Honghe County Wasa Hospital.

I waited at the door of the emergency room, and the door of the emergency room opened, and Ah Yue was pushed out of the emergency room. I pushed Ah Yue into the ward with the doctor, Ah Yue was wrapped in various instruments, needles, and bandages, as if she was a test object in the laboratory, how did it become like this? I said to the doctor, "Doctor, how is your condition?" When will she get better?

The doctor said, "This, it's hard to say, we've done our best."

I asked the doctor, "What does it mean that you have done your best?"

The doctor said: "I tried my best, which means maybe she will wake up tomorrow, maybe she will never wake up, because her brain injury is very bad, and with our current technology, it can only depend on luck."

I grabbed the doctor and said, "No, no, she can't die, your skills are not good, you can send them to the provincial hospital, or send them to Beijing."

The doctor said: It's too late, we have already delayed the best treatment time, and with the patient's current level, even if it is sent to Mars, I am afraid it will not be too late.

I said to the doctor: Ah Yue, she can't die, I beg you, doctor, please make sure she comes back to life.

The doctor said, "Patient's family, please calm down, it is our duty and duty to treat the sick and save people, and we really did our best."

Asso rushed in at this moment and said, "How can this be? How so? ”

I said to Ah Suo: Ah Yue is gone, I'm sorry for you, I really don't want this, as long as Ah Yue can wake up, I can die for her.

Asso touched my body and said, "Are you alright?" Are you okay?

I said to Ah Suo, I'm fine, it was Ah Yue who helped me block the mudslide.

Aso said, it's okay if you're okay, it's okay if you're okay.

I said to Ah Suo, I'm okay with everything, but Ah Yue is gone.

Ah Suo said to Ah Yue on the bed with tears, Ah Yue, it was my brother who hurt you, it was my brother who hurt you, and my brother should have died.

The doctor said, "Why are you crying?" Did I say Ah Yue is dead? She was in a temporary dormant state due to severe brain damage, not a sign of death, and she might wake up tomorrow, or of course, she might never wake up.

I said to the doctor: aren't you talking nonsense? What is the difference between never waking up and dying?

The doctor said that there is a difference, of course, that dormancy and death are two fundamentally different concepts. Let's wait patiently, maybe a miracle will happen?

I said to the doctor: What is the probability of this miracle?

The doctor said, "Well?" I don't dare to say this.

I said to Ah Yue on the hospital bed: I should say it, Ah Yue, I should say it, I should tell you that I love you. What's the use now? What is there to say now?

Ah Suo said to me: You go back and rest, I am here to guard Ah Yue.

I said to Ah Suo: No, I have to be here, Ah Yue doesn't wake up for a day, I won't leave here for a day.

Aso didn't stop me anymore, the two of us stayed in the ward, looking at Ah Yue, who didn't make a sound on the hospital bed, the medicine in the infusion tube was flowing drop by drop, a person who was fine yesterday, but now there is no sound, or yesterday, on the way to Samaba, passing by the cherry blossom valley full of cherry blossoms, the cherry blossoms on the road for dozens of miles are like the path of heaven, the mountain wind blows, the cherry blossoms in the sky are falling down one after another, it is a scenery I have never seen, we rode horses through the fluttering cherry blossoms, Ah Yue reached out to catch the cherry blossoms falling from the sky, and sang the ballad of the Yicheren, but I didn't understand a word, but I felt that Ah Yue's voice seemed to fall from heaven.

I said to Ah Yue: It's good, but I didn't understand a word.

Ah Yue said that the lyrics mean:

The spring breeze awakens all things

Love awakens death

Faith awakens conscience

You wake me up

Looking at Ah Yue on the hospital bed, yesterday's song seemed to be a hint, "You wake me up", can I wake up Ah Yue? I do not know.

I'm thinking, what kind of love is a person who is willing to die for you in order to protect you? Is this kind of love at first sight for Ah Yue considered love?

If I hadn't met Ah Yue, I wouldn't have believed that there was any love in the world.

I didn't really love someone, but I tried to get close to someone.

Yehena and I went from elementary school classmates to high school, and then from high school classmates to college. The result? We're still the same people.

Let's just talk about my father and mother, they are not people who live by love. For them, there is something higher than love in their hearts. I guess this kind of thing is called a mission in their hearts.

I never dared to believe that there was such a thing as love in the world. It's not that I don't believe it, but I can't believe it. If love is really as simple as everyday life, then the stories of Romeo and Juliet, as well as Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, and Baek Suzhen and Xu Xian, will not be sung from generation to generation. It's like when a person's body needs something, it sends a signal to your mind about the need. Love is probably like that. But the need and the need are two different things. People can't go hungry without food, because food is a necessity. But it's okay if you don't have meat. Without meat to eat, people don't die. So, love is like meat, a need of the body, but not a necessity. Therefore, it is enough for people to live with food, and if there is a little more meat, then it is a luxury.

My grandmother used to think she had the best love. But when my grandmother and my grandfather were living in the United States, my gray-haired grandfather, who was in his sixties, filed for divorce from my gray-haired grandmother. My grandfather remarried a twenty-year-old American girl. It's like a joke to tell. Of course, my grandfather, who was a nuclear physicist, could afford to feed a twenty-year-old American girl, but he destroyed a person's faith in love. My grandmother, who was abandoned that year, couldn't live in the United States as an art person. In the past, she was supported by love. Love is gone, and she can't live in capitalist America. In other words, after my grandmother returned to China, an old man who was dying began to live again, and she became a tenured professor at the National Conservatory of Music by her own efforts. It's like a legend. No, it's not legend, it's life.

Therefore, in this world, whoever wants to believe in any love, then he must be an idiot in this world. Life is more transparent than glass, and love is so cruel that we can't believe it. If Yehena knew that I was not a child of a working family, but a person with a mysterious background, then she would have pinned her future on me, and otherwise, we would have been just classmates, parallel but not intersecting. Therefore, what love in the world is is a reciprocal transaction in which each other is fully valued for each other. Note that it's a one-time thing, not a one-time thing. Once it is not in the future, once it is in the future, I can't tell how many transactions there will be in the future. This is why after I know Yehena's heart, I never want the future. How many girls in the world dare to throw themselves into love like moths to a fire, to burn themselves to fulfill each other? At least I didn't come across.

If there is one thing in the world that can be met but not sought, it is the so-called love. I don't dare to say that the Ah Yue I met in Wasa is love. We didn't even know each other existed until I walked into Zosa. But why did I go up with all my might when I saw the boys surrounding her? Why did she stand in front of me with her body when the mudslide crashed at me? If it were Yehena, would she give up her life to protect me? To be sure, Yehena won't.

That was when I was in the third year of junior high school. On her way home, Yehena was surrounded by several thugs. It was a bloody dusk, and the siege location of a few thugs was moved, and there were basically no people who had interacted with each other, and occasionally walked by one or two people, and they were also people who didn't want to cause trouble for themselves. These little thugs are just a few hungry wolves, and they all blame Yehena's skirt for being too short, if she wasn't wearing a miniskirt, she wouldn't have hung up the desperateness of a few little thugs. Yehena's skirt was short, they almost stripped Yehena naked like a fish, at that time, I hid in the corner of the wall at dusk, I counted, it was five boys taller than me, if I rushed up, it would definitely be looking for death, and it was not Yehena who tore a few thugs, but me. It was not possible to fight hard, so I took out the whistle in my pocket and blew it with all my might, and yelled, shouting, "Murder, the police are coming, the police are coming." This startled a few thugs and ran away, and disappeared in a blink of an eye. A couple of nosy Beijing aunts rushed to the scene of the incident with me. I turned my back to Yehna's body and handed her my clothes.

Aunt Beijing asked me, "Are you classmates?"

I replied, "Yes."

Aunt Beijing said, "You have to go together." Nothing will happen. Fortunately, nothing happened. I'm worried about raising a girl. How can there be such a bold man, it is simply lawless. ”

Walking to the corner of the wall at dusk, I said to Yehena: "Turn around, I will lend you my pants, if you go back around my clothes, your family will think that something has happened, and they will definitely die."

I took off my pants and handed them to Yehena, who delivered them to the door. I only wore a pair of shorts myself. It was neither summer nor autumn in Beijing, but a dusk in the depths of winter. From rescuing her to sending her to the door of the house, and then I left, Yehena did not say a word.

I thought she was scared silly.

It was also a dusk in Beijing during the third year of junior high school, and I was stopped by a few thugs, and this time I was not as lucky as the last time. One of the fat men said, "Brothers, go up." Last time, it was this little mongrel who was nosy and disturbed the good things of the master. Today I want to let him remember it for a long time. ”

I looked around and saw that it was the five thugs who were teasing Yehena. I saw that they were holding steel whips, iron rods, and jumping knives in their hands, and I knew that it was pointless to resist, and the fat man was holding a jumping knife, and I rushed up to the fat man's jumping knife, and said to the fat man: "If you don't kill Lao Tzu, you are not a master." As long as you stab the knife into Lao Tzu's body, you are a murderer, and Lao Tzu will fulfill you today. ”

This kid has never killed anyone, and he actually threw the knife in his hand on the ground. But a few other thugs came up to me and surrounded me, and the whip, the iron rod, and the wooden stick flew over me. I was knocked to the ground by them. One of them shouted, "Fight to the death." I heard the voice of a fat man, saying, "It's almost over, but if you really die, your nature will change, and none of us will be able to run away when the time comes." Withdraw. I think the kid is righteous enough. ”

I knew Yehena was nearby, hiding in the corner of dusk. I only hoped that she would appear in front of me after the thugs left, but no, until I woke up in the hospital, and there was no sign of Yehna. In the depths of that winter in Beijing, my heart was colder than the winter in Beijing.

The doctor told my mother, "Life and death are an inch, and if the wound on the head is slightly out of the way, then the child is gone." ”

My mother asked me, "Who did you provoke to kill so much?" I didn't tell my mother anything.

It was still in the middle of winter in Beijing, or at dusk when Yehena was surrounded by five thugs, and that day, I secretly took the pistol under my mother's pillow and put it in my school bag. Just as they were tearing Yehena's skirt, I pointed a gun at the fat man behind his back and said, "Let her go, today is the end, and if you move her mind, Lao Tzu will collapse you." After saying that, he shot the fat man in the foot, and the fat man knew that he was not joking. When I saw Yehena gone, I said to the fat man, "You beat me once, but you let me go once, and it's settled." I tell you my name, my name is Huang Zijin. ”

The fat man said, "My name is Du Runjian."

I said to the fat man, "If you want to settle accounts with me, you can wait for you at any time." But if you can't kill me, then remember that my life is your death. ”

The fat man said tremblingly: "Okay, well, the grievances will be written off from now on, and we will be brothers from now on." You are a brother, we are all brothers, you are the eldest brother, why don't you kneel down for the eldest brother? ”

Under the threat of a gun, a group of thugs all knelt down.

I put my mother's gun back under my mother's pillow and it was like nothing had happened.

This matter is closed.

But the funny thing happened again, one day I was stopped by a person at school, this person was actually Du Runjian, behind Du Runjian were several of his younger brothers. It turns out that this guy and I are in the same school, or the same grade, it's really funny, we never know each other when we come and go every day, if it weren't for Yehena, maybe we wouldn't know each other until we were old. So that's the reason why you don't know each other without a chance. Du Runjian said, "Big brother, hero, let's find a place to get together."

We arrived at a tavern next to the Bell and Drum Tower. Du Runjian asked for some Yanjing leather wine and said to me, "Let's go?"

I've never drank, but I caught it. Du Runjian also asked for a Peking duck.

Du Runjian took a bottle of Yanjing leather wine and said, "Big brother, let's go one."

I said to Du Runjian, "Okay, let's go."

One of us drank a bottle. Because I've never drunk alcohol, I'm a little dizzy. In fact, Du Runjian and they were also dizzy.

Du Runjian said to me, "I just like your heroic spirit." Du Runjian turned his head to a few younger brothers and said, "Do you have any?" Seeing death as home, seeing death as home is the big hero. So I like you, true man. My old man also has a gun, but I'm afraid of an empty gun with no bullets, and my hands tremble when I hold it in my hand. In the end, it's a gun, something that kills. ”

I pretended to be arrogant and said to Du Runjian: "Isn't it just a gun?" Actually, who the is not afraid. I thought, if I hadn't been cornered by a few of your mongrels, would I have stolen the gun?

Du Runjian said to me tentatively: "That, that little sister is your eldest brother?"

I said to Du Runjian, "What my people? I'm just not used to seeing you big men besieging a little girl, right? I really like it, as for using that kind of subordinate means? Do you think it's interesting to grab something? ”

Du Runjian said to me, "Come, let's go again." I was relieved today. Du will never use that kind of bad method again. I'm worried that if it's big brother and your woman, maybe one shot will collapse me that day, since we are brothers, we have to talk about morality. ”

I thought to myself, you're all pulling other girls' skirts, what kind of morality are you talking about?

When I left the tavern that day, I floated back to my grandmother's house. Fortunately, my grandmother is not at home, otherwise I would have been scolded.

Yehena hadn't shown up since the day I was beaten, and when I went back to school and we met, as if nothing had happened, I concluded that I would never have anything to do with this person.

From then on, we didn't even have a time to look at each other.

She was completely erased from my world.

Even I don't know why I'd risk my own life for a girl who has nothing to do with me.

One day before graduating from junior high school, Yehena came to me and said to me, "Would you like to go with me to the Great Wall to see the shooting stars?" I heard that there was a big meteor shower recently. ”

I said to Yehena, "Why should I go with you to see a shooting star?"

Yehena shoved a bottle into my hand and said, "I know you like me, so there are some things I want to explain to you."

I said to Yehna, "Have I ever liked you?"

Yehena said: "I'm not an idiot, you're willing to die for me, don't you like it?"

I said to Yehena, "Princess, you may have really misunderstood."

Yehena said, "I know you're sad. If you don't want to go to the Great Wall with me to see the shooting stars, then the stars in the bottle are my heart for you. ”

I handed the bottle back, but she didn't answer it, and the bottle fell to the ground, and the "stars" in the bottle were scattered all over the ground. We turned around each other and went in two completely different directions.

The funniest thing is that this girl who asked me to go to the Great Wall to see the stars, in her third year of high school, had already walked hand in hand with Du Runjian on the streets of Beijing.

Once, Du Runjian asked me to drink beer and said to me, "How is it, big brother? How's my approach? ”

I said to Du Runjian, "This is a gentleman."

People say that time cannot be reversed, but many things can be reversed, for example, you put your life on the line to protect a person, but the person is holding someone else's hand in the end, in other words, a person sells you, and you help this person count money. This doesn't just happen in Shakespeare's plays, it can happen to you.

That day, when Du Runjian and I were drinking beer, Ye Hena walked in, looked at Du Runjian, looked at me, and said, "You know each other?"

I said to Yehna, "What's so strange about that? Don't we go in and out of a school gate every day? ”

Yehena said, "What are you discussing?"

I said to Yehena, "I heard that a big meteor shower passed through Beijing recently, and we are discussing going to the Great Wall to see the meteor shower."

Du Runjian also said, "Yes, we are discussing going to the Great Wall to see the meteor shower." ”

For a minute, I couldn't find the right words to express Yehna's expression.

I have tried to love someone, and that person's understanding of love is limited to whether it is useful or not. Therefore, I don't believe that I will fall in love with a girl from a border city, but when I believe in this true love, I don't know when she will promise me, and I don't know if there will be a chance to make a formal confession in this life. Because, she was lying on the hospital bed, and there was no sound at all. I once again remembered Ah Yue's ballad: The spring breeze awakens all things, love awakens death, faith awakens conscience, and you wake me up. But I don't know how to wake up Ah Yue.