(a)

That day, in the warm pavilion where we finally parted.

Liu Shen looked at me with a broken heart and helplessness. Little by little, his breathing became rapid. Finally, he couldn't bear my trances anymore, and he couldn't endure such a suffocating atmosphere anymore.

All of a sudden, he was holding me tightly.

He pressed his lips hard against mine.

His movements were so violent that I couldn't breathe in an instant. I exclaimed, trying to resist his sudden approach.

While kissing me so strongly, he said, "Qin'er, don't be like this!" Please don't do that! Let him be at peace with the fountain, and let himself be free from this! ”

Liu Shen said: "Every day I look at you like this, I can't describe the sadness in my heart to you. I don't want to disturb you, but I can't watch you go through your life like this. I can't watch and do nothing. ”

He said: "Qin'er, you have to understand that you have nothing to lose, there are still people who love you, there are still people who love you, there are still people who are your dependents, and there are still people who can give you happiness." ”

Liu Shen said: "Although you have lost him forever, you still have me!" You've always had me! ”

His kisses rained down on my face, on my neck, on my shoulders.

He said, "Kiss me once, Jean, please kiss me, don't shut yourself up, don't refuse your husband's love." Let go of all your pain and accept the sweet life you still have. ”

Liu Shen said: "Kiss me once!" Kiss me once! You have to kiss me once today! ”

He said: "In order not to fall into the abyss in your own life, today, please be sure to kiss me once!" ”

(b)

Liu Shen pressed me, who was struggling, down on the table in the warm pavilion.

He pressed me so tightly that I could barely move.

My tears finally flowed like a torrential downpour. I resisted him with tears streaming down my eyes.

I said, "No! No! ”

He can't do this to me in this place. He can't do this to me in this holy place!

I cried and resisted him with all my might.

I said in despair, "No! No! No! ”

I've never hated being a woman so much! I've never hated being a woman so much!

(c)

It was that big daylight.

Liu Shen, your former emperor. My husband, who was in this warm house, forced me.

He wanted to ruin my nostalgia for this warm pavilion, he wanted me to have no place to stay like this anymore, he wanted to enter my body, so that I really felt that there was something else in my life.

He wanted to keep me feeling strongly that there was something else in my life.

He wants to come into my life. Give me his life.

That's what he wants to do.

However, when he took such extreme measures and wanted to shake me and wake me up, I would not hesitate to cut my own throat if I had a knife at hand.

I can't take it! There's no way to endure it anymore!

I hate him! I hate these men! I hate myself!

However, I don't have anything at hand, and I can't do anything. I couldn't do anything but cry.

That's all I can do. On that humiliating table, accept him as my husband.

I hate him! I hate him! I hate him! Defiled this place so much, defiled me like this!

(iv)

Sometimes, although we have good intentions, we do it in the wrong way, and the result is that it backfires.

Liu Shen's behavior has caused serious consequences.

When he noticed that I had fainted and stopped breathing. He was terrified!

He was so frightened by the consequences of his actions that he was out of his body!

Many people in the old palace still remember his fear and panic many years later. They were terrified, too!

Because, no one has ever seen such a panicked Liu Shen before.

(5)

Such an amazing event that took place between the emperor and the queen. Immediately walked away in the harem.

While I was unconscious, Rong Xian and the concubines of the Tubo clan hurried to Zhaoyang Palace to serve, accompanied the imperial doctor, took care of me, and waited for me to wake up.

And Liu Shen, who was panicked and remorseful, was immediately summoned to Shangyang Palace. was severely reprimanded by his mother, the Empress Dowager Wang.

The Empress Dowager Wang had never used such a stern tone to reprimand her only son mercilessly.

Liu Shen was punished and knelt on the steps of her palace for a whole afternoon.

The Empress Dowager scolded Liu Shen bitterly: "Emperor! How could you do such a thing in front of so many palace people that would damage the face of your ancestors and ancestors! The queen is the mother of a nation, your wife! No matter what you think, how can you treat your wife like this. The queen mother of a country! And it was also when I was newly established and all kinds of waste were waiting to be rebuilt, or when the queen's mother's relatives were newly buried! ”

The Empress Dowager Wang said to Liu Shen: "Emperor! If you kill her, not only will you lose your way, be looked at by the people in the palace, and be discussed by the world, but even you, you will regret it for the rest of your life! How do you face the loyalty of Qin'er's parents to serve the country, how do you face the general's dying repeated entrustment, and how do you face his immortal spirit that is still wandering in the wilderness?! ”

She said, "You must know that the pain of the heart can kill a person!" No need to use a knife! No need to use a knife! ”

Faced with his mother's angry reprimand, Liu Shen knelt on the ground, burst into tears, and was speechless.

(f)

It took a day and a night before I regained consciousness.

The mental horror and physical pain are gone. But something, never again.

I saw Liu Shen. He was scared and ashamed to guard my bedside.

He didn't dare look me in the eye.

He said, "Qin'er, you're awake." ”

He said, "Qin'er, I'm sorry. I'm not trying to hurt you. I didn't want to."

I rolled over toward the bed, my back to him.

He said, "Qin'er, I was wrong. You listen to me, I"

I said, "Get out." ”

I said, "Please ask the king of Han to kill Qin'er and punish the concubines for the crime of resisting the decree, or, ask the king of Han to go out." ”

Liu Shen was stunned in front of my bed for a while, ashamed and speechless.

He said, "Well, I'm not in front of you." You can rest in peace and don't affect your mood and body because of me. ”

He stood up silently, left me, stepped over the threshold, and walked out.

I said, "Close the palace gates." I said that I want to recuperate in peace and mind, and no one should come in except the Queen Mother. ”

The inner servant has never seen such a bad relationship between me and Liu Shen, everyone is sincerely afraid, trembling, and dare not come out.

The chief chamberlain bowed to the ground and said cautiously: "Follow the queen's order." ”

The palace gate of Zhaoyang Palace was tightly closed.

Also tightly locked, there is also my heart.

Now, my heart is full of darkness and despair.

I felt that everything had come to an end, my dignity was lost, my heart was like ashes, and I no longer wanted to live. (To be continued.) )