again and said, "It's not almost, it's that I didn't save my ...... in the first place."
The mother was stunned for a moment and asked, "What do you mean by this?" ”
I didn't know how to explain it to her, so I had to tell the truth: "I am not from this world at all, my mother must think that I am talking nonsense, but what I said is true, please don't doubt it." ”
The Mother steadied herself and said, "You go on." ”
I said: "I came from the world more than 1,400 years later, I was just a little gangster who didn't know how to learn, once because I offended the big brother who took the lead, I was chased and killed by him, I pulled a knife in the back, and when I ran away, I fell asleep because I was too trapped on the ground, and when I woke up, I ...... Here we are. ”
The mother stared at me with the eyes of an alien, and said word by word: "Back then, you were unconscious, and I took care of you day and night, how could it be that you were replaced by another person?" What is not like my son, in appearance, in words and deeds, in character? ”
I said, "Where is it?" I disobeyed my teacher, stabbed my mother, and insulted my sister...... None of them are like it. ”
The mother waved her hand and said, "Young and ignorant, I can't count." ”
I also said: "I also know that Yang Guang will definitely become the emperor, and he will become the king of the dead country......
The mother shouted softly: "Don't talk nonsense! ”
I didn't care at all, I just continued: "And my father is the founder of the Li Tang Dynasty after the Sui Dynasty, he will be the emperor, and ......"
The mother patted the dresser and said angrily: "When did you become a wolf? ”
I arched my hand and said, "It's not about building times, it's history." And I will become the crown prince, and after my father has pacified the world, he will be shot to death by his own brother Li Shimin at the Xuanwu Gate, which is now the north gate of Daxing Palace, and he will be the second emperor of the Tang Dynasty. ”
The mother was silent for a long time before saying, "I believe you for the time being." Since you know everything, I ask you, what will happen if you practice? What will happen to Anping Chengping? What will happen to Sanniang? Xuanba Yuanji Zhiyun, what will happen to them? ”
I was speechless and admitted, "I used to be a thug and didn't read, so they ...... I do not know. ”
My mother helped me up with tears and laughter, and said, "Do you want to make my mother happy by talking about so many messy things early in the morning?" ”
I said helplessly, "Mother, I'm not joking. Since I can come here, my mother can also go to me, I live in an era where the level of medical care is very developed, and it should not be a problem to cure my mother's illness. ”
My mother patted me on the shoulder and said, "What's wrong with you today?" So childish? ”
She didn't believe my word at all, and I didn't know what to do to make her believe it.
After a long while, she suddenly said, "You said that the people of the world will kill you one day?" ”
I was stunned for a moment, then nodded, but I didn't want to talk about this topic, I thought about it and said, "Mother, I have to find a way to ...... you"
My mother didn't wait for me to finish speaking, then waved her hand and said, "Life and death are fate, and wealth is in the sky." I don't want to live a long life, I just want to stay with you a few more days. Buddhists say that death is the cause of death, and this is probably the case. ”
I said, "What if I don't want you to die, and I don't let you die?" ”
She was stunned and said, "This really doesn't look like what Jiancheng said." ”
I said: "I am not Li Jiancheng in the first place, my surname is Yu Mingke." ”
The mother smiled and said, "If this is the case, then you and I are not relatives, so how can you care about my life and death?" ”
I was stunned and said, "It's not like what my mother usually says." ”
The mother smiled again and said, "Built, you still have to look at the matter of life and death." ”
I didn't say anything, and after a while, I said, "Mother, I don't want to look away, and I can't see it." Xuanba has been with Zen Master Yancong for so long, and he can't see it, let alone me? ”