(a)

The scene in the dream turned to the District Children's Palace.

The Children's Palace is located in the alley full of mansions in the Ming and Qing dynasties that we often pass by, the ground along the road is paved with granite slabs, the road surface never accumulates water in rainy days, in summer, wearing sandals to walk on it, all the way out of the crisp sound, feel particularly cool.

At that time, because I did well in various subjects and had spare time to study, I had a wide range of hobbies. In addition to participating in the training of the shooting team, I also practiced ballet in the District Children's Palace in my spare time on weekends, and participated in robot training, model aircraft making interest classes, yoga classes, and recitation classes in the Municipal Youth Palace during the winter and summer vacations.

I have invited you several times to visit our ballet practice at the District Children's Palace. I put on ballet shoes and perform the various movements I newly learned in front of you.

Seeing me dancing in front of you as light as a swallow, you smiled and nodded.

On that day, at my invitation, you finally came to the practice room of the Children's Palace, and together with many parents, you visited one of our public classes.

After class, I stayed and waited for you in the already empty practice room.

After the other kids and parents left, you came up to me, helped me open the locker, took my shoes, clothes and sports bag out of it and handed them to me.

I said, "Is ballet fun?" ”

You nod your head, and you say, "This is the second time I've seen a girl practice ballet." ”

I asked, "Where was the first time?" ”

You say, "When I was a child, I watched a cousin practice, also at the local Children's Palace. ”

You say, "In all fairness, you dance better than her." Your movements are lighter. Because, your heart has the yearning to spread its wings and fly. ”

My face flushed. I said, "Mentoring awards." ”

You say, "Xinxin, do you know why dancers practice in a room like this where there are mirrors on all sides?" ”

I said, "In order to see if your movements are in place from all angles, whether each corner is beautiful." ”

You nodded.

You say, "These mirrors exist so that we can constantly scrutinize our own mistakes and correct them before others point them out." ”

You say, "When you're dancing in this room, you're always paying attention to your movements, and you're going to make careful adjustments, aren't you?" ”

I nodded.

You say, "But as soon as you get out of this room, your attention is habitually turned to others." You will pay more attention to the faults of others and forget to continue to observe yourself in a coherent and coherent manner. Therefore, your constant self-improvement and optimization in this room will stop as soon as you go out. With this intermittent process, your improvements will not accumulate to a level that can be qualitatively changed. You can't be a supreme dancer. ”

You say, "To be a supreme dancer, you must always focus on yourself, and never turn your attention on others on the outside." ”

I'm looking at you. Actually, it's the same with shooting, right? This is true in everything you do.

You say, "I don't know anything about dancing, and I can't give you specific comments and suggestions on your practice today, but, Xinxin, I hope you will change your clothes and shoes for a while, and when you go out, you will also take these mirrors with you in your heart." ”

You say, "I hope you will carry it with you day and night." ”

You say, "Even if you change your clothes and go out and see me buying ice cream waiting for you at the gate, don't just pay attention to the ice cream and my presence, you still have to be able to see the mirrors in all directions, and don't interrupt your self-examination because of the flood of happiness and happiness." ”

You say, "Hurry up and change your clothes." I went to buy ice cream. ”

(b)

The second day of the dance class is the training time on Monday afternoon.

After the afternoon training, I came to your office as usual to receive individual technical instruction for the day's training.

You look at today's report card, stand up and say to me, "I'm not tutoring today, let's change subjects." Let's go, I'll take you upstairs to the electricity classroom to watch a video. ”

I said, "But I've seen all the tapes here." ”

You smile and say, "You definitely haven't seen this video." Because, the starring role of this one is yourself. ”

(c)

Out of curiosity, I followed you into the electricity classroom.

We sat in the electric classroom and watched the video.

As soon as the camera appeared, I was amazed! I don't know when you arranged for someone to take so many videos of me during training!

I saw myself lying on the mat whispering to my peers, looking around as I read the technical essentials, watching you walk around the field as I adjusted the ruler, unconsciously gnawing my nails and playing with my fingers around my hair, and my classmates and I were laughing and playing. I kept shaking my body in the queue, and I was lying on my desk yawning.

I understand why you're taking these videos for me.

I bowed my head in shame, my face flushed, and I was sweating profusely, not daring to raise my eyes at you.

The A side of the tape is finished.

You walk up to the VCR, take out the tape, change sides, and continue playing.

You say, "There's more to come, raise your head and read on, okay?" ”

I lifted my eyes.

The content of this side, the protagonist of the filming, is you.

I saw you standing behind us with your hands behind your back, you observing our every movement, you patrolling the field, coming to the team members from time to time to give individual corrections and guidance.

I saw you drink water from a cup, you sat on a chair to rest, and you talked to Director Wang.

The video is played. You turn off the VCR and sit down across from me.

You look at me and say, "Okay." I've watched the video. Can you tell us about your impressions? ”

With great shame, I stammered, "I, I'm sorry, I was wrong." Guide. I see, please criticize me. ”

You say, "What do you understand?" Tell me about it? ”

I said: "During the training time, in the field, my body and mind are often scattered, and only a short time from raising the gun to firing the bullet can I achieve the soul and mind to be one." And guide you, no matter what you are doing, walking, sitting, talking, laughing, and silent, every minute and every second, you are silent and condensed, and your body and mind are the same. You don't have a single disturbing thought in your heart, and you don't have a single disturbing place in your body. So, in the video, I will have a lot of meaningless movements, but you, there are no superfluous movements, no unnecessary mental and physical dissipation. You are always in a certain state of aiming and preparing to fire bullets. ”

I looked up at you and said with admiration, "Guidance, this is amazing!" ”

Then, I blamed myself in shame: "For so long, I haven't noticed this kind of example of your ubiquitous example!" I'm so insensitive ......"

I said, "Now I know how bad I was." I used to think that I was doing well in competitions and training, and that I was a very talented player...... Now, I know that I am still a long, long way from fulfilling your technical requirements. ”

You look at me, and you laugh. You stand up and hand me the tape.

You say, "You see, self-examination is to find a lot of problems that you couldn't find before, and you didn't think existed. ”