(a)

The months you spent in the hospital were a time when my memory was almost blank. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

During that time, except for a few things related to you, which still have vivid memories to this day, I have almost no memory of anything outside the hospital.

Because I was worried and missed you, because of fear and sadness, I didn't notice anything else around me at all, and because I was cut off from you, I couldn't have a memory of you. And afterwards, I didn't dare to touch it again, so I never did the work of making up for it.

A lot of what happened during this time was heard by people who visited you at the time after you died.

Shortly after your last hospitalization, something happened.

One day, Mr. Chai and a few colleagues came to see you, and saw that your condition had improved significantly, and your spirit was better, and you could even hold on to the bed rail and walk around, so you sat for a while. Everyone chatted about the recent changes in the school's work and personnel.

In the midst of everyone's casual conversation, you heard that Mr. Wang had a serious quarrel with another young teacher in the physical education department in the morning, and almost got into a fight.

You are very concerned about this, so you ask why, but everyone is silent.

When everyone said goodbye, Mr. Chai stayed alone for a while, unable to stand your repeated questions, and he told you intermittently by squeezing toothpaste that the reason for the fight was that the young teacher was plotting against the bed where you lived.

At that time, due to the low salary and the irregular rental house, most of the young teachers who were single did not buy furniture for temporary housing by themselves, and usually borrowed it from the school's general affairs office.

When the newlyweds come to report, they can borrow a few things, and after they get married, they should be returned according to the regulations.

But later, many people did not return it for a long time, and they still continued to use it after getting married, and even had children, and even when the children were quite old, they continued to use it, including some school leaders' families.

Because the General Affairs Office could not make up its mind to rectify this phenomenon, the furniture in stock became less and less, and the rest of the warehouse was left by others, which was somewhat faulty.

The young teacher in the physical education department, when he went to borrow furniture, encountered this embarrassing situation: he chose a bed, but this bed broke down within half a year and could no longer be used, so he went to replace it, but it also broke down after three months, and when he went to replace it, what was left of Curry was even more old and dilapidated, and the quality was not as good as the previous two. He came back disappointed, so he had to borrow a sleeping bag that night and sleep on the floor in his room.

In this case, someone probably said something to him, so the next morning, he proposed to Mr. Wang that he wanted to ask the teaching and research department to come forward and ask the general affairs office to allocate the free bed in your residence to him.

Actually, this was originally a trivial matter, but the angle from which he talked about this issue was a bit problematic, and Director Wang was unhappy when he heard it, but he still restrained himself and did not show it.

Director Wang said to him, you are not hospitalized all the time, if the condition is stable, you will be discharged from the hospital to recuperate, if you come back, you can't let you get seriously ill and sleep in a broken bed.

Director Wang also wanted him to think about what kind of association he would have after allocating that bed at this time, and you would know what kind of association you would have after suffering from such a disease.

These words of Coach Wang angered the young teacher, so he retorted, why only consider your feelings, but not his feelings! You are a teacher who has been on sick leave for a long time and has not gone to work, and you have to consume the medical expenses of the unit, and you are also a teacher who is temporarily employed, and now you occupy the amount of medical expenses, public housing and furniture, which are already very unconventional care, and he is a regular teacher at work, working for the school every day, and has not spent a penny of other welfare expenses of the school! Furthermore, he mentioned the rumors during your work, saying that with such a reputation, the school has taken care of you too much. Next, he said, everyone knows your situation, you are hospitalized this time, you are so sick that you are dying, even if your condition is stable at present, in fact, you are terminally ill, you are about to run out of oil, and there is no hope of coming back, and the bed is clearly going to be idle there all the time. Why would it be better to leave it empty all the time than to use it in a reciprocal way?

The last sentence he said made Director Wang hit the top beam all of a sudden. He concludes: "I don't understand why the living should be sinned in order to care for a dead man." Isn't it just because he was introduced by you? ”

When he said the "dead man", Director Wang's neck turned red, so his last words were drowned out in a roar of anger from Director Wang.

The roar startled the young teacher and the entire department, and everyone stood up and looked at it. Director Wang's ordinary personality is known for being amiable, and he rarely roars and gets angry in public.

In front of everyone, the young teacher felt that he had been insulted in public and could not save face, so he stiffened his head and scolded back a very ugly sentence.

The situation came to a fever pitch. In the end, the two of them fought in the office, and Director Wang punched the teacher under the eye socket, causing him to suddenly become a black-eyed chicken. Frightened, he scurried out of the office.

As a result of this incident, at noon, Instructor Wang was called by the school leaders to talk, and the young teacher was frightened and aggrieved and asked the school leaders for two days of sick leave, and did not dare to return to the teaching and research department in the short term, and did not dare to see Instructor Wang again.

(b)

After Mr. Chai briefly introduced the whole thing, you were silent and did not speak.

Mr. Chai began to regret that he shouldn't have said this to you, especially not to say a certain word.

Just when he wants to say something to comfort you, you smile at him and say, "It's a small matter, it's not difficult to deal with." ”

Seeing that Mr. Chai was still hesitating there, you said to him, "Don't worry, it won't affect my mood." ”

Teacher Chai looked at you, you looked at him, patted his arm lightly, and said, "Actually, Teacher X didn't say anything wrong, saying that I am a dead person, and it is not a big error, I am not taboo about this." ”

You laughed again and said to Mr. Chai, "It's because I didn't think well and didn't arrange these things in advance. That's a reminder to me. ”

You spoke very calmly and relaxed, so I was very impressed by Mr. Chai. To this day, he remembers your smile back then.

Not long ago, he recalled on the phone that you were smiling so easily. Judging from his years of experience in depicting human facial expressions, he believes that it is definitely from the heart, not a reluctant pretense.

He said this to me personally.