(a)

When I opened my eyes again, I saw the Empress Dowager Wang sitting next to my bed.

I was taken aback and struggled to sit up to salute, but she gently but firmly stopped me.

Our mother-in-law and daughter-in-law screen idlers, opposite each other.

The Empress Dowager took my hand and said, "Qin'er, my daughter, I am here to apologize to you for my unsuccessful son." After he did this ridiculous thing, he was very ashamed and regretful, since you asked him to go out, close the door of Zhaoyang Palace, and refuse to visit, he didn't dare to come to visit you forcibly, he felt deeply shameless to face you again. ”

The Queen Mother said: "Qin'er, it's not that I, a mother, am idle and bored, and I want to take care of the affairs between your husband and wife. The emperor and empress are the parents of the people of the world, the role models of the people of the world, and the cornerstone of the peace and stability of the world. Now, your emperor and queen are out of harmony and have become like this, and everyone in the palace is anxious, discussing in private, and people's hearts are turbid. If you want to untie the knot in your hearts and bring you back together, only I, an old woman, will come forward to say yes. ”

The Queen Mother said: "This matter, from the heart, is indeed what my son did wrong. No matter what he thought at the time, he couldn't act so recklessly and rudely at that time, on that occasion, regardless of your feelings and your identity. In doing so, he lost his due prestige as an emperor and the etiquette he had for his harem dependents. The old man had already punished him harshly on behalf of his father. ”

The Queen Mother said: "However, Qin'er, there is a sentence that I still want to tell you." Calm down and think about whether I, as a mother, have any reason and whether it is based on reason. Is there any selfishness to favor his own son? ”

The Empress Dowager said: "No matter what the emperor does wrong, he will always be your husband." Although you are married, he is the king of a country after all. It is also the duty of us women to serve our husbands. The emperor did not ask him to do anything outside of his duty as a husband. You as the queen, as his wife. You can't even refuse to give him this face. ”

"Jean." Liu Shen's mother said, "No matter how sad you are, you still have to do your duty." You must always set an example of a virtuous wife for the women of the harem, and be the most generous, tolerant, and gentle of all the harem women. for thou art the most honorable woman in this house and in this kingdom. You can't get into trouble with him because of that. Neither of you should let this cause disharmony between your husband and wife and cause chaos in the hearts of the people in the world. ”

On that day, Liu Shen's mother said to me: "The new dynasty has not been established for a long time, and the dust in the world has not yet been decided. This new dynasty. This new era is the result of the great general's hard work and bloody struggle, and the general sacrificed his life in exchange. There are many, many, like the great generals, who sacrificed their own soldiers. Both of you, husband and wife, cherish their sacrifices. Don't jeopardize the peace of the world because of personal emotional entanglements. ”

The Queen Mother said to me earnestly: "So, daughter, Queen. You have no other choice. You have to forgive the Emperor. You must respect him for the supremacy of the king of a country. You must obey him and be considerate and patient with his impulses and recklessness. This is the fate of our royal women. This is also the responsibility of our royal women. It's like I put up with his father because he was seeking political support. The decision to ordain a young new queen is something we must endure with patience. ”

Liu Shen's mother said: "Qin'er, what my mother said to you today, I also said the same to the emperor before. You've all been good kids before, and you've all been doing well before. Mother believes. This time, you will definitely be able to understand each other, and you will still be able to do well in the future. ”

She said, "Qin'er, my son, he has always loved you deeply. He's all because he loves you so much. I can't help it. His intention is not to hurt you, nor does he want you to be sad like this, he wants you to cheer you up and let you have a happy life. Even if you can't fulfill his wishes, your mother wants you not to hold a grudge against him. I love a woman so deeply, I can't bear it, I accept what is unacceptable, I give what many people can't give, and after doing all this, I still can't get her love, but I get her hatred, then I'm a stupid son, he is really pitiful. ”

She said: "Qin'er, you will also be a mother in the future, can you understand the situation at this moment, watching your husband and wife discord and the palace uneasy, my heart as a mother?" ”

I listened to the Queen Mother's open and reasonable words, and I couldn't help but feel ashamed, sad, frightened, moved, and a little aggrieved.

In the midst of mixed feelings, I called "Mother" with tears in my eyes, and was lovingly embraced by the Queen Mother again.

In her arms, my tears poured down like a downpour.

(b)

Before I knew it, Liu Shen and I had been isolated from each other for more than two months.

For more than two months, I was closed in Zhaoyang Palace, recuperating my body, and all the affairs in the palace were handed over to the two concubines to take care of. In the past two months, Liu Shen spent most of his time in his study, except for going to Shangyang Palace every morning and dusk to greet the Empress Dowager, the palace's courtyards basically did not set foot in it. The women in the palace knew that if the emperor and queen could not reconcile, I am afraid that this situation would continue forever, and Liu Shen would never care about the men and women in the palace. Therefore, the women are praying and looking forward to the day when I will recover physically and mentally, and reconcile with the emperor.

On this night, in the dead of night, it was almost three watches.

Liu Shen's study was still brightly lit, he sat alone in front of the desk, put on a coat, and was immersed in reading the chapters, busy non-stop, unconsciously engrossed, forgetting everything around him.

Suddenly, he heard footsteps at the door, and without looking up, he said, "Tea?" Quickly brought it in, even though I had just had a drink, I still feel thirsty. ”

Footsteps approached. A teacup was gently placed on the table.

Liu Shen heard the jingle of Huanpei.

He put down his pen and looked up.

He was so surprised that he couldn't help but deepen the wrinkles on his head.

"Qin'er, is that you?" Liu Shen stood up involuntarily.

He looked at me. He looked around. His mind went blank.

He said, "I'm sorry, I, I, I thought it was an in-housekeeper, I didn't expect it to be you." ”

He said, "I, I thought you would never see me again in your life." ”

I looked at him with dark circles under his eyes and deep forehead lines.

I said, "It is true that the concubine has not seen the king of Han for many days. Is everything okay with King Han? ”

Liu Shen muttered: "It's all good, I'm all right." ”

He then immediately shook his head and said, "No." No. A person like me, who misbehaves and behaves at a loss, will never be worthy of being good. ”

I bowed my head and said nothing.

Liu Shen said: "Qin'er, what about you? Are you doing well these days? Why do you still look so pale? ”

Liu Shen said: "I don't go to see you because I'm afraid that you don't want to see me, and I'm afraid that you will feel uncomfortable when you see me." It's not that I don't care about you. ”

He took my hand and said, "I'm sorry, Jean." Can you forgive me for my sins? Now, do you still feel anything uncomfortable about you? ”

I looked at Liu Shen. He said, "What's wrong with you?" Jean? Why are you looking at me like that? ”

Liu Shen said: "Can't you still forgive me? ”

I shook my head. I silently withdrew my cold hand from his grasp.

I knelt down at him. I said, "Congratulations to King Han." ”

Liu Shen asked in surprise, "What?" ”

I said, "Congratulations to King Han." Qin'er is pregnant. ”

Liu Shen couldn't help but be taken aback when he heard this, and he couldn't help but take a step back.

He bumped into the corners of several cases.

The teacup on the edge of the table fell with a clatter, and with a crisp sound, it shattered on the ground.

(c)

In this way, the emperor and I had the first surviving child.

This child is my eldest son, the current emperor of this country. Your father and grandfather.

(iv)

My first son, he came out of pain, born out of pain. Of course, even if he were emperor, he would have died in agony, just like all of us. Between life and death, he, like everyone else, had to experience countless pains in between.

At this point, even the emperor is not immune.

I know that many of you feel that if you are prettier, more favored, richer, more successful, able to climb higher, to get more companions, to visit more places, to decide the fate of more people, you will be free from pain and have an easier life.

But, I tell you, that's all wrong.

From the day of birth, everyone will inevitably go through all kinds of life pains until they are taken away from this painful earthly world by death.

No one is spared. (To be continued.) )