Adventures in Heaven (novel) Zhang Baotong

When I returned to Yuntai Mansion, I had a serious illness, my body was feverish, my mind was dizzy, my thoughts were cranky, and my speech was slurred, and my illness lasted for two or three days. The pen %fun %pavilion www.biquge.info is so scared that he stays by my side day and night. When my condition improved and my mind cleared, I seemed to have changed my appearance, not saying a word, not crying or laughing all day long, and I was demented like a fool. Don't keep asking me "why is the Han envoy so sad", but I still didn't say a word, so anxious that he couldn't do anything at all. I was really helpless, so he was going to send me into the palace. But I refused.

The physical illness was quickly cured, but the pain in the heart could not be cured. After losing Gillian, I am even more unforgettable in my nostalgia for Gillian. I no longer fished, nor did I have the intention of practicing swords, but I sat on the high side of the grassy slope with a long flute in my hand all day long, or I blew sadly or whimpering, until the moon was above the eastern sky, and the evening was four.

For a man in a foreign land, longing and nostalgia are the sustenance of loneliness. At this time, I would sit on the high place of the slope and look affectionately towards the southeast direction, let the thoughts surge like a spring tide, and let the tears of nostalgia roll down affectionately. Since bidding farewell to the Blue Lagoon, Gillian has occupied almost my entire heart, while Su Ping seems to have been forgotten in the distant sky. I don't know what kind of phenomenon this is, maybe it's because Su Ping is just a distant and ethereal love complex for me, and Gillian is shaking me with that deep tragedy of spirit and body.

In order to make me happy, Beze took me out with him to go out on patrol. There are about 30 families in Yuntai Village, but they are scattered within a radius of about ten miles on the banks of the Binghe River and the Rehe River. Beze's daily task is to walk in front of these people's homes and take care of some daily affairs. However, the residents here live in scattered places and are busy all day long, and there is nothing to tell them about. Therefore, Beze actually doesn't need to patrol every day at all, but he is very loyal and down-to-earth, and he will go to all parts of the village on time and on time to inspect everything. I once made an inspection with him, and everywhere I went, because the peasants were busy in the fields, and every house was locked and closed, and there was no place to rest or drink tea, I would never go out with him again.

After that, I was summoned to the palace by the king to tell him the story of the history of the Eastern Han Dynasty. When the Queen Mother learned that I was in the palace, she asked me to come to Ziwei Garden every day to tell her some stories, or accompany her to play the flute and the piano, singing and dancing. After that, she always left me alone and ate with her. This makes me vaguely feel that she seems to have a special kind of love for me, like a mixture of maternal love and opposite-sex friendship. After a period of contact with the Queen Mother, I found out that the Queen Mother is not as domineering and arbitrary as I imagined, in fact, she is a versatile, very emotional and beautiful woman, not only outstanding in singing and dancing, calligraphy, painting and paper-cutting, but also smart by nature, hospitable, but usually a little arrogant in tone, but once you get used to it, you don't feel very much.

That night, after dinner, the Queen Mother asked me to teach her ballroom dancing. Because I once told her that in the Han Dynasty, people generally only dance ballroom dances, and men and women dance together. At that time, the Queen Mother was still very puzzled, thinking that it was immoral and extremely indecent for men and women to hug each other in public, but she didn't expect that now she asked me to teach her this kind of dance. However, after a while, she fell into my arms like a delicate. I wondered if she had drunk two more glasses of wine during the meal, and was a little drunk, so I helped her into the bedroom inside and put her on the bed. However, she lay on the bed, but she held my hand tightly and refused to let go. I knew that if I dared to take another step forward at this time, the consequences would be unimaginable. So, I hurriedly said, "Queen Mother, it's late at night, and if Longhua doesn't leave, I'm afraid there will be an insult to the Queen Mother's prestige." The Queen Mother hesitated for a moment, then let go. I took the opportunity to bow down and say, "The Queen Mother rests in peace." He hurriedly withdrew from Ziwei Garden.

Of course, I know the intention and intention of the Queen Mother to let me teach her ballroom dancing, but she doesn't really want to learn to dance, she seems to have a love affair with me. However, it is extremely dangerous and unwise to have such feelings with an older woman who is the queen mother of the palace. And I also know that if I really have something to do with this woman, it can only be regarded as a kind of need for men and women **** or lonely men and widows to seek comfort in dull and lonely emotions, and it will not really produce love. And for men who are very self-loving, this kind of emotional transaction can only be regarded as a kind of self-betrayal, a kind of shame. Therefore, I must not be subdued or betrayed to my personality and conscience.

This morning, after breakfast, I was about to go fishing by the river, but I was stopped by Beze. He said that today was the harvest festival, and that there would be many young and beautiful women singing and dancing in the vineyard, and he wanted me to watch it with him. I was a little excited when I heard it. In the midst of this vast and sparsely populated kingdom of heaven, I sometimes did not see a single figure for days on end, let alone go to see many young and beautiful women. I changed into a brand new cyan shirt and pants according to Beze's instructions, and walked in front of the bronze mirror to take a photo, feeling that I was not elegant at all, nor was I strong, and I was a little weak and delicate. This makes me look somewhat different from the youth of Heaven.

Maybe it's a festival, and the scenery and sunshine are kind and bright. In order to cool off, Beze and I did not ride horses, but rowed a small boat and slowly descended the current of the glacier river. Because the water of the glacier is formed by the convergence of the snow melted by the sun on the ice peaks and snowy mountains and the water of the mountain stream, there is a cool humidity on the river. The autumn sun is still scorching, and the cool humidity filtered out is a mild and refreshing feeling. On the other side of the glacier is a thousand-year-old forest that obscures the sky. The flowers on the shore are patchy, the colorful butterflies are flying, the birds are singing, the scenery is picturesque, go down the river, and do not lose the opportunity to linger and watch.

After walking for a short time, you can see a lot of people singing songs and walking west under the pink flowers on the embankment of the riverbank, and a few different boats are going down the river from time to time. When they met each other, everyone saluted each other, greeted each other warmly, and vied to make way. In terms of etiquette, there seems to be an unwritten rule in the kingdom of heaven, that the young always let the young, and the young let the old. Everyone is polite and close to each other. Every time I met someone, I always had to introduce me impatiently to others, and the other person, whether old or young, always preemptively offered me a salute, or a compliment or greeting, which made me feel very favored.

The boat traveled for about an hour and came to a bend. The bay is wide and open, with gentle waters, and is a tributary of the glacier that branches off from the main channel. At this time, many small boats were parked at the riverside ferry, which shows that today's scene is certainly not small. Tie up the boat and head to the slope on the shore. When I went up to the embankment and looked over there, I saw vineyards one after another. It is the ripening season of grapes, and the intoxicating aroma of grapes wafts through the air under the sun.

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