In the autumn twilight of this American autumn, Deng Anping, who had never experienced wind and rain, thought of death. Her capitalist father and mother died. In a foreign country, he can't do anything but grief and pain, he can't do his filial piety for his dead father and mother, except for death, Deng Anping doesn't know what other way in the world can go. What made Deng Anping even more desperate than desperate was that the man she loved was about to leave her, and for a long time, this man named Yang Zigeng slept with him, but suddenly proposed to return to China.

This autumn, this autumn Deng Anping felt that the whole world had betrayed him, and the whole world stood opposite him, the former capitalist lady, the former Chinese talented woman, a woman like Mrs. Juli, a talented woman chased by men, a wealthy family background, a country and a city-wide appearance, and a talent that women in the world could not climb, it can be said that such a life is destined to be a life of wind and rain, but fate is really a joke, this joke of fate made Deng Anping think of death in an instant.

Sitting in the villa in Cambridge, Massachusetts, Deng Anping thought, this should be the last twilight of her life, the original owner of this villa is a British businessman, Deng Anping went to the United States to study, Deng Anping's father Deng Haoru bought this villa, now, there is no financial resources, it should be the end of villa life, or the end of all life in life. Deng Anping took out a pistol from under his pillow and aimed it at his temple.

At this moment, the doorbell suddenly rang.

Who is the visitor in such a desperate twilight?

Deng Anping opened the door and said in surprise: How could it be you? Mr. Pajieson.

Pajerson said: "Surprised, isn't it? Life is always full of accidents.

Deng Anping said: There was a little accident.

Pajieson Says: Welcome "No"? Ask me for a cup of coffee "not intended"? Or did I come too suddenly? It is said that Pajieson has spent time in China and likes to speak Chinese, but the Chinese language that comes out of Pajieson's mouth is not blunt, it is simply incomprehensible.

Deng Anping said: Then, of course you are welcome, please come in.

After Pajieson sat down, he said: "The Chinese say that "nothing is left to the Three Treasures Hall", and I came to you today to ask you for something.

Deng Anping said: Mr. Pajieson is a talented man at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, the son of a banker, and an American elite, what can you ask me for a Chinese living in the United States?

Pajieson said: Well, yes, my father has a global organization called the World Institute of Geography and Economics, and to be honest, he wants to open his bank all over the world, and there is no suitable person for the study of China, and I know that people with a Chinese background can't do this, because if you don't have a correct grasp and understanding of the Chinese language, it's impossible to do this research well.

Deng Anping asked vigilantly, saying, "How could Mr. Pajieson think of me as a science student?" Cultural studies is not my forte.

Pa Jieson said: I know your family background, with your family background, I won't care about such a job, that is, come and ask, if you are not interested, I plan to find Yang Zigeng to see if he is interested, as for the remuneration we can discuss.

Deng Anping said: Since Pajieson is so gracious, I am willing to try.

Pajieson said: Then I can understand that you agreed.

When Pajieson left, he said to Deng Anping: I will stay with you in the contract, if you have no objection after reading it, bring it to me after signing.

Sent away Pa Jiesen, Deng Anping seemed to see a little starlight in the dark night, as if he grabbed a life-saving straw when he fell into the abyss, it seems that the world is not a little hope for her, as if the world does not want her to die as a decision, Pa Jieson sent a job at this time, is a messenger sent by God, is God's retention of her, so, what reason is there to give up life by death? What reason is there to die for the American people?

In this way, Deng Anping worked for Pajieson's father's global organization for a year, and the work was not complicated, that is, translating the information about China provided by the global organization into Chinese. It wasn't until the same day a year later, when Pajieson knocked on the door again, that Deng Anping knew that on that night a year earlier, Pajieson was not an angel sent by God, but a devil from hell.

That night, Pajieson said to Deng Anping: I came today to tell you that even a year ago today, you became an employee of the FBI, you have been paid by the FBI for a year, you have done special work for the FBI for a year, in other words, you were already an FBI agent a year ago today.

Deng Anping was stunned for a moment, Deng Anping knew what kind of agency the FBI was, and said to Pajeson: You lured me to be a spy? No, I don't know the FBI, and I don't have any contracts with the FBI.

Pajieson said to Deng Anping: The global agency is an agency of the FBI, and the work you have done has betrayed China, and it is too late for you not to do it now. I did seduce you, but in your case, do you think you will be able to return to China? Your father died on the charge of "historical counter-revolution", and your mother was not only a family member of a historical counter-revolutionary, but also became a historical counter-revolutionary. Isn't staying in the U.S. the best option?

Deng Anping said to Pajieson: You all know my situation, you peeked at my family letter?

Pajieson said: It's not a peek, it's an inspection, every letter exchange of Chinese students or every Chinese letter exchange must be checked by the FBI before it is delivered to you.

Deng Anping said: You invade personal privacy?

Pajeson said: In front of the state, there is no privacy for individuals, the FBI has the right to secretly investigate the president, investigate everything, in the eyes of the FBI, only the interests of the country are right, and vice versa, they are all wrong.

Deng Anping said: No matter what is happening in my country now and what will happen in the future, and I don't care what happens to my parents and family, I will no longer accept the job of a global organization, let alone be a spy, I am a person who engages in scientific research, and I do not want to get involved in politics-related things.

Pajieson said to Deng Anping: Then I understand that you are going to confront the United States, if so, think about it yourself, in the face of national power, what is a person? The FBI says you're a spy, you're a spy, and you don't need proof.

Deng Anping said to Pajeson: Are you threatening me?

Pajeson said: You can understand it this way.

Deng Anping said: What if I refuse?

Pajerson said: You don't have a choice. The FBI can also claim in the media that the daughter of a historical counter-revolutionary died of a murder in the United States.

Deng Anping said: You are really dark.

Pajieson said: There is no absolute light and darkness in the world, everything depends on your choice. But in the face of politics, individuals have no choice.

Deng Anping was silent, what could he say? What else can be said?

Pajieson said: In fact, being selected by the FBI shows that you are valuable, you know what kind of agency the FBI is, and not everyone can be favored by the FBI.

Deng Anping sneered helplessly and said: It's still my honor to say this?

Patjieson said: In fact, aside from politics, the state, these empty concepts, no matter what profession is, it is just a job. What loyalty? What justice? What conscience? What sublime? That's all a concept that gamblers flaunt from their own standpoint. The president is the owner of the White House, but who knows what kind of person he is? Pajieson lowered his voice and said: Who knew the president would be a Freemason? A person's identity seen by the public is just a person's face. In Chinese, it is called "Heaven Knows", "Earth Knows", "You Know", and I Know. Maybe in the future, as a scientist, you will still be a scientist until the day you die, and the FBI will not admit that there is a person, and the so-called truth of this world will only be sealed in the dust of the years forever, and no one will open it. The real truth is known only in secrets. For us, all the truth in the world is unreal.

Deng Anping is indeed a little confused, in the blink of an eye, a prominent family is gone, and in the blink of an eye, the parents who have the glory and wealth of the world are dead, what is the truth? What's the point of the truth? Deng Anping still said: I will never do anything that harms my country.

Pajieson said: What do you mean by "your own country"? When I get you American citizenship, you will be an American, so do you mean China or the United States when you say your own country? The so-called guilt is because you have defined your own position, either/or, you yourself live in the illusion of your own definition, all jobs in the world are jobs, work is work, working for the FBI you just accept a job.

Deng Anping said to Pajieson: You are more like a philosopher and a politician.

"My dream is, of course, to be a scientist and live like Albert Einstein," Pajeson said.

Under Pajieson's coercion and temptation, Deng Anping felt that he was a little insect that fell into a spider's web, and the more he struggled, the more powerless he became.

Pa Jiesen said to Deng Anping: You can stop those writing work, and then your task is very simple, that is, to try your best to keep Yang Zigeng in the United States.

Only then did Deng Anping know that Yang Zigeng had long been a person who had been circled by the United States, and the United States needed people like him, in fact, he was also a person circled by the United States. It stands to reason that the fact that a person is included in the hunt of the state shows the value of that person. But once I got involved in politics, I suddenly felt that all this had changed and understood that everything was a game and a transaction. But if you think about it, what else is there in the life of everything in the world besides trading and games?

The United States needs scientists like Yang Zigeng and Deng Anping, and Deng Anping also needs men like Yang Zigeng. But when I knew that all this was a game and a transaction, I felt disgusted in my heart, and I had the idea of fleeing the United States.

For Deng Anping, at this time, there is indeed no other choice but to choose the United States. Deng Anping feels that there is no choice in life, you are always unconsciously persecuted to take a road that you are not willing to take, this is life. That night, after Deng Anping took a bath, he deliberately drew his eyebrows, put on lipstick, and wore a thin skirt like gauze, Deng Anping slept on the bed and waited for Yang Zigeng.

Yang Zigeng is an orphan, and Yang Zigeng's family died in a bombing during the Japanese war of aggression against China. Yang Zigeng grew up in an orphanage, and Yang Zigeng's studies have been funded by Deng Haoru, the national capitalist and Deng Anping's father. Yang Zigeng is a person with language talent, he has mastered the languages of eight countries during college, his pursuit is to be a diplomat, Yang Zigeng is also very obsessed with the language research of Chinese ethnic minorities, in Yang Zigeng's view, every language hides the secret of a nation, language is the most direct expression of thought, he spent a long time learning a wide variety of Chinese minority languages to write and express, and Yang Zigeng communication is a very difficult thing, He spoke a sentence of Chinese, then a sentence of Hebrew, and then a dialect of the Yiche people of the Yunnan ethnic minority, and he didn't know what he was talking about, and no one could read his reading notes, and the mixed writing habits of multiple languages made the students very annoying, and they clearly didn't want people to understand, but in fact it was just a writing habit of his own. After his family died in the bombing of the Japanese war of aggression against China, Yang Zigeng changed his major to science, and Yang Zigeng felt that only science and technology could save the country. After Yang Zigeng arrived in the United States, he lived by part-time work, and met Tang Chunqiu of the Chinese Association during his part-time job, and he has always been helped by Tang Chunqiu in his later life.

Yang Zigeng said to Tang Chunqiu: I have always been very confused, after I finish my doctorate, I go there, whether to stay in the United States or return to China? What can I do when I go back?

Tang Chunqiu said to Yang Zigeng: It is good for you to stay in the United States, and you can have a good future and a good life with your talents. But if you are asking for my opinion, I still hope that you will return to the motherland, you know our Chinese tradition, "children are not ugly, dogs are not poor families", the construction of our country needs people like you, the country has your name in the list of people invited to return to China, so if you really want to go back to China, it is not simple, the United States will not let you go back easily. Didn't you notice that every time you came to see me, someone was following you?

Yang Zigeng said: The United States will not be a place to stay for a long time. Mr. Tang, I've been thinking about it for a long time, you are a member of the CCP, you are a revolutionary, right?

Tang Chunqiu said: I am just a Chinese businessman.

Yang Zigeng said: I am not from the FBI, whether you are from the CCP or other people, I am very grateful to you, Mr. Tang, if it were not for your sponsorship, Mr. Tang, it would be difficult for me to complete my studies in the United States.

Tang Chunqiu said: Whoever makes us all Chinese, even if it is not you Yang Zigeng but other Chinese, we will still get our help.

Yang Zigeng said: "We" refers to the motherland, right?

Tang Chunqiu did not answer.

Yang Zigeng said: No matter who Mr. Tang's "we" refers to, is it Mr. Tang? Is it the country? Or is it a political party? I am grateful, no matter what is behind Mr. Tang, I should repay him.

Tang Chunqiu said: Zi Geng, you have such a pure heart, I am very relieved. Whether you stay in the United States or return to China, you remember that you are a Chinese, born Chinese, and China is where our roots lie.

Yang Zigeng said: Zigeng remembered Mr. Tang's instructions.

Yang Zigeng left Tang Chunqiu's Chinese hall and returned to Deng Anping's villa, and saw that Deng Anping on the bed was already asleep, so he lightly wanted to exit the bedroom, Deng Anping said at this time: Come back? Wash and sleep, I've been waiting for you.

After Yang Zigeng washed, he slept next to Deng Anping.

Deng Anping hugged Yang Zigeng and said: Zigeng, how many times have we discussed, I still don't know your clear attitude, our doctoral study is coming to an end, what are your plans? You already know about my family's changes, I have tentatively decided to stay in the United States, and I hope you can stay in the United States. Deng Anping coquettishly hugged Yang Zigeng and said coquettishly: Okay, in this free country, we are engaged in our scientific research, live our romantic life, and don't have anything to do with politics.

Yang Zigeng said: Anping, I can't lie to you, I haven't thought about it yet, we must be Chinese, of course, the strength of one of us is insignificant, but if all the Chinese who come out to study abroad do not have the heart to serve the country, what a terrible thing? It seems that there is nothing wrong with us serving the United States in our scientific research for the sake of our own comfortable life, but if one day, the Americans use the weapons we have studied to attack China, you say, what is the difference between us and traitors?

Deng Anping said: We are scholars, why do we always have to think about problems from politics, the world, the family and the country? That's so tiring.

Yang Zigeng said: Anping, you know, I can't do it without thinking, all my family members died from the bombs of the Japanese.

Deng Anping said: We still don't talk about those sad things, even if it's for me, don't you want to stay in the United States?

Yang Zigeng said: Don't give me such a multiple-choice question, okay? You are my lover, the motherland is my mother, if this choice question is given to you, how will you choose? So, we might as well wait.

Deng Anping said angrily: You always say wait, wait, and wait, and as he spoke, he broke free from Yang Zigeng's arms, twisted his body to the other side and fell asleep.

Yang Zigeng watched Deng Anping fall asleep, caressed Deng Anping's hair, got up and came to the study.

Yang Zigeng had already discovered the FBI's tracking of him, and Yang Zigeng also understood that if he chose to return to China, then it would be impossible for him to take a piece of paper from this country. Over the years, Yang Zigeng has developed a habit, whether it is his own calculations or notes, Yang Zigeng can remember it to the death, no one knows that he has an extraordinary memory, Yang Zigeng is making a preparation, that is, one day he can serve his country.

Yang Zigeng finally chose to return to China and left the United States alone under the surveillance of the FBI.

On the day he left the United States, Deng Anping said sadly: The United States can't keep you, and I can't keep you.

Yang Zigeng said: It's not that Anping is bad for you, it's not that we don't love it, it's just that I can only make this choice, I have to return to my own motherland, all my efforts are for her, this is my fate.

Yang Zigeng's departure, for Deng Anping, is the failure of the mission.

On the day Yang Zigeng left the United States, Pajieson came to Deng Anping's villa and said to Deng Anping: I am very disappointed in you, and the FBI is also disappointed in you, you can't even keep a beloved, I really don't know what else you can do.

Deng Anping cried and said: Do you think I don't want him to stay? He's the only reason I'm living in this world, but what can I do? Compared to his homeland, the weight of a beauty is meaningless, you just called Margarine Monroe, I bet you, no play.

Pajieson said: There is really no reason, a Chinese man's idea would be so outrageous, he didn't want to put the beauty in front of him and the happiness in his hands, but he wanted to serve a motherland, how wrong he thought. Since this is the case, it can only be like this, and the next task is to maintain long-term contact with Yang Zigeng, and you must know the content and direction of Yang Zigeng's research.

There is no Yang Zigeng by his side, and Pajieson is like a ghost, for a guest resident, no matter how long you have been in the United States, you are still a passerby, still a very familiar stranger, and the noise of the city and this prosperous country do not seem to have anything to do with you. There was nowhere to put Deng Anping's loneliness, and it was at this time that Johnson entered Deng Anping's life, Johnson's father was an arms manufacturer, a century-old family with a huge old estate in New York. They are also classmates at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology. If it weren't for Yang Zigeng's existence, maybe they would have been together a long time ago. Johnson has been pursuing Deng Anping, even when Yang Zigeng was sleeping in Deng Anping's bed, Johnson never gave up attacking Deng Anping. As soon as Yang Zigeng left, Johnson launched a powerful offensive against Deng Anping. Under Johnson's stubborn stalking, the empty Deng Anping finally agreed to Johnson's marriage proposal. Deng Anping calmly thought that it is impossible to be with Yang Zigeng at least in this life, as a woman in a foreign country, she must need a dependence and backer, and the Johnson family, as an arms manufacturer, is of course a good choice. With such a family to rely on, the FBI did not dare to do anything to itself. This is how Deng Anping married himself to Johnson, to this family with huge wealth.

Deng Anping still didn't calculate that Johnson, an American man who had children with him, was actually ordered by the CIA to spy on his CIA agents.

As if all accidents were inevitable, as if all accidents were inevitable. Who would believe that a man who has not seen the ocean for many years is standing in a court in the United States for espionage and is being tried by the United States? Who would believe in such a fate?

Described as a spy by the United States, Mr. Yang Zigeng was born in China, studied at Harvard University in Cambridge, Massachusetts, and received a doctorate in physics and astronomy, and became a member of the National Academy of Sciences after returning to China. Another person who was described as a spy by the United States is the American scientist Dr. Deng Anping, who was a classmate of Mr. Yang Zigeng when he was a student at Harvard University, and the two had the same experience of working in the atomic energy laboratory in New York. Later, the two had many contacts during many international conferences in Geneva, Tokyo, Paris, etc. Americans really have genius imagination, because Dr. Deng Anping is a spy, so Mr. Yang Zigeng must be a spy. This is because Dr. Deng Anping's research in the United States and Mr. Yang's research belong to the same field.

In a court questioning, the U.S. prosecutor testified against Dr. Deng Anping: Why did China's quantum research surpass the United States in such a short period of time? It's impossible. So there is only one reason, that is, over the years, Dr. Deng Anping has continuously channeled quantum research from the United States to China through her classmate and former lover Yang Zigeng.

The U.S. prosecutor asked Dr. Deng Anping: Were you and Yang Zigeng classmates when we were studying at Harvard University?

Dr. Deng Anping said: Yes.

The U.S. prosecutor asked again, saying: Did you and Yang Zigeng work together at the New York Atomic Energy Laboratory?

Dr. Deng Anping said: Yes.

The U.S. attorney asked again, saying, "Is there evidence that you were ever lovers?"

Dr. Deng Anping said: Does this also need to be answered?

The U.S. prosecutor said aggressively: This is very important to this case, and of course it must be answered.

Dr. Deng Anping said: Yes.

The U.S. prosecutor said: There is evidence that you all slept in the same bed for a long time.

Dr. Deng Anping said: Is this also related to this case?

The U.S. Attorney said: Absolutely.

Dr. Deng Anping's lawyer said: "Objection, the prosecutor misguided my client to convict me.

The judge said: The objection is invalid, and the inquiry continues.

Dr. Tang Anping said to the judge: Do I have the right to argue?

The judge said: Absolutely.

Dr. Deng Anping said: I want to tell you that I am also an American, and the United States is also my motherland, and today, I can say here with a clear conscience that I, Deng Anping, have not betrayed my motherland, the United States. Although I am Chinese, I was born in China. Our president is not a native of the United States, and many Americans do not have American roots. But none of this prevents us from being Americans ourselves, because we have all chosen this country, and then this country is our homeland. As a Chinese born in China, what's wrong with that? If your country really rejects us so much, then why would you want us to be your people? Here, the first thing I would like to question is the motives of the state. I was asked by the United States to stay, and with my own talents, I can go back to my home country. I am a scientist, not a politician. I'm doing scientific research, not political research. Yes, Yang Zigeng and I used to be two people who loved each other, and we have always maintained a relationship between classmates and friends, and there are academic exchanges, that's all, there is no transmission of core secrets at all, not to mention how many so-called core secrets will the United States let a Chinese scientist know? You know. I know that today, no matter what I say here, is not right, because you are playing a political game, and Yang Zigeng and I are just two puppets of you, but I am here today, I want to say that I want to talk about the degeneration of the American spirit and the degeneration of American self-confidence. Why can't China surpass the United States in quantum research? What kind of logic is this? As the backwardness of China's science and technology, please remember that it has been and is the source of human civilization in the past 100 years, and China's science and technology have always been, or are, the source of human civilization. If you're wondering how China's quantum technology can surpass the United States? Can I tell you the secret? In your eyes there is only a cost of time and money, but you do not have a cost of faith. In other words, I have to go home and enjoy life after I work for eight hours, but this is not the case with Chinese scientists, they can work sixteen hours a day, or even twenty-four hours a day in the desert, which means that one day we work, they may have two days or even no concept of time. With such hard work, can there be no progress? I haven't been back since I left China, and one of their favorite words is "leapfrogging", and I should say they did. What is the American spirit and American self-confidence? What I understand is the freedom, tolerance, exploration, and hard work of the United States. It is the guidance of this spirit that has led me to stay in the United States, but what I see today is the degeneration of this spirit, and the United States has lost its self-confidence when it sees the progress of others. Next, I became a spy, first of all, I must say, I am not a spy, and you have no proof that I am a spy, I am an American, the United States is my homeland, and I will not betray the United States. Of course, I have nothing to say about what national interests the United States wants to sacrifice me.

Dr. Deng Anping finally said: Some media say that I still love Yang Zigeng, yes, I don't shy away from my love for him, but he is already a family man. Since he left the United States, I have a new lover, and that lover is America. I also have my own man, and this man is Johnson.

On this day, the US media reported that "a Chinese-American scientist who regards the country as a lover has become a spy, and she and her former lover Chinese scientist Yang Zigeng have been charged with 108 counts, and if convicted, they could be sentenced to life in prison."