(a)

If I don't put a white stone in it one day, after the lights go out, I will be in the dark with my eyes open, and I will not be able to sleep peacefully for a long time. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Many times, Liu Shen appeared by my side at this moment and lay on the bed with me.

When he saw that I was still with my eyes open, he said to me in the dark: "Qin'er, a life without regrets, has anyone really had it in this world?" He said, turning over. Our eyes are facing each other. He said to me, "Sleep." We have tomorrow. Tomorrow is born because there are regrets today. ”

I said to him, "But, King Han, are we really sure that there will be tomorrow?" ”

Liu Shen said: "There will always be tomorrow, but we will not have it all the time. ”

As he spoke, he disappeared into the darkness again.

The most bizarre thing is that once, when I put the white stone into the porcelain jar, a young man appeared in front of me. He is very handsome and has a gentle expression. He had a white lather coating on his chin and was holding what looked like a sharp blade with a short black handle. He was as surprised when he saw me as I was at him, and he looked at me in amazement, staring at me intently. I looked at him in amazement. We looked at each other.

There was something about him that made me feel so sad and so familiar that I couldn't take my eyes off it.

Judging from his expression, I gave him exactly the same feeling.

We stared at each other.

Although he doesn't look like you at all, I don't know why, I have an extremely strong feeling in my heart: he is you! He's you!

I asked him with a trembling voice, "Who are you?" Why is it here? ”

I asked, "Do you recognize me?" Do we know each other? ”

He looked at me and was about to answer, but, suddenly, his image disappeared from thin air.

I searched everywhere and couldn't find any more of it.

I felt inexplicably sad and extremely lonely in my heart.

However, unlike the time I often saw Liu Shen, I had only seen this young man once.

He hasn't been seen since that disappearance.

I wanted to see him again, so I tried hard every day to do more good deeds so that I could put more stones in the porcelain jar.

I don't know why, but I had a thought in my mind: the day when this huge porcelain jar was completely filled, I would be able to see him again, and then I would be able to hear his answer before he disappeared. He will tell me who he is and why he is in my world.

I've never told anyone about all these supernatural things.

I know none of them will believe it.

They would think that I was too old, too lonely, too missive of Liu Shen and delirious, and hallucinated.

They would summon the Imperial Physician and prescribe me all kinds of medicines to try to treat me.

I knew that my body and mind were not sick at the moment, but that I was healthy.

I want to be treated like an old, insane, and comatose patient.

I kept all these things deep in my heart, and I continued to complete my plan every day, putting white stones into the porcelain jar as usual.

(b)

Day after day, year after year, time flowed like flowing water, and the stones in the porcelain jar slowly became more and more.

At that time, I exchanged these many stones for the years after the flower armor.

If I don't, it's hard for me to get interested and continue to live in a world that's getting stranger and stranger.

After you and Liu Shen both passed away, and more and more deceased people continued to pass away, every day, for me, was like being poked on the tip of a knife.

If I don't insist on doing this, I won't be able to stick to your expectations: live to the end of life and happiness.

Every night, I stood by my bedside and carried the white stones. Their edges are smooth and icy cool. When I let go of my hands and let them fall into the jar, I hear a crisp clattering sound from the porcelain jar.

I prayed to the heavens in my heart, "If there is a law in the operation of this world, if all good deeds have good results, if prayer works, then, with these stones, I pray that in the next life, I will meet him again, love him again, protect him again, and make him happy." ”

In the world I live in, no one has ever heard or known such a prayer until I say it today. I have prayed with sincerity for more than 20 years without interruption.

Now, I'm 81 years old. Another 21 years have passed since the day this plan was implemented.

I now know that my prayers were still too small at that time. I should have prayed for something bigger, something more magnificent, something more perfect, but at that time, my mind was still too small, and I gave up the infinite possibilities and prayed for only a very small thing.

And today, I don't pray like that anymore.

I would pray that all sentient beings would be forever free from all the boundless sufferings of birth, old age, sickness and death, and that they would never be tormented by these again. If we can do that, we will never meet, and it will be worth it.

May I love all living beings as I love you.

May I love you as all living beings.

(c)

At that time, I was still the daughter of the Cui family, a girl who was in love for the first time.

I follow you every day, to ride horses, meditate, lie on the golden leaves, look up at the forest and the blue sky above me, and watch the flow of light change.

Once, I asked you, "Brother, do you feel happy when you spend time with me?" ”

You say, "Of course." Do you still need to ask? ”

I asked, "So, what about the time you can't spend with me?" Do you feel happy in those times?

I'm looking at you.

You smile. Say, "How would you like to hear my answer?" ”

I said, "I want to hear my brother say that you are happy and happy." ”

You say, "Really? ”

I nodded earnestly.

I said, "Really." Brother. I want you to be happy forever, free from sorrow and pain. It's the same even when we can't be together. ”

You said to me, "Qin'er, your assumptions are not valid. From the day we met you on the cliff, there was no time we didn't have together. ”

You look at me. You say, "You've been with me all the time when we couldn't see each other." You're always in my world. Every speck of dust, every ray of sunshine. All things. You're all there. You are everywhere and all the time in everything, you are everywhere, all the time, you and I are always together. ”

You speak my mind.

For me, it's the same.

No matter how long it has been since you died, no matter how old I have become, no matter if the world still remembers you, no matter where your consciousness is now, you have never left me.

You are everywhere and all the time.

You and I are always together. (To be continued.) )