Who can understand this complex and contradictory feeling?!

But the hand lingered for a moment when it was near, and then hung down weakly, as if it had never had the courage to fall on the face that was waiting. In the eyes of the strange man, a shiny liquid flashed. Because of the mask, I can't see his expression at this time, but tears can prove everything. What kind of soul is hidden behind that mask????

Tao Qisheng tried his best to control his chaotic mood, and in the uneasy tension, he seemed to be a little happy or a little disappointed! After he let out a sigh of relief, he said lightly, "That—then please take care!" ”

When he turned around, tears were streaming down his face. He stumbled out of the cave with his stick. Standing outside the cave, the sun shines brightly. He felt dizzy for a while, and he only felt that the world was spinning, and he almost fell vulnerable to the sun.

Then an incomplete sentence floated out of the cave: "Qisheng, my-"

The mournful voice sounded a little ethereal to him, but a heart was torn apart in spasms. He took off his glasses and wiped away the tears that were already messy, and when he put them on in the mirror, the tears would still flow down wantonly, obscuring his vision!

At this time, he really wanted to go home, home is not only his home, but also his concern, and it should also be the place where he died. Therefore, even if you die, you must die by the side of your loved ones! At the same time, in his heart, it was as if he had completed a mission, and he felt relieved. Even if you die, it seems that you will have some peace of mind, as if you have reduced regrets and worries in the world. He struggled to support his very tired body, and walked slowly in the direction of home, his mind gradually showing a blank, and the past seemed to be really far away from him. As he laboriously walked up a high hill, he suddenly poured into his ears words that sounded far away:

"I'm not dead, you can't die! Oh my God, I am the one who should be punished, and I will die to prove your wife's innocence! ”

Tao Qisheng was shocked, and hurriedly turned his head, and saw that the strange man in animal skin was stumbling in the woods in the direction of the "**" and "cunt" in the distance, he raised a wine bottle and drank it in his mouth as he ran, and the mask on his face was gone. First I only saw his silhouette, then his back. In the silhouette, Tao Qisheng saw a face that was once so familiar, although more than 20 years have passed, it still seems to have a clarity that has never changed; In the back, I saw the back of a crooked camel and the fluttering hair of a messy and fluffy gray hair.

"What do you want to do?"

In a hurry, Tao Qisheng shouted.

The strange man seemed to be deaf to his words, and continued to run and drink, but at the same time there was the sound of his laughter, but in that laughter was full of endless desolation and sorrow, which echoed in the mountains and forests for a long time, and the birds that chirped were stunned and speechless.

Tao Qisheng didn't pay attention, fell and rolled down from the high post, then got up, and chased after the strange man without thinking about anything. He wanted to use this sick tired body to desperately chase after him, but he did not hesitate to use even his last strength to catch up with the strange man who he had wanted to forget for many years, to stop the suicide he wanted to make. However, the distance between the two people is obviously getting farther and farther apart. In a few moments, I saw that the strange man was already standing on the edge of the "cunt-pit", and several monkeys were squeaking in the fruit trees there.

"Don't, don't, don't——!"

Tao Qisheng shouted hoarsely, but what appeared in front of him was that the strange man resolutely jumped down the bottomless "cunt-pit". This scene seemed to overlap with the picture when he jumped into the fairy river, he stood still, and was stunned, as if he was stupid, he threw down the wooden stick in his hand, and the body of the wooden clay sculpture slowly bent down, and he knelt on the ground and lay there, and after a long time he kowtowed again and again, and heard him murmur in pain:

"Daddy, Daddy! I'm sorry, I'm sorry! You and your mother gave birth to me and raised me once, but you didn't get your son's help - Dad——! One day, I will be reunited with you under the Nine Springs, but what face do I have to meet you, I am a disloyal, unfilial, unkind and unrighteous person! ”

In the traditional ideology, men can only be admired by loyal ministers and filial sons, and they also wanted to emulate some people who were familiar with them. Only then did Tao Qisheng suddenly realize, could it be that the doubts that were entangled in his heart turned out to be wrong in the end? ! From this point of view, his life is only burdened with suffering, but unfortunately everything can never go back to the past! Father, this term should be great and sacred in the mind of every outsider, giving life and nurturing grace. For Tao Qisheng, he wanted to repay, but he couldn't find a chance again!

The mistakes made at the beginning would have brewed such a tragedy in life!

He spat blood in his weeping, a heart-rending pain, and then slowly collapsed there, and then passed out. The "cancer" hidden in his heart for many years, does it have to be eliminated in the form of death?!

Time seemed to stand still all of a sudden.

It seems like a long, long time.

"Wang, Wang-"

A dog barking could be heard in the distance.

He woke up slowly.

Is it a black tiger?

He wiped the blood from the corner of his lower lip, picked up the glasses that had fallen on the ground, wiped them and put them on, and covered the blood on the ground with sand. He is not short-sighted, for many years, the reason why he wears a mirror seems to be deliberately covering up, afraid that others will spy on him through the window of his soul!

Sure enough, it was the black tiger who came, it appeared in Tao Qisheng's hazy eyes first, and soon came to the front, followed by of course Tao Zhenkun, carrying the double-barreled shotgun in his hand. Tao Qisheng stroked the head of the black tiger, looked at the "son" behind him, and suddenly had a sense of happiness and warmth in his heartache, is it the "son" who is close to family affection?

Tao Zhenkun saw his father fall to the ground, so he ran forward in a panic.

"Dad, what's wrong with you, why did you come here alone, are you okay?"

Tao Qisheng smiled bitterly and said, "I'm fine." ”

Tao Zhenkun lifted him up from the ground, and his legs were sore and weak, and he couldn't stand on his feet.

"You're still sick, you're just getting better, you've walked so far, can you're okay? Come, I'll carry you back! ”

"No, I can. I'm here to—to see your grandmother's grave!" Tao Qisheng was trying his best to hide the thrilling scene that had just happened.

Tao Zhenkun understands that who can forget his mother in this life?!"

"If you want to come, don't squeak, I'll accompany you. This is not a year or a festival, and it is not time to go to the grave to burn paper! Get up, just better, don't hold on. He slung the gun over his shoulder, bent down and picked up his father without saying a word.

Tao Qisheng couldn't help but look back at the "cunt-pit" twice, and couldn't help muttering: "Dad! Father! ”

"Dad, do you miss my grandfather?"

"Yes-yes!"

"Grandpa, as long as he is alive, he will come back one day."

Tao Qisheng pillowed his head on Tao Zhenkun's shoulder with some tiredness, his heart was empty, and the things in his chest seemed to be hollowed out by pain.

"Dad, why did you come here alone, just to see Grandma's grave?" Tao Zhenkun had doubts.

"Yes, I want to go to your grandmother's grave, and I dream of her at night."

"Grandma, is she okay?"

"It's still the same as when she was killed by lightning under that big willow tree, blood is coming out of her nose and mouth, and she says she misses me!" Tao Qisheng's voice was a little choked.

"If you want to come, you should let me accompany you, there are wild beasts here. Niang and Xingmei are looking for you everywhere, you are going to make people anxious! ”

"It was my fault that I didn't tell me when I came!"

"Dad, you can recuperate well in the future, don't think about anything, and you don't need to worry about things at home."

"I've become a burden to you!"

"You can't think like that, what's not cumbersome, you are my father, and I and Xingmei should be filial to you and my mother. As long as you live well, how good it is for our family to be reunited! ”

"Okay, I'll listen to you." Tao Qisheng suddenly felt that he had slowed down.

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