After the singing competition, I fell out of love.

It's a normal breakup, and there are no surprises. At that time, the conflict between me and my girlfriend was already very acute, and the two sides had reached the point where they couldn't understand each other's thoughts, and no matter what the other party said, they would resolutely refute it, whether it was right or wrong. Anyway, at that time, I was about to go crazy, and I really didn't want to spend more time at the border for a day, and I wondered how to transfer away every day. Once, when I heard that a staff officer had been transferred, I called him and asked him how he had been transferred. It's ridiculous to think about it now. But at that time, I didn't think much about it at all, and I just wanted to go. Now that I think about it, I did drill the horns at that time. Since the two sides don't understand each other, it can only be a good gathering and dispersing in the end.

After dinner that day, she called me, her voice was very flat, and her words were very simple, she said, let's break up, we are not very suitable. I said, OK. Then I hung up. Everyone may think that I am ruthless, and I have not even redeemed it, and I have not tried to think of a way. But what I want to say is that since the two people have come to that point, the final result will inevitably be a breakup. Moreover, I am indeed a strong person, a real one, not a fake. Since you said to break up, then I can't do without you, and I will break up if I break up. That's what I thought at the time. I have been such a character since I was a child, when I was in junior high school, I had an extremely good friend, the two of us were playing, and then I got angry, I stopped paying attention to him, and I didn't say a word to him for a week, or under the resolution of other classmates, we spoke. However, such stubbornness has improved a lot since he got married, because no matter how strong he is, he can't be tough with his daughter-in-law, so he gradually becomes less stubborn. But at that time, he was young and vigorous, and no one was convinced, so he had the result of falling out of love.

A life without a broken love is an imperfect life, and from this day, my life is finally perfect. I haven't been out of love, and I won't experience the feeling of falling out of love. At that time, I felt that there was no point in living, the work was not going well, I scored more than 500 points in the college entrance examination, I passed the national first line, I was admitted to a military school, and I went to school for five years. And then the object who has been dealing with it for several years also broke up, what is the point.

I didn't go back to the dormitory that night, so I climbed up to the observation post and sat on it all night, smoking cigarette after cigarette, thinking aimlessly. Sometimes I want to jump off the observation post. But I always hold my breath in my heart, I don't rely on anyone, just on myself, can't I still be transferred? Am I not able to get out of my own way? It was this breath that made me unconvinced and made me want to prove myself. I secretly told myself in my heart that I must work hard, I must achieve something, and I must become a figure in the attention of the whole society, and at that time, everyone was impressed, and those who did not believe in me and abandoned me all regretted it. That's what I thought at the time, I just wanted to prove to the world that I could do it!

The more I think about it, the more agitated I feel, the more agitated I feel, the more I want to shout, I want to roar, I want to vent. So, I climbed up to the roof of the observation post and stood on a platform of less than ten square meters, which was the highest point in the area. Looking at the rolling and rushing North Sumu River in the distance, looking at the mountains in the distance, looking at the vast sky and the vast earth, I shouted: "Ah! ——”

Unexpectedly, my behavior caused a misunderstanding.

Chen Li, the squad leader who had been at the observation post, felt that something was wrong the more he looked at my behavior, so he asked Yang Yang, a soldier on duty together: "In the past two days, I have found that there is nothing wrong with the platoon commander." Yang Yang scratched his head and thought hard, "Recently, I always found that the platoon commander sighed with a sad face, and sometimes he didn't sleep in the middle of the night, and the day before yesterday I got off the post at two o'clock and returned to the dormitory, and found that the platoon commander hadn't slept yet." Yesterday, the platoon commander did not go back to the dormitory, so he stayed here for the night. ”

"Is it out of love? Standing so high, you don't have any ideas, do you? Chen Li seemed to be talking to Yang Yang, and it seemed to be talking to himself, the more he talked, the more scared he became, and the more he thought about it, the more worried he became. I will go down and report to the company commander's instructor, you pay attention to the platoon commander's every move, and if there is any abnormal action, you can chat with him, and you must hold him back. You know? ”

"Yes, squad leader. I'll be optimistic about the platoon leader. ”

After speaking, Chen Li hurriedly ran to the company, returned to the company, and came directly to the company commander's office, the door was open, and the company commander's instructor was there.

"Report!" Chen Li said while panting.

"What's wrong? In a hurry, I will say it when I am out of breath. Company Commander Sun and the instructor looked at Chen Li, who suddenly appeared at the door.

"Company commander, instructor! Big things are wrong! Our platoon commander has fallen out of love, and now he is on the observation post platform, presumably preparing to commit suicide! Chen Li said while gesturing, his anxious expression illustrating the seriousness of the matter.

"Why didn't you say it earlier!?" Hearing Chen Li's words, Company Commander Sun and the instructor stood up with a "bang", didn't even help the stool behind them, and hurriedly ran out.

"Chen Li! Tell me what's going on! While rushing to the observation post, Chen Li reported what he knew to the company commander and instructor, including not sleeping all night last night, and also yelling on the observation post platform just now.

"Look! The platoon commander opened his arms! Chen Li suddenly shouted. There was a distance of 200 meters from the company to the observation post, and they almost ran over, and from a distance they saw me standing on the platform of the observation post with my arms outstretched. But at the time, I didn't really want to jump, I just wanted to stretch my arms outstretched.

"Gao Xiaofei!" Being suddenly shouted by Chen Li, Company Commander Sun was startled, and thought that I was about to jump down, and the company commander shouted my name.

Hearing someone shouting at me, I stood on the platform at the top of the observation post and looked down, but I couldn't see who was below, so I took two steps forward. And these two steps forward, the frightened people below hurriedly ran up, almost using their hands and feet, and hurriedly climbed up the steps.

"Gao Xiaofei! Don't move! If you have anything to say, let's talk about it, don't think about it! The company commander hurriedly shouted.

After the company commander finished shouting, the instructor continued to shout, "Xiaofei, we are still young, and the days ahead are still long, we still have to go on, right?" ”

At this time, I finally saw the people below, it turned out to be the company commander, the instructor, and Chen Li, what is this for, why did Chen Li call the company commander and instructor? I reacted for a while, pondered their words, and finally realized that I thought I was going to commit suicide by jumping off the building. This misunderstanding is a big one, how will this end?

I thought about it for a while and didn't come up with any way, so I had no choice but to bite the bullet and get scolded. I saw that the company commander and the instructor were still talking, and hurriedly got off the platform, but I had another idea in my heart. Don't look at the company commander and instructor are usually very strict, but in fact, they care very much about the officers and soldiers of the company and care very much. It can be seen from the expressions and words of the company commander and instructor just now that they are indeed really in a hurry. With this in mind, I got down from the observation post and stood in front of the company commander and the instructor.

Company Commander Sun glanced at Chen Li next to him, then at me in front of him, and said, "Say, what's going on?" ”

"Company commander, I don't know why Chen Li called you and the instructor up, I just want to see the vast North Sumu River on it and let my mind fly, that's all."

"Look at the North Su Mu River, do you need to run so high? If you still let your mind fly, why don't you fly yourself! Chen Li saw that you went up to the top of the observation post and yelled, thinking that you had fallen out of love and were going to commit suicide by jumping off the building, so hurry down and call me and the instructor! You said that you are in your twenties, how do you not know the severity! "Hearing my explanation, the company commander was angry, and the more he talked, the more angry he became, and he almost cut me down.

"It's true that I'm out of love, but I don't want to kill myself." I whispered.

"I didn't want to kill myself, you ran so high!" Sun Lian was so angry that he almost slapped him, but he was able to hold back.

"Okay, let's go back to the company and sit down and talk about it." The instructor hurriedly played a round, and then said to Chen Li next to him, "Chen Li, you hurry up and go up on duty, don't let a soldier be there alone." You are really, if you don't understand clearly, you come down to report, it's such a big misunderstanding! ”

Chen Li saw that he had made such a big misunderstanding, so he lowered his head and hurriedly ran up, how can this be a person, the other squad leaders will definitely laugh to death, and it is estimated that they can remember it for a lifetime. Chen Li complained to me in his heart, what are you doing running so high, I can't let the platoon commander go to the post in the future.

The lovelorn thing is what I said became a turning point in my military career. It was indeed a turning point in my military career, and it could even be said to be a turning point in my life. Therefore, how can you see a rainbow without experiencing wind and rain, and how can you break out of the cocoon and become a butterfly without experiencing pain. From this day on, I also seemed to have broken out of my cocoon into a butterfly, if not a flower butterfly, at least a moth.