The arrival of separation is unpredictable. It often comes out of nowhere when you're not ready at all.

I haven't been able to speak to you since you threw the pillow in my face and drove me out of the room.

I haven't had a chance to talk to you for a long time after that.

We spoke again, in the outpost in the back of the mountain during the rainstorm.

From the moment you knew the truth of everything, you were deliberately pushing me away.

If it weren't for the sudden outbreak of war, you might never have come back from Cheongcheon.

The day after Daoji rescued you, you suffered severe pain again, and after the torment of nine deaths, you were once again rescued by Daoji's master and apprentice.

Over the next few days, the intermittent pain came and went, and you developed severe heart failure in the midst of repeated torture.

The recurrence of the illness made the whole family miserable and exhausted.

My father was so exhausted that he almost fell ill.

When you wake up again, you ask Dao Ji to take you back to Cheongcheon.

You say, "I can't let my father go through the pain of witnessing my illness again, and I don't want her to see me again." ”

You say, "If the pain is unavoidable, just leave me alone." There is no need to involve so many people. ”

You say, "Master, take me back to Qingchuan." ”

You say, "I want to get away from them." ”

Dao Ji said: "Don't you want to spend a little more time to get along at the end? ”

You say, "The more you get along, the harder it will be to part." Sooner or later, they are separated, so why make those who stay more miserable? ”

You say, "I'm far away, they're used to me always not being there, and when the time comes, it's not so hard to accept." ”

On that day, you begged Dao Ji not to tell me the truth about your ill body. You say, "I don't need to let her know until I die." ”

Dao Ji feels the pain in your heart. Although he didn't think it was the best solution, he silently agreed in order not to increase the sadness in your heart.

In the past few days when your condition has recurred, I don't know how many times I have been to your yard, but Wu Shun and the little guys in your yard have blocked the gate of the courtyard for various reasons.

You are determined not to let me see you again. You don't want me to have any more opportunities to increase my attachment to you.

I am deeply confused, and I wonder why your attitude towards me has changed so much.

I think it may be because of the recurrence of the disease, the physical pain, and the irritability.

I have always obeyed your heart. As long as you can get better and no longer suffer, I am willing to do what you want me to do.

Daoji went to Ding Youren's uncle to discuss the matter of returning to Qingchuan.

My uncle felt that this had its benefits.

He felt that so many things had happened in the Cui family, the environment was complicated, and various accidents could break out at any time, and the military camp was nearby, so you couldn't completely let it go. Only in the beautiful environment of Qingchuan can you get the fullest rest and good recovery from all kinds of fatigue and emotional fluctuations. You have been in Qingchuan for so many years before, aren't you in a calm mood and have not had a recurrence once? Maybe after returning to Cheongcheon again, the same good fortune will continue.

So he and Daoji went to talk to their father.

What my father means is that he is willing to support anything that is beneficial to your recovery. Although he was reluctant to be separated again after a short reunion, he decided to let you go back to Qingchuan to get a complete rest physically and mentally.

So the matter was decided.

On your behalf, my father explained the sudden illness to the King of Han and the Huaizhou Jiedu envoy, asked for sick leave, and decided to let Wu Shun accompany you back. During your absence, the Huaizhou government ordered Fu Tianliang to take charge of the affairs of the Qingfengzhai military camp, and temporarily placed this army under the jurisdiction of Wen Tao until you returned from your illness.

After your condition stabilized a little, Daoji decided to set off and take you back to Cheongcheon to recuperate. Uncle sent you to the Taoist temple on behalf of your father.

The day you all left home, I finally saw you.

I don't think I have seen you in a thousand years.

You look so sick that your whole head and face are swollen, and you are so emaciated that I don't recognize you at a glance. You are so weak that you can't sit up with two people on your feet. You are carefully lifted out by them and laid down in the carriage.

You kept your eyes closed and didn't look at me.

I don't know if you can't open your eyes, or if you don't want to.

I watched Wu Shun accompany you into the carriage, and your carriage followed Dao Ji and Uncle's horses, left the gate, and slowly walked farther and farther along the smooth official road.

Father and his attendants, on horseback, followed you and sent you far away.

I don't know if your father and son have said anything along the way, or because you are sick and weak, you have not said anything.

That is the last moment of your father and son, the farewell of your father and son.

You never saw your father again. We don't know which goodbye is the eternal secret of this life.