0192 A war hero injured by the aftermath of war

"Chief, my soul is lost, lost on the front line of Laoshan, lost in the heights of Xiaojianshan, I can't come back, I can't come back."

When he said this, Huang Honglin's emotions were completely out of control.

Few people can understand how he has come all these years, every night has nightmares, every night has to wake up from nightmares.

It's been thirty years, and who can feel that feeling.

Those who died became martyrs, and those who lived became heroes.

However, is it really that good to be a hero?

Is it really as glamorous as it looks?

This society is complicated, and everything will not develop as you think.

"Honglin, I understand, I understand, let's continue to talk, speak slowly, I'll listen, let's just say it." Wang Liang stepped forward and patted Huang Honglin on the back and comforted.

Abbreviated as PTSD.

Post-war psychological syndrome.

When he experienced the tragic and bloody Battle of Xiaojianshan, Huang Honglin was only nineteen years old, and he was still a child.

In the eighties, it was too long before the war.

The smell of gunpowder smoke and blood is too unfamiliar to the young soldiers of the republic.

On the battlefield, perhaps at that time, they showed bravery and tenacity.

But those horrific images and horrific experiences will become a lingering nightmare for the rest of their lives, and then produce a series of sequelae in the case of severe psychological disorders, such as nightmares, personality changes, and emotional separation.

In more serious cases, violent crime may occur.

Obviously, Huang Honglin, the combat hero, suffered from this mental illness.

Huang Honglin took the tissue handed over by his comrades-in-arms, wiped his tears, and continued: "After the battle of Xiaojianshan, it was the most beautiful time in my life. That's when I started to change, I became manic and anxious. At that time, my comrades-in-arms said that I was proud, and I made a first-class meritorious service at a young age, and my future was bright......"

One day in April 1985.

Just because of a trivial matter, Huang Honglin had a quarrel with the company commander.

Huang Honglin, who had always had a gentle temperament, was gone, replaced by a manic guy.

Unable to stand the criticism of the company commander, the angry Huang Honglin picked up the submachine gun and put a shuttle of bullets on the camp.

Dada, dada, dada......

Fortunately, the empty guns were released into the sky, and there were no casualties.

The comrades-in-arms who rushed out after hearing the sound hurriedly used the tactics of capturing prisoners to control Huang Honglin and separated the man and the gun.

At that time, the barracks were next to the division headquarters, which alarmed the division commander, and although he did not aim his guns at his comrades, he had seriously violated military discipline by placing guns indiscriminately in the camp.

Later, considering that Huang Honglin had made meritorious contributions in the battle of Xiaojianshan not long ago, that the battle was tragic and tragic, and that Huang Honglin was a heroic model for key propaganda, the leaders of the division headquarters carried out a low-key treatment, demoted Huang Honglin's first-class merit to a second-class merit, locked him up for a few days, and wrote a review.

"I really don't remember what I did at the time, how could I have pointed a gun at my comrades?" Huang Honglin still believes that it is true.

Wang Liang nodded, obviously, from that time on, Huang Honglin's illness began to attack.

But in those days, where were there any psychiatrists?

Even today, in the 21st century, when primary and secondary schools set up posts as psychological counselors, they are just indiscriminately filling up the number and responding to the instructions of their superiors.

Does it really solve the problem?

In the seventies and eighties, eating enough was a blessing, under the constraints of that background and era, what was the use of having a psychiatrist?

Mentally Challenged?

Give you a chicken leg and a white-flour steamed bun to make sure there are no problems.

This is the truest thought in the hearts of people back then.

Let's say, how tragic the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression was, and how inhumane the little Japanese were.

The War of Liberation and the War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea were also fought very hard, and they were far from being as simple as imagined.

How much blood is a martyr's blood?

Throughout the ages, all wars have not been easy to fight. How can the dead be not tragic.

However, at that time, the living who were not alive and dead, the dead were dead, and the crazy were crazy.

Those soldiers who fought in the Vietnam War did not fail to do psychological work.

It's just that the conditions at that time, whether to do it or not, I'm afraid it won't play a substantive role.

The doctor's instructions are nothing more than to appropriately reduce some military training, eat and drink some good food, do not close yourself off, communicate more with comrades-in-arms and friends, and carry out some military-civilian friendship activities.

There is nothing wrong with these instructions, and in practice, they may be helpful to some people, but there are always some people who ......

Wang Liang understands Huang Honglin too well, back then, this problem was really ignored.

At that time, people really didn't have this kind of awareness, but most people didn't know what the concept of psychological problems was.

Over the years, Wang Liang has communicated with many Vietnam War veterans, and many veterans said that they were very scared when they went to the battlefield, and the bloody scenes left a deep shadow on them.

But after the troops were pulled back, they were served with good food and drink, and there was also fun, and they soon consciously forgot all the bad experiences on the battlefield.

Later, those soldiers who fought on the front line, especially those who had fought in contact with the Vietnamese army, were not brought back to the station, but were dragged to a sanatorium and stayed for nearly a month.

In the sanatorium, there are daily arrangements, of course, not military training.

Kick football, play cards, swim, listen to vaguely watch movies and TV series.

The 84 version of "The New Biography of Chu Liuxiang", the 85 version of "Jigong", and the 83 version of "The Legend of the Condor Heroes"

Every week, the cadres will also organize the soldiers to arrange some programs, and the life is quite full and happy.

Although I also want to sacrifice my comrades-in-arms, my heart is not so uncomfortable and not so blocked.

The aftermath of the war was curbed at an early stage for some people, but there were always 'fish that slipped through the net' like Huang Honglin.

In front of Wang Liang, Huang Honglin opened his heart and continued to talk about the past that had been dusty for many years: "The next year, I applied for discharge. At that time, if I had stayed in the army and continued to work, I would have been able to do it, but I really didn't want to stay in the army. I thought, go home, when I get home, I should no longer be anxious, irritable, and have nightmares, and I should be able to return to the normal track of life. ”

In 1986, Huang Honglin took off his military uniform and retired from the army.

Because he was a combat hero and had a second-class wartime merit, he was placed by the state to work in the tobacco bureau in his hometown.

With the introduction of his family, he married a wife and had children.

Stable and decent job, happy and warm family, in those days, it was too late for many people to envy it.

Huang Honglin thought that his good days were coming, but in the accidents again and again, he found that he was wrong.

He found himself thinking things too simply.

The military uniform can be taken off, the military hat can be taken off, but can the soul lost in the old mountain and the small Jianshan come back?

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Films, television, and literature have always portrayed our warriors as god-like, omnipotent people.

But war is always cruel and kills, so I wanted to write something real and little known.

Either way, they are combat heroes. And behind this hero of battle, what is carried and borne is too heavy.