Once again, we drank silently. My tears fell into the cup. You look at my tears.

I sat there, tears falling down my face. They fell on the back of my hand.

You reach out and take my hand. I let them be grasped by you. You wiped away the tears that fell on it.

Say, "How shall we make sense of these tears?" ”

I was silent for a while, and then said, "How do you understand the speed at which you are riding back?" ”

You say, "Actually, I wanted to say it to you before I went to the city, and I wanted to say it to you before I went to the barracks, but I never got the courage to do it." ”

You say, "Jean, I like you." From the time I grabbed your arm from the cliff. I dragged you up a cliff and watched you stand in front of me in horror, panting, momentarily unable to distinguish anything. My heart suddenly ached. I don't know why, but I felt a lot of pain in my heart, like an invisible knife was cutting at me. I can't tell you how it feels. I don't know what the reason is. You came into my life all at once. It's like, you've been there all along. ”

"The first night I came home, I didn't sleep all night. My heart is full of your shadows. So, I got up and walked out of the room. I walked up to the portrait of Nido's mother. I sat in the dim light looking at the portrait of my mother until dawn. ”

You say, "We have been together a lot in the days since we came back." Every time I am with you, I feel that I am whole, just like the sky on a full moon night, full of brilliance and clear Yuyu. ”

"When my father showed me the edict of the King of Han and said that he would take me to the city, I found that I was reluctant to go. Originally, when I came home from the mountain this time, I just made a good choice to take this path of joining the army. But when this opportunity came, I thought that I might be separated from you from now on. When I met the Queen Mother in Cining Palace, the Queen Mother mentioned the matter of marriage, and I felt like stepping on the air from the cliff, although there was no danger later, but when I walked out of Cining Palace, I was already in a cold sweat. In Tongcheng, every night, I miss you so much. Although there are so many things going on that I probably don't have time to think about anything else, I find myself thinking about you. On the way back, I found myself at home, and I couldn't sleep for a long time at night because I missed you and looked forward to seeing you again. ”

You say, "Every time, when you look at me, it's like an arrow from the past shoots through my heart." I can clearly feel it there. ”

You say, "I know, big brother likes you too." If he had been nice to you, these words today, maybe, maybe I would have been buried in my heart and would never have said them to you. That day in the small building, I saw him rush in and kick you away before punching me. Later, I pushed you aside again, and I was sad and anxious in my heart. It's sad that he doesn't cherish your feelings for him like this, and hurts you so casually, and he thinks he loves you very much; The anxiety is that he is hurting you, and there is nothing I can do to stop him or protect you. Seeing you kneeling beside me with tears streaming down your face, looking at you, caught between our brother's contradictions, heartache and overwhelmed, I feel sorry. We, brothers, should have worked together to take care of you and make your life safe and happy. But now, we are making you so sad, so helpless and weeping. ”

Listening to the self-reproach and sadness in your voice, my tears welled up again.

You and Jingyun are so different. You are the only one who will notice the pain of others in the midst of such pain and suffering, and you want to use the little strength you have to soothe and calm the pain of others.

When you fall into that kind of pain, what you think about is never yourself, but your father's feelings, Jingyun's fate and my embarrassment and sadness. You didn't do anything wrong, but you always felt like you were doing something wrong.

As for Jing Yun, all he thinks about is other people's faults, other people's injustice, and other people's indifference. He never felt like he was at fault.

After you recovered, you were still worried about the whiplash on Jingyun's back, but what about him, after he walked out of your room, he thought about your life or death.

The same father's son, why is the gap between you so big?

I said, "Not you." I myself feel that after living in the Cui family for so many years, not only can I not honor my parents and Cheng Huan, but I have caused so many things, making Jing Yun hate you so much, making you hurt by his words and his fists again and again, and also making Jing Yun so punished by his father that he can't raise his head in front of his subordinates. I felt like I was the source of all this chaos. If I hadn't been here, maybe, things wouldn't have gotten so bad. I wanted to stop this, but I didn't know what to do. I thought, perhaps, that I would marry away sooner rather than later, and that would be a good solution. However, when my father asked me if I would like to, I could not simply say that I would let my father decide. In my heart, I am looking forward to you. I'm thinking that they've gone to tell you, and I hope you will come back and get me out of this predicament. In front of my father, my heart struggled repeatedly. In the end, I finally reluctantly, euphemistically, expressed my reluctance. When my father said that he understood, my heart was like a huge boulder, and I immediately let go. ”

"Watching Wenhou's father and son leave with his father, I suddenly wanted to see you very specially. I know you're on your way back. I know you're going to come back. I want you to see me the first time you step into the yard. I stand there alone with a yarn lamp waiting for you. It doesn't matter if you wait all night. I just want to tell you from the first moment you appear, I'm still here, I'm still here waiting for you. ”

You were moved: "When Wu Shun came running over with the little servant and urging me to go home immediately, I listened to their words, as if I had a horsewhip in my heart. I couldn't think of anything all at once. I don't know what happened next. By the time I realized it, I was already speeding home. I've never run this fast in my life. I was scared in my heart. I was afraid that when I came back, I would be faced with a boat that was irretrievable. I was scared, and from then on we were close to the end of the world and parted ways. The last time I was so scared was when I left the house with Master when I was a child. As I rode in front of Master's horse, I looked back at my father and uncle, and watched my home get farther and farther away. I thought I could almost be said to be fearless. In the face of arrows like flying locusts, in the face of the sword mountain and the forest of guns, in the face of the court of the King of Han and Lei Shicheng's murderous intent, I can be unwavering, but I am afraid that there will be no you in my life in this life. I'm afraid to see you quit your marriage and go away and belong to someone else's life. ”

"I ran out into the yard and saw the old butler, and when he said that my father and son were gone, I thought it was all over. My heart was about to stop beating. I couldn't breathe either. I struggled and couldn't speak. I was almost going to sit down on the floor along the pillars. That's when I thought of you. I thought, what about Jean, what is she doing now. Could she be sad about it too? Will she burst into tears in front of her parents' spirit tablets, and in this home, there is no one to pour out and comfort her sadness. Thinking like this, the strength returned to me. I finally took a breath. I was finally able to leave the courtyard and come to you. The moment I saw you waiting for me, my whole body and mind were filled with a thought, and that thought was to hug you tightly. Hold you tightly, in this life and this life, and never be separated from you again. ”

Tears flowed down my eyes.

You look at me. You say, "Qin'er, now, I've told all of this." But I don't know if I'm doing it right. If I misunderstood you, I hurt you, and I embarrassed you, then I can go back to the barracks now, and you won't see me again. ”

I look at you with tears in my eyes. I look at you with tenderness.

I said, "I've been waiting." Waiting for you to come back from that chaotic world and say to me, Qin'er, I'm back. Waiting for you, come to me. Waiting for you, suddenly hug me tightly, hug me into your arms, and never let me be separated from you again. “

You look at me. You say, "Jean..."

I snuggled into your arms again. You hugged my shoulders tightly.

In that quiet night, we were just under the candlelight, leaning on each other.

I don't know how long it took.

You say, "Qin'er, do you have a feeling of being reunited after a long absence?" It's as if we've been separated for a long, long time, and now we're finally meeting each other again. ”

I said, "Yes." And, strongly. It's so strong that even a person's heart can't stop trembling. ”

I said, "Did we know each other before?" It's not that you went to Qingchuan before. That is, before we were born. I was born in your family, and you happened to pass by when I fell off a cliff, and all of this was just accidental? As you grabbed my arm and hung with me above the abyss, as you dragged me back into life, I faced you and felt you reflected in every speck of dust in my body. I feel like billions of years have passed through my body and mind at a rapid pace. ”

I said, "I know you." A long time ago. In a time I don't remember, I can't remember a place. ”

You say, "Whatever we forget, it doesn't matter anymore." ”

You say, "The important thing is that we, now, are together again." Thank God for allowing me to meet you. ”

I said, "Yes." Importantly, we met again. "And just like that, we, finally, are together again.